第 5 节
作者:莫莫言      更新:2021-02-24 23:44      字数:9321
  cetera; et cetera。 Her speech was all the more humbly haughty and
  softly persuasive because Mademoiselle Salomon de Villenoix belonged
  to the most aristocatic society in Tours。 For though Mademoiselle
  Salomon came to Mademoiselle Gamard's house solely out of friendship
  for the vicar; the old maid triumphed in receiving her; and saw that;
  thanks to Birotteau; she was on the point of succeeding in her great
  desire to form a circle as numerous and as agreeable as those of
  Madame de Listomere; Mademoiselle Merlin de la Blottiere; and other
  devout ladies who were in the habit of receiving the pious and
  ecclesiastical society of Tours。
  But alas! the abbe Birotteau himself caused this cherished hope to
  miscarry。 Now if those persons who in the course of their lives have
  attained to the enjoyment of a long desired happiness and have
  therefore comprehended the joy of the vicar when he stepped into
  Chapeloud's vacant place; they will also have gained some faint idea
  of Mademoiselle Gamard's distress at the overthrow of her favorite
  plan。
  After accepting his happiness in the old maid's salon for six months
  with tolerable patience; Birotteau deserted the house of an evening;
  carrying with him Mademoiselle Salomon。 In spite of her utmost efforts
  the ambitious Gamard had recruited barely six visitors; whose faithful
  attendance was more than problematical; and boston could not be played
  night after night unless at least four persons were present。 The
  defection of her two principal guests obliged her therefore to make
  suitable apologies and return to her evening visiting among former
  friends; for old maids find their own company so distasteful that they
  prefer to seek the doubtful pleasures of society。
  The cause of this desertion is plain enough。 Although the vicar was
  one of those to whom heaven is hereafter to belong in virtue of the
  decree 〃Blessed are the poor in spirit;〃 he could not; like some
  fools; endure the annoyance that other fools caused him。 Persons
  without minds are like weeds that delight in good earth; they want to
  be amused by others; all the more because they are dull within。 The
  incarnation of ennui to which they are victims; joined to the need
  they feel of getting a divorce from themselves; produces that passion
  for moving about; for being somewhere else than where they are; which
  distinguishes their species;and also that of all beings devoid of
  sensitiveness; and those who have missed their destiny; or who suffer
  by their own fault。
  Without really fathoming the vacuity and emptiness of Mademoiselle
  Gamard's mind; or stating to himself the pettiness of her ideas; the
  poor abbe perceived; unfortunately too late; the defects which she
  shared with all old maids; and those which were peculiar to herself。
  The bad points of others show out so strongly against the good that
  they usually strike our eyes before they wound us。 This moral
  phenomenon might; at a pinch; be made to excuse the tendency we all
  have; more or less; to gossip。 It is so natural; socially speaking; to
  laugh at the failings of others that we ought to forgive the ridicule
  our own absurdities excite; and be annoyed only by calumny。 But in
  this instance the eyes of the good vicar never reached the optical
  range which enables men of the world to see and evade their
  neighbours' rough points。 Before he could be brought to perceive the
  faults of his landlady he was forced to undergo the warning which
  Nature gives to all her creaturespain。
  Old maids who have never yielded in their habits of life or in their
  characters to other lives and other characters; as the fate of woman
  exacts; have; as a general thing; a mania for making others give way
  to them。 In Mademoiselle Gamard this sentiment had degenerated into
  despotism; but a despotism that could only exercise itself on little
  things。 For instance (among a hundred other examples); the basket of
  counters placed on the card…table for the Abbe Birotteau was to stand
  exactly where she placed it; and the abbe annoyed her terribly by
  moving it; which he did nearly every evening。 How is this
  sensitiveness stupidly spent on nothings to be accounted for? what is
  the object of it? No one could have told in this case; Mademoiselle
  Gamard herself knew no reason for it。 The vicar; though a sheep by
  nature; did not like; any more than other sheep; to feel the crook too
  often; especially when it bristled with spikes。 Not seeking to explain
  to himself the patience of the Abbe Troubert; Birotteau simply
  withdrew from the happiness which Mademoiselle Gamard believed that
  she seasoned to his liking;for she regarded happiness as a thing to
  be made; like her preserves。 But the luckless abbe made the break in a
  clumsy way; the natural way of his own naive character; and it was not
  carried out without much nagging and sharp…shooting; which the Abbe
  Birotteau endeavored to bear as if he did not feel them。
  By the end of the first year of his sojourn under Mademoiselle
  Gamard's roof the vicar had resumed his former habits; spending two
  evenings a week with Madame de Listomere; three with Mademoiselle
  Salomon; and the other two with Mademoiselle Merlin de la Blottiere。
  These ladies belonged to the aristocratic circles of Tourainean
  society; to which Mademoiselle Gamard was not admitted。 Therefore the
  abbe's abandonment was the more insulting; because it made her feel
  her want of social value; all choice implies contempt for the thing
  rejected。
  〃Monsieur Birotteau does not find us agreeable enough;〃 said the Abbe
  Troubert to Mademoiselle Gamard's friends when she was forced to tell
  them that her 〃evenings〃 must be given up。 〃He is a man of the world;
  and a good liver! He wants fashion; luxury; witty conversation; and
  the scandals of the town。〃
  These words of course obliged Mademoiselle Gamard to defend herself at
  Birotteau's expense。
  〃He is not much a man of the world;〃 she said。 〃If it had not been for
  the Abbe Chapeloud he would never have been received at Madame de
  Listomere's。 Oh; what didn't I lose in losing the Abbe Chapeloud! Such
  an amiable man; and so easy to live with! In twelve whole years I
  never had the slightest difficulty or disagreement with him。〃
  Presented thus; the innocent abbe was considered by this bourgeois
  society; which secretly hated the aristocratic society; as a man
  essentially exacting and hard to get along with。 For a week
  Mademoiselle Gamard enjoyed the pleasure of being pitied by friends
  who; without really thinking one word of what they said; kept
  repeating to her: 〃How COULD he have turned against you?so kind and
  gentle as you are!〃 or; 〃Console yourself; dear Mademoiselle Gamard;
  you are so well known that〃 et cetera。
  Nevertheless; these friends; enchanted to escape one evening a week in
  the Cloister; the darkest; dreariest; and most out of the way corner
  in Tours; blessed the poor vicar in their hearts。
  Between persons who are perpetually in each other's company dislike or
  love increases daily; every moment brings reasons to love or hate each
  other more and more。 The Abbe Birotteau soon became intolerable to
  Mademoiselle Gamard。 Eighteen months after she had taken him to board;
  and at the moment when the worthy man was mistaking the silence of
  hatred for the peacefulness of content; and applauding himself for
  having; as he said; 〃managed matters so well with the old maid;〃 he
  was really the object of an underhand persecution and a vengeance
  deliberately planned。 The four marked circumstances of the locked
  door; the forgotten slippers; the lack of fire; and the removal of the
  candlestick; were the first signs that revealed to him a terrible
  enmity; the final consequences of which were destined not to strike
  him until the time came when they were irreparable。
  As he went to bed the worthy vicar worked his brainsquite uselessly;
  for he was soon at the end of themto explain to himself the
  extraordinarily discourteous conduct of Mademoiselle Gamard。 The fact
  was that; having all along acted logically in obeying the natural laws
  of his own egotism; it was impossible that he should now perceive his
  own faults towards his landlady。
  Though the great things of life are simple to understand and easy to
  express; the littlenesses require a vast number of details to explain
  them。 The foregoing events; which may be called a sort of prologue to
  this bourgeois drama; in which we shall find passions as violent as
  those excited by great interests; required this long introduction; and
  it would have been difficult for any faithful historian to shorten the
  account of these minute developments。
  II
  The next morning; on awaking; Birotteau thought so much of his
  prospective canonry that he forgot the four circumstances in which he
  had seen; the night before; such threatening prognostics of a future
  full of misery。 The vicar was not a man to get up without a fire。 He
  rang to