第 20 节
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寻找山吹 更新:2021-02-27 02:12 字数:9322
heads; 〃that was an excellent theme your roommate handed in。 I had no
idea that he possessed suchsuch genius。 Did you; by any chance; happen
to read it?〃
〃Yes; sir;I read it。〃
〃Weren't you surprised?〃 inquired Mr。 Cheyne。
〃Well; yes; sirthat isI mean to say he talks just like that;
sometimesthat is; when it's anything he cares about。〃
〃Indeed!〃 said Mr。 Cheyne。 〃That's interesting; most interesting。 In
all my experience; I do not remember a case in which a gift has been
developed so rapidly。 I don't want to give the impressionah that there
is no room for improvement; but the thing was very well done; for an
undergraduate。 I must confess I never should have suspected it in
Peters; and it's most interesting what you say about his cleverness in
conversation。〃 He twirled the head of his stick; apparently lost in
reflection。 〃I may be wrong;〃 he went on presently; 〃I have an idea it
is you〃 I must literally have jumped away from him。 He paused a
moment; without apparently noticing my panic; 〃that it is you who have
influenced Peters。〃
〃Sir?〃
〃I am wrong; then。 Or is this merely commendable modesty on your part?〃
〃Oh; no; sir。〃
〃Then my hypothesis falls to the ground。 I had greatly hoped;〃 he added
meaningly; 〃that you might be able to throw some light on this mystery。
I was dumb。
〃Paret;〃 he asked; 〃have you time to come over to my rooms for a few
minutes this evening?〃
〃Certainly; sir。〃
He gave me his number in Brattle Street。。。。
Like one running in a nightmare and making no progress I made my way
home; only to learn from Hallam;who lived on the same floor;that Tom
had inconsiderately gone to Boston for the evening; with four other weary
spirits in search of relaxation! Avoiding our club table; I took what
little nourishment I could at a modest restaurant; and restlessly paced
the moonlit streets until eight o'clock; when I found myself in front of
one of those low…gabled colonial houses which; on less soul…shaking
occasions; had exercised a great charm on my imagination。 My hand hung
for an instant over the bell。。。。 I must have rung it violently; for
there appeared almost immediately an old lady in a lace cap; who greeted
me with gentle courtesy; and knocked at a little door with glistening
panels。 The latch was lifted by Mr。 Cheyne himself。
〃Come in; Paret;〃 he said; in a tone that was unexpectedly hospitable。
I have rarely seen a more inviting room。 A wood fire burned brightly on
the brass andirons; flinging its glare on the big; white beam that
crossed the ceiling; and reddening the square panes of the windows in
their panelled recesses。 Between these were rows of books;attractive
books in chased bindings; red and blue; books that appealed to be taken
down and read。 There was a table covered with reviews and magazines in
neat piles; and a lamp so shaded as to throw its light only on the white
blotter of the pad。 Two easy chairs; covered with flowered chintz; were
ranged before the fire; in one of which I sank; much bewildered; upon
being urged to do so。
I utterly failed to recognize 〃Alonzo〃 in this new atmosphere。 And he
had; moreover; dropped the subtly sarcastic manner I was wont to
associate with him。
〃Jolly old house; isn't it?〃 he observed; as though I had casually
dropped in on him for a chat; and he stood; with his hands behind him
stretched to the blaze; looking down at me。 〃It was built by a certain
Colonel Draper; who fought at Louisburg; and afterwards fled to England
at the time of the Revolution。 He couldn't stand the patriots; I'm not
so sure that I blame him; either。 Are you interested in colonial things;
Mr。 Paret?〃
I said I was。 If the question had concerned Aztec relics my answer would
undoubtedly have been the same。 And I watched him; dazedly; while he
took down a silver porringer from the shallow mantel shelf。
〃It's not a Revere;〃 he said; in a slightly apologetic tone as though to
forestall a comment; 〃but it's rather good; I think。 I picked it up at a
sale in Dorchester。 But I have never been able to identify the coat of
arms。〃
He showed me a ladle; with the names of 〃Patience and William Simpson〃
engraved quaintly thereon; and took down other articles in which I
managed to feign an interest。 Finally he seated himself in the chair
opposite; crossed his feet; putting the tips of his fingers together and
gazing into the fire。
〃So you thought you could fool me;〃 he said; at length。
I became aware of the ticking of a great clock in the corner。 My mouth
was dry。
〃I am going to forgive you;〃 he went on; more gravely; 〃for several
reasons。 I don't flatter; as you know。 It's because you carried out the
thing so perfectly that I am led to think you have a gift that may be
cultivated; Paret。 You wrote that theme in the way Peters would have
written it if he had not beenwhat shall I say?scripturally
inarticulate。 And I trust it may do you some good if I say it was
something of a literary achievement; if not a moral one。〃
〃Thank you; sir;〃 I faltered。
〃Have you ever;〃 he inquired; lapsing a little into his lecture…room
manner; 〃seriously thought of literature as a career? Have you ever
thought of any career seriously?〃
〃I once wished to be a writer; sir;〃 I replied tremulously; but refrained
from telling him of my father's opinion of the profession。 Ambitiona
purer ambition than I had known for yearsleaped within me at his words。
He; Alonzo Cheyne; had detected in me the Promethean fire!
I sat there until ten o'clock talking to the real Mr。 Cheyne; a human Mr。
Cheyne unknown in the lecture…room。 Nor had I suspected one in whom
cynicism and distrust of undergraduates (of my sort) seemed so ingrained;
of such idealism。 He did not pour it out in preaching; delicately;
unobtrusively and on the whole rather humorously he managed to present to
me in a most disillusionizing light that conception of the university
held by me and my intimate associates。 After I had left him I walked the
quiet streets to behold as through dissolving mists another Harvard; and
there trembled in my soul like the birth…struggle of a flame something of
the vision later to be immortalized by St。 Gaudens; the spirit of Harvard
responding to the spirit of the Republicto the call of Lincoln; who
voiced it。 The place of that bronze at the corner of Boston Common was
as yet empty; but I have since stood before it to gaze in wonder at the
light shining in darkness on mute; uplifted faces ;black faces! at
Harvard's son leading them on that the light might live and prevail。
I; too; longed for a Cause into which I might fling myself; in which I
might lose myself。。。 I halted on the sidewalk to find myself staring
from the opposite side of the street at a familiar house; my old
landlady's; Mrs。 Bolton's; and summoned up before me was the tired;
smiling face of Hermann Krebs。 Was it because when he had once spoken so
crudely of the University I had seen the reflection of her spirit in his
eyes? A light still burned in the extension roofKrebs's light; another
shone dimly through the ground glass of the front door。 Obeying a sudden
impulse; I crossed the street。
Mrs。 Bolton; in the sky…blue wrapper; and looking more forbidding than
ever; answered the bell。 Life had taught her to be indifferent to
surprises; and it was I who became abruptly embarrassed。
〃Oh; it's you; Mr。 Paret;〃 she said; as though I had been a frequent
caller。 I had never once darkened her threshold since I had left her
house。
〃Yes;〃 I answered; and hesitated。。。。 〃Is Mr。 Krebs in?〃
〃Well;〃 she replied in a lifeless tone; which nevertheless had in it a
touch of bitterness; 〃I guess there's no reason why you and your friends
should have known he was sick。〃
〃Sick!〃 I repeated。 〃Is he very sick?〃
〃I calculate he'll pull through;〃 she said。 〃Sunday the doctor gave him
up。 And no wonder! He hasn't had any proper food since he's be'n here!〃
She paused; eyeing me。 〃If you'll excuse me; Mr。 Paret; I was just going
up to him when you rang。〃
〃Certainly;〃 I replied awkwardly。 〃Would you be so kind as to tell him
when he's well enoughthat I came to see him; and that I'm sorry?〃
There was another pause; and she stood with a hand defensively clutching
the knob。
〃Yes; I'll tell him;〃 she said。
With a sense of having been baffled; I turned away。
Walking back toward the Yard my attention was attracted by a slowly
approaching cab whose occupants were disturbing the quiet of the night
with song。
Shollity'tis wine; 'tis wine; That makeshshollity。〃
The vehicle drew up in front of a new and commodious building;I believe
the first of those designed to house undergraduates who were willing to
pay for private bathrooms and other modern luxuries; out of one window of
the cab protruded a pair of shoeless feet; out of the other a hatless
head I recognized as belonging to Tom Peters; hence I surmised that the
feet were his also。 The driver got down from the box; and a lively
argument was begun insidefor there were other occupantsas to how Mr。
Peters was to be disembarked; and I gathered from his frequent references
to the 〃Shgyptian obelisk〃 that the engin