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作者:桃桃逃      更新:2021-02-27 02:10      字数:9321
  conversation with himself in the corner of my window pane; had gone to
  sleep   at   last   and   was   snoring。   The   errant   prince   might   have   entered   the
  slumberous       halls   unchallenged;      and   walked    into   any   of  the   darkened
  rooms     whose     open    doors   gaped    for  more    air;  without    awakening      the
  veriest Greyport flirt with his salutation。 At times a drowsy voice; a lazily
  interjected     sentence;     an   incoherent     protest;   a   long…drawn      phrase    of
  saccharine tenuity suddenly broke off with a gasp; came vaguely to the ear;
  as   if   indicating   a   half…suspended;   half…articulated   existence   somewhere;
  but not definite enough to indicate conversation。 In the midst of this; there
  was the sudden crying of a child。
  I  looked    up   from   my    work。    Through     the   camera    of  my    jealously
  guarded window I could catch a glimpse of the vivid; quivering blue of the
  sky; the glittering intensity of the ocean; the long motionless leaves of the
  horse…chestnut in the road;all utterly inconsistent with anything as active
  as this lamentation。 I stepped to the open door and into the silent hall。
  Apparently the noise had attracted the equal attention of my neighbors。
  A vague chorus of 〃Sarah Walker;〃 in querulous recognition; of 〃O Lord!
  that child again!〃 in hopeless protest; rose faintly from the different rooms。
  As   the   lamentations   seemed   to   approach   nearer;   the   visitors'   doors   were
  successively   shut;   swift   footsteps   hurried   along   the   hall;   past   my   open
  door     came    a   momentary       vision    of  a   heated    nursemaid      carrying    a
  tumultuous   chaos   of   frilled   skirts;   flying   sash;   rebellious   slippers;   and
  tossing   curls;   there   was   a   moment's   rallying   struggle   before   the   room
  nearly opposite mine; and then a door opened and shut upon the vision。 It
  was Sarah Walker!
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  Everybody knew her; few had ever seen more of her than this passing
  vision。   In   the   great   hall;   in   the   dining…room;   in   the   vast   parlors;   in   the
  garden; in the   avenue;  on   the beach; a   sound of   lamentation   had   always
  been   followed   by   this   same   brief   apparition。   Was   there   a   sudden   pause
  among the dancers and a subjugation of the loudest bassoons in the early
  evening   〃hop;〃   the   explanation   was   given   in   the   words   〃Sarah   Walker。〃
  Was   there   a   wild   confusion   among   the   morning   bathers   on   the   sands;
  people whispered 〃Sarah Walker。〃 A panic among the waiters at dinner; an
  interruption in the   Sunday sacred   concert; a disorganization   of the   after…
  dinner promenade on the veranda; was instantly referred to Sarah Walker。
  Nor were her efforts confined entirely to public life。 In cozy corners and
  darkened       recesses;    bearded     lips   withheld     the   amorous      declaration      to
  mutter     〃Sarah     Walker〃     between     their   clenched     teeth;   coy   and    bashful
  tongues found speech at last in the rapid formulation of 〃Sarah Walker。〃
  Nobody ever thought of abbreviating her full name。 The two people in the
  hotel; otherwise individualized; but known only as 〃Sarah Walker's father〃
  and 〃Sarah Walker's mother;〃 and never as Mr。 and Mrs。 Walker; addressed
  her only as 〃Sarah Walker〃; two animals that were occasionally a part of
  this   passing   pageant   were   known   as   〃Sarah   Walker's   dog〃   and   〃Sarah
  Walker's      cat;〃   and   later   it  was   my    proud     privilege    to  sink    my    own
  individuality under the title of 〃that friend of Sarah Walker's。〃
  It   must   not   be   supposed   that   she   had   attained   this   baleful   eminence
  without some active criticism。 Every parent in the Greyport Hotel had held
  his   or   her   theory   of   the   particular   defects   of   Sarah   Walker's   education;
  every   virgin   and   bachelor   had   openly   expressed   views   of   the   peculiar
  discipline      that  was    necessary      to  her   subjugation。      It  may    be   roughly
  estimated that she would have spent the entire nine years of her active life
  in   a   dark   cupboard   on   an   exclusive   diet   of   bread   and   water;   had   this
  discipline obtained; while; on the other hand; had the educational theories
  of   the   parental   assembly   prevailed;   she   would   have   ere   this   shone   an
  etherealized   essence   in   the   angelic   host。   In   either   event   she   would   have
  〃ceased   from  troubling;〃   which   was   the general   Greyport   idea  of   higher
  education。 A paper read before our Literary Society on 〃Sarah Walker and
  other infantile diseases;〃 was referred to in the catalogue as 〃Walker; Sarah;
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  Prevention and Cure;〃 while the usual burlesque legislation of our summer
  season culminated in the Act entitled 〃An Act to amend an Act entitled an
  Act for the abatement of Sarah Walker。〃 As she was hereafter exclusively
  to be fed 〃on the PROVISIONS of this Act;〃 some idea of its general tone
  may be gathered。 It was a singular fact in this point of her history that her
  natural progenitors not only offered no resistance to the doubtful celebrity
  of   their   offspring;    but;   by   hopelessly   accepting   the     situation;   to  some
  extent    POSED       as  Sarah    Walker's     victims。   Mr。   and    Mrs。   Walker     were
  known   to   be   rich;   respectable;   and   indulgent   to   their   only   child。   They
  themselves had been evolved from a previous generation of promiscuously
  acquired wealth into the repose of inherited property; but it was currently
  accepted   that   Sarah   had   〃cast   back〃   and   reincarnated   some   waif   on   the
  deck of an emigrant ship at the beginning of the century。
  Such   was   the   child   separated   from   me   by   this   portentous   history;   a
  narrow passage; and a closed nursery door。 Presently; however; the door
  was partly opened again as if to admit the air。 The crying had ceased; but
  in    its  place   the   monotonous        Voice    of   Conscience;      for   the   moment
  personated by Sarah Walker's nursemaid; kept alive a drowsy recollection
  of Sarah Walker's transgressions。
  〃You see;〃 said the Voice; 〃what a dreadful thing it is for a little girl to
  go on as you do。 I am astonished at you; Sarah Walker。 So is everybody;
  so is the good ladies next door; so is the kind gentleman opposite; so is all!
  Where   you   expect   to   go   to;   'Evin   only   knows!   How   you   expect   to   be
  forgiven; saints alone can tell! But so it is always; and yet you keep it up。
  And   wouldn't   you   like   it   different;   Sarah   Walker?   Wouldn't   you   like   to
  have everybody love you? Wouldn't you like them good ladies next door;
  and that nice gentleman opposite; all to kinder rise up and say; 'Oh; what a
  dear   good   little   girl   Sarah   Walker   is?'〃   The   interpolation   of   a   smacking
  sound of lips; as if in unctuous anticipation of Sarah Walker's virtue; here
  ensued〃Oh;   what   a   dear;   good;   sw…e…et;   lovely   little   girl   Sarah   Walker
  is!〃
  There was a dead silence。 It may have been fancy; but I thought that
  some      of  the   doors    in   the  passage     creaked     softly   as   if  in  listening
  expectation。   Then   the   silence   was   broken   by   a   sigh。   Had   Sarah   Walker
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  ingloriously succumbed? Rash and impotent conclusion!
  〃I don't;〃 said Sarah Walker's voice; slowly rising until it broke on the
  crest    of  a  mountainous      sob;   〃Idon'twant'emtolove        me。   Idon't
  want'emto saywhat adeargoodlittle girl Sarah Walker is!〃 She
  caught   her   breath。   〃Iwant'emto   say   what   a      naughtybaddirty
  horridfilthylittle girl Sarah Walker isso I do。 There!〃
  The   doors   slammed   all   along   the   passages。   The   dreadful   issue   was
  joined。 I softly crossed the hall and looked into Sarah Walker's room。
  The light from a half…opened shutter fell full upon her rebellious little
  figure。 She had stiffened herself in a large easy…chair into the attitude in
  which she had been evidently deposited there by the nurse whose torn…off
  apron she still held rigidly in one hand。 Her shapely legs stood out before
  her; jointless and inflexible to the point of her tiny shoesa POSE copied
  with pathetic fidelity by the French doll at her feet。 The attitude must have