第 4 节
作者:吻火      更新:2021-02-27 00:38      字数:9321
  the  heavy  eyelids   of   the   monster   quivered   and   the   granite   lips   painfully
  murmured; as though in echo to the man's voice; the holy name of Jesus
  Christ; therefore Paphnutius stretched out his right hand; and blessed the
  sphinx of Silsile。
  That being done; he resumed his journey; and the valley having grown
  wider;   he   saw   the   ruins   of   an   immense   city。   The   temples;   which   still
  remained standing; were supported by idols which served as columns; and…
  …by the   permission of   Godthese figures   with women's   heads and   cow's
  horns;   threw   on   Paphnutius   a   long   look   which   made   him   turn   pale。   He
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  walked thus seventeen days; his only food a few raw herbs; and he slept at
  night   in   some   ruined   palace;   amongst   the   wild   cats   and   Pharaoh's   rats;
  with which mingled sometimes; women whose bodies ended in a scaly tail。
  But   Paphnutius   knew   that   these   women   came   from   hell;   and   he   drove
  them away by making the sign of the cross。
  On the eighteenth day; he found; far from any village; a wretched hut
  made   of   palm   leaves;   and   half   buried   under   the   sand   which   had   been
  driven   by   the   desert   wind。   He   approached   it;   hoping   that   the   hut   was
  inhabited by some pious anchorite。 He saw inside the hovelfor there was
  no doora pitcher; a bunch of onions; and a bed of dried leaves。
  〃This must be the habitation of a hermit;〃 he said to himself。 〃Hermits
  are generally to be found near their hut; and I shall not fail to meet this one。
  I will give him the kiss of peace; even as the holy Anthony did when he
  came to the hermit Paul; and kissed him three times。 We will discourse of
  things eternal; and perhaps our Lord will send us; by one of His ravens; a
  crust of bread; which my host will willingly invite me to share with him。〃
  Whilst he was thus speaking to himself; he walked round the hut to see
  if he could find any one。 He had not walked a hundred paces when he saw
  a man seated; with his legs crossed; by the side of the river。 The man was
  naked; his hair and beard were quite white; and his body redder than brick。
  Paphnutius   felt   sure   this   must   be   the   hermit。   He   saluted   him   with   the
  words the monks are accustomed to use when they meet each other。
  〃Peace be with you; brother! May you some day taste the sweet joys of
  paradise。〃
  The man did not reply。 He remained motionless; and appeared not to
  have heard。 Paphnutius supposed this was due to one of those rhapsodies
  to which the saints are accustomed。 He knelt down; with his hands joined;
  by the side of the unknown; and remained thus in prayer till sunset。 Then;
  seeing that his companion had not moved; he said to him
  〃Father; if you are now out of the ecstasy in which you were lost; give
  me your blessing in our Lord Jesus Christ。〃
  The other replied without turning his head
  〃Stranger; I understand you not; and I know not the Lord Jesus Christ。〃
  〃What!〃      cried   Paphnutius。      〃The    prophets    have    announced      Him;
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  legions     of   martyrs    have    confessed      His   name;     Caesar    himself     has
  worshipped Him; and; but just now; I made the sphinx of Silsile proclaim
  His glory。 Is it possible that you do not know Him?〃
  〃Friend;〃 replied the other; 〃it is possible。 It would even be certain; if
  anything in this world were certain。〃
  Paphnutius was surprised and saddened by the incredible ignorance of
  the man。
  〃If   you   know   not   Jesus   Christ;〃   he   said;   〃all   your   works   serve   no
  purpose; and you will never rise to life immortal。〃
  The old man replied
  〃It is useless to act; or to abstain from acting。 It matters not whether
  we live or die。〃
  〃Eh; what?〃 asked Paphnutius。 〃Do you not desire to live through all
  eternity? But; tell me; do you not live in a hut in the desert as the hermits
  do?〃
  〃It seems so。〃
  〃Do I not see you naked; and lacking all things?〃
  〃It seems so。〃
  〃Do you not feed on roots; and live in chastity?〃
  〃It seems so。〃
  〃Have you not renounced all the vanities of this world?〃
  〃I have truly renounced all those vain things for which men commonly
  care。〃
  〃Then you are like me; poor; chaste; and solitary。 And you are not so
  as I amfor the love of God; and with a hope of celestial happiness! That I
  cannot   understand。 Why  are   you   virtuous   if   you   do   not   believe in   Jesus
  Christ? Why deprive yourself of the good things of this world if you do
  not hope to gain eternal riches in heaven?〃
  〃Stranger;   I   deprive   myself   of   nothing   which   is   good;   and   I   flatter
  myself that I have found a life which is satisfactory enough; though to
  speak more preciselythere is no such thing as a good or evil life。 Nothing
  is   itself;   either   virtuous   or   shameful;   just   or   unjust;   pleasant   or   painful;
  good or bad。 It is our opinion which gives those qualities to things; as salt
  gives savour to meats。〃
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  〃So   then;   according   to   you   there   is   no   certainty。 You   deny   the   truth
  which the idolaters themselves have   sought。 You lie in ignorancelike  a
  tired dog sleeping in the mud。〃
  〃Stranger; it is equally useless to abuse either dogs or philosophers。 We
  know not what dogs are or what we are。 We know nothing。〃
  〃Old man; do you belong; then; to the absurd sect of sceptics? Are you
  one of those miserable fools who alike deny movement and rest; and who
  know not how to distinguish between the light of the sun and the shadows
  of night?〃
  〃Friend; I am truly a sceptic; and of a sect which appears praiseworthy
  to me; though it seems ridiculous to you。 For the same things often assume
  different   appearances。   The   pyramids   of   Memphis   seem   at   sunrise   to   be
  cones   of   pink   light。 At   sunset   they   look   like   black   triangles   against   the
  illuminated sky。 But who shall solve the problem of their true nature? You
  reproach me with denying appearances; when; in fact; appearances are the
  only realities I recognise。 The sun seems to me illuminous; but its nature is
  unknown   to   me。   I   feel   that   fire   burnsbut   I   know   not   how   or   why。   My
  friend; you understand me badly。 Besides; it is indifferent to me whether I
  am understood one way or the other。〃
  〃Once more。 Why do you live on dates and onions in the desert? Why
  do you endure great hardships? I endure hardships equally great; and; like
  you; I live in abstinence and solitude。 But then it is to please God; and to
  earn   eternal   happiness。 And   that   is   a   reasonable   object;   for   it   is   wise   to
  suffer   now   for   a   future   gain。   It   is   senseless;   on   the   contrary;   to   expose
  yourself   voluntarily   to   useless   fatigue   and   vain   sufferings。   If   I   did   not
  believepardon my blasphemy; O uncreated Light!if I did not believe in
  the truth of that which God has taught us by the voice of the prophets; by
  the example of His Son; by the acts of the Apostles; by the authority of
  councils; and by the testimony of the martyrs;if I did not know that the
  sufferings of the body are necessary for the salvation of the soulif I were;
  like   thee;   lost   in   ignorance   of   sacred   mysteriesI   would   return   at   once
  amongst the men of this day; I would strive to acquire riches; that I might
  live in ease; like those who are happy in this world; and I would say to the
  votaries of pleasure; 'Come; my daughters; come; my servants; come and
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  pour out for me your wines; your philtres; your perfumes。' But you; foolish
  old man!   you   deprive yourself of   all these advantages;   you lose   without
  hope of   any  gain;   you   give   without   hope   of   any  return;  and   you   imitate
  foolishly the noble deeds of us anchorites; as an impudent monkey thinks;
  by smearing a wall; to copy the picture of a clever artist。 What; then; are
  your reasons; O most besotted of men?〃
  Paphnutius      spoke    with   violence    and   indignation;    but  the   old  man
  remained unmoved。
  〃Friend;〃 he replied; gently; 〃what matter the reasons of a dog sleeping
  in the dirt or a mischievous ape?〃
  Paphnutius' only aim