第 19 节
作者:悟来悟去      更新:2021-02-25 00:56      字数:9322
  had been drinking liquid firemy brain seemed all aflame。 No excess in
  wine had ever had this effect on me before in my life。 Was it the result of a
  stimulant   acting   upon   my   system   when   I   was   in   a   highly   excited   state?
  Was     my    stomach    in   a  particularly   disordered     condition?     Or   was   the
  champagne amazingly strong?
  〃Ex…brave of the French Army!〃 cried I; in a mad state of exhilaration;
  〃I am on fire! how are you? You have set me on fire。 Do you hear; my hero
  of Austerlitz?   Let   us   have   a   third   bottle   of   champagne   to   put   the   flame
  out!〃
  The    old   soldier   wagged     his   head;   rolled   his  goggle…eyes;     until   I
  expected to see them slip out of their sockets; placed his dirty forefinger
  by    the   side  of   his  broken     nose;   solemnly     ejaculated     〃Coffee!〃    and
  immediately ran off into an inner room。
  The    word    pronounced      by   the  eccentric    veteran   seemed     to  have    a
  magical effect on the rest of the company present。 With one accord they all
  rose to   depart。  Probably they  had   expected   to profit   by  my  intoxication;
  but finding that my new friend was benevolently bent on preventing me
  from     getting   dead    drunk;    had   now     abandoned      all  hope    of  thriving
  pleasantly on my  winnings。 Whatever their motive might be; at any rate
  they went away  in a   body。 When   the old soldier returned;   and sat   down
  again opposite to me at the table; we had the room to ourselves。 I could
  see the croupier; in a sort of vestibule which opened out of it; eating his
  supper in solitude。 The silence was now deeper than ever。
  A sudden change;  too; had   come over the   〃ex…brave〃。  He   assumed   a
  portentously solemn look; and when he spoke to me again; his speech was
  ornamented by no oaths; enforced by no finger…snapping; enlivened by no
  apostrophes or exclamations。
  〃Listen;   my   dear   sir;〃   said   he;   in   mysteriously   confidential   tones
  〃listen to an old soldier's advice。 I have been to the mistress of the house
  (a very charming woman; with a genius for cookery!) to impress on her
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  the necessity of making us some particularly strong and good coffee。 You
  must drink this coffee in order to get rid of your little amiable exaltation of
  spirits before you think of going homeyou /must/; my good and gracious
  friend! With   all that   money to   take   home to…night;  it is   a sacred   duty  to
  yourself to have your wits about you。 You are known to be a winner to an
  enormous extent by several gentlemen present to…night; who; in a certain
  point of view; are very worthy and excellent fellows; but they are mortal
  men;   my   dear   sir;   and   they   have   their   amiable   weaknesses。   Need   I   say
  more? Ah; no; no! you understand me! Now; this is what you must do
  send     for  a  cabriolet    when    you    feel  quite   well   againdraw      up   all  the
  windows when you get into itand tell the driver to take you home only
  through   the   large   and   well…   lighted   thoroughfares。   Do   this;   and   you   and
  your   money  will   be safe。  Do   this;   and   to…morrow  you   will   thank   an  old
  soldier for giving you a word of honest advice。〃
  Just   as   the   ex…brave   ended   his   oration   in very  lachrymose   tones;   the
  coffee came in; ready poured out in two cups。 My attentive friend handed
  me one of the cups with a bow。 I was parched with thirst; and drank it off
  at   a  draught。    Almost      instantly   afterwards;     I  was    seized   with    a  fit  of
  giddiness;      and   felt  more    completely      intoxicated     than    ever。  The    room
  whirled round and round furiously; the old soldier seemed to be regularly
  bobbing up and down before me like the piston of a steam…engine。 I was
  half    deafened      by   a  violent    singing     in  my     ears;   a  feeling    of   utter
  bewilderment;   helplessness;   idiocy;   overcame   me。   I   rose   from   my   chair;
  holding on by the table to keep my balance; and stammered out that I felt
  dreadfully unwellso unwell that I did not know how I was to get home。
  〃My dear friend;〃 answered the old soldierand even his voice seemed
  to   be   bobbing   up   and   down   as   he   spoke〃my   dear   friend;   it   would   be
  madness to go home in /your/ state; you would be sure to lose your money;
  you might be robbed and murdered with the greatest ease。 /I/ am going to
  sleep   here;   do   you   sleep   here;   toothey   make   up   capital   beds   in   this
  housetake one; sleep off the effects of the wine; and go home safely with
  your winnings to…morrowto…morrow; in broad daylight。〃
  I   had   but   two   ideas   left:   one;   that   I   must   never   let   go   hold   of   my
  handkerchief   full   of   money;   the   other;   that   I   must   lie   down   somewhere
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  immediately;   and   fall   off   into   a   comfortable   sleep。   So   I   agreed   to   the
  proposal      about    the  bed;   and    took   the   offered    arm    of  the   old  soldier;
  carrying my money with my disengaged hand。 Preceded by the croupier;
  we passed along some passages and up a flight of stairs into the bedroom
  which   I   was   to   occupy。   The   ex…brave   shook   me   warmly   by   the   hand;
  proposed   that   we   should   breakfast   together;   and   then;   followed   by   the
  croupier; left me for the night。
  I   ran   to   the   wash…hand   stand;   drank   some   of   the   water   in   my   jug;
  poured the rest out; and plunged my face into it; then sat down in a chair
  and tried to compose myself。 I soon felt better。 The change for my lungs;
  from   the   fetid   atmosphere   of   the   gambling…room   to   the   cool   air   of   the
  apartment   I   now   occupied;   the   almost   equally  refreshing   change   for   my
  eyes; from the glaring gaslights of the 〃salon〃 to the dim; quiet flicker of
  one   bedroom   candle;   aided   wonderfully   the   restorative   effects   of   cold
  water。 The giddiness left me; and I began to feel a little like a reasonable
  being   again。   My   first   thought   was   of   the   risk   of   sleeping   all   night   in   a
  gambling…house;   my   second;  of   the   still   greater   risk   of   trying   to   get   out
  after the house was closed; and of going home alone at night through the
  streets of Paris with a large sum of money about me。 I had slept in worse
  places than this on my travels; so I determined to lock; bolt; and barricade
  my door; and take my chance till the next morning。
  Accordingly; I secured myself against all intrusion; looked under the
  bed; and into the cupboard; tried the fastening of the window; and then;
  satisfied   that   I   had   taken   every   proper   precaution;   pulled   off   my   upper
  clothing;   put   my   light;   which   was   a   dim   one;   on   the   hearth   among   a
  feathery litter of wood…ashes; and got into bed; with the handkerchief full
  of money under my pillow。
  I soon felt not only that I could not go to sleep; but that I could not
  even close my eyes。 I was wide awake; and in a high fever。 Every nerve in
  my body trembledevery one of my senses seemed to be preternaturally
  sharpened。       I  tossed   and    rolled;   and   tried   every    kind   of  position;    and
  perseveringly sought out the cold corners of the bed; and all to no purpose。
  Now   I   thrust   my   arms   over   the   clothes;   now   I   poked   them   under   the
  clothes; now I violently shot my legs straight out down to the bottom of
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  the bed; now I convulsively coiled them up as near my chin as they would
  go;   now   I   shook   out   my   crumpled   pillow;   changed   it   to   the   cool   side;
  patted it flat; and lay down quietly on my back; now I fiercely doubled it
  in two; set it up on end; thrust it against the board of the bed; and tried a
  sitting posture。 Every effort was in vain; I groaned with vexation as I felt
  that I was in for a sleepless night。
  What could I do? I had no book to read。 And yet; unless I found out
  some      method     of  diverting     my   mind;     I  felt  certain   that  I  was    in  the
  condition      to   imagine      all  sorts   of   horrors;     to  rack    my    brain    with
  forebodings of every possible and impossible danger; in short; to pass the
  night in suffering all conceivable varieties of nervous terror。
  I raised myself on my elbow; and loo