第 99 节
作者:寻找山吹      更新:2021-02-27 02:13      字数:9322
  open cautiously; passing suddenly out of the cold into the reeking;
  heated atmosphere of a building packed with human beings。  The space
  behind the rear seats was filled with men standing; and those nearest
  glanced around with annoyance at the interruption of my entrance。  I made
  my way along the wall; finally reaching a side aisle; whence I could get
  sight of the platform and the speaker。
  I heard his words distinctly; but at first lacked the faculty of
  stringing them together; or rather of extracting their collective sense。
  The phrases indeed were set ringing through my mind; I found myself
  repeating them without any reference to their meaning; I had reached the
  peculiar pitch of excitement that counterfeits abnormal calm; and all
  sense of strangeness at being there in that meeting had passed away。  I
  began to wonder how I might warn Krebs; and presently decided to send him
  a note when he should have finished speakingbut I couldn't make up my
  mind whether to put my name to the note or not。  Of course I needn't have
  entered the hall at all: I might have sent in my note at the side door。
  I must have wished to see Krebs; to hear him speak; to observe; perhaps;
  the effect on the audience。  In spite of my inability to take in what he
  was saying; I was able to regard him objectively;objectively; in a
  restricted sense。  I noticed that he had grown even thinner; the flesh
  had fallen away from under his cheek…bones; and there were sharp; deep;
  almost perpendicular lines on either side of his mouth。  He was
  emaciated; that was the word。  Once in a while he thrust his hand through
  his dry; ashy hair which was of a tone with the paleness of his face。
  Such was his only gesture。
  He spoke quietly; leaning with one elbow against the side of his reading
  stand。  The occasional pulsations of applause were almost immediately
  hushed; as though the people feared to lose even a word that should fall
  from his dry lips。  What was it he was talking about?  I tried to
  concentrate my attention; with only partial success。  He was explaining
  the new theory of city government that did not attempt to evade; but
  dealt frankly with the human needs of to…day; and sought to meet those
  needs in a positive way。。。   What had happened to me; though I did not
  realize it; was that I had gradually come under the influence of a tragic
  spell not attributable to the words I heard; existing independently of
  them; pervading the spacious hall; weaving into unity dissentient minds。
  And then; with what seemed a retarded rather than sudden awareness; I
  knew that he had stopped speaking。  Once more he ran his hand through his
  hair; he was seemingly groping for words that would not come。  I was
  pierced by a strange agonythe amazing source of which; seemed to be a
  smile on the face of Hermann Krebs; an ineffable smile illuminating the
  place like a flash of light; in which suffering and tragedy; comradeship
  and loving kindnessall were mingled。  He stood for a moment with that
  smile on his faceswayed; and would have fallen had it not been for the
  quickness of a man on the platform behind him; and into whose arms he
  sank。
  In an instant people had risen in their seats; men were hurrying down the
  aisles; while a peculiar human murmur or wail persisted like an undertone
  beneath the confusion of noises; striking the very note of my own
  feelings。  Above the heads of those about me I saw Krebs being carried
  off the platform。。。。  The chairman motioned for silence and inquired if
  there were a physician in the audience; and then all began to talk at
  once。  The man who stood beside me clutched my arm。
  〃I hope he isn't dead! Say; did you see that smile?  My God; I'll never
  forget it!〃
  The exclamation poignantly voiced the esteem in which Krebs was held。  As
  I was thrust along out of the hall by the ebb of the crowd still other
  expressions of this esteem came to me in fragments; expressions of sorrow
  and dismay; of a loyalty I had not imagined。  Mingled with these were
  occasional remarks of skeptics shaken; in human fashion; by the
  suggestion of the inevitable end that never fails to sober and terrify
  humanity。
  〃I guess he was a bigger man than we thought。  There was a lot of sense
  in what he had to say。〃
  〃There sure was;〃 the companion of this speaker answered。
  They spoke of him in the past tense。  I was seized and obsessed by the
  fear that I should never see him again; and at the same moment I realized
  sharply that this was the one thing I wantedto see him。  I pushed
  through the people; gained the street; and fairly ran down the alley that
  led to the side entrance of the hall; where a small group was gathered
  under the light that hung above the doorway。  There stood on the step; a
  little above the others; a young man in a grey flannel shirt; evidently a
  mechanic。  I addressed him。
  〃What does the doctor say?〃
  Before replying he surveyed me with surprise and; I think; with
  instinctive suspicion of my clothes and bearing。
  〃What can he say?〃 he retorted。
  〃You mean?〃 I began。
  〃I mean Mr。 Krebs oughtn't never to have gone into this campaign;〃 he
  answered; relenting a trifle; perhaps at the tone of my voice。  〃He knew
  it; too; and some of us fellows tried to stop him。  But we couldn't do
  nothing with him;〃 he added dejectedly。
  〃What isthe trouble?〃 I asked。
  〃They tell me it's his heart。  He wouldn't talk about it。〃
  〃When I think of what he done for our union!〃 exclaimed a thick…set man;
  plainly a steel worker。  〃He's just wore himself out; fighting that
  crooked gang。〃  He stared with sudden aggressiveness at me。  〃Haven't I
  seen you some…wheres?〃 he demanded。
  A denial was on my lips when the sharp; sinister strokes of a bell were
  heard coming nearer。
  〃It's the ambulance;〃 said the man on the step。
  Glancing up the alley beyond the figures of two policemen who had arrived
  and were holding the people back; I saw the hood of the conveyance as it
  came to a halt; and immediately a hospital doctor and two assistants
  carrying a stretcher hurried towards us; and we made way for them to
  enter。  After a brief interval; they were heard coming slowly down the
  steps inside。  By the white; cruel light of the arc I saw Krebs lying
  motionless。。。。  I laid hold of one of the men who had been on the
  platform。  He did not resent the act; he seemed to anticipate my
  question。
  〃He's conscious。  The doctors expect him to rally when he gets to the
  hospital。〃
  I walked back to the Club to discover that several inquiries had been
  made about me。  Reporters had been there; Republican Headquarters had
  telephoned to know if I were ill。  Leaving word that I was not to be
  disturbed under any circumstances; I went to my room; and spent most of
  the night in distracted thought。  When at last morning came I breakfasted
  early; searching the newspapers for accounts of the occurrence at
  Templar's Hall; and the fact that these were neither conspicuous nor
  circumstantial was in the nature of a triumph of self…control on the part
  of editors and reporters。  News; however sensational; had severely to be
  condensed in the interest of a cause; and at this critical stage of the
  campaign to make a tragic hero of Hermann Krebs would have been the
  height of folly。  There were a couple of paragraphs giving the gist of
  his speech; and a statement at the end that he had been taken ill and
  conveyed to the Presbyterian Hospital。。。。
  The hospital itself loomed up before me that Sunday morning as I
  approached it along Ballantyne Street; a diluted sunshine washing the
  extended; businesslike facade of grimy; yellow brick。  We were proud of
  that hospital in the city; and many of our foremost citizens had
  contributed large sums of money to the building; scarcely ten years old。
  It had been one of Maude's interests。  I was ushered into the reception
  room; where presently came the physician in charge; a Dr。 Castle; one of
  those quiet…mannered; modern young medical men who bear on their persons
  the very stamp of efficiency; of the dignity of a scientific profession。
  His greeting implied that he knew all about me; his presence seemed to
  increase the agitation I tried not to betray; and must have betrayed。
  〃Can I do anything for you; Mr。 Paret?〃 he asked。
  〃I have come to inquire about Mr。 Krebs; who was brought here last night;
  I believe。〃
  I was aware for an instant of his penetrating; professional glance; the
  only indication of the surprise he must have felt that Hermann Krebs; of
  all men; should be the object of my solicitude。
  〃Why; we sent him home this morning。  Nineteen twenty six Fowler Street。
  He wanted to go; and there was no use in his staying。〃
  〃He will recover?〃 I asked。
  The physician shook his head; gazing at me through his glasses。
  〃He may live a month; Mr。 Paret; he may die to…morrow。  He ought never to
  have gone into this campaign; he knew he had this trouble。  Hepburn
  warned him three months ago; and there's no man who knows more about the
  heart than Hepburn。〃
  〃Then there's no hope?〃 I asked。
  〃Absolutely none。  It's a great pity。〃  He added; after a moment; 〃Mr。
  Krebs was a remarkable man。〃
  〃Nineteen twenty…six Fowler Street?〃 I repeated。
  〃Yes。〃
  I held o