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作者:吻火      更新:2021-02-27 00:38      字数:9321
  temptations; he would not be half so much to be feared。 Alas! he excels in
  making   us sad。   Did he   not show   to our   father Anthony  a   black   child   of
  such   surpassing   beauty   that   the   very   sight   of   it   drew   tears?   With   God's
  help;   our   father Anthony   avoided   the   snares   of   the   demon。   I   knew   him
  when he lived amongst us; he was cheerful with his disciples; and never
  gave way to melancholy。 But did you not come; my brother; to talk to me
  of a design you had formed in your mind? Let me know what it isif; at
  least; this design has for its object the glory of God。〃
  〃Brother     Palemon;      what   I  propose    is  really   to  the  glory    of  God。
  Strengthen me with your counsel; for you know many things; and sin has
  never darkened the clearness of your mind。〃
  〃Brother   Paphnutius;   I   am   not   worthy   to   unloose   the   latchet   of   thy
  sandals; and my sins are as countless as the sands of the desert。 But I am
  old; and I will never refuse the help of my experience。〃
  〃I will confide in you; then; brother Palemon; that I am stricken with
  grief at the thought that there is; in Alexandria; a courtesan named Thais;
  who lives in sin; and is a subject of reproach unto the people。〃
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  〃Brother   Paphnutius;   that   is;   in   truth;   an   abomination   which   we   do
  well   to deplore。 There   are   many  women   amongst the   Gentiles   who   lead
  lives of that kind。 Have you thought of any remedy for this great evil?〃
  〃Brother Palemon; I will go to Alexandria and find this woman; and;
  with God's help; I will convert her; that is my intention; do you approve of
  it; brother?〃
  〃Brother     Paphnutius;      I  am   but  a   miserable    sinner;   but   our   father
  Anthony used to say; 'In whatsoever place thou art; hasten not to leave it to
  go elsewhere。' 〃
  〃Brother Palemon; do you disapprove of my project?〃
  〃Dear Paphnutius; God forbid that I should suspect my brother of bad
  intentions。 But our father Anthony also said; 'Fishes die on dry land; and
  so is it with those monks who leave their cells and mingle with the men of
  this world; amongst whom no good thing is to be found。' 〃
  Having   thus   spoken;   the old   man   pressed   his   foot on   the   spade;   and
  began to dig energetically round a fig tree laden with fruit。 As he was thus
  engaged; there was a rustling in the bushes; and an antelope leaped over
  the    hedge    which     surrounded      the   garden;     it  stopped;    surprised    and
  frightened; its delicate legs trembling; then ran up to the old man; and laid
  its pretty head on the breast of its friend。
  〃God be praised in the gazelle of the desert;〃 said Palemon。
  He went to his hut; the light…footed little animal trotting after him; and
  brought out some black bread; which the antelope ate out of his hand。
  Paphnutius remained thoughtful for some time; his eyes fixed upon the
  stones at his feet。 Then he slowly walked back to his cell; pondering on
  what he had heard。 A great struggle was going on in his mind。
  〃The   hermit   gives   good   advice;〃   he   said   to   himself;   〃the   spirit   of
  prudence   is   in   him。   And   he   doubts   the   wisdom   of   my   intention。   Yet   it
  would be cruel to leave Thais any longer in the power of the demon who
  possesses her。 May God advise and conduct me。〃
  As   he   was   walking   along;   he   saw   a   plover;   caught   in   the   net   that   a
  hunter had laid on the sand; and he knew that it was a hen bird; for he saw
  the male fly to the net; and tear the meshes one by one with its beak; until
  it   had   made   an   opening   by   which   its   mate   could   escape。  The   holy   man
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  watched       this   incident;    and    as;   by   virtue    of   his  holiness;     he   easily
  comprehended          the   mystic    sense    of  all   occurrences;      he  knew     that   the
  captive bird was no other than Thais; caught in the snares of sin; and that
  like the plover that had cut the hempen threads with its beakhe could; by
  pronouncing the word of power; break the invisible bonds by which Thais
  was held in sin。 Therefore he praised God; and was confirmed in his first
  resolution。 But then seeing the plover caught by the feet; and hampered by
  the net it had broken; he fell into uncertainty again。
  He   did   not   sleep   all   night;   and   before   dawn   he   had   a   vision。   Thais
  appeared to him again。 There was no expression of guilty pleasure on her
  face; nor was she dressed according to custom in transparent drapery。 She
  was enveloped in a shroud; which hid even a part of her face; so that the
  Abbot could see nothing but the two eyes; from which flowed white and
  heavy tears。
  At   this   sight   he   began   to   weep;   and   believing   that   this   vision   came
  from   God;   he   no   longer   hesitated。   He   rose;   seized   a   knotted   stick;   the
  symbol of the Christian faith; and left his cell; carefully closing the door;
  lest   the   animals   of   the   desert   and   the   birds   of   the   air   should   enter;   and
  befoul the copy of the Holy Scriptures which stood at the head of his bed。
  He   called   Flavian;   the   deacon;   and   gave   him   authority   over   the   other
  twenty…three   disciples   during   his   absence;   and   then;   clad   only   in   a   long
  cassock; he bent his steps towards the Nile; intending to follow the Libyan
  bank   to   the   city   founded   by   the   Macedonian   monarch。   He   walked   from
  dawn to eve; indifferent to fatigue; hunger; and thirst; the sun was already
  low on the horizon when he saw the dreadful river; the blood…red waters of
  which rolled between the rocks of gold and fire。
  He kept along the shore; begging his bread at the door of solitary huts
  for the love of God; and joyfully receiving insults; refusals; or threats。 He
  feared neither robbers nor wild beasts; but he took great care to avoid all
  the   towns   and   villages   he   came   near。   He   was   afraid   lest   he   should   see
  children playing at knuckle…bones before their father's house; or meet; by
  the   side   of   the   well;   women   in   blue   smocks;   who   might   put   down   their
  pitcher   and   smile   at   him。  All   things   are   dangerous   for   the   hermit;   it   is
  sometimes   a   danger   for   him   to   read   in   the   Scriptures   that   the   Divine
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  Master journeyed from town to town and supped with His disciples。 The
  virtues that the anchorites embroider so carefully on the tissue of faith; are
  as fragile as they are beautiful; a breath of ordinary life may tarnish their
  pleasant   colours。   For   that   reason;  Paphnutius   avoided   the  towns;   fearing
  lest his heart should soften at the sight of his fellow men。
  He journeyed along lonely roads。 When evening came; the murmuring
  of the breeze amidst the tamarisk trees made him shiver; and he pulled his
  hood   over  his   eyes   that   he   might   not   see   how   beautiful   all   things   were。
  After walking six days; he came to a place called Silsile。 There the river
  runs in a narrow valley; bordered by a double chain of granite mountains。
  It was there that the Egyptians; in the days when they worshipped demons;
  carved their idols。 Paphnutius saw an enormous sphinx carved in the solid
  rock。   Fearing   that   it   might   still   possess   some   diabolical   properties;   he
  made      the  sign   of   the  cross;   and   pronounced       the   name    of   Jesus;   he
  immediately saw a bat fly out of one of the monster's ears; and Paphnutius
  knew that he had driven out the evil spirits which had been for centuries in
  the figure。 His zeal increased; and picking up a large stone; he threw it in
  the   idol's   face。   Then   the   mysterious   face   of   the   sphinx   expressed   such
  profound   sadness   that   Paphnutius   was   moved。   In   fact;   the   expression   of
  superhuman grief on the stone visage would have touched even the most
  unfeeling man。 Therefore Paphnutius said to the sphinx
  〃O monster; be like the satyrs and centaurs our father Anthony saw in
  the desert; and confess the divinity of Jesus Christ; and I will bless thee in
  the name of the Father; the Son; and the Holy Ghost。〃
  When he had spoken a rosy light gleamed in the eyes of the sphinx;
  the  heavy  eyelids   of   the   monster   quivered   and   the   granite   lips   painfully