第 17 节
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favourably。 She was tall; thin; and very pale; and looked as
though she suffered from chronic depression and fatigue。 Yet;
though her smile was a sad one; it was very kind; and her large;
mournful eyes; with a slight cast in their vision; added to the
pathos and attractiveness of her expression。 Her attitude; while
not precisely that of a hunchback; made her whole form droop;
while her every movement expressed languor。 Likewise; though her
speech was deliberate; the timbre of her voice; and the manner in
which she lisped her r's and l's; were very pleasing to the ear。
Finally; she did not 〃ENTERTAIN〃 me。 Unfortunately; the answers
which I returned to her questions concerning my relations seemed
to afford her a painful interest; and to remind her of happier
days: with the result that when; presently; her son left the
room; she gazed at me in silence for a moment; and then burst
into tears。 As I sat there in mute bewilderment; I could not
conceive what I had said to bring this about。 At first I felt
sorry for her as she sat there weeping with downcast eyes。 Next
I began to think to myself: 〃Ought I not to try and comfort her;
and how ought that to be done?〃 Finally; I began to feel vexed
with her for placing me in such an awkward position。 〃Surely my
appearance is not so moving as all that?〃 I reflected。 〃Or is she
merely acting like this to see what I shall do under the
circumstances?〃
〃Yet it would not do for me to go;〃 I continued to myself; for
that would look too much as though I were fleeing to escape her
tears。〃 Accordingly I began fidgeting about on my seat; in order
to remind her of my presence。
〃Oh; how foolish of me!〃 at length she said; as she gazed at me
for a moment and tried to smile。 〃There are days when one weeps
for no reason whatever。〃 She felt about for her handkerchief; and
then burst out weeping more violently than before。
〃Oh dear! How silly of me to be for ever crying like this! Yet I
was so fond of your mother! We were such friends! We…we〃
At this point she found her handkerchief; and; burying her face
in it; went on crying。 Once more I found myself in the same
protracted dilemma。 Though vexed; I felt sorry for her; since her
tears appeared to be genuineeven though I also had an idea that
it was not so much for my mother that she was weeping as for the
fact that she was unhappy; and had known happier days。 How it
would all have ended I do not know; had not her son reappeared
and said that his father desired to see her。 Thereupon she rose;
and was just about to leave the room; when the General himself
entered。 He was a small; grizzled; thick…set man; with bushy
black eyebrows; a grey; close…cropped head; and a very stern;
haughty expression of countenance。
I rose and bowed to him; but the General (who was wearing three
stars on his green frockcoat) not only made no response to my
salutation; but scarcely even looked at me; so that all at once I
felt as though I were not a human being at all; but only some
negligible object such as a settee or window; or; if I were a
human being; as though I were quite indistinguishable from such a
negligible object。
〃Then you have not yet written to the Countess; my dear?〃 he said
to his wife in French; and with an imperturbable; yet determined;
expression on his countenance。
〃Good…bye; Monsieur Irtenieff;〃 Madame said to me; in her turn;
as she made a proud gesture with her head and looked at my
eyebrows just as her son had done。 I bowed to her; and again to
her husband; but my second salutation made no more impression
upon him than if a window had just been opened or closed。
Nevertheless the younger Iwin accompanied me to the door; and on
the way told me that he was to go to St。 Petersburg University;
since his father had been appointed to a post in that city (and
young Iwin named a very high office in the service)。
〃Well; his Papa may do whatsoever he likes;〃 I muttered to myself
as I climbed into the drozhki; 〃but at all events I will never
set foot in that house again。 His wife weeps and looks at me as
though I were the embodiment of woe; while that old pig of a
General does not even give me a bow。 However; I will get even
with him some day。〃 How I meant to do that I do not know; but my
words nevertheless came true。
Afterwards; I frequently found it necessary to remember the advice
of my father when he said that I must cultivate the
acquaintanceship of the Iwins; and not expect a man in the
position of General Iwin to pay any attention to a boy like
myself。 But I had figured in that position long enough。
XXI
PRINCE IVAN IVANOVITCH
〃Now for the last callthe visit to Nikitskaia Street;〃 I said
to Kuzma; and we started for Prince Ivan Ivanovitch's mansion。
Towards the end; a round of calls usually brings one a certain
amount of self…assurance: consequently I was approaching the
Prince's abode in quite a tranquil frame of mind; when suddenly I
remembered the Princess Kornakoff's words that I was his heir;
and at the same moment caught sight of two carriages waiting at
the portico。 Instantly; my former nervousness returned。
Both the old major…domo who opened the door to me; and the
footman who took my coat; and the two male and three female
visitors whom I found in the drawing…room; and; most of all;
Prince Ivan Ivanovitch himself (whom I found clad in a 〃company〃
frockcoat and seated on a sofa) seemed to look at me as at an
HEIR; and so to eye me with ill…will。 Yet the Prince was very
gracious and; after kissing me (that is to say; after pressing
his cold; dry; flabby lips to my cheek for a second); asked me
about my plans and pursuits; jested with me; inquired whether I
still wrote verses of the kind which I used to indite in honour
of my grandmother's birthdays; and invited me to dine with him
that day。 Nevertheless; in proportion as he grew the kinder; the
more did I feel persuaded that his civility was only intended to
conceal from me the fact that he disliked the idea of my being
his heir。 He had a custom (due to his false teeth; of which his
mouth possessed a complete set) of raising his upper lip a little
as he spoke; and producing a slight whistling sound from it; and
whenever; on the present occasion; he did so it seemed to me that
he was saying to himself: 〃A boy; a boyI know it! And my heir;
toomy heir!〃
When we were children; we had been used to calling the Prince
〃dear Uncle;〃 but now; in my capacity of heir; I could not bring
my tongue to the phrase; while to say 〃Your Highness;〃 as did one
of the other visitors; seemed derogatory to my self…esteem。
Consequently; never once during that visit did I call him anything
at all。 The personage; however; who most disturbed me was the old
Princess who shared with me the position of prospective
inheritor; and who lived in the Prince's house。 While seated
beside her at dinner; I felt firmly persuaded that the reason why
she would not speak to me was that she disliked me for being her
co…heir; and that the Prince; for his part; paid no attention to
our side of the table for the reason that the Princess and myself
hoped to succeed him; and so were alike distasteful in his sight。
〃You cannot think how I hated it all!〃 I said to Dimitrieff the
same evening; in a desire to make a parade of disliking the
notion of being an heir (somehow I thought it the thing to do)。
〃You cannot think how I loathed the whole two hours that I spent
there!Yet he is a fine…looking old fellow; and was very kind to
me;〃 I addedwishing; among other things; to disabuse my friend
of any possible idea that my loathing had arisen out of the fact
that I had felt so small。 〃It is only the idea that people may be
classing me with the Princess who lives with him; and who licks
the dust off his boots。 He is a wonderful old man; and good and
considerate to everybody; but it is awful to see how he treats
the Princess。 Money is a detestable thing; and ruins all human
relations。
〃Do you know; I think it would be far the best thing for me to
have an open explanation with the Prince;〃 I went on; 〃to tell
him that I respect him as a man; but think nothing of being his
heir; and that I desire him to leave me nothing; since that is
the only condition on which I can; in future; visit his house。〃
Instead of bursting out laughing when I said this; Dimitri
pondered awhile in silence; and then answered:
〃You are wrong。 Either you ought to refrain from supposing that
people may be classing you with this Princess of whom you speak;
or; if you DO suppose such a thing; you ought to suppose further
that people are thinking what you yourself know quite well
namely; that such thoughts are so utterly foreign to your nature
that you despise them and would never make them a basis for
action。 Suppose; however; that people DO suppose you to suppose
such a thingWell; to sum up;〃 he added