第 16 节
作者:老山文学      更新:2021-02-25 00:24      字数:9322
  concealing it from him; acquitted him; moreover; from the acknowledgment
  due to such a benefit。  Such as have merited from me friendship and
  gratitude have never lost these by being no more; I have better and more
  carefully paid them when gone and ignorant of what I did; I speak most
  affectionately of my friends when they can no longer know it。  I have had
  a hundred quarrels in defending Pompey and for the cause of Brutus; this
  acquaintance yet continues betwixt us; we have no other hold even on
  present things but by fancy。  Finding myself of no use to this age; I
  throw myself back upon that other; and am so enamoured of it; that the
  free; just; and flourishing state of that ancient Rome (for I neither
  love it in its birth nor its old age) interests and impassionates me;
  and therefore I cannot so often revisit the sites of their streets and
  houses; and those ruins profound even to the Antipodes; that I am not
  interested in them。  Is it by nature; or through error of fancy; that the
  sight of places which we know to have been frequented and inhabited by
  persons whose memories are recommended in story; moves us in some sort
  more than to hear a recital of theiracts or to read their writings?
  〃Tanta vis admonitionis inest in locis。。。。Et id quidem in hac urbe
  infinitum; quacumque enim ingredimur; in aliquam historiam vestigium
  ponimus。〃
  '〃So great a power of reminiscence resides in places; and that truly
  in this city infinite; for which way soever we go; we find the
  traces of some story。〃Cicero; De Fin。; v。 I; 2。'
  It pleases me to consider their face; bearing; and vestments: I pronounce
  those great names betwixt my teeth; and make them ring in my ears:
  〃Ego illos veneror; et tantis nominibus semper assurgo。〃
  '〃I reverence them; and always rise to so great names。〃
  Seneca; Ep。; 64。'
  Of things that are in some part great and admirable; I admire even the
  common parts: I could wish to see them in familiar relations; walk; and
  sup。  It were ingratitude to contemn the relics and images of so many
  worthy and valiant men as I have seen live and die; and who; by their
  example; give us so many good instructions; knew we how to follow them。
  And; moreover; this very Rome that we now see; deserves to be beloved; so
  long and by so many titles allied to our crown; the only common and
  universal city; the sovereign magistrate that commands there is equally
  acknowledged elsewhere 'tis the metropolitan city of all the Christian
  nations the Spaniard and Frenchman is there at home: to be a prince of
  that state; there needs no more but to be of Christendom wheresoever。
  There is no place upon earth that heaven has embraced with such an
  influence and constancy of favour; her very ruins are grand and glorious;
  〃Laudandis pretiosior ruinis。〃
  '〃More precious from her glorious ruins。〃
  Sidonius Apollinaris; Carm。; xxiii。; Narba; v。 62。'
  she yet in her very tomb retains the marks and images of empire:
  〃Ut palam sit; uno in loco gaudentis opus esse naturx。〃
  '〃That it may be manifest that there is in one place the work of
  rejoicing nature。〃Pliny; Nat。 Hist。; iii。 5。'
  Some would blame and be angry at themselves to perceive themselves
  tickled with so vain a pleasure our humours are never too vain that are
  pleasant let them be what they may; if they constantly content a man of
  common understanding; I could not have the heart to blame him。
  I am very much obliged to Fortune; in that; to this very hour; she has
  offered me no outrage beyond what I was well able to bear。  Is it not her
  custom to let those live in quiet by whom she is not importuned?
  〃Quanto quisque sibi plum negaverit;
  A diis plum feret: nil cupientium
  Nudus castra peto 。  。  。  。
  Multa petentibus
  Desunt multa。〃
  '〃The more each man denies himself; the more the gods give him。
  Poor as I am; I seek the company of those who ask nothing; they who
  desire much will be deficient in much。〃
  Horace; Od。; iii。 16;21;42。'
  If she continue her favour; she will dismiss me very well satisfied:
  〃Nihil supra
  Deos lacesso。〃
  '〃I trouble the gods no farther。〃Horace; Od。; ii。 18; 11。'
  But beware a shock: there are a thousand who perish in the port。
  I easily comfort myself for what shall here happen when I shall be gone;
  present things trouble me enough:
  〃Fortunae caetera mando。〃
  '〃I leave the rest to fortune。〃Ovid; Metam。; ii。 140。'
  Besides; I have not that strong obligation that they say ties men to the
  future; by the issue that succeeds to their name and honour; and
  peradventure; ought less to covet them; if they are to be so much
  desired。  I am but too much tied to the world; and to this life; of
  myself: I am content to be in Fortune's power by circumstances properly
  necessary to my being; without otherwise enlarging her jurisdiction over
  me; and have never thought that to be without children was a defect that
  ought to render life less complete or less contented: a sterile vocation
  has its conveniences too。  Children are of the number of things that are
  not so much to be desired; especially now that it would be so hard to
  make them good:
  〃Bona jam nec nasci licet; ita corrupta Bunt semina;〃
  '〃Nothing good can be born now; the seed is so corrupt。〃
  Tertullian; De Pudicita。'
  and yet they are justly to be lamented by such as lose them when they
  have them。
  He who left me my house in charge; foretold that I was like to ruin it;
  considering my humour so little inclined to look after household affairs。
  But he was mistaken; for I am in the same condition now as when I first
  entered into it; or rather somewhat better; and yet without office or any
  place of profit。
  As to the rest; if Fortune has never done me any violent or extraordinary
  injury; neither has she done me any particular favour; whatever we derive
  from her bounty; was there above a hundred years before my time: I have;
  as to my own particular; no essential and solid good; that I stand
  indebted for to her liberality。  She has; indeed; done me some airy
  favours; honorary and titular favours; without substance; and those in
  truth she has not granted; but offered me; who; God knows; am all
  material; and who take nothing but what is real; and indeed massive too;
  for current pay: and who; if I durst confess so much; should not think
  avarice much less excusable than ambition: nor pain less to be avoided
  than shame; nor health less to be coveted than learning; or riches than
  nobility。
  Amongst those empty favours of hers; there is none that so much pleases
  vain humour natural to my country; as an authentic bull of a Roman
  burgess…ship; that was granted me when I was last there; glorious in
  seals and gilded letters; and granted with all gracious liberality。  And
  because 'tis couched in a mixt style; more or less favourable; and that I
  could have been glad to have seen a copy of it before it had passed the
  seal。
  Being before burgess of no city at all; I am glad to be created one of
  the most noble that ever was or ever shall be。  If other men would
  consider themselves at the rate I do; they would; as I do; discover
  themselves to be full of inanity and foppery; to rid myself of it; I
  cannot; without making myself away。  We are all steeped in it; as well
  one as another; but they who are not aware on't; have somewhat the better
  bargain; and yet I know not whether they have or no。
  This opinion and common usage to observe others more than ourselves has
  very much relieved us that way: 'tis a very displeasing object: we can
  there see nothing but misery and vanity: nature; that we may not be
  dejected with the sight of our own deformities; has wisely thrust the
  action of seeing outward。  We go forward with the current; but to turn
  back towards ourselves is a painful motion; so is the sea moved and
  troubled when the waves rush against one another。  Observe; says every
  one; the motions of the heavens; of public affairs; observe the quarrel
  of such a person; take notice of such a one's pulse; of such another's
  last will and testament; in sum; be always looking high or low; on one
  side; before or behind you。  It was a paradoxical command anciently given
  us by that god of Delphos: 〃Look into yourself; discover yourself; keep
  close to yourself; call back your mind and will; that elsewhere consume
  themselves into yourself; you run out; you spill yourself; carry a more
  steady hand: men betray you; men spill you; men steal you from yourself。
  Dost thou not see that this world we live in keeps all its sight confined
  within; and its eyes open to contemplate itself?  'Tis always vanity for
  thee; both within and without; but 'tis less vanity when less extended。
  Excepting thee; O man; said that god; everything studies itself first;
  and has bounds to its labours and desires; according to its need。  There
  is nothing so empty and necessitous as thou; who embracest the universe;
  thou art the invest