第 26 节
作者:寻找山吹      更新:2021-02-27 02:12      字数:9322
  was the Westminster Catechism in wood and stone; and Dr。 Pound had been
  the human incarnation of that catechism; the fit representative of a
  wrathful God; a militant shepherd who had guarded with vigilance his
  respectable flock; who had protested vehemently against the sins of the
  world by which they were surrounded; against the 〃dogs; and sorcerers;
  and whoremongers; and murderers and idolaters; and whosoever loveth and
  maketh a lie。〃  How Dr。 Pound would have put the emphasis of the
  Everlasting into those words!
  Against what was Mr。 Randlett protesting?
  My glance wandered to the pews which held the committees from various
  organizations; such as the Chamber of Commerce and the Bar Association;
  which had come to do honour to my father。  And there; differentiated from
  the others; I saw the spruce; alert figure of Theodore Watling。  He; too;
  represented a new type and a new note;this time a forceful note; a
  secular note that had not belonged to the old church; and seemed likewise
  anomalistic in the new。。。。
  During the long; slow journey in the carriage to the cemetery my mother
  did not raise her veil。  It was not until she reached out and seized my
  hand; convulsively; that I realized she was still a part of my existence。
  In the days that followed I became aware that my father's death had
  removed a restrictive element; that I was free now to take without
  criticism or opposition whatever course in life I might desire。  It may
  be that I had apprehended even then that his professional ideals would
  not have coincided with my own。  Mingled with this sense of emancipation
  was a curious feeling of regret; of mourning for something I had never
  valued; something fixed and dependable for which he had stood; a rock and
  a refuge of which I had never availed myself!。。。  When his will was
  opened it was found that the property had been left to my mother during
  her lifetime。  It was larger than I had thought; four hundred thousand
  dollars; shrewdly invested; for the most part; in city real estate。  My
  father had been very secretive as to money matters; and my mother had no
  interest in them。
  Three or four days later I received in the mail a typewritten letter
  signed by Theodore Watling; expressing sympathy for my bereavement; and
  asking me to drop in on him; down town; before I should leave the city。
  In contrast to the somewhat dingy offices where my father had practised
  in the Blackwood Block; the quarters of Watling; Fowndes and Ripon on the
  eighth floor of the new Durrett Building were modern to a degree;
  finished in oak and floored with marble; with a railed…off space where
  young women with nimble fingers played ceaselessly on typewriters。  One
  of them informed me that Mr。 Watling was busy; but on reading my card
  added that she would take it in。  Meanwhile; in company with two others
  who may have been clients; I waited。  This; then; was what it meant to be
  a lawyer of importance; to have; like a Chesterfield; an ante…room where
  clients cooled their heels and awaited one's pleasure。。。
  The young woman returned; and led me through a corridor to a door on
  which was painted Mr。 Wailing。
  I recall him tilted back in his chair in a debonnair manner beside his
  polished desk; the hint of a smile on his lips; and leaning close to him
  was a yellow; owl…like person whose eyes; as they turned to me; gave the
  impression of having stared for years into hard; artificial lights。  Mr。
  Watling rose briskly。
  〃How are you; Hugh?〃 he said; the warmth of his greeting tempered by just
  the note of condolence suitable to my black clothes。  〃I'm glad you came。
  I wanted to see you before you went back to Cambridge。  I must introduce
  you to Judge Bering; of our State Supreme Court。  Judge; this is Mr。
  Paret's boy。〃
  The judge looked me over with a certain slow impressiveness; and gave me
  a soft and fleshy hand。
  〃Glad to know you; Mr。 Paret。  Your father was a great loss to our bar;〃
  he declared。
  I detected in his tone and manner a slight reservation that could not be
  called precisely judicial dignity; it was as though; in these few words;
  he had gone to the limit of self…commitment with a strangera striking
  contrast to the confidential attitude towards Mr。 Watling in which I had
  surprised him。
  〃Judge;〃 said Mr。 Watling; sitting down again; 〃do you recall that time
  we all went up to Mr。 Paret's house and tried to induce him to run for
  mayor?  That was before you went on the lower bench。〃
  The judge nodded gloomily; caressing his watch chain; and suddenly rose
  to go。
  〃That will be all right; then?〃 Mr。 Watling inquired cryptically; with a
  smile。  The other made a barely perceptible inclination of the head and
  departed。  Mr。 Watling looked at me。  〃He's one of the best men we have
  on the bench to…day;〃 he added。  There was a trace of apology in his
  tone。
  He talked a while of my father; to whom; so he said; he had looked up
  ever since he had been admitted to the bar。
  〃It would be a pleasure to me; Hugh; as well as a matter of pride;〃 he
  said cordially; but with dignity; 〃to have Matthew Paret's son in my
  office。  I suppose you will be wishing to take your mother somewhere this
  summer; but if you care to come here in the autumn; you will be welcome。
  You will begin; of course; as other young men begin;as I began。  But I
  am a believer in blood; and I'll be glad to have you。  Mr。 Fowndes and
  Mr。 Ripon feel the same way。〃  He escorted me to the door himself。
  Everywhere I went during that brief visit home I was struck by change; by
  the crumbling and decay of institutions that once had held me in thrall;
  by the superimposition of a new order that as yet had assumed no definite
  character。  Some of the old landmarks had disappeared; there were new and
  aggressive office buildings; new and aggressive residences; new and
  aggressive citizens who lived in them; and of whom my mother spoke with
  gentle deprecation。  Even Claremore; that paradise of my childhood; had
  grown shrivelled and shabby; even tawdry; I thought; when we went out
  there one Sunday afternoon; all that once represented the magic word
  〃country〃 had vanished。  The old flat piano; made in Philadelphia ages
  ago; the horsehair chairs and sofa had been replaced by a nondescript
  furniture of the sort displayed behind plate…glass windows of the city's
  stores: rocking…chairs on stands; upholstered in clashing colours; their
  coiled springs only half hidden by tassels; and 〃ornamental〃 electric
  fixtures; instead of the polished coal…oil lamps。  Cousin Jenny had grown
  white; Willie was a staid bachelor; Helen an old maid; while Mary had
  married a tall; anaemic young man with glasses; Walter Kinley; whom
  Cousin Robert had taken into the store。  As I contemplated the Brecks odd
  questions suggested themselves: did honesty and warm…heartedness
  necessarily accompany a lack of artistic taste? and was virtue its own
  reward; after all?  They drew my mother into the house; took off her
  wraps; set her down in the most comfortable rocker; and insisted on
  making her a cup of tea。
  I was touched。  I loved them still; and yet I was conscious of
  reservations concerning them。  They; too; seemed a little on the
  defensive with me; and once in a while Mary was caustic in her remarks。
  〃I guess nothing but New York will be good enough for Hugh now。  He'll be
  taking Cousin Sarah away from us。〃
  〃Not at all; my dear;〃 said my mother; gently; 〃he's going into Mr。
  Watling's office next autumn。〃
  〃Theodore Watling?〃 demanded Cousin Robert; pausing in his carving。
  〃Yes; Robert。  Mr。 Watling has been good enough to say that he would like
  to have Hugh。  Is there anything?〃
  〃Oh; I'm out of date; Sarah;〃 Cousin Robert replied; vigorously severing
  the leg of the turkey。  〃These modern lawyers are too smart for me。
  Watling's no worse than the others; I suppose;only he's got more
  ability。〃
  〃I've never heard anything against him;〃 said my mother in a pained
  voice。  〃Only the other day McAlery Willett congratulated me that Hugh
  was going to be with him。〃
  〃You mustn't mind Robert; Sarah;〃 put in Cousin Jenny;a remark
  reminiscent of other days。
  〃Dad has a notion that his generation is the only honest one;〃 said
  Helen; laughingly; as she passed a plate。
  I had gained a sense of superiority; and I was quite indifferent to
  Cousin Robert's opinion of Mr。 Watling; of modern lawyers in general。
  More than once a wave of self…congratulation surged through me that I had
  possessed the foresight and initiative to get out of the wholesale
  grocery business while there was yet time。  I looked at Willie; still
  freckled; still literal; still a plodder; at Walter Kinley; and I thought
  of the drabness of their lives; at Cousin Robert himself as he sat
  smoking his cigar in the bay…window on that dark February day; and
  suddenly I pitied him。  The suspicion struck me that he had not prospered
  of late; and this deepened to a conviction as he talked。
  〃The Republican Party is going to the dogs;〃 he asserted。
  〃It used to be an honourable party; but now it is no better than the
  other。  Politics are only conducted; now; for the purpose of making
  unscrupulous men rich; sir。  For years I furnished this city with good
  groc