第 36 节
作者:浪剑飞舟      更新:2021-02-24 23:32      字数:9322
  lay for some moments looking curiously around the cabin; she had no
  doubt it had a worse look in the daylight; but somehow the
  firelight brought out a wondrous luxury of color in the bark floor
  and thatching。  Besides; it was not 〃smelly;〃 as she feared it
  would be; on the contrary the spicy aroma of the woods was always
  dominant。  She remembered that it was this that always made a
  greasy; oily picnic tolerable。  She raised herself on her elbow;
  seeing which her father continued confidently; 〃Perhaps; dear; if
  you sat up for a few moments you might be strong enough presently
  to walk down with me to the wagon。  It would save time。〃
  Amy instantly lay down again。  〃I don't know what you can be
  thinking of; papa。  After this shock really I don't feel as if I
  could STAND alone; much less WALK。  But; of course;〃 with pathetic
  resignation; 〃if you and Mr。 Waterhouse supported me; perhaps I
  might crawl a few steps at a time。〃
  〃Nonsense; Amy。  Of course; this man Tenbrook will carry you down
  as he brought you up。  Only I thought;but there are steps;
  they're coming now。  No!only HE。〃
  The sound of crackling in the underbrush was followed by a
  momentary darkening of the open door of the cabin。  It was the tall
  figure of the mountaineer。  But he did not even make the pretense
  of entering; standing at the door he delivered his news to the
  interior generally。  It was to the effect that everything was
  ready; and the two other men were even then harnessing the horses。
  Then he drew back into the darkness。
  〃Papa;〃 said Amy; in a sudden frightened voice; 〃I've lost my
  bracelet。〃
  〃Haven't you dropped it somewhere there in the bunk?〃 asked her
  father。
  〃No。  It's on the floor of the wagon。  I remember now it fell off
  when I tumbled!  And it will be trodden upon and crushed!  Couldn't
  you run down; ahead of me; and warn them; papa; dear?  Mr。 Tenbrook
  will have to go so slowly with me。〃  She tumbled out of the bunk
  with singular alacrity; shook herself and her skirts into
  instantaneous gracefulness; and fitted the velvet cap on her
  straying hair。  Then she said hurriedly; 〃Run quick; papa dear; and
  as you go; call him in and say I am quite ready。〃
  Thus adjured; the obedient parent disappeared in the darkness。
  With him also disappeared Miss Amy's singular alacrity。  Sitting
  down carefully again on the edge of the bunk; she leaned against
  the post with a certain indefinable languor that was as touching as
  it was graceful。  I need not tell any feminine readers that there
  was no dissimulation in all this;no coquetry; no ostentation;
  and that the young girl was perfectly sincere!  But the masculine
  reader might like to know that the simple fact was that; since she
  had regained consciousness; she had been filled with remorse for
  her capricious and ungenerous rejection of Tenbrook's proffered
  service。  More than that; she felt she had periled her life in that
  moment of folly; and that this manthis herohad saved her。  For
  hero he was; even if he did not fulfill her ideal;it was only SHE
  that was not a heroine。  Perhaps if he had been more like what she
  wished she would have felt this less keenly; love leaves little
  room for the exercise of moral ethics。  So Miss Amy Forester; being
  a good girl at bottom; and not exactly loving this man; felt
  towards him a frank and tender consideration which a more romantic
  passion would have shrunk from showing。  Consequently; when
  Tenbrook entered a moment later; he found Amy paler and more
  thoughtful; but; as he fancied; much prettier than before; looking
  up at him with eyes of the sincerest solicitude。
  Nevertheless; he remained standing near the door; as if indicating
  a possible intrusion; his face wearing a look of lowering
  abstraction。  It struck her that this might be the effect of his
  long hair and general uncouthness; and this only spurred her to a
  fuller recognition of his other qualities。
  〃I am afraid;〃 she began; with a charming embarrassment; 〃that
  instead of resting satisfied with your kindness in carrying me up
  here; I will have to burden you again with my dreadful weakness;
  and ask you to carry me down also。  But all this seems so little
  after what you have just done and for which I can never; NEVER hope
  to thank you!〃  She clasped her two little hands together; holding
  her gloves between; and brought them down upon her lap in a gesture
  as prettily helpless as it was unaffected。
  〃I have done scarcely anything;〃 he said; glancing away towards the
  fire; 〃andyour father has thanked me。〃
  〃You have saved my life!〃
  〃No! no!〃 he said quickly。  〃Not that!  You were in no danger;
  except from my rifle; had I missed。〃
  〃I see;〃 she said eagerly; with a little posthumous thrill at
  having been after all a kind of heroine; 〃and it was a wonderful
  shot; for you were so careful not to touch me。〃
  〃Please don't say any more;〃 he said; with a slight movement of
  half awkwardness; half impatience。  〃It was a rough job; but it's
  over now。〃
  He stopped and chafed his red hands abstractedly together。  She
  could see that he had evidently just washed themand the glaring
  ring was more in evidence than ever。  But the thought gave her an
  inspiration。
  〃You'll at least let me shake hands with you!〃 she said; extending
  both her own with childish frankness。
  〃Hold on; Miss Forester;〃 he said; with sudden desperation。  〃It
  ain't the square thing!  Look here!  I can't play this thing on
  you!I can't let you play it on me any longer!  You weren't in any
  danger;you NEVER were!  That bear was only a half…wild thing I
  helped to ra'r myself!  It's taken sugar from my hand night after
  night at the door of this cabin as it might have taken it from
  yours here if it was alive now。  It slept night after night in the
  brush; not fifty yards away。  The morning's never come yettill
  now;〃 he said hastily; to cover an odd break in his voice; 〃when it
  didn't brush along the whole side of this cabin to kinder wake me
  up and say 'So long;' afore it browsed away into the canyon。  Thar
  ain't a man along the whole Divide who didn't know it; thar ain't a
  man along the whole Divide that would have drawn a bead or pulled a
  trigger on it till now。  It never had an enemy but the bees; it
  never even knew why horses and cattle were frightened of it。  It
  wasn't much of a pet; you'd say; Miss Forester; it wasn't much to
  meet a lady's eye; but we of the woods must take our friends where
  we find 'em and of our own kind。  It ain't no fault of yours; Miss;
  that you didn't know it; it ain't no fault of yours what happened;
  but when it comes to your THANKING me for it; whyit'sit's
  rather rough; you seeand gets me。〃  He stopped short as
  desperately and as abruptly as he had begun; and stared blankly at
  the fire。
  A wave of pity and shame swept over the young girl and left its
  high tide on her cheek。  But even then it was closely followed by
  the feminine instinct of defence and defiance。  The REAL herothe
  GENTLEMANshe reasoned bitterly; would have spared her all this
  knowledge。
  〃But why;〃 she said; with knitted brows; 〃why; if you knew it was
  so precious and so harmlesswhy did you fire upon it?〃
  〃Because;〃 he said almost fiercely; turning upon her; 〃because you
  SCREAMED; and THEN I KNEW IT HAD FRIGHTENED YOU!〃  He stopped
  instantly as she momentarily recoiled from him; but the very
  brusqueness of his action had dislodged a tear from his dark eyes
  that fell warm on the back of her hand; and seemed to blot out the
  indignity。  〃Listen; Miss;〃 he went on hurriedly; as if to cover up
  his momentary unmanliness。  〃I knew the bear was missing to…night;
  and when I heard the horses scurrying about I reckoned what was up。
  I knew no harm could come to you; for the horses were unharnessed
  and away from the wagon。  I pelted down that trail ahead of them
  all like grim death; calkilatin' to get there before the bear; they
  wouldn't have understood me; I was too high up to call to the
  creature when he did come out; and I kinder hoped you wouldn't see
  him。  Even when he turned towards the wagon; I knew it wasn't YOU
  he was after; but suthin' else; and I kinder hoped; Miss; that you;
  being different and quicker…minded than the rest; would see it too。
  All the while them folks were yellin' behind me to fireas if I
  didn't know my work。  I was half…way downand then you screamed!
  And then I forgot everything;everything but standing clear of
  hitting you;and I fired。  I was that savage that I wanted to
  believe that he'd gone mad; and would have touched you; till I got
  down there and found the honey…pot lying alongside of him。  But
  there;it's all over now!  I wouldn't have let on a word to you
  only I couldn't bear to take YOUR THANKS for it; and I couldn't
  bear to have you thinking me a brute for dodgin' them。〃  He
  stopped; walked to the fire; leaned against the chimney under the
  shallow pretext of kicking the dull emb