第 22 节
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  whose talent I am more convinced。              Take my word for it; you are missing
  a good affair。      Some day those pictures will be worth more than all you
  have in your shop。         Remember Monet; who could not get anyone to buy
  his pictures for a hundred francs。 What are they worth now?〃
  〃True。     But   there   were   a   hundred   as   good   painters   as   Monet   who
  couldn't sell their pictures at that time; and their pictures are worth nothing
  still。   How can one tell? Is merit enough to bring success?                Don't believe
  it。   ;   it   has   still   to   be   proved   that   this   friend   of   yours   has
  merit。    No one claims it for him but Monsieur Stroeve。〃
  〃And how; then; will you recognise merit?〃 asked Dirk; red in the face
  with anger。
  〃There is only one way  by success。〃
  〃Philistine;〃 cried Dirk。
  〃But think of the great artists of the past  Raphael; Michael Angelo;
  Ingres; Delacroix  they were all successful。〃
  〃Let us go;〃 said Stroeve to me; 〃or I shall kill this man。〃
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  Chapter XXIII
  I   saw   Strickland   not   infrequently;   and   now   and   then   played   chess
  with him。      He was of uncertain temper。           Sometimes he would sit silent
  and abstracted; taking no notice of anyone; and at others; when he was in a
  good   humour;   he   would   talk   in   his   own   halting   way。   He   never   said   a
  clever thing; but he had a vein of brutal sarcasm which was not ineffective;
  and   he   always   said   exactly  what   he   thought。   He  was   indifferent   to   the
  susceptibilities   of   others;   and   when   he   wounded   them   was   amused。   He
  was   constantly   offending   Dirk      Stroeve   so   bitterly   that   he   flung   away;
  vowing he would never speak to him again; but there was a solid force in
  Strickland that attracted the fat Dutchman against his will; so that he came
  back; fawning like a clumsy dog; though he knew that his only greeting
  would be the blow he dreaded。
  I   do   not   know   why   Strickland   put   up   with   me。 Our   relations   were
  peculiar。    One day he asked me to lend him fifty francs。
  〃I wouldn't dream of it;〃 I replied。
  〃Why not?〃
  〃It wouldn't amuse me。〃
  〃I'm frightfully hard up; you know。〃
  〃I don't care。〃
  〃You don't care if I starve?〃
  〃Why on earth should I?〃 I asked in my turn。
  He looked at me for a minute or two; pulling his untidy beard。 I smiled
  at him。
  〃What are you amused at?〃 he said; with a gleam of anger in his eyes。
  〃You're so simple。        You recognise no obligations。           No one is under
  any obligation to you。〃
  〃Wouldn't   it   make   you   uncomfortable   if   I   went   and   hanged   myself
  because I'd been turned out of my room as I couldn't pay the rent?〃
  〃Not a bit。〃
  He chuckled。
  〃You're     bragging。      If   I  really   did   you'd   be   overwhelmed        with
  remorse。〃
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  〃Try it; and we'll see;〃 I retorted。
  A smile flickered in his eyes; and he stirred his absinthe in silence。
  〃Would you like to play chess?〃 I asked。
  〃I don't mind。〃
  We set up the pieces; and when the board was ready he considered it
  with   a   comfortable   eye。      There   is   a   sense   of   satisfaction   in   looking   at
  your men all ready for the fray。
  〃Did you really think I'd lend you money?〃 I asked。
  〃I didn't see why you shouldn't。〃
  〃You surprise me。〃
  〃Why?〃
  〃It's   disappointing   to   find   that   at   heart   you   are   sentimental。   I   should
  have   liked   you   better   if   you   hadn't   made   that   ingenuous   appeal   to   my
  sympathies。〃
  〃I should have despised you if you'd been moved by it;〃 he answered。
  〃That's better;〃 I laughed。
  We   began   to   play。    We   were   both   absorbed   in   the   game。     When   it
  was finished I said to him:
  〃Look   here;   if   you're   hard   up;   let   me   see   your   pictures。   If   there's
  anything I like I'll buy it。〃
  〃Go to hell;〃 he answered。
  He got up and was about to go away。              I stopped him。
  〃You haven't paid for your absinthe;〃 I said; smiling。
  He cursed me; flung down the money and left。
  I did not see him for several days after that; but one evening; when I
  was sitting in the cafe; reading a paper; he came up and sat beside me。
  〃You haven't hanged yourself after all;〃 I remarked。
  〃No。     I've   got   a   commission。     I'm   painting   the   portrait   of   a   retired
  plumber for two hundred francs。〃'5'
  '5'    This    picture;    formerly      in   the   possession      of    a   wealthy
  manufacturer   at   Lille;   who   fled   from   that   city   on   the   approach   of   the
  Germans;   is   now   in   the   National   Gallery   at   Stockholm。   The   Swede   is
  adept at the gentle pastime of fishing in troubled waters。
  〃How did you manage that?〃
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  〃The woman where I get my bread recommended me。                        He'd told her
  he was looking out for someone to paint him。               I've got to give her twenty
  francs。〃
  〃What's he like?〃
  〃Splendid。      He's got a great red face like a leg of mutton; and on his
  right cheek there's an enormous mole with long hairs growing out of it。〃
  Strickland was in a good humour; and when Dirk                    Stroeve came up
  and sat down with us he attacked him with ferocious banter。 He showed a
  skill I should never have credited him with in finding the places where the
  unhappy   Dutchman         was    most   sensitive。    Strickland     employed      not  the
  rapier    of  sarcasm    but   the  bludgeon     of  invective。    The     attack   was   so
  unprovoked that Stroeve; taken unawares; was defenceless。                   He reminded
  you   of   a   frightened   sheep   running   aimlessly   hither   and   thither。   He   was
  startled and amazed。        At last the tears ran from his eyes。 And the worst of
  it was that; though you hated Strickland; and the exhibition was horrible; it
  was   impossible   not      to   laugh。   Dirk  Stroeve   was   one    of   those  unlucky
  persons whose most sincere emotions are ridiculous。
  But after all when I look back upon that winter in Paris; my pleasantest
  recollection is of Dirk Stroeve。          There was something very charming in
  his    little  household。      He    and    his  wife    made    a   picture   which     the
  imagination gratefully dwelt upon; and the simplicity of his love for her
  had a deliberate grace。 He remained absurd; but the sincerity of his passion
  excited one's   sympathy。        I   could   understand how  his   wife   must   feel   for
  him; and I was glad that her affection was so tender。 If she had any sense
  of humour; it must amuse her that he should place her on a pedestal and
  worship her with such an honest idolatry; but even while she laughed she
  must   have   been   pleased   and   touched。      He   was   the   constant   lover;   and
  though she grew old; losing her rounded lines and her fair comeliness; to
  him   she   would   certainly   never   alter。   To   him   she   would   always   be   the
  loveliest    woman      in   the   world。    There    was   a   pleasing    grace    in  the
  orderliness of their lives。 They had but the studio; a bedroom; and a tiny
  kitchen。    Mrs。    Stroeve    did  all  the   housework      herself;   and   while   Dirk
  painted   bad   pictures;   she   went   marketing;   cooked   the   luncheon;   sewed;
  occupied herself like a busy ant all the day; and in the evening sat in the
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  studio;   sewing   again;   while   Dirk played   music   which   I   am  sure   was   far
  beyond   her   comprehension。  He   played   with   taste;  but   with   more   feeling
  than     was   always     justified;    and   into   his   music     poured     all  his  honest;
  sentimental; exuberant soul。
  Their   life   in   its   own   way   was   an   idyl;   and   it   managed   to   achieve   a
  singular beauty。         The absurdity that clung to everything connected with
  Dirk Stroeve gave it a curious note; like an unresolved discord; but made it
  somehow   mo