第 8 节
作者:低诉      更新:2021-02-27 01:23      字数:9322
  said to us:  〃Now; here are some of the nobility。〃  The lodging was
  perfectly crammed; nearly all of the people; forty in number; were at
  home。  More demoralized countenances; unhappy; aged; and swollen;
  young; pallid; and distracted; were not to be seen in the whole
  building。  I conversed with several of them。  The story was nearly
  identical in all cases; only in various stages of development。  Every
  one of them had been rich; or his father; his brother or his uncle
  was still wealthy; or his father or he himself had had a very fine
  position。  Then misfortune had overtaken him; the blame for which
  rested either on envious people; or on his own kind…heartedness; or
  some special chance; and so he had lost every thing; and had been
  forced to condescend to these surroundings to which he was not
  accustomed; and which were hateful to himamong lice; rags; among
  drunkards and corrupt persons; and to nourish himself on bread and
  liver; and to extend his hand in beggary。  All the thoughts; desires;
  memories of these people were directed exclusively to the past。  The
  present appeared to them something unreal; repulsive; and not worthy
  of attention。  Not one of them had any present。  They had only
  memories of the past; and expectations from the future; which might
  be realized at any moment; and for the realization of which only a
  very little was required; but this little they did not possess; it
  was nowhere to be obtained; and this had been ruining their whole
  future life in vain; in the case of one man; for a year; of a second
  for five years; and of a third for thirty years。  All one needed was
  merely to dress respectably; so that he could present himself to a
  certain personage; who was well…disposed towards him another only
  needed to be able to dress; pay off his debts; and get to Orel; a
  third required to redeem a small property which was mortgaged; for
  the continuation of a law…suit; which must be decided in his favor;
  and then all would be well once more。  They all declare that they
  merely require something external; in order to stand once more in the
  position which they regard as natural and happy in their own case。
  Had my mind not been obscured by my pride as a benefactor; a glance
  at their faces; both old and young; which were mostly weak and
  sensitive; but amiable; would have given me to understand that their
  misfortunes were irreparable by any external means; that they could
  not be happy in any position whatever; if their views of life were to
  remain unchanged; that they were in no wise remarkable people; in
  remarkably unfortunate circumstances; but that they were the same
  people who surround us on all sides; and just like ourselves。  I
  remember that intercourse with this sort of unfortunates was
  peculiarly difficult for me。  I now understand why this was so; in
  them I beheld myself; as in a mirror。  If I had reflected on my own
  life and on the life of the people in our circle; I should have seen
  that no real difference existed between them。
  If those about me dwell in spacious quarters; and in their own houses
  on the Sivtzevy Vrazhok and on the Dimitrovka; and not in the
  Rzhanoff house; and still eat and drink dainties; and not liver and
  herrings with bread; that does not prevent them from being exactly as
  unhappy。  They are just as dissatisfied with their own positions;
  they mourn over the past; and pine for better things; and the
  improved position for which they long is precisely the same as that
  which the inhabitants of the Rzhanoff house long for; that is to say;
  one in which they may do as little work as possible themselves; and
  derive the utmost advantage from the labors of others。  The
  difference is merely one of degrees and time。  If I had reflected at
  that time; I should have understood this; but I did not reflect; and
  I questioned these people; and wrote them down; supposing; that;
  having learned all the particulars of their various conditions and
  necessities; I could aid them LATER ON。  I did not understand that
  such a man can only be helped by changing his views of the world。
  But in order to change the views of another; one must needs have
  better views himself; and live in conformity with them; but mine were
  precisely the same as theirs; and I lived in accordance with those
  views; which must undergo a change; in order that these people might
  cease to be unhappy。
  I did not see that these people were unhappy; not because they had
  not; so to speak; nourishing food; but because their stomachs had
  been spoiled; and because their appetites demanded not nourishing but
  irritating viands; and I did not perceive that; in order to help
  them; it was not necessary to give them food; but that it was
  necessary to heal their disordered stomachs。  Although I am
  anticipating by so doing; I will mention here; that; out of all these
  persons whom I noted down; I really did not help a single one; in
  spite of the fact that for some of them; that was done which they
  desired; and that which; apparently; might have raised them。  Three
  of their number were particularly well known to me。  All three; after
  repeated rises and falls; are now in precisely the same situation in
  which they were three years ago。
  CHAPTER VIII。
  The second class of unfortunates whom I also expected to assist later
  on; were the dissolute women; there were a very great many of them;
  of all sorts; in the Rzhanoff housefrom those who were young and
  who resembled women; to old ones; who were frightful and horrible;
  and who had lost every semblance of humanity。  The hope of being of
  assistance to these women; which I had not at first entertained;
  occurred to me later。  This was in the middle of our rounds。  We had
  already worked out several mechanical tricks of procedure。
  When we entered a new establishment; we immediately questioned the
  landlady of the apartment; one of us sat down; clearing some sort of
  a place for himself where he could write; and another penetrated the
  corners; and questioned each man in all the nooks of the apartment
  separately; and reported the facts to the one who did the writing。
  On entering a set of rooms in the basement; a student went to hunt up
  the landlady; while I began to interrogate all who remained in the
  place。  The apartment was thus arranged:  in the centre was a room
  six arshins square; {7} and a small oven。  From the oven radiated
  four partitions; forming four tiny compartments。  In the first; the
  entrance slip; which had four bunks; there were two personsan old
  man and a woman。  Immediately adjoining this; was a rather long slip
  of a room; in it was the landlord; a young fellow; dressed in a
  sleeveless gray woollen jacket; a good…looking; very pale citizen。
  {8}  On the left of the first corner; was a third tiny chamber; there
  was one person asleep there; probably a drunken peasant; and a woman
  in a pink blouse which was loose in front and close…fitting behind。
  The fourth chamber was behind the partition; the entrance to it was
  from the landlord's compartment。
  The student went into the landlord's room; and I remained in the
  entrance compartment; and questioned the old man and woman。  The old
  man had been a master…printer; but now had no means of livelihood。
  The woman was the wife of a cook。  I went to the third compartment;
  and questioned the woman in the blouse about the sleeping man。  She
  said that he was a visitor。  I asked the woman who she was。  She
  replied that she was a Moscow peasant。  〃What is your business?〃  She
  burst into a laugh; and did not answer me。  〃What do you live on?〃 I
  repeated; thinking that she had not understood my question。  〃I sit
  in the taverns;〃 she said。  I did not comprehend; and again I
  inquired:  〃What is your means of livelihood?〃  She made no reply and
  laughed。  Women's voices in the fourth compartment which we had not
  yet entered; joined in the laugh。  The landlord emerged from his
  cabin and stepped up to us。  He had evidently heard my questions and
  the woman's replies。  He cast a stern glance at the woman and turned
  to me:  〃She is a prostitute;〃 said he; apparently pleased that he
  knew the word in use in the language of the authorities; and that he
  could pronounce it correctly。  And having said this; with a
  respectful and barely perceptible smile of satisfaction addressed to
  me; he turned to the woman。  And no sooner had he turned to her; than
  his whole face altered。  He said; in a peculiar; scornful; hasty
  tone; such as is employed towards dogs:  〃What do you jabber in that
  careless way for?  'I sit in the taverns。'  You do sit in the
  taverns; and that means; to talk business; that you are a
  prostitute;〃 and again he uttered the word。  〃She does not know the
  name for herself。〃  This tone offended me。  〃It is not our place to
  abuse her;〃 said I。  〃If all of us lived according to the laws of
  God; there would be none of these women。〃
  〃That's the very point;〃 said the landlord; with an awkward smile。
  〃Therefore; we should not reproach but pity them。  Are they to
  blame?〃
  I do not recollect just what I said; but I do remember that I was
  vexed by the scornful tone of the landlord of these quarters which
  were filled with women; whom he called prostitute