第 34 节
作者:吻火      更新:2021-02-27 00:38      字数:9322
  come and sup with me。〃
  These words; heard by all present; passed from mouth to mouth; and
  being     repeated    by   the   believers;   added     greatly   to  the   reputation    of
  Paphnutius。      Pious   minds     amplified    and   transformed     them;    and   it  was
  stated that Paphnutius; from the top of his pillar; had converted the Prefect
  of   the   Fleet   to   the   faith   of   the   apostles   and   the   Nicaean   fathers。   The
  believers found a figurative meaning in the last words uttered by Aurelius
  Cotta; to them; the supper to which this important personage had invited
  the ascetic; was a holy communion; a spiritual repast; a celestial banquet。
  The story of this meeting was embroidered with wonderful details; which
  those who invented were the first to believe。 It was said that when Cotta;
  after   a long   argument;   had   embraced the   truth;   an   angel   had   come   from
  heaven to wipe the sweat from his brow。 The physician and secretary of
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  the   Prefect   of   the   Fleet   had   also;   it   was   asserted;   been   converted   at   the
  same time。 And; the miracle being public and notorious; the deacons of the
  principal churches of Libya recorded it amongst the authentic facts。 After
  that; it could be said; without any exaggeration; that the whole world was
  seized with a desire to see Paphnutius; and that; in the West as well as the
  East;   all   Christians   turned   their   astonished   eyes   towards   him。   The   most
  celebrated cities of Italy sent deputations to him; and the Roman Caesar;
  the divine Constantine who favoured the Christian religion; wrote him a
  letter which the legates brought to him with great ceremony。 But one night;
  whilst the budding city at his feet slept in the dew; he heard a voice; which
  said
  〃Paphnutius; thou art become celebrated by thy works and powerful by
  thy   word。   God   has   raised   thee   up   for   His   glory。   He   has   chosen   thee   to
  work     miracles;     heal   the  sick;   convert    the   Pagans;     enlighten    sinners;
  confound the Arians; and establish peace in the Church。〃
  Paphnutius replied
  〃God's will be done!〃
  The voice continued
  〃Arise;   Paphnutius;   and   go   seek   in   his   palace   the   impious   Constans;
  who; far from imitating the wisdom of his brother; Constantine; inclines to
  the errors of Arius and Marcus。 Go! The bronze gates shall fly open before
  thee;   and   thy   sandals   shall   resound   on   the   golden   floor   of   the   basilica
  before the throne of the Caesars; and thy awe… inspiring voice shall change
  the heart of the son of Constantinus。 Thou shalt reign over a peaceful and
  powerful   Church。   And;   even   as   the   soul   directs   the   body;   so   shall   the
  Church govern the empire。 Thou shalt be placed above senators; comites;
  and patricians。 Thou shalt repress the greed of the people; and check the
  boldness of the barbarians。 Old Cotta; knowing that thou art the head of
  the government; will seek the honour of washing thy feet。 At thy death thy
  /cilicium/   shall   be   taken   to   the   patriarch   of   Alexandria;   and   the   great
  Athanasius; white with glory; shall kiss it as the relic of a saint。 Go!〃
  Paphnutius replied
  〃Let the will of God be accomplished!〃
  And   making   an   effort   to   stand   up;   he   prepared   to   descend。   But   the
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  voice; divining his intention; said
  〃Above   all;   descend   not   by   the   ladder。  That   would   be   to   act   like   an
  ordinary man; and to be unconscious of the gifts that are in thee。 A great
  saint; like thee; ought to fly through the air。 Leap! the angels are there to
  support thee。 Leap; then!〃
  Paphnutius replied
  〃The will of God be done; on earth as it is in heaven。〃
  Extending his long arms like the ragged wings of a huge sick bird; he
  was   about   to   throw   himself   down;   when;   suddenly;   a   hideous   mocking
  laugh rang in his ears。 Terrified; he asked
  〃Who laughs thus?〃
  〃Ah? ah!〃 screamed the voice; 〃we are yet but at the beginning of our
  friendship; thou wilt some day be better acquainted with me。 My friend; it
  was I who caused thee to ascend here; and I ought to be satisfied at the
  docility with which thou hast accomplished my wishes。 Paphnutius; I am
  pleased with thee。〃
  Paphnutius murmured; in a voice stifled by fear
  〃Avaunt; avaunt! I know thee now; thou art he who carried Jesus to a
  pinnacle of the temple; and showed him all the kingdoms of this world。〃
  He fell; affrighted; on the stone。
  〃Why did I not know this sooner?〃 he thought。 〃More wretched than
  the blind; deaf; and paralysed who trust in me; I have lost all knowledge of
  things supernatural; and am more depraved than the maniacs who eat earth
  and    approach     dead    bodies。    I  can  no   longer    distinguish    between     the
  clamours of hell and the voices of heaven。 I have lost even the intuition of
  the new…born child; who cries when its nurse's breast is taken from it; of
  the dog that scents out its master's footsteps; of the plant that turns towards
  the sun。 I am the laughing…stock of the devils。 So; then; it is Satan who led
  me here。 When   he elevated   me   on this pedestal;  lust and   pride   mounted
  with   me。   It   is   not   the   magnitude   of   my   temptations   which   terrifies   me。
  Anthony; on   his mountain;  suffers the same。 I   wish that   all their   swords
  may pierce my flesh; before the eyes of the angels。 I have even learned to
  like   my    sufferings。    But   God    does   not  speak    to  me;   and   His   silence
  astonishes me。 He has left meand I had but Him to look to。 He leaves me
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  alone in the horror of His absence。 He flies from me。 I will follow after
  Him。 This stone burns my feet。 Let me leave quickly; and come up with
  God。〃
  With that he seized the ladder which stood against the column; put his
  feet on it; and having descended a rung; found himself face to face with
  the monster's head; she smiled strangely。 He was certain then that what he
  had    taken    for  the   site  of  his   rest  and   glory;   was    but   the  diabolical
  instrument      of   his  trouble    and    damnation。      He   hastily   descended      and
  touched   the   soil。   His   feet   had   forgotten   their   use;   and   he   reeled。   But;
  feeling on him the shadow of the cursed column; he forced himself to run。
  All slept。 He traversed; without being seen; the great square surrounded by
  wine…shops;   inns;   and   caravanserias;   and   threw   himself   into   a   by…street
  which   led   towards   the   Libyan   Hills。   A   dog   pursued   him;   barking;   and
  stopped only at the edge of the desert。 Paphnutius went through a country
  where there was no road but the trail of wild beasts。 Leaving behind him
  the huts abandoned by the coiners; he continued all night and all day his
  solitary flight。
  At last; almost ready to expire with hunger; thirst; and fatigue; and not
  knowing   if   God   was   still   far   from   him;   he   came   to   a   silent   city   which
  extended from right to left; and stretched away till it was lost in the blue
  horizon。 The buildings; which were widely separated and like each other;
  resembled   pyramids   cut   off   at   half   their   height。   They   were   tombs。   The
  doors were broken; and in the shadow of the chambers could be seen the
  gleaming eyes of hyaenas and wolves who brought forth their young there;
  whilst   the   dead   bodies   lay   on   the   threshold;   despoiled   by   robbers;   and
  gnawed       by  the   wild   beasts。   Having     passed    through     this  funeral    city;
  Paphnutius       fell  exhausted     before    a  tomb    which     stood   near    a  spring
  surrounded by palm trees。 This tomb was much ornamented; and; as there
  was no door to it; he saw inside it a painted chamber; in which serpents
  bred。
  〃Here;〃 he sighed; 〃is the abode I have chosen; the tabernacle of my
  repentance and penitence。〃
  He   dragged   himself   to   it;   drove   out   the   reptiles   with   his   feet;   and
  remained   prostrate   on   the   stone   floor   for   eighteen   hours;   at   the   end   of
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  which   time   he   went   to   the   spring;   and   drank   out   of   his   hand。   Then   he
  pluck