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男孩不逛街 更新:2021-02-25 00:10 字数:9322
upon the weakness of our common sinful nature。 But I should not be
truthful to you if I did not warn you that I am viewing with the
deepest spiritual concern a decided tendency toward sloth; and a
folding of the hands over matters that often; I fear; are spiritual
as well as temporal。 I would ask you to consider; in a spirit of
love; if it be not wise to rouse my apathetic flesh; so as to
strive; even with the feeblest exhortations; against this sloth in
othersif only to keep one's self from falling into the pit of
easy indulgence。〃
What answer he received is not known; but it is to be presumed that
he kept loyal faith with his physician; and gave himself up to
simple walks and rides and occasional meditation。 His solitude was
not broken in upon; curiosity was too active a vice; and induced
too much exertion for his indolent neighbors; and the Americano's
basking seclusion; though unlike the habits of his countrymen; did
not affect them。 The shopkeeper and innkeeper saluted him always
with a profound courtesy which awakened his slight resentment;
partly because he was conscious that it was grateful to him; and
partly that he felt he ought to have provoked in them a less
satisfied condition。
Once; when he had unwittingly passed the confines of his own
garden; through a gap in the Mission orchard; a lissome; black…
coated shadow slipped past him with an obeisance so profound and
gentle that he was startled at first into an awkward imitation of
it himself; and then into an angry self…examination。 He knew that
he loathed that long…skirted; womanlike garment; that dangling;
ostentatious symbol; that air of secrecy and mystery; and he
inflated his chest above his loosely tied cravat and unbuttoned
waistcoat with a contrasted sense of freedom。 But he was conscious
the next day of weakly avoiding a recurrence of this meeting; and
in his self…examination put it down to his self…disciplined
observance of his doctor's orders。 But when he was strong again;
and fitted for his Master's work; how strenuously he should improve
the occasion this gave him of attacking the Scarlet Woman among her
slaves and worshipers!
His afternoon meditations and the perusal of his only bookthe
Biblewere regularly broken in upon at about sunset by two or
three strokes from the cracked bell that hung in the open belfry
which reared itself beyond the gnarled pear tees。 He could not say
that it was aggressive or persistent; like his own church bells;
nor that it even expressed to him any religious sentiment。
Moreover; it was not a Sabbath〃 bell; but a DAILY one; and even
then seemed to be only a signal to ears easily responsive; rather
than a stern reminder。 And the hour was always a singularly
witching one。
It was when the sun had slipped from the glaring red roofs; and the
yellowing adobe of the Mission walls and the tall ranks of wild
oats on the hillside were all of the one color of old gold。 It was
when the quivering heat of the arroyo and dusty expanse of plaza
was blending with the soft breath of the sea fog that crept through
the clefts of the coast range; until a refreshing balm seemed to
fall like a benediction on all nature。 It was when the trade…wind…
swept and irritated surfaces of the rocky gorge beyond were soothed
with clinging vapors; when the pines above no longer rocked
monotonously; and the great undulating sea of the wild…oat plains
had gone down and was at rest。 It was at this hour; one afternoon;
that; with the released scents of the garden; there came to him a
strange and subtle perfume that was new to his senses。 He laid
aside his book; went into the garden; and; half…unconscious of his
trespass; passed through the Mission orchard and thence into the
little churchyard beside the church。
Looking at the strange inscriptions in an unfamiliar tongue; he was
singularly touched with the few cheap memorials lying upon the
graveslike childish toysand for the moment overlooked the
papistic emblems that accompanied them。 It struck him vaguely that
Death; the common leveler; had made even the symbols of a faith
eternal inferior to those simple records of undying memory and
affection; and he was for a moment startled into doubt。
He walked to the door of the church; to his surprise it was open。
Standing upon the threshold; he glanced inside; and stood for a
moment utterly bewildered。 In a man of refined taste and education
that bizarre and highly colored interior would have only provoked a
smile or shrug; to Stephen Masterton's highly emotional nature; but
artistic inexperience; strangely enough it was profoundly
impressive。 The heavily timbered; roughly hewn roof; barred with
alternate bands of blue and Indian red; the crimson hangings; the
gold and black draperies; affected this religious backwoodsman
exactly as they were designed to affect the heathen and acolytes
for whose conversion the temple had been reared。 He could scarcely
take his eyes from the tinsel…crowned Mother of Heaven; resplendent
in white and gold and glittering with jewels; the radiant shield
before the Host; illuminated by tall spectral candles in the
mysterious obscurity of the altar; dazzled him like the rayed disk
of the setting sun。
A gentle murmur; as of the distant sea; came from the altar。 In
his naive bewilderment he had not seen the few kneeling figures in
the shadow of column and aisle; it was not until a man; whom he
recognized as a muleteer he had seen that afternoon gambling and
drinking in the fonda; slipped by him like a shadow and sank upon
his knees in the center of the aisle that he realized the
overpowering truth。
HE; Stephen Masterton; was looking upon some rite of Popish
idolatry! He was turning quickly away when the keeper of the
tiendaa man of sloth and singently approached him from the
shadow of a column with a mute gesture; which he took to be one of
invitation。 A fierce protest of scorn and indignation swelled to
his throat; but died upon his lips。 Yet he had strength enough to
erect his gaunt emaciated figure; throwing out his long arms and
extended palms in the attitude of defiant exorcism; and then rush
swiftly from the church。 As he did so he thought he saw a faint
smile cross the shopkeeper's face; and a whispered exchange of
words with a neighboring worshiper of more exalted appearance came
to his ears。 But it was not intelligible to his comprehension。
The next day he wrote to his doctor in that quaint grandiloquence
of written speech with which the half…educated man balances the
slips of his colloquial phrasing:
Do not let the purgation of my flesh be unduly protracted。 What
with the sloth and idolatries of Baal and Ashteroth; which I see
daily around me; I feel that without a protest not only the flesh
but the spirit is mortified。 But my bodily strength is mercifully
returning; and I found myself yesterday able to take a long ride at
that hour which they here keep sacred for an idolatrous rite; under
the beautiful name of 〃The Angelus。〃 Thus do they bear false
witness to Him! Can you tell me the meaning of the Spanish words
〃Don Keyhotter〃? I am ignorant of these sensuous Southern
languages; and am aware that this is not the correct spelling; but
I have striven to give the phonetic equivalent。 It was used; I am
inclined to think; in reference to MYSELF; by an idolater。
P。S。You need not trouble yourself。 I have just ascertained that
the words in question were simply the title of an idle novel; and;
of course; could not possibly refer to ME。
Howbeit it was as 〃Don Quixote〃that is; the common Spaniard's
conception of the Knight of La Mancha; merely the simple fanatic
and madmanthat Mr。 Stephen Masterton ever after rode all
unconsciously through the streets of the Mission; amid the half…
pitying; half…smiling glances of the people。
In spite of his meditations; his single volume; and his habit of
retiring early; he found his evenings were growing lonely and
tedious。 He missed the prayer meeting; and; above all; the hymns。
He had a fine baritone voice; sympathetic; as may be imagined; but
not cultivated。 One night; in the seclusion of his garden; and
secure in his distance from other dwellings; he raised his voice in
a familiar camp…meeting hymn with a strong Covenanter's ring in the
chorus。 Growing bolder as he went on; he at last filled the quiet
night with the strenuous sweep of his chant。 Surprised at his own
fervor; he paused for a moment; listening; half frightened; half
ashamed of his outbreak。 But there was only the trilling of the
night wind in the leaves; or the far…off yelp of a coyote。
For a moment he thought he heard the metallic twang of a stringed
instrument in the Mission garden beyond his own; and remembered his
contiguity to the church with a stir of defiance。 But he was
relieved; nevertheless。 His pent…up emotion had found vent