第 30 节
作者:寻找山吹      更新:2021-02-27 02:12      字数:9322
  come down to it?  Christianity?  Not by a long shot!  If our nations are
  slaughtering men and starving populations in other countries;are
  carried on; in fact; for the sake of business; if our churches are filled
  with business men and our sky pilots pray for the government; you can't
  expect heathen individuals like me to do business on a Christian basis;
  if there is such a thing。  You can make rules for croquet; but not for a
  game that is based on the natural law of the survival of the fittest。
  The darned fools in the legislatures try it occasionally; but we all know
  it's a sop to the ‘common people。'  Ask Hughie here if there ever was a
  law put on the statute books that his friend Watling couldn't get
  'round'?  Why; you've got competition even among the churches。  Yours;
  where I believe you teach in the Sunday school; would go bankrupt if it
  proclaimed real Christianity。  And you'll go bankrupt if you practise it;
  Perry; my boy。  Some early; wide…awake; competitive; red…blooded bird
  will relieve you of the Boyne Street car line。〃
  It was one of this same new and 〃fittest〃 species who had already
  relieved poor Mr。 McAlery Willett of his fortune。  Mr。 Willett was a
  trusting soul who had never known how to take care of himself or his
  money; people said; and now that he had lost it they blamed him。  Some
  had been saved enough for him and Nancy to live on in the old house; with
  careful economy。  It was Nancy who managed the economy; who accomplished
  remarkable things with a sum they would have deemed poverty in former
  days。  Her mother had died while I was at Cambridge。  Reverses did not
  subdue Mr。 Willett's spirits; and the fascination modern 〃business〃 had
  for him seemed to grow in proportion to the misfortunes it had caused
  him。  He moved into a tiny office in the Durrett Building; where he
  appeared every morning about half…past ten to occupy himself with heaven
  knows what short cuts to wealth; with prospectuses of companies in Mexico
  or Central America or some other distant place: once; I remember; it was
  a tea; company in which he tried to interest his friends; to raise in the
  South a product he maintained would surpass Orange Pekoe。  In the
  afternoon between three and four he would turn up at the Boyne Club; as
  well groomed; as spruce as ever; generally with a flower in his
  buttonhole。  He never forgot that he was a gentleman; and he had a
  gentleman's notions of the fitness of things; and it was against his
  principles to use; a gentleman's club for the furtherance of his various
  enterprises。
  〃Drop into my office some day; Dickinson;〃 he would say。  〃I think I've
  got something there that might interest you!〃
  He reminded me; when I met him; that he had always predicted I would get
  along in life。。。。
  The portrait of Nancy at this period is not so easily drawn。  The decline
  of the family fortunes seemed to have had as little effect upon her as
  upon her father; although their characters differed sharply。  Something
  of that spontaneity; of that love of life and joy in it she had possessed
  in youth she must have inherited from McAlery Willett; but these
  qualities had disappeared in her long before the coming of financial
  reverses。  She was nearing thirty; and in spite of her beauty and the
  rarer distinction that can best be described as breeding; she had never
  married。  Men admired her; but from a distance; she kept them at arm's
  length; they said: strangers who visited the city invariably picked her
  out of an assembly and asked who she was; one man from New York who came
  to visit Ralph and who had been madly in love with her; she had amazed
  many people by refusing; spurning all he might have given her。  This
  incident seemed a refutation of the charge that she was calculating。  As
  might have been foretold; she had the social gift in a remarkable degree;
  and in spite of the limitations of her purse the knack of dressing better
  than other women; though at that time the organization of our social life
  still remained comparatively simple; the custom of luxurious and
  expensive entertainment not having yet set in。
  The more I reflect upon those days; the more surprising does it seem that
  I was not in love with her。  It may be that I was; unconsciously; for she
  troubled my thoughts occasionally; and she represented all the qualities
  I admired in her sex。  The situation that had existed at the time of our
  first and only quarrel had been reversed; I was on the highroad to the
  worldly success I had then resolved upon; Nancy was poor; and for that
  reason; perhaps; prouder than ever。  If she was inaccessible to others;
  she had the air of being peculiarly inaccessible to methe more so
  because some of the superficial relics of our intimacy remained; or
  rather had been restored。  Her very manner of camaraderie seemed
  paradoxically to increase the distance between us。  It piqued me。  Had
  she given me the least encouragement; I am sure I should have responded;
  and I remember that I used occasionally to speculate as to whether she
  still cared for me; and took this method of hiding her real feelings。
  Yet; on the whole; I felt a certain complacency about it all; I knew that
  suffering was disagreeable; I had learned how to avoid it; and I may have
  had; deep within me; a feeling that I might marry her after all。
  Meanwhile my life was full; and gave promise of becoming even fuller;
  more absorbing and exciting in the immediate future。
  One of the most fascinating figures; to me; of that Order being woven;
  like a cloth of gold; out of our hitherto drab civilization;an Order
  into which I was ready and eager to be initiated;was that of Adolf
  Scherer; the giant German immigrant at the head of the Boyne Iron Works。
  His life would easily lend itself to riotous romance。  In the old
  country; in a valley below the castle perched on the rack above; he had
  begun life by tending his father's geese。  What a contrast to 〃Steeltown〃
  with its smells and sickening summer heat; to the shanty where Mrs。
  Scherer took boarders and bent over the wash…tub!  She; too; was an
  immigrant; but lived to hear her native Wagner from her own box at Covent
  Garden; and he to explain; on the deck of an imperial yacht; to the man
  who might have been his sovereign certain processes in the manufacture of
  steel hitherto untried on that side of the Atlantic。  In comparison with
  Adolf Scherer; citizen of a once despised democracy; the minor prince in
  whose dominions he had once tended geese was of small account indeed!
  The Adolf Scherer of that daythough it is not so long ago as time flies
  was even more solid and impressive than the man he afterwards became;
  when he reached the dizzier heights from which he delivered to an eager
  press opinions on politics and war; eugenics and woman's suffrage and
  other subjects that are the despair of specialists。  Had he stuck to
  steel; he would have remained invulnerable。  But even then he was
  beginning to abandon the field of production for that of exploitation:
  figuratively speaking; he had taken to soap; which with the aid of water
  may be blown into beautiful; iridescent bubbles to charm the eye。  Much
  good soap; apparently; has gone that way; never to be recovered。
  Everybody who was anybody began to blow bubbles about that time; and the
  bigger the bubble the greater its attraction for investors of hard…earned
  savings。  Outside of this love for financial iridescence; let it be
  called; Mr。 Scherer seemed to care little then for glitter of any sort。
  Shortly after his elevation to the presidency of the Boyne Iron Works he
  had been elected a member of the Boyne Club;an honour of which; some
  thought; he should have been more sensible; but generally; when in town;
  he preferred to lunch at a little German restaurant annexed to a saloon;
  where I used often to find him literally towering above the cloth;for
  he was a giant with short legs;his napkin tucked into his shirt front;
  engaged in lively conversation with the ministering Heinrich。  The chef
  at the club; Mr。 Scherer insisted; could produce nothing equal to
  Heinrich's sauer…kraut and sausage。  My earliest relationship with Mr。
  Scherer was that of an errand boy; of bringing to him for his approval
  papers which might not be intrusted to a common messenger。  His gruffness
  and brevity disturbed me more than I cared to confess。  I was pretty sure
  that he eyed me with the disposition of the self…made to believe that
  college educations and good tailors were the heaviest handicaps with
  which a young man could be burdened: and I suspected him of an inimical
  attitude toward the older families of the city。  Certain men possessed
  his confidence; and he had built; as it were; a stockade about them;
  sternly keeping the rest of the world outside。  In Theodore Watling he
  had a childlike faith。
  Thus I studied him; with a deliberation which it is the purpose of these
  chapters to confess; though he little knew that he was being made the
  subject of analysis。  Nor did I ever venture to talk with him; but held
  strictly to my role of errand boy;even after the conviction came over
  me that he was no longer indifferent to my presence。  The day arrived;
  after some years; when he suddenly thrust toward me a b