第 13 节
作者:吻火      更新:2021-02-27 00:38      字数:9322
  daughter of his soul; his darling flower。 When his hands were nailed to the
  cross; he uttered no complaint; but many times he sighed and murmured;
  〃I thirst。〃
  His agony lasted three days and three nights。 It seemed hardly possible
  that human flesh could have endured such prolonged torture。 Many times
  it was thought he was dead; the flies clustered on his eyelids; but suddenly
  he would reopen his bloodshot eyes。 On the morning of the fourth day; he
  sang; in a voice clearer and purer than that of a child
  〃Tell us; Mary; what thou hast seen where thou hast been?〃
  Then he smiled and said
  〃They   come;   the   angels   of   the   good   Lord。  They   bring   me   wine   and
  fruit。 How refreshing is the fanning of their wings!〃
  And he expired。
  His   features   preserved   in   death   an   expression   of   ecstatic   happiness。
  Even     the   soldiers   who     guarded    the   cross   were    struck    with   wonder。
  Vivantius;   accompanied   by   some   of   the   Christian   brethren;   claimed   the
  body; and buried it with the remains of the other martyrs in the crypt of St。
  John the Baptist; and the Church venerated the memory of Saint Theodore
  the Nubian。
  Three years later; Constantine; the conquerer of Maxentius; issued an
  edict which granted toleration to the Christians; and the believers were not
  henceforth persecuted; except by heretics。
  Thais had completed her eleventh year when her friend was tortured to
  death;    and   she   felt  deeply    saddened     and    shocked。    Her    soul  was    not
  sufficiently   pure   to   allow   her   to   understand   that   the   slave   Ahmes   was
  blessed both in his life and his death。 The idea sprang up in her little mind
  that no one can be good in this world except at the cost of the most terrible
  sufferings。 And she was afraid to be good; for her delicate flesh could not
  bear pain。
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  At an early age; she had given herself to the lads about the port; and
  she followed the old men who wandered about the quarter in the evening;
  and with what she received from them she bought cakes and trinkets。
  As   she   did   not   take   home   any  of   the   money  she   gained;   her   mother
  continually   ill…treated   her。   To   get   out   of   reach   of   her   mother's   arm;   she
  often ran; bare…footed; to the city walls; and hid with the lizards。 There she
  thought with envy of the ladies she had seen pass her; richly dressed; and
  in a litter surrounded by slaves。
  One day; when she had been beaten more brutally than usual; she was
  crouching      down    beside    the  gate;   motionless    and   sulky;   when    an   old
  woman stopped in front of her; looked at her for some moments in silence;
  and then cried
  〃Oh;   the   pretty   flower!   the   beautiful   child!   Happy   is   the   father   who
  begot thee; and the mother who brought thee into the world!〃
  Thais remained silent; with her eyes fixed on the ground。 Her eyelids
  were red; and it was evident she had been weeping。
  〃My   white   violet;〃   continued   the   old   woman;   〃is   not   your   mother
  happy to have nourished a little goddess like you; and does not your father;
  when he sees you; rejoice from the bottom of his heart?〃
  To which the child replied; as though talking to herself
  〃My father is a wine…skin swollen with wine; and my mother a greedy
  horse…leech。〃
  The old woman glanced to right and left; to see if she were observed。
  Then; in a fawning voice
  〃Sweet flowering hyacinth; beautiful drinker of light; come with me;
  and you shall have nothing to do but dance and smile。 I will feed you on
  honey cakes; and my sonmy own sonwill love you as his eyes。 My son
  is handsome and young; he has but little beard on his chin; his skin is soft;
  and he is; as they say; a little Acharnian pig。〃
  Thais replied
  〃I am quite willing to go with you。〃
  And she rose and followed the old woman out of the city。
  The old woman; who was named Moeroe; went from city to city with a
  troupe of girls and boys; whom she taught to dance; and then hired out to
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  rich people to appear at feasts。
  Guessing that Thais would soon develop into a most beautiful woman;
  she   taught    herwith   the   help   of   a  whipmusic    and   prosody;    and   she
  flogged with leather thongs those beautiful legs; when they did not move
  in time to the strains of the cithara。 Her sona decrepit abortion; of no age
  and no sexill…treated the child; on whom he vented the hate he had for all
  womankind。 Like the dancing…girls whose grace he affected; he knew; and
  taught   Thais;   the   art   of   pantomime;   and   how   to   mimic;   by   expression;
  gesture; and attitude; all human passions; and more especially the passions
  of love。 He was a clever master; though he disliked his work; but he was
  jealous of his pupil; and as soon as he discovered that she was born to give
  men pleasure; he scratched her cheeks; pinched her arms; or pricked her
  legs; as a spiteful girl would have done。 Thanks; however; to his lessons;
  she quickly became an excellent musician; pantomimist; and dancer。 The
  brutality of her master did not at all surprise her; it seemed natural to her
  to be badly treated。 She even felt some respect for the old woman;  who
  knew music and drank Greek wine。 Moeroe; when she came to Antioch;
  praised her pupil to the rich merchants of the city who gave banquets; both
  as a dancer and a flute…player。 Thais danced and pleased。 She accompanied
  the   rich   bankers;   when   they   left   the   table;   into   the   shady   groves   on   the
  banks of the Orontes。 She gave herself to all; for she knew nothing of the
  price    of  love。   But    one   night   that  she   had   danced     before   the   most
  fashionable young men of the city; the son of the pro…consul came to her;
  radiant with youth and pleasure; and said; in a voice that seemed redolent
  of kisses
  〃Why am  I not; Thais; the   wreath which   crowns your hair; the tunic
  which enfolds your beautiful form; the sandal on your pretty foot? I wish
  you to tread me under foot as a sandal; I wish my caresses to be your tunic
  and your wreath。 Come; sweet girl! come to my house; and let us forget
  the world。〃
  She    looked    at  him   whilst   he  was    speaking;    and   saw   that  he  was
  handsome。 Suddenly she felt a cold sweat on her face。 She turned green as
  grass; she reeled; a cloud descended before her eyes。 He again implored
  her to come with him; but she refused。 His ardent looks; his burning words
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  were vain; and when he took her in his arms to try and drag her away; she
  pushed him off rudely。 Then he implored her; and shed tears。 But a new;
  unknown;       and   invincible    passion     dominated     her   heart;   and   she   still
  resisted。
  〃What   madness!〃   said   the   guests。   〃Lollius   is   noble;   handsome;   and
  rich; and a dancing…girl treats him with scorn!〃
  Lollius returned home alone that night; quite love…sick。 He came in the
  morning; pale and red…eyed; and hung flowers at the dancing…girl's door。
  But Thais was frightened and troubled; she avoided Lollius; and yet he
  was continually in her mind。 She suffered; and she did not know the cause
  of her complaint。 She wondered why she had thus changed; and why she
  was melancholy。 She recoiled from all her lovers; they were hateful to her。
  She loathed the light of day; and lay on her bed all day; sobbing; and with
  her head buried in the pillows。 Lollius contrived to gain admittance; and
  came   many  times;   but   neither   his   pleadings   nor   his   execrations   had   any
  effect on the obdurate girl。 In his presence; she was as timid as a virgin;
  and would say nothing but
  〃I will not! I will not!〃
  But at the end of a fortnight she gave in; for she knew that she loved
  him;   she   went   to   his   house   and   lived   with   him。   They   were   supremely
  happy。 They  passed their days   shut up   together;  gazing into   each   other's
  eyes; and babbling a childish jargon。 In the evening; they walked on the
  lonely   banks   of   the   Orontes;   and   lost   themselves   in   the   laurel   woods。
  Sometimes they rose at dawn; to go and gather hyacinths on the slopes of
  Sulpicus。 They drank from the same cup; and he would take a grape from
  between her lips with his mouth。
  Moeroe came to Lollius; and cried and shrieked that Thais shou