第 8 节
作者:莫莫言      更新:2021-02-24 23:44      字数:9322
  position because they never forgive themselves for it。
  Now it is impossible for a woman who is perpetually at war with
  herself and living in contradiction to her true life; to leave others
  in peace or refrain from envying their happines。 The whole range of
  these sad truths could be read in the dulled gray eyes of Mademoiselle
  Gamard; the dark circles that surrounded those eyes told of the inward
  conflicts of her solitary life。 All the wrinkles on her face were in
  straight lines。 The structure of her forehead and cheeks was rigid and
  prominent。 She allowed; with apparent indifference; certain scattered
  hairs; once brown; to grow upon her chin。 Her thin lips scarcely
  covered teeth that were too long; though still quite white。 Her
  complexion was dark; and her hair; originally black; had turned gray
  from frightful headaches;a misfortune which obliged her to wear a
  false front。 Not knowing how to put it on so as to conceal the
  junction between the real and the false; there were often little gaps
  between the border of her cap and the black string with which this
  semi…wig (always badly curled) was fastened to her head。 Her gown;
  silk in summer; merino in winter; and always brown in color; was
  invariably rather tight for her angular figure and thin arms。 Her
  collar; limp and bent; exposed too much the red skin of a neck which
  was ribbed like an oak…leaf in winter seen in the light。 Her origin
  explains to some extent the defects of her conformation。 She was the
  daughter of a wood…merchant; a peasant; who had risen from the ranks。
  She might have been plump at eighteen; but no trace remained of the
  fair complexion and pretty color of which she was wont to boast。 The
  tones of her flesh had taken the pallid tints so often seen in
  〃devotes。〃 Her aquiline nose was the feature that chiefly proclaimed
  the despotism of her nature; and the flat shape of her forehead the
  narrowness of her mind。 Her movements had an odd abruptness which
  precluded all grace; the mere motion with which she twitched her
  handkerchief from her bag and blew her nose with a loud noise would
  have shown her character and habits to a keen observer。 Being rather
  tall; she held herself very erect; and justified the remark of a
  naturalist who once explained the peculiar gait of old maids by
  declaring that their joints were consolidating。 When she walked her
  movements were not equally distributed over her whole person; as they
  are in other women; producing those graceful undulations which are so
  attractive。 She moved; so to speak; in a single block; seeming to
  advance at each step like the statue of the Commendatore。 When she
  felt in good humour she was apt; like other old maids; to tell of the
  chances she had had to marry; and of her fortunate discovery in time
  of the want of means of her lovers;proving; unconsciously; that her
  worldly judgment was better than her heart。
  This typical figure of the genus Old Maid was well framed by the
  grotesque designs; representing Turkish landscapes; on a varnished
  paper which decorated the walls of the dining…room。 Mademoiselle
  Gamard usually sat in this room; which boasted of two pier tables and
  a barometer。 Before the chair of each abbe was a little cushion
  covered with worsted work; the colors of which were faded。 The salon
  in which she received company was worthy of its mistress。 It will be
  visible to the eye at once when we state that it went by the name of
  the 〃yellow salon。〃 The curtains were yellow; the furniture and walls
  yellow; on the mantelpiece; surmounted by a mirror in a gilt frame;
  the candlesticks and a clock all of crystal struck the eye with sharp
  brilliancy。 As to the private apartment of Mademoiselle Gamard; no one
  had ever been permitted to look into it。 Conjecture alone suggested
  that it was full of odds and ends; worn…out furniture; and bits of
  stuff and pieces dear to the hearts of all old maids。
  Such was the woman destined to exert a vast influence on the last
  years of the Abbe Birotteau。
  For want of exercising in nature's own way the activity bestowed upon
  women; and yet impelled to spend it in some way or other; Mademoiselle
  Gamard had acquired the habit of using it in petty intrigues;
  provincial cabals; and those self…seeking schemes which occupy; sooner
  or later; the lives of all old maids。 Birotteau; unhappily; had
  developed in Sophie Gamard the only sentiments which it was possible
  for that poor creature to feel;those of hatred; a passion hitherto
  latent under the calmness and monotony of provincial life; but which
  was now to become the more intense because it was spent on petty
  things and in the midst of a narrow sphere。 Birotteau was one of those
  beings who are predestined to suffer because; being unable to see
  things; they cannot avoid them; to them the worst happens。
  〃Yes; it will be a fine day;〃 replied the canon; after a pause;
  apparently issuing from a revery and wishing to conform to the rules
  of politeness。
  Birotteau; frightened at the length of time which had elapsed between
  the question and the answer;for he had; for the first time in his
  life; taken his coffee without uttering a word;now left the dining…
  room where his heart was squeezed as if in a vise。 Feeling that the
  coffee lay heavy on his stomach; he went to walk in a sad mood among
  the narrow; box…edged garden paths which outlined a star in the little
  garden。 As he turned after making the first round; he saw Mademoiselle
  Gamard and the Abbe Troubert standing stock…still and silent on the
  threshold of the door;he with his arms folded and motionless like a
  statue on a tomb; she leaning against the blind door。 Both seemed to
  be gazing at him and counting his steps。 Nothing is so embarrassing to
  a creature naturally timid as to feel itself the object of a close
  examination; and if that is made by the eyes of hatred; the sort of
  suffering it causes is changed into intolerable martyrdom。
  Presently Birotteau fancied he was preventing Mademoiselle Gamard and
  the abbe from walking in the narrow path。 That idea; inspired equally
  by fear and kindness; became so strong that he left the garden and
  went to the church; thinking no longer of his canonry; so absorbed was
  he by the disheartening tyranny of the old maid。 Luckily for him he
  happened to find much to do at Saint…Gatien;several funerals; a
  marriage; and two baptisms。 Thus employed he forgot his griefs。 When
  his stomach told him that dinner was ready he drew out his watch and
  saw; not without alarm; that it was some minutes after four。 Being
  well aware of Mademoiselle Gamard's punctuality; he hurried back to
  the house。
  He saw at once on passing the kitchen door that the first course had
  been removed。 When he reached the dining…room the old maid said; with
  a tone of voice in which were mingled sour rebuke and joy at being
  able to blame him:
  〃It is half…past four; Monsieur Birotteau。 You know we are not to wait
  for you。〃
  The vicar looked at the clock in the dining…room; and saw at once; by
  the way the gauze which protected it from dust had been moved; that
  his landlady had opened the face of the dial and set the hands in
  advance of the clock of the cathedral。 He could make no remark。 Had he
  uttered his suspicion it would only have caused and apparently
  justified one of those fierce and eloquent expositions to which
  Mademoiselle Gamard; like other women of her class; knew very well how
  to give vent in particular cases。 The thousand and one annoyances
  which a servant will sometimes make her master bear; or a woman her
  husband; were instinctively divined by Mademoiselle Gamard and used
  upon Birotteau。 The way in which she delighted in plotting against the
  poor vicar's domestic comfort bore all the marks of what we must call
  a profoundly malignant genius。 Yet she so managed that she was never;
  so far as eye could see; in the wrong。
  III
  Eight days after the date on which this history began; the new
  arrangements of the household and the relations which grew up between
  the Abbe Birotteau and Mademoiselle Gamard revealed to the former the
  existence of a plot which had been hatching for the last six months。
  As long as the old maid exercised her vengeance in an underhand way;
  and the vicar was able to shut his eyes to it and refuse to believe in
  her malevolent intentions; the moral effect upon him was slight。 But
  since the affair of the candlestick and the altered clock; Birotteau
  would doubt no longer that he was under an eye of hatred turned fully
  upon him。 From that moment he fell into despair; seeing everywhere the
  skinny; clawlike fingers of Mademoiselle Gamard ready to hook into his
  heart。 The old maid; happy in a sentiment as fruitful of emotions as
  that of vengeance; enjoyed circling and swooping above the vicar as a
  bird of prey hovers and swoops above a field…mouse before pouncing
  down upon it and devouring it。 She had long since laid a plan which
  the po