第 16 节
作者:低诉      更新:2021-02-27 01:23      字数:9322
  for the depraved; how; if only the matter could be managed; there
  would not be a man left in Moscow; who could not obtain assistance。
  My sister sympathized with me; and we discussed it。  In the middle of
  our conversation; I glanced at Siutaeff。  As I was acquainted with
  his Christian life; and with the significance which he attached to
  charity; I expected his sympathy; and spoke so that he understood
  this; I talked to my sister; but directed my remarks more at him。  He
  sat immovable in his dark tanned sheepskin jacket;which he wore;
  like all peasants; both out of doors and in the house;and as though
  he did not hear us; but were thinking of his own affairs。  His small
  eyes did not twinkle; and seemed to be turned inwards。  Having
  finished what I had to say; I turned to him with a query as to what
  he thought of it。
  〃It's all a foolish business;〃 said he。
  〃Why?〃
  〃Your whole society is foolish; and nothing good can come out of it;〃
  he repeated with conviction。
  〃Why not?  Why is it a stupid business to help thousands; at any rate
  hundreds; of unfortunate beings?  Is it a bad thing; according to the
  Gospel; to clothe the naked; and feed the hungry?〃
  〃I know; I know; but that is not what you are doing。  Is it necessary
  to render assistance in that way?  You are walking along; and a man
  asks you for twenty kopeks。  You give them to him。  Is that alms?  Do
  you give spiritual alms;teach him。  But what is it that you have
  given?  It was only for the sake of getting rid of him。〃
  〃No; and; besides; that is not what we are talking about。  We want to
  know about this need; and then to help by both money and deeds; and
  to find work。〃
  〃You can do nothing with those people in that way。〃
  〃So they are to be allowed to die of hunger and cold?〃
  〃Why should they die?  Are there many of them there?〃
  〃What; many of them?〃 said I; thinking that he looked at the matter
  so lightly because he was not aware how vast was the number of these
  people。
  〃Why; do you know;〃 said I; 〃I believe that there are twenty thousand
  of these cold and hungry people in Moscow。  And how about Petersburg
  and the other cities?〃
  He smiled。
  〃Twenty thousand!  And how many households are there in Russia alone;
  do you think?  Are there a million?〃
  〃Well; what then?〃
  〃What then?〃 and his eyes flashed; and he grew animated。  〃Come; let
  us divide them among ourselves。  I am not rich; I will take two
  persons on the spot。  There is the lad whom you took into your
  kitchen; I invited him to come to my house; and he did not come。
  Were there ten times as many; let us divide them among us。  Do you
  take some; and I will take some。  We will work together。  He will see
  how I work; and he will learn。  He will see how I live; and we will
  sit down at the same table together; and he will hear my words and
  yours。  This charity society of yours is nonsense。〃
  These simple words impressed me。  I could not but admit their
  justice; but it seemed to me at that time; that; in spite of their
  truth; still that which I had planned might possibly prove of
  service。  But the further I carried this business; the more I
  associated with the poor; the more frequently did this remark recur
  to my mind; and the greater was the significance which it acquired
  for me。
  I arrive in a costly fur coat; or with my horses; or the man who
  lacks shoes sees my two…thousand…ruble apartments。  He sees how; a
  little while ago; I gave five rubles without begrudging them; merely
  because I took a whim to do so。  He surely knows that if I give away
  rubles in that manner; it is only because I have hoarded up so many
  of them; that I have a great many superfluous ones; which I not only
  have not given away; but which I have easily taken from other people。
  'What else could he see in me but one of those persons who have got
  possession of what belongs to him?  And what other feeling can he
  cherish towards me; than a desire to obtain from me as many of those
  rubles; which have been stolen from him and from others; as possible?
  I wish to get close to him; and I complain that he is not frank; and
  here I am; afraid to sit down on his bed for fear of getting lice; or
  catching something infectious; and I am afraid to admit him to my
  room; and he; coming to me naked; waits; generally in the vestibule;
  or; if very fortunate; in the ante…chamber。  And yet I declare that
  he is to blame because I cannot enter into intimate relations with
  him; and because me is not frank。
  Let the sternest man try the experiment of eating a dinner of five
  courses in the midst of people who have had very little or nothing
  but black bread to eat。  Not a man will have the spirit to eat; and
  to watch how the hungry lick their chops around him。  Hence; then; in
  order to eat daintily amid the famishing; the first indispensable
  requisite is to hide from them; in order that they may not see it。
  This is the very thing; and the first thing; that we do。
  And I took a simpler view of our life; and perceived that an approach
  to the poor is not difficult to us through accidental causes; but
  that we deliberately arrange our lives in such a fashion so that this
  approach may be rendered difficult。
  Not only this; but; on taking a survey of our life; of the life of
  the wealthy; I saw that every thing which is considered desirable in
  that life consists in; or is inseparably bound up with; the idea of
  getting as far away from the poor as possible。  In fact; all the
  efforts of our well…endowed life; beginning with our food; dress;
  houses; our cleanliness; and even down to our education;every thing
  has for its chief object; the separation of ourselves from the poor。
  In procuring this seclusion of ourselves by impassable barriers; we
  spend; to put it mildly; nine…tenths of our wealth。  The first thing
  that a man who was grown wealthy does is to stop eating out of one
  bowl; and he sets up crockery; and fits himself out with a kitchen
  and servants。  And he feeds his servants high; too; so that their
  mouths may not water over his dainty viands; and he eats alone; and
  as eating in solitude is wearisome; he plans how he may improve his
  food and deck his table; and the very manner of taking his food
  (dinner) becomes a matter for pride and vain glory with him; and his
  manner of taking his food becomes for him a means of sequestering
  himself from other men。  A rich man cannot think of such a thing as
  inviting a poor man to his table。  A man must know how to conduct
  ladies to table; how to bow; to sit down; to eat; to rinse out the
  mouth; and only rich people know all these things。  The same thing
  occurs in the matter of clothing。  If a rich man were to wear
  ordinary clothing; simply for the purpose of protecting his body from
  the cold;a short jacket; a coat; felt and leather boots; an under…
  jacket; trousers; shirt;he would require but very little; and he
  would not be unable; when he had two coats; to give one of them to a
  man who had none。  But the rich man begins by procuring for himself
  clothing which consists entirely of separate pieces; and which is fit
  only for separate occasions; and which is; therefore; unsuited to the
  poor man。  He has frock…coats; vests; pea…jackets; lacquered boots;
  cloaks; shoes with French heels; garments that are chopped up into
  bits to conform with the fashion; hunting…coats; travelling…coats;
  and so on; which can only be used under conditions of existence far
  removed from poverty。  And his clothing also furnishes him with a
  means of keeping at a distance from the poor。  The same is the case;
  and even more clearly; with his dwelling。  In order that one may live
  alone in ten rooms; it is indispensable that those who live ten in
  one room should not see it。  The richer a man is; the more difficult
  is he of access; the more porters there are between him and people
  who are not rich; the more impossible is it to conduct a poor man
  over rugs; and seat him in a satin chair。
  The case is the same with the means of locomotion。  The peasant
  driving in a cart; or a sledge; must be a very ill…tempered man when
  he will not give a pedestrian a lift; and there is both room for this
  and a possibility of doing it。  But the richer the equipage; the
  farther is a man from all possibility of giving a seat to any person
  whatsoever。  It is even said plainly; that the most stylish equipages
  are those meant to hold only one person。
  It is precisely the same thing with the manner of life which is
  expressed by the word cleanliness。
  Cleanliness!  Who is there that does not know people; especially
  women; who reckon this cleanliness in themselves as a great virtue?
  and who is not acquainted with the devices of this cleanliness; which
  know no bounds; when it can command the labor of others?  Which of
  the people who have become rich has not experienced in his own case;
  with what difficulty he carefully trained himself to this
  cleanliness; which only confirms the proverb; 〃Little white hands
  love other people's work〃?
  To…day cleanliness consists in changing your shirt once a day; to…
  morrow; in changing it twice a day。  To…day it means washing the
  face; and neck; and hands daily; to…morrow; the feet; and day after
  to…morrow; washin