第 20 节
作者:不受约束      更新:2021-02-25 00:19      字数:9321
  Nor little sons run up to snatch their kisses
  And touch with silent happiness thy heart。
  Thou shalt not speed in undertakings more;
  Nor be the warder of thine own no more。
  Poor wretch;〃 they say; 〃one hostile hour hath ta'en
  Wretchedly from thee all life's many guerdons;〃
  But add not; 〃yet no longer unto thee
  Remains a remnant of desire for them〃
  If this they only well perceived with mind
  And followed up with maxims; they would free
  Their state of man from anguish and from fear。
  〃O even as here thou art; aslumber in death;
  So shalt thou slumber down the rest of time;
  Released from every harrying pang。 But we;
  We have bewept thee with insatiate woe;
  Standing beside whilst on the awful pyre
  Thou wert made ashes; and no day shall take
  For us the eternal sorrow from the breast。〃
  But ask the mourner what's the bitterness
  That man should waste in an eternal grief;
  If; after all; the thing's but sleep and rest?
  For when the soul and frame together are sunk
  In slumber; no one then demands his self
  Or being。 Well; this sleep may be forever;
  Without desire of any selfhood more;
  For all it matters unto us asleep。
  Yet not at all do those primordial germs
  Roam round our members; at that time; afar
  From their own motions that produce our senses…
  Since; when he's startled from his sleep; a man
  Collects his senses。 Death is; then; to us
  Much less… if there can be a less than that
  Which is itself a nothing: for there comes
  Hard upon death a scattering more great
  Of the throng of matter; and no man wakes up
  On whom once falls the icy pause of life。
  This too; O often from the soul men say;
  Along their couches holding of the cups;
  With faces shaded by fresh wreaths awry:
  〃Brief is this fruit of joy to paltry man;
  Soon; soon departed; and thereafter; no;
  It may not be recalled。〃… As if; forsooth;
  It were their prime of evils in great death
  To parch; poor tongues; with thirst and arid drought;
  Or chafe for any lack。
  Once more; if Nature
  Should of a sudden send a voice abroad;
  And her own self inveigh against us so:
  〃Mortal; what hast thou of such grave concern
  That thou indulgest in too sickly plaints?
  Why this bemoaning and beweeping death?
  For if thy life aforetime and behind
  To thee was grateful; and not all thy good
  Was heaped as in sieve to flow away
  And perish unavailingly; why not;
  Even like a banqueter; depart the halls;
  Laden with life? why not with mind content
  Take now; thou fool; thy unafflicted rest?
  But if whatever thou enjoyed hath been
  Lavished and lost; and life is now offence;
  Why seekest more to add… which in its turn
  Will perish foully and fall out in vain?
  O why not rather make an end of life;
  Of labour? For all I may devise or find
  To pleasure thee is nothing: all things are
  The same forever。 Though not yet thy body
  Wrinkles with years; nor yet the frame exhausts
  Outworn; still things abide the same; even if
  Thou goest on to conquer all of time
  With length of days; yea; if thou never diest〃…
  What were our answer; but that Nature here
  Urges just suit and in her words lays down
  True cause of action? Yet should one complain;
  Riper in years and elder; and lament;
  Poor devil; his death more sorely than is fit;
  Then would she not; with greater right; on him
  Cry out; inveighing with a voice more shrill:
  〃Off with thy tears; and choke thy whines; buffoon!
  Thou wrinklest… after thou hast had the sum
  Of the guerdons of life; yet; since thou cravest ever
  What's not at hand; contemning present good;
  That life has slipped away; unperfected
  And unavailing unto thee。 And now;
  Or ere thou guessed it; death beside thy head
  Stands… and before thou canst be going home
  Sated and laden with the goodly feast。
  But now yield all that's alien to thine age;…
  Up; with good grace! make room for sons: thou must。〃
  Justly; I fancy; would she reason thus;
  Justly inveigh and gird: since ever the old
  Outcrowded by the new gives way; and ever
  The one thing from the others is repaired。
  Nor no man is consigned to the abyss
  Of Tartarus; the black。 For stuff must be;
  That thus the after…generations grow;…
  Though these; their life completed; follow thee;
  And thus like thee are generations all…
  Already fallen; or some time to fall。
  So one thing from another rises ever;
  And in fee…simple life is given to none;
  But unto all mere usufruct。
  Look back:
  Nothing to us was all fore…passed eld
  Of time the eternal; ere we had a birth。
  And Nature holds this like a mirror up
  Of time…to…be when we are dead and gone。
  And what is there so horrible appears?
  Now what is there so sad about it all?
  Is't not serener far than any sleep?
  And; verily; those tortures said to be
  In Acheron; the deep; they all are ours
  Here in this life。 No Tantalus; benumbed
  With baseless terror; as the fables tell;
  Fears the huge boulder hanging in the air:
  But; rather; in life an empty dread of Gods
  Urges mortality; and each one fears
  Such fall of fortune as may chance to him。
  Nor eat the vultures into Tityus
  Prostrate in Acheron; nor can they find;
  Forsooth; throughout eternal ages; aught
  To pry around for in that mighty breast。
  However hugely he extend his bulk…
  Who hath for outspread limbs not acres nine;
  But the whole earth… he shall not able be
  To bear eternal pain nor furnish food
  From his own frame forever。 But for us
  A Tityus is he whom vultures rend
  Prostrate in love; whom anxious anguish eats;
  Whom troubles of any unappeased desires
  Asunder rip。 We have before our eyes
  Here in this life also a Sisyphus
  In him who seeketh of the populace
  The rods; the axes fell; and evermore
  Retires a beaten and a gloomy man。
  For to seek after power… an empty name;
  Nor given at all… and ever in the search
  To endure a world of toil; O this it is
  To shove with shoulder up the hill a stone
  Which yet comes rolling back from off the top;
  And headlong makes for levels of the plain。
  Then to be always feeding an ingrate mind;
  Filling with good things; satisfying never…
  As do the seasons of the year for us;
  When they return and bring their progenies
  And varied charms; and we are never filled
  With the fruits of life… O this; I fancy; 'tis
  To pour; like those young virgins in the tale;
  Waters into a sieve; unfilled forever。
  。     。     。     。     。     。
  Cerberus and Furies; and that Lack of Light
  。     。     。     。     。     。
  Tartarus; out…belching from his mouth the surge
  Of horrible heat… the which are nowhere; nor
  Indeed can be: but in this life is fear
  Of retributions just and expiations
  For evil acts: the dungeon and the leap
  From that dread rock of infamy; the stripes;
  The executioners; the oaken rack;
  The iron plates; bitumen; and the torch。
  And even though these are absent; yet the mind;
  With a fore…fearing conscience; plies its goads
  And burns beneath the lash; nor sees meanwhile
  What terminus of ills; what end of pine
  Can ever be; and feareth lest the same
  But grow more heavy after death。 Of truth;
  The life of fools is Acheron on earth。
  This also to thy very self sometimes
  Repeat thou mayst: 〃Lo; even good Ancus left
  The sunshine with his eyes; in divers things
  A better man than thou; O worthless hind;
  And many other kings and lords of rule
  Thereafter have gone under; once who swayed
  O'er mighty peoples。 And he also; he…
  Who whilom paved a highway down the sea;
  And gave his legionaries thoroughfare
  Along the deep; and taught them how to cross
  The pools of brine afoot; and did contemn;
  Trampling upon it with his cavalry;
  The bellowings of ocean… poured his soul
  From dying body; as his light was ta'en。
  And Scipio's son; the thunderbolt of war;
  Horror of Carthage; gave his bones to earth;
  Like to the lowliest villein in the house。
  Add finders…out of sciences and arts;
  Add comrades of the Heliconian dames;
  Among whom Homer; sceptered o'er them all;
  Now lies in slumber sunken with the rest。
  Then; too; Democritus; when ripened eld
  Admonished him his memory waned away;
  Of own accord offered his head to death。
  Even Epicurus went; his light of life
  Run out; the man in genius who o'er…topped
  The human race; extinguishing all others;
  As sun; in ether arisen; all the stars。
  Wilt thou; then; dally; thou complain to go?…
  For whom already life's as good as dead;
  Whilst yet thou livest and lookest?… who in sleep
  Wastest thy life… time's major part; and snorest
  Even when awake; and ceasest not to see
  The stuff of dreams; and bearest a mind beset
  By baseless terror; nor discoverest oft
  What's wrong with thee; when; like a sotted wretch;
  Thou'rt jostled along by many crowding cares;
  And wanderest reeling round; with mind aswim。〃
  If men; in that same way as on the mind
  They feel the load that wearies with its weight;
  Could also know the causes whence it comes;
  And why so great the heap of ill on heart;
  O not in this sort would they live their life;
  As now so much we see them; knowing not
  What 'tis they want; and seeking ever and ever
  A change of place; as if to drop the burden。
  The man who sickens of his home goes out;
  Forth from his splendid halls; and straight… returns;
  Feeling i'faith no better off abroad。
  He races; driving his Gallic ponies along;
  Down