第 16 节
作者:吻火      更新:2021-02-27 00:38      字数:9322
  meditated in solitude on theatrical art; or on the flight of years。
  On the afternoon after the games; Thais was reposing in the Grotto of
  Nymphs。 She had noticed in her mirror the first signs of the decay of her
  beauty; and she was frightened to think that white hair and wrinkles would
  at last come。 She vainly tried to comfort herself with the assurance that she
  could     recover     her   fresh    complexion      by    burning     certain   herbs    and
  pronouncing a few magic words。 A pitiless voice cried; 〃You will grow old
  Thais;     you   will  grow     old。〃  And    a  cold   sweat    of  terror   bedewed      her
  forehead。   Then;   on   looking   at   herself   again   in   the   mirror   with   infinite
  tenderness; she found that she was still beautiful and worthy to be loved。
  She     smiled    to   herself;   and    murmured;       〃There     is  not   a  woman       in
  Alexandria who can rival me in suppleness or grace or movement; or in
  splendour of arms; and the arms; my mirror; are the real chains of love!〃
  While   she   was   thus   thinking   she   saw   an   unknown   manthin;   with
  burning eyes and unkempt beard; and clad in a richly embroidered robe
  standing before her。 She let fall her mirror; and uttered a cry of fright。
  Paphnutius   stood   motionless;   and   seeing   how   beautiful   she   was;   he
  murmured this prayer from the bottom of his heart
  〃Grant; my God; that the face of this woman may not be a temptation;
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  but may prove salutary to Thy servant。〃
  Then; forcing himself to speak; he said
  〃Thais; I live in a far country; and the fame of thy beauty has led me to
  thee。   It   is   said   that   thou   art   the   most   clever   of   actresses   and   the   most
  irresistible   of   women。   That   which   is   related   of   thy   riches   and   thy   love
  affairs seems fabulous; and calls to mind the old story of Rhodope; whose
  marvellous   history   is   known   by   heart   to   all   the   boatmen   on   the   Nile。
  Therefore I was seized with a desire to know thee; and I see that the truth
  surpasses   the   rumour。   Thou   art   a   thousand   times   more   clever   and   more
  beautiful than is reported。 And now that I see thee; I say to myself; 'It is
  impossible to approach her without staggering like a drunken man。' 〃
  The words were feigned; but the monk; animated by pious zeal; uttered
  them with   real   warmth。 Thais   gazed;  without displeasure;  at   this strange
  being     who   had    frightened    her。  The    rough;   wild   aspect;   and   the   fiery
  glances of his eyes; astonished her。 She was curious to learn the state of
  life of a man so different from all others she had met。 She replied; with
  gentle raillery
  〃You seem prompt to admire; stranger。 Beware that my looks do not
  consume you to the bones! Beware of loving me!〃
  He said
  〃I love thee; O Thais!   I love   thee   more than   my  life; and   more   than
  myself。   For   thee   I   have   quitted   the   desert;   for   thee   my   lipsvowed   to
  silencehave pronounced profane words; for thee I have seen what I ought
  not to have seen; and heard what it was forbidden to me to hear; for thee
  my soul is troubled; my heart is open; and the thoughts gush out like the
  running springs at which the pigeons drink; for thee I have walked day and
  night across sandy deserts teeming with reptiles and vampires; for thee I
  have placed my bare foot on vipers and scorpions! Yes; I love thee! I love
  thee; but not like those men who; burning with the lusts of the flesh; come
  to thee like devouring wolves or furious bulls。 Thou art dear to them as is
  the gazelle to the lion。 Their ravening lusts will consume thee to the soul;
  O woman! I love thee in spirit and in truth; I love thee in God; and for ever
  and ever; that which is in my breast is named true zeal and divine charity。 I
  promise thee better things than drunkenness crowned with flowers or the
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  dreams of a brief night。 I promise thee holy feasts and celestial suppers。
  The   happiness   that   I   bring   thee   will   never   end;   it   is   unheard…of;   it   is
  ineffable; and such that if the happy of this world could only see a shadow
  of it they would die of wonder。〃
  Thais laughed mischievously。
  〃Friend;〃 she said; 〃show me this wonderful love。 Make haste! Long
  speeches would be an insult to my beauty; let us not lose a moment。 I am
  impatient to taste the felicity you announce; but; to say the truth; I fear that
  I   shall   always   remain   ignorant of   it;  and   that  all   you   have   promised   me
  will vanish in words。 It is easier to promise a great happiness than to give
  it。 Everyone has a talent of some sort。 I fancy that yours is to make long
  speeches。 You speak of an unknown love。 It is so long since kisses were
  first exchanged that it would be very extraordinary if there still remained
  secrets in love。 On this subject lovers know more than philosophers。〃
  〃Do not jest; Thais。 I bring thee the unknown love。〃
  〃Friend; you come too late。 I know every kind of love。〃
  〃The love  that I  bring thee  abounds with glory; whilst   the loves that
  thou knowest breed only shame。〃
  Thais   looked     at   him   with   an  angry   eye;   a   frown   gathered     on   her
  beautiful face。
  〃You are very bold; stranger; to offend your hostess。 Look at me; and
  say   if   I   resemble   a   creature   crushed   down   with   shame。   No;   I   am   not
  ashamed; and all others who live like me are not ashamed either; although
  they are not so beautiful or so rich as I am。 I have sown pleasure in my
  footsteps;   and   I   am   celebrated   for   that   all   over   the   world。   I   am   more
  powerful than the masters of the world。 I have seen them at my feet。 Look
  at   me;   look   at   these   little   feet;   thousands   of   men   would   pay   with   their
  blood for the happiness of kissing them。 I am not very big; and I do not
  occupy much space on the earth。 To those who look at me from the top of
  the Serapeium; when I pass in the street; I look like a grain of rice; but that
  grain   of   rice   has   caused   among   men;   griefs;   despairs;   hates;   and   crimes
  enough to have filled Tartarus。 Are you not mad to talk to me of shame
  when all around proclaims my glory?〃
  〃That   which   is   glory   in   the   eyes   of   men;   is   infamy   before   God。   O
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  woman;   we   have   been   nourished   in   countries   so   different;   that   it   is   not
  surprising we have neither the same language nor the same thoughts! Yet
  Heaven   is   my   witness   that   I   wish   to   agree   with   thee;   and   that   it   is   my
  intention not to leave thee until we share the same sentiments。 Who will
  inspire me with burning words that will melt thee like wax in my breath; O
  woman; that the fingers of my desires may mould thee as they wish? What
  virtue   will   deliver   thee   to   me;   O   dearest   of   souls;   that   the   spirit   which
  animates   me;   creating   thee   a   second   time;   may   imprint   on   thee   a   fresh
  beauty; and that thou mayest cry; weeping for joy; 'It is only now that I am
  born'? Who   will   cause   to   gush   in   my  heart   a   fount   of   Siloam;   in   which
  thou mayest bathe and recover thy first purity? Who will change me into a
  Jordan; the waves of which sprinkled on thee; will give thee life eternal?〃
  Thais was no longer angry。
  〃This   man;〃   she   thought;   〃talks   of   life   eternal   and   all   that   he   says
  seems   written   on   a   talisman。   No   doubt   he   is   a   mage;   and   knows   secret
  charms against old age and death;〃 and she resolved to offer herself to him。
  Therefore; pretending to be afraid of him; she retired a few steps to the end
  of the grotto; and sitting down on the edge of the bed; artfully pulled her
  tunic across her breast; then; motionless and mute and her eyes cast down;
  she   waited。   Her   long   eyelashes   made   a   soft   shadow   on   her   cheeks。   Her
  entire   attitude   expressed   modesty;   her   naked   feet   swung   gently;   and   she
  looked like a child sitting thinking on the bank of a brook。 But Paphnutius
  looked   at   her;   and   did   not   move。   His   trembling   knees   hardly   supported
  him; his tongue dried in his mouth; a terrible buzzing rang in his ears。 But
  all at once his sight failed; and he could see nothing before him but a thick
  cloud。 He thou