第 3 节
作者:老山文学      更新:2021-02-25 00:24      字数:9321
  conducts; which will very well carry on themselves without our care; and
  leave our own business at random; and Michael much more our concern than
  man。  Now I am; indeed; for the most part at home; but I would be there
  better pleased than anywhere else:
  〃Sit meae sedes utinam senectae;
  Sit modus lasso maris; et viarum;
  Militiaeque。〃
  '〃Let my old age have a fixed seat; let there be a limit to fatigues
  from the sea; journeys; warfare。〃Horace; Od。; ii。 6; 6。'
  I know not whether or no I shall bring it about。  I could wish that;
  instead of some other member of his succession; my father had resigned to
  me the passionate affection he had in his old age to his household
  affairs; he was happy in that he could accommodate his desires to his
  fortune; and satisfy himself with what he had; political philosophy may
  to much purpose condemn the meanness and sterility of my employment; if I
  can once come to relish it; as he did。  I am of opinion that the most
  honourable calling is to serve the public; and to be useful to many;
  〃Fructus enim ingenii et virtutis; omnisque praestantiae;
  tum maximus capitur; quum in proximum quemque confertur:〃
  '〃For the greatest enjoyment of evil and virtue; and of all
  excellence; is experienced when they are conferred on some one
  nearest。〃Cicero; De Amicil。; c。'
  for myself; I disclaim it; partly out of conscience (for where I see the
  weight that lies upon such employments; I perceive also the little means
  I have to supply it; and Plato; a master in all political government
  himself; nevertheless took care to abstain from it); and partly out of
  cowardice。  I content myself with enjoying the world without bustle;
  only…to live an excusable life; and such as may neither be a burden to
  myself nor to any other。
  Never did any man more fully and feebly suffer himself to be governed by
  a third person than I should do; had I any one to whom to entrust myself。
  One of my wishes at this time should be; to have a son…in…law that knew
  handsomely how to cherish my old age; and to rock it asleep; into whose
  hands I might deposit; in full sovereignty; the management and use of all
  my goods; that he might dispose of them as I do; and get by them what I
  get; provided that he on his part were truly acknowledging; and a friend。
  But we live in a world where loyalty of one's own children is unknown。
  He who has the charge of my purse in his travels; has it purely and
  without control; he could cheat me thoroughly; if he came to reckoning;
  and; if he is not a devil; I oblige him to deal faithfully with me by so
  entire a trust:
  〃Multi fallere do cuerunt; dum timent falli;
  et aliis jus peccandi suspicando fecerunt。〃
  '〃Many have taught others to deceive; while they fear to be
  deceived; and; by suspecting them; have given them a title to do
  ill。〃Seneca; Epist。; 3。'
  The most common security I take of my people is ignorance; I never
  presume any to be vicious till I have first found them so; and repose the
  most confidence in the younger sort; that I think are least spoiled by
  ill example。  I had rather be told at two months' end that I have spent
  four hundred crowns; than to have my ears battered every night with
  three; five; seven: and I have been; in this way; as little robbed as
  another。  It is true; I am willing enough not to see it; I; in some sort;
  purposely; harbour a kind of perplexed; uncertain knowledge of my money:
  up to a certain point; I am content to doubt。  One must leave a little
  room for the infidelity or indiscretion of a servant; if you have left
  enough; in gross; to do your business; let the overplus of Fortune's
  liberality run a little more freely at her mercy; 'tis the gleaner's
  portion。  After all; I do not so much value the fidelity of my people as
  I contemn their injury。  What a mean and ridiculous thing it is for a man
  to study his money; to delight in handling and telling it over and over
  again!  'Tis by this avarice makes its approaches。
  In eighteen years that I have had my estate in my; own hands; I could
  never prevail with myself either to read over my deeds or examine my
  principal affairs; which ought; of necessity; to pass under my knowledge
  and inspection。  'Tis not a philosophical disdain of worldly and
  transitory things; my taste is not purified to that degree; and I value
  them at as great a rate; at least; as they are worth; but 'tis; in truth;
  an inexcusable and childish laziness and negligence。  What would I not
  rather do than read a contract?  or than; as a slave to my own business;
  tumble over those dusty writings?  or; which is worse; those of another
  man; as so many do nowadays; to get money?  I grudge nothing but care and
  trouble; and endeavour nothing so much; as to be careless and at ease。
  I had been much fitter; I believe; could it have been without obligation
  and servitude; to have lived upon another man's fortune than my own: and;
  indeed; I do not know; when I examine it nearer; whether; according to my
  humour; what I have to suffer from my affairs and servants; has not in it
  something more abject; troublesome; and tormenting than there would be in
  serving a man better born than myself; who would govern me with a gentle
  rein; and a little at my own case:
  〃Servitus obedientia est fracti animi et abjecti;
  arbitrio carentis suo。〃
  '〃Servitude is the obedience of a subdued and abject mind; wanting
  its own free will。〃Cicero; Paradox; V。 I。'
  Crates did worse; who threw himself into the liberty of poverty; only to
  rid himself of the inconveniences and cares of his house。  This is what I
  would not do; I hate poverty equally with pain; but I could be content to
  change the kind of life I live for another that was humbler and less
  chargeable。
  When absent from home; I divest myself of all these thoughts; and should
  be less concerned for the ruin of a tower; than I am; when present; at
  the fall of a tile。  My mind is easily composed at distance; but suffers
  as much as that of the meanest peasant when I am at home; the reins of my
  bridle being wrongly put on; or a strap flapping against my leg; will
  keep me out of humour a day together。  I raise my courage; well enough
  against inconveniences: lift up my eyes I cannot:
  〃Sensus; o superi; sensus。〃
  '〃The senses; O ye gods; the senses。〃'
  I am at home responsible for whatever goes amiss。  Few masters (I speak
  of those of medium condition such as mine); and if there be any such;
  they are more happy; can rely so much upon another; but that the greatest
  part of the burden will lie upon their own shoulders。  This takes much
  from my grace in entertaining visitors; so that I have; peradventure;
  detained some rather out of expectation of a good dinner; than by my own
  behaviour; and lose much of the pleasure I ought to reap at my own house
  from the visitation and assembling of my friends。  The most ridiculous
  carriage of a gentleman in his own house; is to see him bustling about
  the business of the place; whispering one servant; and looking an angry
  look at another: it ought insensibly to slide along; and to represent an
  ordinary current; and I think it unhandsome to talk much to our guests of
  their entertainment; whether by way of bragging or excuse。  I love order
  and cleanliness
  〃Et cantharus et lanx
  Ostendunt mihi me〃
  '〃The dishes and the glasses shew me my own reflection。〃
  Horace; Ep。; i。 5; 23'
  more than abundance; and at home have an exact regard to necessity;
  little to outward show。  If a footman falls to cuffs at another man's
  house; or stumble and throw a dish before him as he is carrying it up;
  you only laugh and make a jest on't; you sleep whilst the master of the
  house is arranging a bill of fare with his steward for your morrow's
  entertainment。  I speak according as I do myself; quite appreciating;
  nevertheless; good husbandry in general; and how pleasant quiet and
  prosperous household management; carried regularly on; is to some
  natures; and not wishing to fasten my own errors and inconveniences to
  the thing; nor to give Plato the lie; who looks upon it as the most
  pleasant employment to every one to do his particular affairs without
  wrong to another。
  When I travel I have nothing to care for but myself; and the laying out
  my money; which is disposed of by one single precept; too many things are
  required to the raking it together; in that I understand nothing; in
  spending; I understand a little; and how to give some show to my expense;
  which is indeed its principal use; but I rely too ambitiously upon it;
  which renders it unequal and difform; and; moreover; immoderate in both
  the one and the other aspect; if it makes a show; if it serve the turn;
  I indiscreetly let it run; and as indiscreetly tie up my purse…strings;
  if it does not shine; and does not please me。  Whatever it be; whether
  art or nature; that imprints in us the condition of living by reference
  to others; it does us much more harm than good; we deprive ourselves of
  our own