第 34 节
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吻火 更新:2021-02-27 00:38 字数:9322
come and sup with me。〃
These words; heard by all present; passed from mouth to mouth; and
being repeated by the believers; added greatly to the reputation of
Paphnutius。 Pious minds amplified and transformed them; and it was
stated that Paphnutius; from the top of his pillar; had converted the Prefect
of the Fleet to the faith of the apostles and the Nicaean fathers。 The
believers found a figurative meaning in the last words uttered by Aurelius
Cotta; to them; the supper to which this important personage had invited
the ascetic; was a holy communion; a spiritual repast; a celestial banquet。
The story of this meeting was embroidered with wonderful details; which
those who invented were the first to believe。 It was said that when Cotta;
after a long argument; had embraced the truth; an angel had come from
heaven to wipe the sweat from his brow。 The physician and secretary of
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the Prefect of the Fleet had also; it was asserted; been converted at the
same time。 And; the miracle being public and notorious; the deacons of the
principal churches of Libya recorded it amongst the authentic facts。 After
that; it could be said; without any exaggeration; that the whole world was
seized with a desire to see Paphnutius; and that; in the West as well as the
East; all Christians turned their astonished eyes towards him。 The most
celebrated cities of Italy sent deputations to him; and the Roman Caesar;
the divine Constantine who favoured the Christian religion; wrote him a
letter which the legates brought to him with great ceremony。 But one night;
whilst the budding city at his feet slept in the dew; he heard a voice; which
said
〃Paphnutius; thou art become celebrated by thy works and powerful by
thy word。 God has raised thee up for His glory。 He has chosen thee to
work miracles; heal the sick; convert the Pagans; enlighten sinners;
confound the Arians; and establish peace in the Church。〃
Paphnutius replied
〃God's will be done!〃
The voice continued
〃Arise; Paphnutius; and go seek in his palace the impious Constans;
who; far from imitating the wisdom of his brother; Constantine; inclines to
the errors of Arius and Marcus。 Go! The bronze gates shall fly open before
thee; and thy sandals shall resound on the golden floor of the basilica
before the throne of the Caesars; and thy awe… inspiring voice shall change
the heart of the son of Constantinus。 Thou shalt reign over a peaceful and
powerful Church。 And; even as the soul directs the body; so shall the
Church govern the empire。 Thou shalt be placed above senators; comites;
and patricians。 Thou shalt repress the greed of the people; and check the
boldness of the barbarians。 Old Cotta; knowing that thou art the head of
the government; will seek the honour of washing thy feet。 At thy death thy
/cilicium/ shall be taken to the patriarch of Alexandria; and the great
Athanasius; white with glory; shall kiss it as the relic of a saint。 Go!〃
Paphnutius replied
〃Let the will of God be accomplished!〃
And making an effort to stand up; he prepared to descend。 But the
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voice; divining his intention; said
〃Above all; descend not by the ladder。 That would be to act like an
ordinary man; and to be unconscious of the gifts that are in thee。 A great
saint; like thee; ought to fly through the air。 Leap! the angels are there to
support thee。 Leap; then!〃
Paphnutius replied
〃The will of God be done; on earth as it is in heaven。〃
Extending his long arms like the ragged wings of a huge sick bird; he
was about to throw himself down; when; suddenly; a hideous mocking
laugh rang in his ears。 Terrified; he asked
〃Who laughs thus?〃
〃Ah? ah!〃 screamed the voice; 〃we are yet but at the beginning of our
friendship; thou wilt some day be better acquainted with me。 My friend; it
was I who caused thee to ascend here; and I ought to be satisfied at the
docility with which thou hast accomplished my wishes。 Paphnutius; I am
pleased with thee。〃
Paphnutius murmured; in a voice stifled by fear
〃Avaunt; avaunt! I know thee now; thou art he who carried Jesus to a
pinnacle of the temple; and showed him all the kingdoms of this world。〃
He fell; affrighted; on the stone。
〃Why did I not know this sooner?〃 he thought。 〃More wretched than
the blind; deaf; and paralysed who trust in me; I have lost all knowledge of
things supernatural; and am more depraved than the maniacs who eat earth
and approach dead bodies。 I can no longer distinguish between the
clamours of hell and the voices of heaven。 I have lost even the intuition of
the new…born child; who cries when its nurse's breast is taken from it; of
the dog that scents out its master's footsteps; of the plant that turns towards
the sun。 I am the laughing…stock of the devils。 So; then; it is Satan who led
me here。 When he elevated me on this pedestal; lust and pride mounted
with me。 It is not the magnitude of my temptations which terrifies me。
Anthony; on his mountain; suffers the same。 I wish that all their swords
may pierce my flesh; before the eyes of the angels。 I have even learned to
like my sufferings。 But God does not speak to me; and His silence
astonishes me。 He has left meand I had but Him to look to。 He leaves me
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alone in the horror of His absence。 He flies from me。 I will follow after
Him。 This stone burns my feet。 Let me leave quickly; and come up with
God。〃
With that he seized the ladder which stood against the column; put his
feet on it; and having descended a rung; found himself face to face with
the monster's head; she smiled strangely。 He was certain then that what he
had taken for the site of his rest and glory; was but the diabolical
instrument of his trouble and damnation。 He hastily descended and
touched the soil。 His feet had forgotten their use; and he reeled。 But;
feeling on him the shadow of the cursed column; he forced himself to run。
All slept。 He traversed; without being seen; the great square surrounded by
wine…shops; inns; and caravanserias; and threw himself into a by…street
which led towards the Libyan Hills。 A dog pursued him; barking; and
stopped only at the edge of the desert。 Paphnutius went through a country
where there was no road but the trail of wild beasts。 Leaving behind him
the huts abandoned by the coiners; he continued all night and all day his
solitary flight。
At last; almost ready to expire with hunger; thirst; and fatigue; and not
knowing if God was still far from him; he came to a silent city which
extended from right to left; and stretched away till it was lost in the blue
horizon。 The buildings; which were widely separated and like each other;
resembled pyramids cut off at half their height。 They were tombs。 The
doors were broken; and in the shadow of the chambers could be seen the
gleaming eyes of hyaenas and wolves who brought forth their young there;
whilst the dead bodies lay on the threshold; despoiled by robbers; and
gnawed by the wild beasts。 Having passed through this funeral city;
Paphnutius fell exhausted before a tomb which stood near a spring
surrounded by palm trees。 This tomb was much ornamented; and; as there
was no door to it; he saw inside it a painted chamber; in which serpents
bred。
〃Here;〃 he sighed; 〃is the abode I have chosen; the tabernacle of my
repentance and penitence。〃
He dragged himself to it; drove out the reptiles with his feet; and
remained prostrate on the stone floor for eighteen hours; at the end of
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which time he went to the spring; and drank out of his hand。 Then he
pluck