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作者:吻火      更新:2021-02-27 00:38      字数:9322
  extraordinary conduct of the stylite; and the heads of the Libyan Church
  followed;      in  the  absence     of  Athanasius;     the   opinion    of  the   Patriarch。
  Having learned which; Abbots Ephrem and Serapion came to the feet of
  Paphnutius to apologise for their former mistrust。 Paphnutius replied
  〃Know; my brothers; that the penance I endure is barely equal to the
  temptations which are sent me; the number and force of which astound me。
  A man; viewed externally; is but small; and; from the height of the pillar to
  which God has called me; I see human beings moving about like ants。 But;
  considered internally; man is immense; he is as large as the world; for he
  contains it。 All that is spread before methese monasteries; these inns; the
  boats   on   the   river;   the villages;   and   what   I   see in   the   distance   of   fields;
  canals; sand; and mountainsis nothing in respect to what is in me。 I carry
  in   my   heart   countless   cities   and   illimitable   deserts。   And   evilevil   and
  deathspread   over   this   immensity;   cover   them   all;   as   night   covers   the
  earth。 I am; in myself alone; a universe of evil thoughts。〃
  He spoke thus because the desire for woman was in him。
  The   seventh   month;   there   came   from Alexandria;   Bubastis   and   Sais;
  women       who    had   long   been    barren;   hoping     to  obtain   children    by   the
  intercession of the holy man and the virtues of his pillar。 They rubbed their
  sterile bodies against the stone。 There followed a procession; as far as the
  eye   could   reach;   of   chariots;   palanquins;   and   litters;   which   stopped   and
  pushed and jostled below the man of God。 From them came sick people
  terrible   to   see。   Mothers   brought   to   Paphnutius   young   boys   whose   limbs
  were twisted; their eyes starting; their mouth foaming; their voices hoarse。
  He laid his hands upon them。 Blind men approached; groping with their
  hands;   and   raising   towards   him   a   face   pierced   with   two   bleeding   holes。
  Paralytics      displayed     before    him     the   heavy     immobility;     the    deadly
  emaciation; and the hideous contractions of their limbs; lame men showed
  him their club feet; women with cancer; holding their bosoms with both
  hands;     uncovered      before   him    their   breasts   devoured      by  the   invisible
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  vulture。   Dropsical   women;   swollen   like   wine   skins   were   placed   on   the
  ground before him。 He blessed them。 Nubians; afflicted with elephantiasis;
  advanced   with   heavy   steps   and   looked   at   him   with   streaming   eyes   and
  expressionless countenances。 He made the sign of the cross over them。 A
  young girl of Aphroditopolis was brought to him on a litter; after having
  vomited   blood;   she   had   slept   for   three   days。   She   looked   like   a   waxen
  image; and her parents; who thought she was dead; had placed a palm leaf
  on her breast。 Paphnutius having prayed to God; the young girl raised her
  head and opened her eyes。
  As   the   people   reported   everywhere   the   miracles   which   the   saint   had
  performed;      unfortunate      persons    afflicted   with   that   disease   which     the
  Greeks      call  〃the   divine    malady;〃     came    from    all   parts   of  Egypt    in
  incalculable legions。 As soon as they saw the pillar; they were seized with
  convulsions; rolled on the ground; writhed; and twisted themselves into a
  ball。 Andthough it is hardly to be believedthe persons present were in
  their turn   seized with   a   violent delirium;   and   imitated the   contortions of
  the    epileptics。   Monks     and    pilgrims;   men    and    women;     wallowed      and
  struggled     pell…mell;    their  limbs    twisted;   foaming     at  the  mouth;    eating
  handfuls of earth and prophesying。 And Paphnutius at the top of his pillar
  felt a thrill of horror pass through him; and cried to God
  〃I   am   the   scapegoat;   and   I   take   upon   me   all   the   impurities   of   these
  people; and that is why; Lord; my body is filled with evil spirits。〃
  Every time that a sick person went away healed; the people applauded;
  carried him in triumph; and ceased not to repeat
  〃We behold another well of Siloam!〃
  Hundreds       of  crutches    already    hung    round    the  wonderful      column;
  grateful women suspended wreaths and votive images there。 Some of the
  Greeks   inscribed   distiches;   and   as   every   pilgrim   carved   his   name;   the
  stone was soon covered as high as a man could reach with an infinity of
  Latin; Greek; Coptic; Punic; Hebrew; Syrian; and magic characters。
  When the feast of Easter came there was such an affluence of people
  to this city of miracles that old men thought that the days of the ancient
  mysteries had returned。 All sorts of people; in all sorts of costumes; were
  to be seen there; the striped   robes of   the Egyptians; the burnoose of  the
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  Arabs; the white drawers of the Nubians; the short cloak of the Greeks; the
  long toga of the Romans; the scarlet breeches of the barbarians; the gold…
  spangled robes of the courtesans。 A veiled woman would pass on an ass;
  preceded by black eunuchs; who cleared a passage for her by the free use
  of their sticks。 Acrobats; having spread a carpet on the ground; juggled and
  performed       skilful   tricks   before    a  circle   of  silent   spectators。    Snake…
  charmers unrolled their living girdles。 A glittering; dusty; noisy; chattering
  crowd! The curses of the camel…drivers beating the animals; the cries of
  the    hawkers     who    sold   amulets    against   leprosy    and   the   evil  eye;   the
  psalmody of the monks reciting verses of the Bible; the shrieking of the
  women   who   were   prophesying;   the   shouting   of   the   beggars   singing   old
  songs of the harem; the bleating of sheep; the braying of asses; the sailors
  calling   tardy   passengers;   all   these   confused   noises   caused   a   deafening
  uproar; over which dominated the strident voices of the little naked negro
  boys; running about everywhere selling fresh dates。
  And   all   these   human   beings   stifled   under   the   white   sky;   in   a   heavy
  atmosphere laden with the perfumes of women; the odour of negroes; the
  fumes of cooking and the smoke of gums; which the devotees bought of
  the shepherds to burn before the saint。
  When night came; fires; torches; and lanterns were lighted everywhere;
  and nothing was to be seen but red shadows and black shapes。 Standing
  amidst   a   circle   of   squatting   listeners;   an   old   man;   his   face   lighted   by   a
  smoky lamp; related how; formerly; Bitiou had enchanted his heart; torn it
  from his breast; placed it in an acacia; and then transformed himself into a
  tree。    He    made     gestures;    which     his   shadow      repeated     with    absurd
  exaggerations; and the audience uttered cries of admiration。 In the taverns;
  the   drinkers;   lying   on   couches;   called   for   beer   and   wine。   Dancing   girls;
  with painted eyes and bare stomachs; performed before them religious or
  lascivious   scenes。      In  retired   corners;   young    men   played     dice  or   other
  games; and old men followed prostitutes。 Above all these rose the solitary;
  unchanging column; the head with the cow's horns gazed into the shadow;
  and above  it   Paphnutius watched   between heaven   and earth。 All   at  once
  the moon rose over the Nile; like the bare shoulder of a goddess。 The hills
  gleamed with blue light; and Paphnutius thought he saw the body of Thais
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  shinning in the glimmer of the waters amidst the sapphire night。
  The days passed; and the saint still lived on his pillar。 When the rainy
  season came; the waters of heaven; filtering through the cracks in the roof;
  wetted his body; his stiff limbs were incapable of movement。 Scorched by
  the sun; and reddened by the dew; his skin broke; large ulcers devoured his
  arms and legs。 But the desire of Thais still consumed him inwardly; and he
  cried
  〃It   is  not   enough;     great    God!    More     temptations!     More     unclean
  thoughts! More horrible desires! Lord; lay upon me all the lusts of men;
  that I may expiate them all! Though it is false that the Greek bitch took
  upon herself all the sins of the world; as I heard an impostor once declare;
  yet   there   is   a   hidden   meaning   in   the   fable;   the   truth