第 24 节
作者:吻火      更新:2021-02-27 00:38      字数:9322
  〃Separate   thyself   from   life;   Eucrites;   like   the   ripe   olive   which   falls;
  returning thanks   to   the   tree  which   bore   thee;   and   blessing   the   earth;   thy
  nurse。〃
  At these words; drawing from the folds of his robe a naked dagger; he
  plunged it into his breast。
  Those who listened to him sprang forward to seize his hand; but the
  steel   point   had   already   penetrated   the   heart   of   the   sage。   Eucrites   had
  already   entered   into   his   rest。   Hermodorus   and   Nicias   bore   the   pale   and
  bleeding   body   to     one   of   the   couches;   amidst   the   shrill   shrieks   of   the
  women;   the   grunts   of   the   guests   disturbed   in   their   sleep;   and   the   heavy
  breathing of the couples hidden in the shadow of the tapestry。 Cotta; an old
  soldier;   who   slept   lightly;   woke;   approached   the   corpse;   examined   the
  wound; and cried
  〃Call Aristaeus; my physician!〃
  Nicias shook his head。
  〃Eucrites is no more;〃 he said。 〃He wished to die as others wish to love。
  He has; like all of us; obeyed his inexpressible desire。 And; lo; now he is
  like unto the gods; who desire nothing。〃
  Cotta struck his forehead。
  〃Die!     To   want    to  die  when     he   might    still  serve   the  State!   What
  nonsense!〃
  Paphnutius   and   Thais   remained   motionless   and   mute;   side   by   side;
  their souls overflowing with disgust; horror; and hope。
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  Suddenly the monk seized the hand of the actress; and stepping over
  the drunkards; who had fallen close to the lascivious couples; and treading
  in the wine and blood spilt upon the floor; he led her out of the house。
  The   sun   had   risen   over   the   city。   Long   colonnades   stretched   on   both
  sides of the deserted street; and at the end shone the dome of Alexander's
  tomb。      Here    and     there   on    the   pavement       lay   broken      wreaths     and
  extinguished       torches。    Fresh    wafts   of  the   sea   could    be  felt  in  the   air。
  Paphnutius; with a look of disgust; tore off his rich robe and trampled the
  fragments under his feet。
  〃Thou   hast   heard   them;   my   Thais!〃   he   cried。   〃They   have   spat   forth
  every sort of folly and abomination。 They dragged the Divine Creator of
  all things down the gemonies'*' of the devils of hell; impudently denied
  the existence of Good and Evil; blasphemed Jesus; and exalted Judas。 And
  the   most   infamous   of   all;   the   jackal   of   darkness;   the   stinking   beast;   the
  Arian   full   of   corruption   and   death;   opened   his   mouth   like   a   yawning
  sepulchre。 My Thais;  thou hast seen these filthy  snails crawling towards
  thee and defiling thee with their sticky sweat; thou hast seen others; like
  brutes;    sleeping     under    the  heels   of   their  slaves;    thou   hast   seen   them
  coupling like beasts on the carpet they had fouled with their vomit; thou
  hast   seen   a   foolish   old   man   shed   a   blood   yet   viler   than   the   wine   which
  flowed at his debauch; and at the end of the orgie throw himself in the face
  of   the   unforeseen   Christ。   Praise   be   to   God!   Thou   hast   seen   error   and
  recognised   how   hideous   it   was。   Thais;   Thais;   Thais;   recall   to   mind   the
  follies   of   these   philosophers;   and   say   if   thou   wilt   go   mad   with   them!
  Remember the looks; the gestures; the laughs of their fitting companions;
  those two lascivious and malicious strumpets; and say if thou wilt remain
  like unto them。〃
  '*'   Steps   on   the   Aventine   Hill;   leading   to   the   Tiber;   to   which   the
  bodies      of  executed      criminals     were    dragged      to  be   thrown      into   the
  river。   The    word     is  now    obsolete;    but   was    employed      by   Ben    Jonson
  (Sejanus) and Massinger (The Roman Actor)。TRANS。
  Thais; her heart stirred with horror and disgust at all she had seen and
  heard that night; and feeling the indifference and brutality; the malicious
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  jealousy of women; the heavy weight of useless hours; sighed。
  〃I am weary to death; O my father! Where shall I find rest? I feel that
  my face is burning; my head empty; and my arms are so tired that I should
  not have the strength to seize happiness were it within reach of my hand。〃
  Paphnutius gazed at her with loving pity。
  〃Courage; O my sister! The hour of rest rises for thee; white and pure
  as the vapours thou seest rise from the gardens and waters。〃
  They were near the house of Thais; and could see; above the wall; the
  tops    of  the   sycamore     and    fir  trees;  which    surrounded     the   Grotto    of
  Nymphs;   tremble   in   the   morning   breeze。   In   front   of   them   was   a   public
  square; deserted; and surrounded with steles and votive statues; and having
  at each end a semicircular marble seat; supported by figures of monsters。
  Thais fell on one of these seats。 Then; looking anxiously at the monk; she
  asked
  〃What must I do?〃
  〃Thou   must;〃   replied   the   monk;   〃follow   Him  who   has   come   to   seek
  thee。 He will separate thee from this present life; as the vintager gathers
  the   cluster   that   would   have   rotted   on   the   tree;   and   bears   it   to   the   wine…
  press to change it into perfumed wine。 Listen! there is; a dozen hours from
  Alexandria; towards the west; not far from the sea; a nunnery; the rules of
  which; a masterpiece of wisdom; deserve to be put in lyric verse and sung
  to the sound of the theorbo and tambourines。 It may truly be said that the
  women who are there; submissive to these rules; have their feet upon earth
  and their faces in heaven。 They desire to be poor; that Jesus may love them;
  modest; that He may gaze upon them; chaste that He may wed them。 He
  visits   them    every    day   in  the  guise   of  a  gardener;    His   feet  bare;   His
  beautiful hands openeven as He showed Himself to Mary at the entrance
  of the tomb。 I will conduct thee this very day to this nunnery; my Thais;
  and   soon;   commingling   with   these  holy  women;  thou   wilt   share   in   their
  heavenly conversation。 They await thee as a sister。 On the threshold of the
  convent;  their   mother;  the pious Albina;   will give thee   the   kiss of   peace
  and will say; 'My daughter; thou art welcome!' 〃
  The courtesan uttered a cry of amazement。
  〃Albina!   a   daughter   of   the   Caesars!   The   great   niece   of   the   Emperor
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  Carus!〃
  〃She herself! Albina;  who; born   in the purple;  has donned   the  serge;
  and a daughter of the masters of this world; has risen to the rank of servant
  of Jesus Christ。 She will be thy mother。〃
  Thais rose and said
  〃Take me to the house of Albina。〃
  And Paphnutius; completing his victory
  〃Surely I will conduct thee thither; and there I will place thee in a cell;
  where thou shalt weep for thy sins。 For it is not fitting that thou shouldst
  mingle with the daughters of Albina until thou art cleansed from thy sins。 I
  will seal the door; and there; a happy prisoner; thou wilt wait in tears till
  Jesus   Himself   come;   as   a   sign   of   pardon;   to   break   the   seal   that   I   have
  placed。 And doubt not that He will come; Thais; and how the flesh of thy
  soul will tremble when thou shalt feel the fingers of Light placed upon thy
  eyes to dry thy tears!〃
  Thais said a second time
  〃Take me; my father; to the house of Albina。〃
  His   heart   filled   with   joy;   Paphnutius   gazed   around   him;   and   tasted;
  almost without fear; the pleasure of contemplating the works of creation;
  his eyes   drank   in with   joy  God's light;   and   unknown breezes   fanned his
  cheeks。   Suddenly;   seeing   at   one   of   the   corners   of   the   public   square   the
  little   door   which   led   to   Thais'   house;   and   remembering   that   the   trees;
  whose   foliage   he   had   been   admiring;   shaded   the   courtesan's   garden;   he
  thought of all the impurities which there sullied the air; to…day so light and
  pure; and his soul was so grieved that bitter tears sprang to his eyes。
  〃Thais;〃 he said; 〃we must fly without looking back。 But we must not
  leave behind us the instruments; the witnesses; the accomplices of thy past
  crimes;   those   heavy   hangings;   those   beds;   carpets;   perfume   ce