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  face an outrageous sensuality; but; though it sounds nonsense; it seemed as
  though      his  sensuality    were    curiously     spiritual。    There     was    in  him
  something   primitive。       He   seemed   to   partake   of   those   obscure   forces   of
  nature which the Greeks personified in shapes part human and part beast;
  the satyr and the faun。 I thought of Marsyas; whom the god flayed because
  he had dared to rival him in song。           Strickland seemed to bear in his heart
  strange   harmonies   and   unadventured   patterns;   and   I   foresaw   for   him   an
  end of torture and despair。         I had again the feeling that he was possessed
  of a devil; but you could not say that it was a devil of evil; for it was a
  primitive force that existed before good and ill。
  He was still too weak to paint; and he sat in the studio; silent; occupied
  with God knows what dreams; or reading。 The books he liked were queer;
  sometimes I would find him poring over the poems of Mallarme; and he
  read    them    as  a  child   reads;   forming     the  words    with   his   lips;  and   I
  wondered   what   strange   emotion   he   got   from   those   subtle   cadences   and
  obscure phrases; and again I found him absorbed in the detective novels of
  Gaboriau。   I   amused   myself   by   thinking   that   in   his   choice   of   books   he
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  showed pleasantly the irreconcilable sides of his fantastic nature。           It was
  singular to notice that even in the weak state of his body he had no thought
  for its comfort。 Stroeve liked his ease; and in his studio were a couple of
  heavily upholstered arm…chairs and a large divan。 Strickland would not go
  near them; not from any affectation of stoicism; for I found him seated on
  a three…legged stool when I went into the studio one day and he was alone;
  but because he did not like them。         For choice he sat on   a kitchen   chair
  without arms。 It often exasperated me to see him。 I never knew a man so
  entirely indifferent to his surroundings。
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  Chapter XXVII
  Two or three weeks passed。          One morning; having come to a pause
  in my work;  I thought   I would give myself   a holiday;   and I  went to  the
  Louvre。      I wandered about looking at the pictures I knew so well; and let
  my   fancy   play   idly  with   the   emotions   they   suggested。    I   sauntered   into
  the   long   gallery;   and   there   suddenly    saw    Stroeve。    I   smiled;   for  his
  appearance; so rotund and yet so startled; could never fail to excite a smile;
  and then as I came nearer I noticed that he seemed singularly disconsolate。
  He looked woebegone and yet ridiculous; like a man who has fallen into
  the water with all his clothes on; and; being rescued from death; frightened
  still; feels that he only looks a fool。       Turning round; he stared at me; but I
  perceived that he did not see me。            His round blue eyes looked harassed
  behind his glasses。
  〃Stroeve;〃 I said。
  He gave a little start; and then smiled; but his smile was rueful。
  〃Why are you idling in this disgraceful fashion?〃 I asked gaily。
  〃It's a long time since I was at the Louvre。          I thought I'd come and see
  if they had anything new。〃
  〃But you told me you had to get a picture finished this week。〃
  〃Strickland's painting in my studio。〃
  〃Well?〃
  〃I suggested it myself。       He's not strong enough to go back to his own
  place   yet。   I   thought   we   could   both   paint   there。   Lots   of   fellows   in   the
  Quarter share a studio。        I thought it would be fun。        I've always thought it
  would be jolly to have someone to talk to when one was tired of work。〃
  He said all this slowly; detaching statement from statement with a little
  awkward silence; and he kept his kind; foolish eyes fixed on mine。                   They
  were full of tears。
  〃I don't think I understand;〃 I said。
  〃Strickland can't work with anyone else in the studio。〃
  〃Damn it all; it's your studio。       That's his lookout。〃
  He looked at me pitifully。        His lips were trembling。
  〃What happened?〃 I asked; rather sharply。
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  He    hesitated    and   flushed。     He    glanced    unhappily     at  one    of  the
  pictures on the wall。
  〃He wouldn't let me go on painting。            He told me to get out。〃
  〃But why didn't you tell him to go to hell?〃               〃He turned me out。         I
  couldn't   very   well   struggle   with   him。   He   threw   my   hat   after   me;   and
  locked the door。〃
  I was furious with Strickland; and was indignant with myself; because
  Dirk Stroeve cut such an absurd figure that I felt inclined to laugh。
  〃But what did your wife say?〃
  〃She'd gone out to do the marketing。〃
  〃Is he going to let her in?〃
  〃I don't know。〃
  I  gazed   at   Stroeve   with   perplexity。   He   stood   like   a   schoolboy  with
  whom a master is finding fault。
  〃Shall I get rid of Strickland for you?〃 I asked。
  He gave a little start; and his shining face grew very red。
  〃No。     You'd better not do anything。〃
  He nodded to me and walked away。               It was clear that for some reason
  he did not want to discuss the matter。          I did not understand。
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  Chapter XXVIII
  The   explanation   came   a   week   later。    It   was   about   ten   o'   clock   at
  night; I had been dining by myself at a restaurant; and having returned to
  my small apartment; was sitting in my parlour; reading I heard the cracked
  tinkling    of   the  bell;  and;   going    into   the  corridor;    opened    the   door。
  Stroeve stood before me。
  〃Can I come in?〃        he asked。
  In the dimness of the landing I could not see him very well; but there
  was     something     in  his  voice    that  surprised    me。    I   knew    he   was   of
  abstemious habit or I should have thought he had been drinking。                  I led the
  way into my sitting room and asked him to sit down。
  〃Thank God I've found you;〃 he said。
  〃What's the matter?〃 I asked in astonishment at his vehemence。
  I was able now to see him well。           As a rule he was neat in his person;
  but now his clothes were in disorder。           He looked suddenly bedraggled。            I
  was convinced he had been drinking; and I smiled。                I was on the point of
  chaffing him on his state。
  〃I didn't know where to go;〃 he burst out。              〃I came here earlier; but
  you weren't in。〃
  〃I dined late;〃 I said。
  I   changed   my   mind:   it   was   not   liquor   that   had   driven   him   to   this
  obvious      desperation。     His    face;   usually   so   rosy;  was    now    strangely
  mottled。     His hands trembled。
  〃Has anything happened?〃 I asked。
  〃My wife has left me。〃
  He   could   hardly   get   the   words   out。  He   gave   a   little   gasp;   and   the
  tears began to trickle down his round cheeks。             I did not know what to say。
  My first thought was that she had come to the end of her forbearance with
  his infatuation for Strickland; and; goaded by the latter's cynical behaviour;
  had insisted that he should be turned out。            I knew her capable of temper;
  for all the calmness of her manner; and if Stroeve still refused; she might
  easily  have   flung   out   of   the   studio   with   vows   never   to   return。 But   the
  little man was so distressed that I could not smile。
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  〃My   dear   fellow;   don't   be   unhappy。    She'll   come   back。 You   mustn't
  take very seriously what women say when they're in a passion。〃
  〃You don't understand。         She's in love with Strickland。〃
  〃What!〃      I  was   startled  at  this;  but   the  idea   had   no  sooner    taken
  possession of me than I saw it was absurd。                〃How can you be so silly?
  You   don't   mean   to   say   you're   jealous   of   Strickland?〃   I   almost   laughed。
  〃You know very well that she can't bear the sight of him。〃
  〃You don't understand;〃 he moaned。
  〃You're an hysteri