第 35 节
作者:猫王      更新:2021-02-27 00:40      字数:9322
  The agony of it drove him up from the bed and out of the room。 He
  went into the studio。        It was dark; for the curtains had been drawn over
  the great window; and he pulled them quickly back; but a sob broke from
  him   as   with   a   rapid   glance   he   took   in   the   place   where   he   had   been   so
  happy。     Nothing was changed here; either。             Strickland was indifferent to
  his surroundings; and he had lived in the other's studio without thinking of
  altering    a   thing。  It   was   deliberately   artistic。   It   represented    Stroeve's
  idea of the proper environment for an artist。 There were bits of old brocade
  on the walls; and the piano was covered with a piece of silk; beautiful and
  tarnished; in one corner was a copy of the Venus of Milo; and in another of
  the    Venus    of   the   Medici。     Here     and    there   was    an   Italian   cabinet
  surmounted   with   Delft;   and   here   and   there   a   bas…relief。   In   a   handsome
  gold frame was a copy of Velasquez' Innocent X。; that Stroeve had made in
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  Rome; and placed so as to make the most of their decorative effect were a
  number of Stroeve's pictures; all in splendid frames。               Stroeve had always
  been very proud of his taste。           He had never lost his appreciation for the
  romantic atmosphere of a studio; and though now the sight of it was like a
  stab in his heart; without thinking what he was at; he changed slightly the
  position of a Louis XV。 table which was one of his treasures。 Suddenly he
  caught sight of a canvas with its face to the wall。 It was a much larger one
  than he   himself   was   in   the   habit   of   using;   and   he   wondered   what   it   did
  there。    He went over to it and leaned it towards him so that he could see
  the   painting。    It   was   a   nude。  His   heart   began   to   beat   quickly;   for   he
  guessed at once that it was one of Strickland's pictures。               He flung it back
  against the wall angrily  what did he mean by leaving it there?  but his
  movement   caused   it   to   fall;   face downwards;   on the   ground。         No   mater
  whose the picture; he could not leave it there in the dust; and he raised it;
  but then curiosity got the better of him。 He thought he would like to have a
  proper look at it; so he brought it along and set it on the easel。                Then he
  stood back in order to see it at his ease。
  He gave a gasp。        It was the picture of a woman lying on a sofa; with
  one   arm   beneath   her   head   and   the   other   along   her   body;   one   knee   was
  raised;    and   the   other    leg  was    stretched    out。   The   pose    was    classic。
  Stroeve's head swam。          It was Blanche。 Grief and jealousy and rage seized
  him; and he cried out hoarsely; he was inarticulate; he clenched his fists
  and raised them threateningly at an invisible enemy。                 He screamed at the
  top of his voice。       He was beside himself。           He could not bear it。         That
  was too much。         He looked round wildly for some instrument; he wanted
  to   hack   the   picture   to   pieces;   it   should   not   exist   another   minute。 He
  could see nothing   that would serve his purpose; he   rummaged about his
  painting things; somehow he could not find a thing; he was frantic。                       At
  last he came upon what he sought; a large scraper; and he pounced on it
  with a cry of triumph。        He seized it as though it were a dagger; and ran to
  the picture。
  As   Stroeve   told   me   this   he   became   as   excited   as   when   the   incident
  occurred; and he took hold of a dinner…knife on the table between us; and
  brandished it。      He lifted his arm as though to strike; and then; opening his
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  hand;   let   it   fall   with   a   clatter   to   the   ground。 He   looked   at   me   with   a
  tremulous smile。 He did not speak。
  〃Fire away;〃 I said。
  〃I don't know what happened to me。                I was just going to make a great
  hole in the picture; I had my arm all ready for the blow; when suddenly I
  seemed to see it。〃
  〃See what?〃
  〃The picture。       It was a work of art。        I couldn't touch it。 I was afraid。〃
  Stroeve was silent again; and he stared at me with his mouth open and
  his round blue eyes starting out of his head。
  〃It   was   a   great;   a   wonderful   picture。    I   was   seized   with   awe。   I   had
  nearly committed a dreadful crime。                I moved a little to see it better; and
  my foot knocked against the scraper。 I shuddered。〃
  I   really   felt   something   of   the   emotion   that   had   caught   him。   I   was
  strangely impressed。          It was as though I were suddenly transported into a
  world   in   which   the   values   were   changed。   I   stood   by;   at   a   loss;   like   a
  stranger   in   a   land   where   the   reactions   of   man   to   familiar   things   are   all
  different from those he has known。               Stroeve tried to talk to me about the
  picture;   but   he   was   incoherent;   and   I   had   to   guess   at   what   he   meant。
  Strickland had burst the bonds that hitherto had held him。 He had found;
  not himself; as the phrase goes; but a new soul with unsuspected powers。
  It was not only  the bold   simplification of   the drawing   which showed   so
  rich and so singular a personality; it was not only the painting; though the
  flesh was painted with a passionate sensuality which had in it something
  miraculous; it was not only the solidity; so that you felt extraordinarily the
  weight of the body; there was also a spirituality; troubling and new; which
  led   the   imagination   along   unsuspected   ways;   and   suggested   dim   empty
  spaces; lit only by the eternal stars; where the soul; all naked; adventured
  fearful to the discovery of new mysteries。
  If   I   am   rhetorical   it   is   because   Stroeve   was   rhetorical。   (Do   we   not
  know that man in moments of emotion expresses himself naturally in the
  terms   of   a   novelette?)   Stroeve   was   trying   to   express   a   feeling   which   he
  had never known before; and he did not know how to put it into common
  terms。     He   was   like   the   mystic   seeking   to   describe   the   ineffable。      But
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  one fact he made clear to me; people talk of beauty lightly; and having no
  feeling for words; they use that one carelessly; so that it loses its force; and
  the thing it stands for; sharing its name with a hundred trivial objects; is
  deprived of dignity。 They call beautiful a dress; a dog; a sermon; and when
  they are face to face with Beauty cannot recognise it。             The false emphasis
  with    which     they   try   to  deck    their   worthless    thoughts     blunts   their
  susceptibilities。     Like the charlatan who counterfeits a spiritual force he
  has sometimes felt; they lose the power they have abused。                  But Stroeve;
  the   unconquerable   buffoon;   had   a   love   and   an   understanding   of   beauty
  which were as honest and sincere as was his own sincere and honest soul。
  It meant to him what God means to the believer; and when he saw it he
  was afraid。
  〃What did you say to Strickland when you saw him?〃
  〃I asked him to come with me to Holland。〃
  I   was    dumbfounded。        I   could    only    look   at   Stroeve    in  stupid
  amazement。
  〃We both loved Blanche。          There would have been room for him in my
  mother's house。       I think the company of poor; simple people would have
  done   his   soul   a   great   good。  I   think   he   might   have   learnt   from   them
  something that would be very useful to him。〃
  〃What did he say?〃
  〃He smiled   a   little。   I suppose he   thought   me   very silly。  He   said   he
  had other fish to fry。〃
  I   could   have   wished   that   Strickland   had   used   some   other   phrase   to
  indicate his refusal。
  〃He gave me the picture of Blanche。〃
  I wondered why Strickland had done that。             But I made no remark; and
  for some time we kept silence。
  〃What have you done with all your things?〃 I said at last。
  〃I got a Jew in; and he gave me a round sum for the lot。 I'm taking my
  pictures home with me。          Beside them I own nothing in the world now but
  a box of clothes and a few books。〃
  〃I'm glad you're going home;〃 I said。
  I felt tha