第 2 节
作者:男孩不逛街      更新:2021-02-25 00:10      字数:9322
  upon the weakness of our common sinful nature。  But I should not be
  truthful to you if I did not warn you that I am viewing with the
  deepest spiritual concern a decided tendency toward sloth; and a
  folding of the hands over matters that often; I fear; are spiritual
  as well as temporal。  I would ask you to consider; in a spirit of
  love; if it be not wise to rouse my apathetic flesh; so as to
  strive; even with the feeblest exhortations; against this sloth in
  othersif only to keep one's self from falling into the pit of
  easy indulgence。〃
  What answer he received is not known; but it is to be presumed that
  he kept loyal faith with his physician; and gave himself up to
  simple walks and rides and occasional meditation。  His solitude was
  not broken in upon; curiosity was too active a vice; and induced
  too much exertion for his indolent neighbors; and the Americano's
  basking seclusion; though unlike the habits of his countrymen; did
  not affect them。  The shopkeeper and innkeeper saluted him always
  with a profound courtesy which awakened his slight resentment;
  partly because he was conscious that it was grateful to him; and
  partly that he felt he ought to have provoked in them a less
  satisfied condition。
  Once; when he had unwittingly passed the confines of his own
  garden; through a gap in the Mission orchard; a lissome; black…
  coated shadow slipped past him with an obeisance so profound and
  gentle that he was startled at first into an awkward imitation of
  it himself; and then into an angry self…examination。  He knew that
  he loathed that long…skirted; womanlike garment; that dangling;
  ostentatious symbol; that air of secrecy and mystery; and he
  inflated his chest above his loosely tied cravat and unbuttoned
  waistcoat with a contrasted sense of freedom。  But he was conscious
  the next day of weakly avoiding a recurrence of this meeting; and
  in his self…examination put it down to his self…disciplined
  observance of his doctor's orders。  But when he was strong again;
  and fitted for his Master's work; how strenuously he should improve
  the occasion this gave him of attacking the Scarlet Woman among her
  slaves and worshipers!
  His afternoon meditations and the perusal of his only bookthe
  Biblewere regularly broken in upon at about sunset by two or
  three strokes from the cracked bell that hung in the open belfry
  which reared itself beyond the gnarled pear tees。  He could not say
  that it was aggressive or persistent; like his own church bells;
  nor that it even expressed to him any religious sentiment。
  Moreover; it was not a Sabbath〃 bell; but a DAILY one; and even
  then seemed to be only a signal to ears easily responsive; rather
  than a stern reminder。  And the hour was always a singularly
  witching one。
  It was when the sun had slipped from the glaring red roofs; and the
  yellowing adobe of the Mission walls and the tall ranks of wild
  oats on the hillside were all of the one color of old gold。  It was
  when the quivering heat of the arroyo and dusty expanse of plaza
  was blending with the soft breath of the sea fog that crept through
  the clefts of the coast range; until a refreshing balm seemed to
  fall like a benediction on all nature。  It was when the trade…wind…
  swept and irritated surfaces of the rocky gorge beyond were soothed
  with clinging vapors; when the pines above no longer rocked
  monotonously; and the great undulating sea of the wild…oat plains
  had gone down and was at rest。  It was at this hour; one afternoon;
  that; with the released scents of the garden; there came to him a
  strange and subtle perfume that was new to his senses。  He laid
  aside his book; went into the garden; and; half…unconscious of his
  trespass; passed through the Mission orchard and thence into the
  little churchyard beside the church。
  Looking at the strange inscriptions in an unfamiliar tongue; he was
  singularly touched with the few cheap memorials lying upon the
  graveslike childish toysand for the moment overlooked the
  papistic emblems that accompanied them。  It struck him vaguely that
  Death; the common leveler; had made even the symbols of a faith
  eternal inferior to those simple records of undying memory and
  affection; and he was for a moment startled into doubt。
  He walked to the door of the church; to his surprise it was open。
  Standing upon the threshold; he glanced inside; and stood for a
  moment utterly bewildered。  In a man of refined taste and education
  that bizarre and highly colored interior would have only provoked a
  smile or shrug; to Stephen Masterton's highly emotional nature; but
  artistic inexperience; strangely enough it was profoundly
  impressive。  The heavily timbered; roughly hewn roof; barred with
  alternate bands of blue and Indian red; the crimson hangings; the
  gold and black draperies; affected this religious backwoodsman
  exactly as they were designed to affect the heathen and acolytes
  for whose conversion the temple had been reared。  He could scarcely
  take his eyes from the tinsel…crowned Mother of Heaven; resplendent
  in white and gold and glittering with jewels; the radiant shield
  before the Host; illuminated by tall spectral candles in the
  mysterious obscurity of the altar; dazzled him like the rayed disk
  of the setting sun。
  A gentle murmur; as of the distant sea; came from the altar。  In
  his naive bewilderment he had not seen the few kneeling figures in
  the shadow of column and aisle; it was not until a man; whom he
  recognized as a muleteer he had seen that afternoon gambling and
  drinking in the fonda; slipped by him like a shadow and sank upon
  his knees in the center of the aisle that he realized the
  overpowering truth。
  HE; Stephen Masterton; was looking upon some rite of Popish
  idolatry!  He was turning quickly away when the keeper of the
  tiendaa man of sloth and singently approached him from the
  shadow of a column with a mute gesture; which he took to be one of
  invitation。  A fierce protest of scorn and indignation swelled to
  his throat; but died upon his lips。  Yet he had strength enough to
  erect his gaunt emaciated figure; throwing out his long arms and
  extended palms in the attitude of defiant exorcism; and then rush
  swiftly from the church。  As he did so he thought he saw a faint
  smile cross the shopkeeper's face; and a whispered exchange of
  words with a neighboring worshiper of more exalted appearance came
  to his ears。  But it was not intelligible to his comprehension。
  The next day he wrote to his doctor in that quaint grandiloquence
  of written speech with which the half…educated man balances the
  slips of his colloquial phrasing:
  Do not let the purgation of my flesh be unduly protracted。  What
  with the sloth and idolatries of Baal and Ashteroth; which I see
  daily around me; I feel that without a protest not only the flesh
  but the spirit is mortified。  But my bodily strength is mercifully
  returning; and I found myself yesterday able to take a long ride at
  that hour which they here keep sacred for an idolatrous rite; under
  the beautiful name of 〃The Angelus。〃  Thus do they bear false
  witness to Him!  Can you tell me the meaning of the Spanish words
  〃Don Keyhotter〃?  I am ignorant of these sensuous Southern
  languages; and am aware that this is not the correct spelling; but
  I have striven to give the phonetic equivalent。  It was used; I am
  inclined to think; in reference to MYSELF; by an idolater。
  P。S。You need not trouble yourself。  I have just ascertained that
  the words in question were simply the title of an idle novel; and;
  of course; could not possibly refer to ME。
  Howbeit it was as 〃Don Quixote〃that is; the common Spaniard's
  conception of the Knight of La Mancha; merely the simple fanatic
  and madmanthat Mr。 Stephen Masterton ever after rode all
  unconsciously through the streets of the Mission; amid the half…
  pitying; half…smiling glances of the people。
  In spite of his meditations; his single volume; and his habit of
  retiring early; he found his evenings were growing lonely and
  tedious。  He missed the prayer meeting; and; above all; the hymns。
  He had a fine baritone voice; sympathetic; as may be imagined; but
  not cultivated。  One night; in the seclusion of his garden; and
  secure in his distance from other dwellings; he raised his voice in
  a familiar camp…meeting hymn with a strong Covenanter's ring in the
  chorus。  Growing bolder as he went on; he at last filled the quiet
  night with the strenuous sweep of his chant。  Surprised at his own
  fervor; he paused for a moment; listening; half frightened; half
  ashamed of his outbreak。  But there was only the trilling of the
  night wind in the leaves; or the far…off yelp of a coyote。
  For a moment he thought he heard the metallic twang of a stringed
  instrument in the Mission garden beyond his own; and remembered his
  contiguity to the church with a stir of defiance。  But he was
  relieved; nevertheless。  His pent…up emotion had found vent