第 26 节
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浪剑飞舟 更新:2021-02-24 23:32 字数:9322
was deficient; if she could not translate his coarse speech; it was
because it was the language of a larger world from which she had
been excluded。 To this world belonged the beautiful limbs she
gazed on;a very different world from that which had produced the
rheumatic deformities and useless mayhem of her husband; or the
provincially foppish garments of the deputy。 Sitting in the
hayloft together; where she had mounted for greater security; they
forgot themselves in his monologue of cheap vaporing; broken only
by her assenting smiles and her half…checked sighs。 The sharp
spices of the heated pine…shingles over their heads and the
fragrance of the clover…scented hay filled the close air around
them。 The sun was falling with the wind; but they heeded it not;
until the usual fateful premonition struck the woman; and saying 〃I
must go now;〃 she only half…unconsciously precipitated the end。
For; as she rose; he caught first her hand and then her waist; and
attempted to raise the face that was suddenly bending down as if
seeking to hide itself in the hay。 It was a brief struggle; ending
in a submission as sudden; and their lips met in a kiss; so eager
that it might have been impending for days instead of minutes。
〃Oh; Sue! where are ye?〃
It was her husband's voice; out of a darkness that they only then
realized。 The man threw her aside with a roughness that
momentarily shocked her above any sense of surprise or shame: SHE
would have confronted her husband in his arms;glorified and
translated;had he but kept her there。 Yet she answered; with a
quiet; level voice that astonished her lover; 〃Here! I'm just
coming down!〃 and walked coolly to the ladder。 Looking over; and
seeing her husband with the deputy standing in the barnyard; she
quickly returned; put her finger to her lips; made a gesture for
her companion to conceal himself in the hay again; and was turning
away; when; perhaps shamed by her superior calmness; he grasped her
hand tightly and whispered; 〃Come again tonight; dear; do!〃 She
hesitated; raised her hand suddenly to her lips; and then quickly
disengaging it; slipped down the ladder。
〃Ye haven't done much work yet as I kin see;〃 said Ira wearily。
〃Whitey and Red Tip 'the cows' are hangin' over the corral; just
waitin'。〃
〃The yellow hen we reckoned was lost is sittin' in the hayloft; and
mustn't be disturbed;〃 said Mrs。 Beasley; with decision; 〃and ye'll
have to take the hay from the stack to…night。 And;〃 with an arch
glance at the deputy; 〃as I don't see that you two have done much
either; you're just in time to help fodder down。〃
Setting the three men to work with the same bright audacity; the
task was soon completedparticularly as the deputy found no
opportunity for exclusive dalliance with Mrs。 Beasley。 She shut
the barn door herself; and led the way to the house; learning
incidentally that the deputy had abandoned the chase; was to occupy
a 〃shake…down〃 on the kitchen…floor that night with the constable;
and depart at daybreak。 The gloom of her husband's face had
settled into a look of heavy resignation and alternate glances of
watchfulness; which only seemed to inspire her with renewed
vivacity。 But the cooking of supper withdrew her disturbing
presence for a time from the room; and gave him some relief。 When
the meal was ready he sought further surcease from trouble in
copious draughts of whiskey; which she produced from a new bottle;
and even pressed upon the deputy in mischievous contrition for her
previous inhospitality。
〃Now I know that it wasn't whiskey only ye came for; I'll show you
that Sue Beasley is no slouch of a barkeeper either;〃 she said。
Then; rolling her sleeves above her pretty arms; she mixed a
cocktail in such delightful imitation of the fashionable
barkeeper's dexterity that her guests were convulsed with
admiration。 Even Ira was struck with this revelation of a
youthfulness that five years of household care had checked; but
never yet subdued。 He had forgotten that he had married a child。
Only once; when she glanced at the cheap clock on the mantel; had
he noticed another change; more remarkable still from its very
inconsistency with her burst of youthful spirits。 It was another
face that he saw;older and matured with an intensity of
abstraction that struck a chill to his heart。 It was not HIS Sue
that was standing there; but another Sue; wrought; as it seemed to
his morbid extravagance; by some one else's hand。
Yet there was another interval of relief when his wife; declaring
she was tired; and even jocosely confessing to some effect of the
liquor she had pretended to taste; went early to bed。 The deputy;
not finding the gloomy company of the husband to his taste;
presently ensconced himself on the floor; before the kitchen fire;
in the blankets that she had provided。 The constable followed his
example。 In a few moments the house was silent and sleeping; save
for Ira sitting alone; with his head sunk on his chest and his
hands gripping the arms of his chair before the dying embers of his
hearth。
He was trying; with the alternate quickness and inaction of an
inexperienced intellect and an imagination morbidly awakened; to
grasp the situation before him。 The common sense that had hitherto
governed his life told him that the deputy would go to…morrow; and
that there was nothing in his wife's conduct to show that her
coquetry and aberration would not pass as easily。 But it recurred
to him that she had never shown this coquetry or aberration to HIM
during their own brief courtship;that she had never looked or
acted like this before。 If this was love; she had never known it;
if it was only 〃women's ways;〃 as he had heard men say; and so
dangerously attractive; why had she not shown it to him? He
remembered that matter…of…fact wedding; the bride without timidity;
without blushes; without expectation beyond the transference of her
home to his。 Would it have been different with another man?with
the deputy; who had called this color and animation to her face?
What did it all mean? Were all married people like this? There
were the Westons; their neighbors;was Mrs。 Weston like Sue? But
he remembered that Mrs。 Weston had run away with Mr。 Weston from
her father's house。 It was what they called 〃a love match。〃 Would
Sue have run away with him? Would she now run away with?
The candle was guttering as he rose with a fierce starthis first
impulse of angerfrom the table。 He took another gulp of whiskey。
It tasted like water; its fire was quenched in the greater heat of
his blood。 He would go to bed。 Here a new and indefinable
timidity took possession of him; he remembered the strange look in
his wife's face。 It seemed suddenly as if the influence of the
sleeping stranger in the next room had not only isolated her from
him; but would make his presence in her bedroom an intrusion on
their hidden secrets。 He had to pass the open door of the kitchen。
The head of the unconscious deputy was close to Ira's heavy boot。
He had only to lift his heel to crush that ruddy; good…looking;
complacent face。 He hurried past him; up the creaking stairs。 His
wife lay still on one side of the bed; apparently asleep; her face
half…hidden in her loosened; fluffy hair。 It was well; for in the
vague shyness and restraint that was beginning to take possession
of him he felt he could not have spoken to her; or; if he had; it
would have been only to voice the horrible; unformulated things
that seemed to choke him。 He crept softly to the opposite side of
the bed; and began to undress。 As he pulled off his boots and
stockings; his eye fell upon his bare; malformed feet。 This caused
him to look at his maimed hand; to rise; drag himself across the
floor to the mirror; and gaze upon his lacerated ear。 She; this
prettily formed woman lying there; must have seen it often; she
must have known all these years that he was not like other men;
not like the deputy; with his tight riding…boots; his soft hand;
and the diamond that sparkled vulgarly on his fat little finger。 A
cold sweat broke over him。 He drew on his stockings again; lifted
the outer counterpane; and; half undressed; crept under it;
wrapping its corner around his maimed hand; as if to hide it from
the light。 Yet he felt that he saw things dimly; there was a
moisture on his cheeks and eyelids he could not account for; it
must be the whiskey 〃coming out。〃
His wife lay very still; she scarcely seemed to breathe。 What if
she should never breathe again; but die as the old Sue he knew; the
lanky girl he had married; unchanged and uncontaminated? It would
be better than this。 Yet at the same moment the picture was before
him of her pretty simulation of the barkeeper; of her white bared
arms and laughing eyes; all so new; so fresh to him! He tried to
listen to the slow ticking of the clock; the occa