第 12 节
作者:不言败      更新:2021-02-25 00:12      字数:9322
  for instance; had been children; it would have been well enough for
  the child to measure their remoteness and their acts with his own
  magnificent measure。  But they were only men and demi…gods。  Thus
  they belong to him as he is now … a man; and not to him as he was
  once … a child。  It was quite wrong to lay the child's enormous ten
  years' rule along the path from our time to theirs; that path must
  be skipped by the nimble yard in the man's present possession。
  Decidedly the Argonauts are no subject for the boy。
  What; then?  Is the record of the race nothing but a bundle of such
  little times?  Nay; it seems that childhood; which created the
  illusion of ages; does actually prove it true。  Childhood is itself
  Antiquity … to every man his only Antiquity。  The recollection of
  childhood cannot make Abraham old again in the mind of a man of
  thirty…five; but the beginning of every life is older than Abraham。
  THERE is the abyss of time。  Let a man turn to his own childhood …
  no further … if he would renew his sense of remoteness; and of the
  mystery of change。
  For in childhood change does not go at that mere hasty amble; it
  rushes; but it has enormous space for its flight。  The child has an
  apprehension not only of things far off; but of things far apart; an
  illusive apprehension when he is learning 〃ancient〃 history … a real
  apprehension when he is conning his own immeasurable infancy。  If
  there is no historical Antiquity worth speaking of; this is the
  renewed and unnumbered Antiquity for all mankind。
  And it is of this … merely of this … that 〃ancient〃 history seems to
  partake。  Rome was founded when we began Roman history; and that is
  why it seems long ago。  Suppose the man of thirty…five heard; at
  that present age; for the first time of Romulus。  Why; Romulus would
  be nowhere。  But he built his wall; as a matter of fact; when every
  one was seven years old。  It is by good fortune that 〃ancient〃
  history is taught in the only ancient days。  So; for a time; the
  world is magical。
  Modern history does well enough for learning later。  But by learning
  something of antiquity in the first ten years; the child enlarges
  the sense of time for all mankind。  For even after the great
  illusion is over and history is re…measured; and all fancy and
  flight caught back and chastised; the enlarged sense remains
  enlarged。  The man remains capable of great spaces of time。  He will
  not find them in Egypt; it is true; but he finds them within; he
  contains them; he is aware of them。  History has fallen together;
  but childhood surrounds and encompasses history; stretches beyond
  and passes on the road to eternity。
  He has not passed in vain through the long ten years; the ten years
  that are the treasury of preceptions … the first。  The great
  disillusion shall never shorten those years; nor set nearer together
  the days that made them。  〃Far apart;〃 I have said; and that 〃far
  apart〃 is wonderful。  The past of childhood is not single; is not
  motionless; nor fixed in one point; it has summits a world away one
  from the other。  Year from year differs as the antiquity of Mexico
  from the antiquity of Chaldea。  And the man of thirty…five knows for
  ever afterwards what is flight; even though he finds no great
  historic distances to prove his wings by。
  There is a long and mysterious moment in long and mysterious
  childhood; which is the extremest distance known to any human fancy。
  Many other moments; many other hours; are long in the first ten
  years。  Hours of weariness are long … not with a mysterious length;
  but with a mere length of protraction; so that the things called
  minutes and half…hours by the elderly may be something else to their
  apparent contemporaries; the children。  The ancient moment is not
  merely one of these … it is a space not of long; but of
  immeasurable; time。  It is the moment of going to sleep。  The man
  knows that borderland; and has a contempt for it: he has long ceased
  to find antiquity there。  It has become a common enough margin of
  dreams to him; and he does not attend to its phantasies。  He knows
  that he has a frolic spirit in his head which has its way at those
  hours; but he is not interested in it。  It is the inexperienced
  child who passes with simplicity through the marginal country; and
  the thing he meets there is principally the yet further conception
  of illimitable time。
  His nurse's lullaby is translated into the mysteries of time。  She
  sings absolutely immemorial words。  It matters little what they may
  mean to waking ears; to the ears of a child going to sleep they tell
  of the beginning of the world。  He has fallen asleep to the sound of
  them all his life; and 〃all his life〃 means more than older speech
  can well express。
  Ancient custom is formed in a single spacious year。  A child is
  beset with long traditions。  And his infancy is so old; so old; that
  the mere adding of years in the life to follow will not seem to
  throw it further back … it is already so far。  That is; it looks as
  remote to the memory of a man of thirty as to that of a man of
  seventy。  What are a mere forty years of added later life in the
  contemplation of such a distance?  Pshaw!
  EYES
  There is nothing described with so little attention; with such
  slovenliness; or so without verification … albeit with so much
  confidence and word…painting … as the eyes of the men and women
  whose faces have been made memorable by their works。  The describer
  generally takes the first colour that seems to him probable。  The
  grey eyes of Coleridge are recorded in a proverbial line; and
  Procter repeats the word; in describing from the life。  Then
  Carlyle; who shows more signs of actual attention; and who caught a
  trick of Coleridge's pronunciation instantly; proving that with his
  hearing at least he was not slovenly; says that Coleridge's eyes
  were brown … 〃strange; brown; timid; yet earnest…looking eyes。〃  A
  Coleridge with brown eyes is one man; and a Coleridge with grey eyes
  another … and; as it were; more responsible。  As to Rossetti's eyes;
  the various inattention of his friends has assigned to them; in all
  the ready…made phrases; nearly all the colours。
  So with Charlotte Bronte。  Matthew Arnold seems to have thought the
  most probable thing to be said of her eyes was that they were grey
  and expressive。  Thus; after seeing them; does he describe them in
  one of his letters。  Whereas Mrs Gaskell; who shows signs of
  attention; says that Charlotte's eyes were a reddish hazel; made up
  of 〃a great variety of tints;〃 to be discovered by close looking。
  Almost all eves that are not brown are; in fact; of some such mixed
  colour; generally spotted in; and the effect is vivacious。  All the
  more if the speckled iris has a dark ring to enclose it。
  Nevertheless; the eye of mixed colour has always a definite
  character; and the mingling that looks green is quite unlike the
  mingling that looks grey; and among the greys there is endless
  difference。  Brown eyes alone are apart; unlike all others; but
  having no variety except in the degrees of their darkness。
  The colour of eyes seems to be significant of temperament; but as
  regards beauty there is little or nothing to choose among colours。
  It is not the eye; but the eyelid; that is important; beautiful;
  eloquent; full of secrets。  The eye has nothing but its colour; and
  all colours are fine within fine eyelids。  The eyelid has all the
  form; all the drawing; all the breadth and length; the square of
  great eyes irregularly wide; the long corners of narrow eyes; the
  pathetic outward droop; the delicate contrary suggestion of an
  upward turn at the outer corner; which Sir Joshua loved。
  It is the blood that is eloquent; and there is no sign of blood in
  the eye; but in the eyelid the blood hides itself and shows its
  signs。  All along its edges are the little muscles; living; that
  speak not only the obvious and emphatic things; but what
  reluctances; what perceptions; what ambiguities; what half…
  apprehensions; what doubts; what interceptions!  The eyelids
  confess; and reject; and refuse to reject。  They have expressed all
  things ever since man was man。
  And they express so much by seeming to hide or to reveal that which
  indeed expresses nothing。  For there is no message from the eye。  It
  has direction; it moves; in the service of the sense of sight; it
  receives the messages of the world。  But expression is outward; and
  the eye has it not。  There are no windows of the soul; there are
  only curtains; and these show all things by seeming to hide a little
  more; a little less。  They hide nothing but their own secrets。
  But; some may say; the eyes have emotion inasmuch as they betray it
  by the waxing and contracting of the pupils。  It is; however; the
  rarest thing; this opening and narrowing under any influences except
  those of darkness and light。  It does take place exceptionally; but
  I am doubtful whe