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  than I do now; and I was distressed to find so much vindictiveness in so
  charming a creature。         I did not realise how motley are the qualities that
  go to make up a human being。              Now I am well aware that pettiness and
  grandeur; malice and charity; hatred and love; can find place side by side
  in the same human heart。
  I wondered if there was anything I could say that would ease the sense
  of   bitter   humiliation     which    at  present   tormented      Mrs。   Strickland。     I
  thought I would try。
  〃You know; I'm not sure that your husband is quite responsible for his
  actions。     I do not think he is himself。         He seems to me to be possessed
  by some power which is using him for its own ends; and in whose hold he
  is as helpless as a fly in a spider's web。         It's as though someone had cast a
  spell over him。 I'm reminded of those strange stories one sometimes hears
  of   another   personality   entering   into   a   man   and   driving   out   the   old   one。
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  The     soul   lives   unstably    in   the  body;    and   is  capable     of  mysterious
  transformations。       In the old days they would say Charles Strickland had a
  devil。〃
  Mrs。    MacAndrew        smoothed      down    the   lap  of  her   gown;    and   gold
  bangles fell over her wrists。
  〃All that seems to me very far…fetched;〃 she said acidly。 〃I don't deny
  that perhaps Amy took her husband a little too much for granted。                      If she
  hadn't been so busy with her own affairs; I can't believe that she wouldn't
  have suspected something was the matter。                 I don't think that Alec could
  have something on his mind for a year or more without my having a pretty
  shrewd idea of it。〃
  The   Colonel   stared   into     vacancy;   and   I   wondered     whether     anyone
  could be quite so innocent of guile as he looked。
  〃But that doesn't prevent the fact that Charles Strickland is a heartless
  beast。〃    She looked at me severely。           〃I can tell you why he left his wife …
  … from pure selfishness and nothing else whatever。〃
  〃That   is   certainly   the   simplest   explanation;〃   I   said。   But   I   thought   it
  explained      nothing。     When;      saying     I  was   tired;   I  rose   to  go;   Mrs。
  Strickland made no attempt to detain me。
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  Chapter XVI
  What     followed     showed     that   Mrs。   Strickland     was    a  woman      of
  character。 Whatever anguish she suffered she concealed。 She saw shrewdly
  that the world is quickly bored by the recital of misfortune; and willingly
  avoids the sight of distress。 Whenever she went out  and compassion for
  her   misadventure   made   her   friends   eager   to   entertain   her      she   bore   a
  demeanour       that   was   perfect。   She     was   brave;   but   not  too   obviously;
  cheerful; but not brazenly;         and she seemed more anxious to listen to the
  troubles of others than to discuss her own。              Whenever she spoke of her
  husband it was with pity。 Her attitude towards him at first perplexed me。
  One day she said to me:
  〃You   know;   I'm   convinced   you   were   mistaken   about   Charles   being
  alone。 From what I've been able to gather from certain sources that I can't
  tell you; I know that he didn't leave England by himself。〃
  〃In that case he has a positive genius for covering up his tracks。〃
  She looked away and slightly coloured。
  〃What I mean is; if anyone talks to you about it; please don't contradict
  it if they say he eloped with somebody。〃
  〃Of course not。〃
  She changed the conversation as though it were a matter to which she
  attached no importance。          I discovered presently that a peculiar story was
  circulating   among   her   friends。       They   said   that   Charles   Strickland   had
  become   infatuated   with   a   French   dancer;   whom  he   had   first   seen   in   the
  ballet at the Empire; and had accompanied her to Paris。                 I could not find
  out how this had arisen; but; singularly enough; it created much sympathy
  for   Mrs。   Strickland;   and   at   the   same   time   gave   her   not   a   little   prestige。
  This was not without its use in the calling which she had decided to follow。
  Colonel   MacAndrew   had   not   exaggerated   when   he   said   she   would   be
  penniless; and it was necessary for her to earn her own living as quickly as
  she could。      She made up her mind to profit by her acquaintance with so
  many   writers;   and   without      loss   of   time   began  to  learn   shorthand    and
  typewriting。      Her education made it likely that she would be a typist more
  efficient than the average; and her story made her claims appealing。                   Her
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  friends promised to send her work; and took care to recommend her to all
  theirs。
  The    MacAndrews;         who    were    childless    and   in  easy   circumstances;
  arranged   to   undertake   the   care   of   the   children;   and   Mrs。   Strickland   had
  only herself to provide for。          She let her flat and sold her furniture。            She
  settled in two tiny rooms in Westminster; and faced the world anew。                       She
  was   so   efficient   that   it   was   certain   she   would   make   a   success   of   the
  adventure。
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  Chapter XVII
  It was about five years after this that I decided to live in Paris for a
  while。     I was growing stale in London。            I was tired of doing much the
  same      thing    every    day。     My      friends    pursued     their   course     with
  uneventfulness; they had no longer any surprises for me; and when I met
  them I knew pretty well what they would say;               even their love…affairs had
  a   tedious   banality。   We   were   like   tram…cars   running   on   their   lines   from
  terminus to terminus; and it was possible to calculate within small limits
  the    number     of  passengers     they   would    carry。    Life   was    ordered    too
  pleasantly。     I was seized with panic。        I gave up my small apartment; sold
  my few belongings; and resolved to start afresh。
  I called on Mrs。 Strickland before I left。          I had not seen her for some
  time;   and   I   noticed   changes   in   her;   it   was   not   only   that   she   was   older;
  thinner; and more lined; I think her character had altered。               She had made
  a success of her business; and now had an office in Chancery Lane; she
  did little typing herself; but spent her time correcting the work of the four
  girls she employed。        She had had the idea of giving it a certain daintiness;
  and she made much use of blue and red inks; she bound the copy in coarse
  paper; that looked vaguely like watered silk; in various pale colours; and
  she    had   acquired    a  reputation     for  neatness    and   accuracy。     She    was
  making money。         But she could not get over the idea that to earn her living
  was somewhat undignified; and she was inclined to remind you that she
  was a lady by birth。        She could not help bringing into her conversation
  the names of people she knew which would satisfy you that she had not
  sunk   in   the   social   scale。 She   was   a   little   ashamed   of   her   courage   and
  business capacity; but delighted that she was going to dine the next night
  with a K。C。 who lived in South Kensington。 She was pleased to be able to
  tell you that her son was at Cambridge; and it was with a little laugh that
  she   spoke   of   the   rush   of   dances   to   which   her   daughter;   just   out;   was
  invited。 I suppose I said a very stupid thing。
  〃Is she going into your business?〃 I asked。
  〃Oh no; I wouldn't let her do that;〃 Mrs。 Strickland answered。 〃She's so
  pretty。    I'm sure she'll marry well。〃
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  〃I should have thought it would be a help to you。〃
  〃Several people have suggested that she should go on the stage; but of
  course   I   couldn't   consent   to   that;   I   know   all   the   chief   dramatists;   and   I
  could get her a part to…morrow; but I shouldn't like