第 99 节
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寻找山吹 更新:2021-02-27 02:13 字数:9322
open cautiously; passing suddenly out of the cold into the reeking;
heated atmosphere of a building packed with human beings。 The space
behind the rear seats was filled with men standing; and those nearest
glanced around with annoyance at the interruption of my entrance。 I made
my way along the wall; finally reaching a side aisle; whence I could get
sight of the platform and the speaker。
I heard his words distinctly; but at first lacked the faculty of
stringing them together; or rather of extracting their collective sense。
The phrases indeed were set ringing through my mind; I found myself
repeating them without any reference to their meaning; I had reached the
peculiar pitch of excitement that counterfeits abnormal calm; and all
sense of strangeness at being there in that meeting had passed away。 I
began to wonder how I might warn Krebs; and presently decided to send him
a note when he should have finished speakingbut I couldn't make up my
mind whether to put my name to the note or not。 Of course I needn't have
entered the hall at all: I might have sent in my note at the side door。
I must have wished to see Krebs; to hear him speak; to observe; perhaps;
the effect on the audience。 In spite of my inability to take in what he
was saying; I was able to regard him objectively;objectively; in a
restricted sense。 I noticed that he had grown even thinner; the flesh
had fallen away from under his cheek…bones; and there were sharp; deep;
almost perpendicular lines on either side of his mouth。 He was
emaciated; that was the word。 Once in a while he thrust his hand through
his dry; ashy hair which was of a tone with the paleness of his face。
Such was his only gesture。
He spoke quietly; leaning with one elbow against the side of his reading
stand。 The occasional pulsations of applause were almost immediately
hushed; as though the people feared to lose even a word that should fall
from his dry lips。 What was it he was talking about? I tried to
concentrate my attention; with only partial success。 He was explaining
the new theory of city government that did not attempt to evade; but
dealt frankly with the human needs of to…day; and sought to meet those
needs in a positive way。。。 What had happened to me; though I did not
realize it; was that I had gradually come under the influence of a tragic
spell not attributable to the words I heard; existing independently of
them; pervading the spacious hall; weaving into unity dissentient minds。
And then; with what seemed a retarded rather than sudden awareness; I
knew that he had stopped speaking。 Once more he ran his hand through his
hair; he was seemingly groping for words that would not come。 I was
pierced by a strange agonythe amazing source of which; seemed to be a
smile on the face of Hermann Krebs; an ineffable smile illuminating the
place like a flash of light; in which suffering and tragedy; comradeship
and loving kindnessall were mingled。 He stood for a moment with that
smile on his faceswayed; and would have fallen had it not been for the
quickness of a man on the platform behind him; and into whose arms he
sank。
In an instant people had risen in their seats; men were hurrying down the
aisles; while a peculiar human murmur or wail persisted like an undertone
beneath the confusion of noises; striking the very note of my own
feelings。 Above the heads of those about me I saw Krebs being carried
off the platform。。。。 The chairman motioned for silence and inquired if
there were a physician in the audience; and then all began to talk at
once。 The man who stood beside me clutched my arm。
〃I hope he isn't dead! Say; did you see that smile? My God; I'll never
forget it!〃
The exclamation poignantly voiced the esteem in which Krebs was held。 As
I was thrust along out of the hall by the ebb of the crowd still other
expressions of this esteem came to me in fragments; expressions of sorrow
and dismay; of a loyalty I had not imagined。 Mingled with these were
occasional remarks of skeptics shaken; in human fashion; by the
suggestion of the inevitable end that never fails to sober and terrify
humanity。
〃I guess he was a bigger man than we thought。 There was a lot of sense
in what he had to say。〃
〃There sure was;〃 the companion of this speaker answered。
They spoke of him in the past tense。 I was seized and obsessed by the
fear that I should never see him again; and at the same moment I realized
sharply that this was the one thing I wantedto see him。 I pushed
through the people; gained the street; and fairly ran down the alley that
led to the side entrance of the hall; where a small group was gathered
under the light that hung above the doorway。 There stood on the step; a
little above the others; a young man in a grey flannel shirt; evidently a
mechanic。 I addressed him。
〃What does the doctor say?〃
Before replying he surveyed me with surprise and; I think; with
instinctive suspicion of my clothes and bearing。
〃What can he say?〃 he retorted。
〃You mean?〃 I began。
〃I mean Mr。 Krebs oughtn't never to have gone into this campaign;〃 he
answered; relenting a trifle; perhaps at the tone of my voice。 〃He knew
it; too; and some of us fellows tried to stop him。 But we couldn't do
nothing with him;〃 he added dejectedly。
〃What isthe trouble?〃 I asked。
〃They tell me it's his heart。 He wouldn't talk about it。〃
〃When I think of what he done for our union!〃 exclaimed a thick…set man;
plainly a steel worker。 〃He's just wore himself out; fighting that
crooked gang。〃 He stared with sudden aggressiveness at me。 〃Haven't I
seen you some…wheres?〃 he demanded。
A denial was on my lips when the sharp; sinister strokes of a bell were
heard coming nearer。
〃It's the ambulance;〃 said the man on the step。
Glancing up the alley beyond the figures of two policemen who had arrived
and were holding the people back; I saw the hood of the conveyance as it
came to a halt; and immediately a hospital doctor and two assistants
carrying a stretcher hurried towards us; and we made way for them to
enter。 After a brief interval; they were heard coming slowly down the
steps inside。 By the white; cruel light of the arc I saw Krebs lying
motionless。。。。 I laid hold of one of the men who had been on the
platform。 He did not resent the act; he seemed to anticipate my
question。
〃He's conscious。 The doctors expect him to rally when he gets to the
hospital。〃
I walked back to the Club to discover that several inquiries had been
made about me。 Reporters had been there; Republican Headquarters had
telephoned to know if I were ill。 Leaving word that I was not to be
disturbed under any circumstances; I went to my room; and spent most of
the night in distracted thought。 When at last morning came I breakfasted
early; searching the newspapers for accounts of the occurrence at
Templar's Hall; and the fact that these were neither conspicuous nor
circumstantial was in the nature of a triumph of self…control on the part
of editors and reporters。 News; however sensational; had severely to be
condensed in the interest of a cause; and at this critical stage of the
campaign to make a tragic hero of Hermann Krebs would have been the
height of folly。 There were a couple of paragraphs giving the gist of
his speech; and a statement at the end that he had been taken ill and
conveyed to the Presbyterian Hospital。。。。
The hospital itself loomed up before me that Sunday morning as I
approached it along Ballantyne Street; a diluted sunshine washing the
extended; businesslike facade of grimy; yellow brick。 We were proud of
that hospital in the city; and many of our foremost citizens had
contributed large sums of money to the building; scarcely ten years old。
It had been one of Maude's interests。 I was ushered into the reception
room; where presently came the physician in charge; a Dr。 Castle; one of
those quiet…mannered; modern young medical men who bear on their persons
the very stamp of efficiency; of the dignity of a scientific profession。
His greeting implied that he knew all about me; his presence seemed to
increase the agitation I tried not to betray; and must have betrayed。
〃Can I do anything for you; Mr。 Paret?〃 he asked。
〃I have come to inquire about Mr。 Krebs; who was brought here last night;
I believe。〃
I was aware for an instant of his penetrating; professional glance; the
only indication of the surprise he must have felt that Hermann Krebs; of
all men; should be the object of my solicitude。
〃Why; we sent him home this morning。 Nineteen twenty six Fowler Street。
He wanted to go; and there was no use in his staying。〃
〃He will recover?〃 I asked。
The physician shook his head; gazing at me through his glasses。
〃He may live a month; Mr。 Paret; he may die to…morrow。 He ought never to
have gone into this campaign; he knew he had this trouble。 Hepburn
warned him three months ago; and there's no man who knows more about the
heart than Hepburn。〃
〃Then there's no hope?〃 I asked。
〃Absolutely none。 It's a great pity。〃 He added; after a moment; 〃Mr。
Krebs was a remarkable man。〃
〃Nineteen twenty…six Fowler Street?〃 I repeated。
〃Yes。〃
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