第 9 节
作者:莫莫言      更新:2021-02-27 01:49      字数:4328
  〃Oh; oh!〃 I said to myself; 〃here is secret unanimity to forbid the
  marriage; and secret unanimity to sanction it! How shall I solve that
  problem?〃
  〃Where does the father…in…law live?〃 asked one my school…friends;
  heedlessly; being less sophisticated than the others。
  〃There's no longer a father…in…law;〃 I replied。 〃Hitherto; my
  conscience has spoken plainly enough to make your verdict superfluous。
  If to…day its voice is weakened; here is the cause of my cowardice。 I
  received; about two months ago; this all…seducing letter。〃
  And I showed them the following invitation; which I took from my
  pocket…book:
  〃You are invited to be present at the funeral procession; burial
  services; and interment of Monsieur Jean…Frederic Taillefer; of
  the house of Taillefer and Company; formerly Purveyor of
  Commissary…meats; in his lifetime chevalier of the Legion of
  honor; and of the Golden Spur; captain of the first company of the
  Grenadiers of the National Guard of Paris; deceased; May 1st; at
  his residence; rue Joubert; which will take place at; etc。; etc。
  〃On the part of; etc。〃
  〃Now; what am I do to?〃 I continued; 〃I will put the question before
  you in a broad way。 There is undoubtedly a sea of blood in
  Mademoiselle Taillefer's estates; her inheritance from her father is a
  vast Aceldama。 I know that。 BUT Prosper Magnan left no heirs; BUT;
  again; I have been unable to discover the family of the merchant who
  was murdered at Andernach。 To whom therefore can I restore that
  fortune? And ought it to be wholly restored? Have I the right to
  betray a secret surprised by me;to add a murdered head to the dowry
  of an innocent girl; to give her for the rest of her life bad dreams;
  to deprive her of all her illusions; and say; 'Your gold is stained
  with blood'? I have borrowed the 'Dictionary of Cases of Conscience'
  from an old ecclesiastic; but I can find nothing there to solve my
  doubts。 Shall I found pious masses for the repose of the souls of
  Prosper Magnan; Wahlenfer; and Taillefer? Here we are in the middle of
  the nineteenth century! Shall I build a hospital; or institute a prize
  for virtue? A prize for virtue would be given to scoundrels; and as
  for hospitals; they seem to me to have become in these days the
  protectors of vice。 Besides; such charitable actions; more or less
  profitable to vanity; do they constitute reparation?and to whom do I
  owe reparation? But I love; I love passionately。 My love is my life。
  If I; without apparent motive; suggest to a young girl accustomed to
  luxury; to elegance; to a life fruitful of all enjoyments of art; a
  young girl who loves to idly listen at the opera to Rossini's music;
  if to her I should propose that she deprive herself of fifteen hundred
  thousand francs in favor of broken…down old men; or scrofulous
  paupers; she would turn her back on me and laugh; or her confidential
  friend would tell her that I'm a crazy jester。 If in an ecstasy of
  love; I should paint to her the charms of a modest life; and a little
  home on the banks of the Loire; if I were to ask her to sacrifice her
  Parisian life on the altar of our love; it would be; in the first
  place; a virtuous lie; in the next; I might only be opening the way to
  some painful experience; I might lose the heart of a girl who loves
  society; and balls; and personal adornment; and ME for the time being。
  Some slim and jaunty officer; with a well…frizzed moustache; who can
  play the piano; quote Lord Byron; and ride a horse elegantly; may get
  her away from me。 What shall I do? For Heaven's sake; give me some
  advice!〃
  The honest man; that species of puritan not unlike the father of
  Jeannie Deans; of whom I have already told you; and who; up to the
  present moment hadn't uttered a word; shrugged his shoulders; as he
  looked at me and said:
  〃Idiot! why did you ask him if he came from Beauvais?〃
  ADDENDUM
  The following personages appear in other stories of the Human Comedy。
  Taillefer; Jean…Frederic
  The Firm of Nucingen
  Father Goriot
  The Magic Skin
  Taillefer; Victorine
  Father Goriot
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