第 21 节
作者:不落的滑翔翼      更新:2021-02-24 23:46      字数:9322
  immensity of nature。 Certain senses were absent in him; I think that; with all his justice; he had no conception of the importance of liberty; with all his intelligence; the boundaries of the atmosphere in which his mind could think at all were always close about him; with all his faith in the Word of God; he had no confidence in the Divine Benevolence; and with all his passionate piety; he habitually mistook fear for love。
  It was down on the shore; tramping along the pebbled terraces of the beach; clambering over the great blocks of fallen conglomerate which broke the white curve with rufous promontories that jutted into the sea; or; finally; bending over those shallow tidal pools in the limestone rocks which were our proper hunting… ground;it was in such circumstances as these that my Father became most easy; most happy; most human。 That hard look across his brows; which it wearied me to see; the look that came from sleepless anxiety of conscience; faded away; and left the dark countenance still always stern indeed; but serene and unupbraiding。 Those pools were our mirrors; in which; reflected in the dark hyaline and framed by the sleek and shining fronds of oar…weed there used to appear the shapes of a middle…aged man and a funny little boy; equally eager; and; I almost find the presumption to say; equally well prepared fog business。
  If anyone goes down to those shores now; if man or boy seeks to follow in our traces; let him realize at once; before he takes the trouble to roll up his sleeves; that his zeal will end in labour lost。 There is nothing; now; where in our days there was so much。 Then the rocks between tide and tide were submarine gardens of a beauty that seemed often to be fabulous; and was positively delusive; since; if we delicately lifted the weedcurtains of a windless pool; though we might for a moment see its sides and floor paven with living blossoms; ivory…white; rosy…red; grange and amethyst; yet all that panoply would melt away; furled into the hollow rock; if we so much as dropped a pebble in to disturb the magic dream。
  Half a century ago; in many parts of the coast of Devonshire and Cornwall; where the limestone at the water's edge is wrought into crevices and hollows; the tideline was; like Keats' Grecian vase; 'a still unravished bride of quietness'。 These cups and basins were always full; whether the tide was high or low; and the only way in which they were affected was that twice in the twenty…four hours they were replenished by cold streams from the great sea; and then twice were left brimming to be vivified by the temperate movement of the upper air。 They were living flower…beds; so exquisite in their perfection; that my Father; in spite of his scientific requirements; used not seldom to pause before he began to rifle them; ejaculating that it was indeed a pity to disturb such congregated beauty。 The antiquity of these rock…pools; and the infinite succession of the soft and radiant forms; sea… anemones; seaweeds; shells; fishes; which had inhabited them; undisturbed since the creation of the world; used to occupy my Father's fancy。 We burst in; he used to say; where no one had ever thought of intruding before; and if the Garden of Eden had been situate in Devonshire; Adam and Eve; stepping lightly down to bathe in the rainbow…coloured spray; would have seen the identical sights that we now saw;the great prawns gliding like transparent launches; anthea waving in the twilight its thick white waxen tentacles; and the fronds of the duke faintly streaming on the water like huge red banners in some reverted atmosphere。
  All this is long over and done with。 The ring of living beauty drawn about our shores was a very thin and fragile one。 It had existed all those centuries solely in consequence of the indifference; the blissful ignorance of man。 These rockbasins; fringed by corallines; filled with still water almost as pellucid as the upper air itself; thronged with beautiful sensitive forms of life; they exist no longer; they are all profaned; and emptied; and vulgarized。 An army of 'collectors' has passed over them; and ravaged every corner of them。 The fairy paradise has been violated; the exquisite product of centuries of natural selection has been crushed under the rough paw of well…meaning; idle…minded curiosity。 That my Father; himself so reverent; so conservative; had by the popularity of his books acquired the direct responsibility for a calamity that he had never anticipated became clear enough to himself before many years had passed; and cost him great chagrin。 No one will see again on the shore of England what I saw in my early childhood; the submarine vision of dark rocks; speckled and starred with an infinite variety of colour; and streamed over by silken flags of royal crimson and purple。
  In reviving these impressions; I am unable to give any exact chronological sequence to them。 These particular adventures began early in 1858; they reached their greatest intensity in the summer of 1859; and they did not altogether cease; so far as my Father was concerned; until nearly twenty years later。 But it was while he was composing what; as I am told by scientific men of today; continues to be his most valuable contribution to knowledge; his History of the British Sea…Anemones and Corals; that we worked together on the shore for a definite purpose; and the last instalment of that still…classic volume was ready for press by the close of 1859。
  The way in which my Father worked; in his most desperate escapades; was to wade breast…high into one of the huge pools; and examine the worm…eaten surface of the rock above and below the brim。 In such remote places spots where I could never venture being left; a slightly timorous Andromeda; chained to a safer level of the cliff in these extreme basins; there used often to lurk a marvellous profusion of animal and vegetable forms。 My Father would search for the roughest and most corroded points of rock; those offering the best refuge for a variety of creatures; and would then chisel off fragments as low down in the water as he could。 These pieces of rock were instantly plunged in the saltwater of jars which we had brought with us for the purpose。 When as much had been collected as we could carry away my Father always dragged about an immense square basket; the creak of whose handles I can still fancy that I hearwe turned to trudge up the long climb home。 Then all our prizes were spread out; face upward; in shallow pans of clean sea…water。
  In a few hours; when all dirt had subsided; and what living creatures we had brought seemed to have recovered their composure; my work began。 My eyes were extremely keen and powerful; though they were vexatiously near…sighted。 Of no use in examining objects at any distance; in investigating a minute surface; my vision was trained to be invaluable。 The shallow pan; with our spoils; would rest on a table near the window; and I; kneeling on a chair opposite the light; would lean over the surface until everything was within an inch or two of my eyes。 Often I bent; in my zeal; so far forward that the water touched the tip of my nose and gave me a little icy shock。 In this attitude; an idle spectator might have formed the impression that I was trying to wash my head and could not quite summon up resolution enough to plunge。 In this odd pose I would remain for a long time; holding my breath and examining with extreme care every atom of rock; every swirl of detritus。 This was a task which my Father could only perform by the help of a lens; with which; of course; he took care to supplement my examination。 But that my survey was of use; he has himself most handsomely testified in his Actinologia Britannica; where he expresses his debt to the 'keen and well…practised eye of my little son'。 Nor; if boasting is not to be excluded; is it every eminent biologist; every proud and masterful F。R。S。; who can lay his hand on his heart and swear that; before reaching the age of ten years; he had added; not merely a new species; but a new genus to the British fauna。 That however; the author of these pages can do; who; on 29 June 1859; discovered a tiny atom;and ran in the greatest agitation to announce the discovery of that object 'as a form with which he was unacquainted';which figures since then on all lists of sea…anemones as phellia murocincta; or the walled corklet。 Alas! that so fair a swallow should have made no biological summer in after…life。
  These delicious agitations by the edge of the salt…sea wave must have greatly improved my health; which however was still looked upon as fragile。 I was loaded with coats and comforters; and strolled out between Miss Marks and Mary Grace Burmington; a muffled ball of flannel。 This alone was enough to give me a look of delicacy which the 'saints'; in their blunt way; made no scruple of commenting upon to my face。 I was greatly impressed by a conversation held over my bed one evening by the servants。 Our cook; Susan; a person of enormous size; and Kate; the tattling; tiresome parlour…maid who waited upon us; on the summer evening I speak of were standingI cannot tell whyon each side of my bed。 I shut my eyes; and lay quite still; in order to escape conversing with them; and they spoke to one an