第 26 节
作者:浪剑飞舟      更新:2021-02-24 23:32      字数:9322
  was deficient; if she could not translate his coarse speech; it was
  because it was the language of a larger world from which she had
  been excluded。  To this world belonged the beautiful limbs she
  gazed on;a very different world from that which had produced the
  rheumatic deformities and useless mayhem of her husband; or the
  provincially foppish garments of the deputy。  Sitting in the
  hayloft together; where she had mounted for greater security; they
  forgot themselves in his monologue of cheap vaporing; broken only
  by her assenting smiles and her half…checked sighs。  The sharp
  spices of the heated pine…shingles over their heads and the
  fragrance of the clover…scented hay filled the close air around
  them。  The sun was falling with the wind; but they heeded it not;
  until the usual fateful premonition struck the woman; and saying 〃I
  must go now;〃 she only half…unconsciously precipitated the end。
  For; as she rose; he caught first her hand and then her waist; and
  attempted to raise the face that was suddenly bending down as if
  seeking to hide itself in the hay。  It was a brief struggle; ending
  in a submission as sudden; and their lips met in a kiss; so eager
  that it might have been impending for days instead of minutes。
  〃Oh; Sue! where are ye?〃
  It was her husband's voice; out of a darkness that they only then
  realized。  The man threw her aside with a roughness that
  momentarily shocked her above any sense of surprise or shame: SHE
  would have confronted her husband in his arms;glorified and
  translated;had he but kept her there。  Yet she answered; with a
  quiet; level voice that astonished her lover; 〃Here!  I'm just
  coming down!〃 and walked coolly to the ladder。  Looking over; and
  seeing her husband with the deputy standing in the barnyard; she
  quickly returned; put her finger to her lips; made a gesture for
  her companion to conceal himself in the hay again; and was turning
  away; when; perhaps shamed by her superior calmness; he grasped her
  hand tightly and whispered; 〃Come again tonight; dear; do!〃  She
  hesitated; raised her hand suddenly to her lips; and then quickly
  disengaging it; slipped down the ladder。
  〃Ye haven't done much work yet as I kin see;〃 said Ira wearily。
  〃Whitey and Red Tip 'the cows' are hangin' over the corral; just
  waitin'。〃
  〃The yellow hen we reckoned was lost is sittin' in the hayloft; and
  mustn't be disturbed;〃 said Mrs。 Beasley; with decision; 〃and ye'll
  have to take the hay from the stack to…night。  And;〃 with an arch
  glance at the deputy; 〃as I don't see that you two have done much
  either; you're just in time to help fodder down。〃
  Setting the three men to work with the same bright audacity; the
  task was soon completedparticularly as the deputy found no
  opportunity for exclusive dalliance with Mrs。 Beasley。  She shut
  the barn door herself; and led the way to the house; learning
  incidentally that the deputy had abandoned the chase; was to occupy
  a 〃shake…down〃 on the kitchen…floor that night with the constable;
  and depart at daybreak。  The gloom of her husband's face had
  settled into a look of heavy resignation and alternate glances of
  watchfulness; which only seemed to inspire her with renewed
  vivacity。  But the cooking of supper withdrew her disturbing
  presence for a time from the room; and gave him some relief。  When
  the meal was ready he sought further surcease from trouble in
  copious draughts of whiskey; which she produced from a new bottle;
  and even pressed upon the deputy in mischievous contrition for her
  previous inhospitality。
  〃Now I know that it wasn't whiskey only ye came for; I'll show you
  that Sue Beasley is no slouch of a barkeeper either;〃 she said。
  Then; rolling her sleeves above her pretty arms; she mixed a
  cocktail in such delightful imitation of the fashionable
  barkeeper's dexterity that her guests were convulsed with
  admiration。  Even Ira was struck with this revelation of a
  youthfulness that five years of household care had checked; but
  never yet subdued。  He had forgotten that he had married a child。
  Only once; when she glanced at the cheap clock on the mantel; had
  he noticed another change; more remarkable still from its very
  inconsistency with her burst of youthful spirits。  It was another
  face that he saw;older and matured with an intensity of
  abstraction that struck a chill to his heart。  It was not HIS Sue
  that was standing there; but another Sue; wrought; as it seemed to
  his morbid extravagance; by some one else's hand。
  Yet there was another interval of relief when his wife; declaring
  she was tired; and even jocosely confessing to some effect of the
  liquor she had pretended to taste; went early to bed。  The deputy;
  not finding the gloomy company of the husband to his taste;
  presently ensconced himself on the floor; before the kitchen fire;
  in the blankets that she had provided。  The constable followed his
  example。  In a few moments the house was silent and sleeping; save
  for Ira sitting alone; with his head sunk on his chest and his
  hands gripping the arms of his chair before the dying embers of his
  hearth。
  He was trying; with the alternate quickness and inaction of an
  inexperienced intellect and an imagination morbidly awakened; to
  grasp the situation before him。  The common sense that had hitherto
  governed his life told him that the deputy would go to…morrow; and
  that there was nothing in his wife's conduct to show that her
  coquetry and aberration would not pass as easily。  But it recurred
  to him that she had never shown this coquetry or aberration to HIM
  during their own brief courtship;that she had never looked or
  acted like this before。  If this was love; she had never known it;
  if it was only 〃women's ways;〃 as he had heard men say; and so
  dangerously attractive; why had she not shown it to him?  He
  remembered that matter…of…fact wedding; the bride without timidity;
  without blushes; without expectation beyond the transference of her
  home to his。  Would it have been different with another man?with
  the deputy; who had called this color and animation to her face?
  What did it all mean?  Were all married people like this?  There
  were the Westons; their neighbors;was Mrs。 Weston like Sue?  But
  he remembered that Mrs。 Weston had run away with Mr。 Weston from
  her father's house。  It was what they called 〃a love match。〃  Would
  Sue have run away with him?  Would she now run away with?
  The candle was guttering as he rose with a fierce starthis first
  impulse of angerfrom the table。  He took another gulp of whiskey。
  It tasted like water; its fire was quenched in the greater heat of
  his blood。  He would go to bed。  Here a new and indefinable
  timidity took possession of him; he remembered the strange look in
  his wife's face。  It seemed suddenly as if the influence of the
  sleeping stranger in the next room had not only isolated her from
  him; but would make his presence in her bedroom an intrusion on
  their hidden secrets。  He had to pass the open door of the kitchen。
  The head of the unconscious deputy was close to Ira's heavy boot。
  He had only to lift his heel to crush that ruddy; good…looking;
  complacent face。  He hurried past him; up the creaking stairs。  His
  wife lay still on one side of the bed; apparently asleep; her face
  half…hidden in her loosened; fluffy hair。  It was well; for in the
  vague shyness and restraint that was beginning to take possession
  of him he felt he could not have spoken to her; or; if he had; it
  would have been only to voice the horrible; unformulated things
  that seemed to choke him。  He crept softly to the opposite side of
  the bed; and began to undress。  As he pulled off his boots and
  stockings; his eye fell upon his bare; malformed feet。  This caused
  him to look at his maimed hand; to rise; drag himself across the
  floor to the mirror; and gaze upon his lacerated ear。  She; this
  prettily formed woman lying there; must have seen it often; she
  must have known all these years that he was not like other men;
  not like the deputy; with his tight riding…boots; his soft hand;
  and the diamond that sparkled vulgarly on his fat little finger。  A
  cold sweat broke over him。  He drew on his stockings again; lifted
  the outer counterpane; and; half undressed; crept under it;
  wrapping its corner around his maimed hand; as if to hide it from
  the light。  Yet he felt that he saw things dimly; there was a
  moisture on his cheeks and eyelids he could not account for; it
  must be the whiskey 〃coming out。〃
  His wife lay very still; she scarcely seemed to breathe。  What if
  she should never breathe again; but die as the old Sue he knew; the
  lanky girl he had married; unchanged and uncontaminated?  It would
  be better than this。  Yet at the same moment the picture was before
  him of her pretty simulation of the barkeeper; of her white bared
  arms and laughing eyes; all so new; so fresh to him!  He tried to
  listen to the slow ticking of the clock; the occa