第 20 节
作者:浪剑飞舟      更新:2021-02-24 23:32      字数:9322
  accompany her up the four flights to the landing of her apartment。
  Here he took leave of her with a grave courtesy that half pained;
  half pleased her。  She watched his broad shoulders and dangling
  sleeve as he went down the stairs; and then quickly turned; entered
  her room; and locked the door。  The smile had faded from her lips。
  Going to the window; she pressed her hot forehead against the cool
  glass and looked out upon the stars nearly level with the black
  roofs around her。  She stood there some moments until another star
  appeared higher up against the roof ridge; the star she was looking
  for。  But here the glass pane before her eyes became presently dim
  with moisture; she was obliged to rub it out with her handkerchief;
  yet; somehow; it soon became clouded; at which she turned sharply
  away and went to bed。
  But Miss Helen did not know that when she had looked after the
  retreating figure of her protector as he descended the stairs that
  night that he was really carrying away on those broad shoulders the
  character she had so laboriously gained during her four years'
  solitude。  For when she came down the next morning the concierge
  bowed to her with an air of easy; cynical abstraction; the result
  of a long conversation with his wife the night before。  He had
  taken Helen's part with a kindly cynicism。  〃Ah! what would youit
  was bound to come。  The affair of the Conservatoire had settled
  that。  The poor child could not starve; penniless; she could not
  marry。  Only why consort with other swallows under the eaves when
  she could have had a gilded cage on the first etage?〃  But girls
  were so foolishin their first affair; then it was always LOVE!
  The second time they were wiser。  And this maimed warrior and
  painter was as poor as she。  A compatriot; too; well; perhaps that
  saved some scandal; one could never know what the Americans were
  accustomed to do。  The first floor; which had been inclined to be
  civil to the young teacher; was more so; but less respectful; one
  or two young men were tentatively familiar until they looked in her
  gray eyes and remembered the broad shoulders of the painter。  Oddly
  enough; only Mademoiselle Fifine; of her own landing; exhibited any
  sympathy with her; and for the first time Helen was frightened。
  She did not show it; however; only she changed her lodgings the
  next day。  But before she left she had a few moments' conversation
  with the concierge and an exchange of a word or two with some of
  her fellow lodgers。  I have already hinted that the young lady had
  great precision of statement; she had a pretty turn for handling
  colloquial French and an incisive knowledge of French character。
  She left No。 34; Rue de Frivole; working itself into a white rage;
  but utterly undecided as to her real character。
  But all this and much more was presently blown away in the hot
  breath that swept the boulevards at the outburst of the Franco…
  German War; and Miss Helen Maynard disappeared from Paris with many
  of her fellow countrymen。  The excitement reached even a quaint old
  chateau in Brittany where Major Ostrander was painting。  The woman
  who was standing by his side as he sat before his easel on the
  broad terrace observed that he looked disturbed。
  〃What matters?〃 she said gently。  〃You have progressed so well in
  your work that you can finish it elsewhere。  I have no great desire
  to stay in France with a frontier garrisoned by troops while I have
  a villa in Switzerland where you could still be my guest。  Paris
  can teach you nothing more; my friend; you have only to create now
  and be famous。〃
  〃I must go to Paris;〃 he said quietly。  〃I have friends
  countrymenthere; who may want me now。〃
  〃If you mean the young singer of the Rue de Frivole; you have
  compromised her already。  You can do her no good。〃
  〃Madame!〃
  The pretty face which he had been familiar with for the past six
  weeks somehow seemed to change its character。  Under the mask of
  dazzling skin he fancied he saw the high cheek…bones and square
  Tartar angle; the brilliant eyes were even brighter than before;
  but they showed more of the white than he had ever seen in them。
  Nevertheless she smiled; with an equally stony revelation of her
  white teeth; yet said; still gently; 〃Forgive me if I thought our
  friendship justified me in being frank;perhaps too frank for my
  own good。〃
  She stopped as if half expecting an interruption; but as he
  remained looking wonderingly at her; she bit her lip; and went on:
  〃You have a great career before you。  Those who help you must do so
  without entangling you; a chain of roses may be as impeding as
  lead。  Until you are independent; youwho may in time compass
  everything yourselfwill need to be helped。  You know;〃 she added
  with a smile; 〃you have but one arm。〃
  〃In your kindness and appreciation you have made me forget it;〃 he
  stammered。  Yet he had a swift vision of the little bench at
  Versailles where he had NOT forgotten it; and as he glanced around
  the empty terrace where they stood he was struck with a fateful
  resemblance to it。
  〃And I should not remind you now of it;〃 she went on; 〃except to
  say that money can always take its place。  As in the fairy story;
  the prince must have a new arm made of gold。〃  She stopped; and
  then suddenly coming closer to him said; hurriedly and almost
  fiercely; 〃Can you not see that I am advising you against my
  interests;against myself?  Go; then; to Paris; and go quickly;
  before I change my mind。  Only if you do not find your friends
  there; remember you have always ONE here。〃  Before he could reply;
  or even understand that white face; she was gone。
  He left for Paris that afternoon。  He went directly to the Rue de
  Frivole; his old resolution to avoid Helen was blown to the winds
  in the prospect of losing her utterly。  But the concierge only knew
  that mademoiselle had left a day or two after monsieur had
  accompanied her home。  And; pointedly; there was another gentleman
  who had inquired eagerlyand bountifully as far as money wentfor
  any trace of the young lady。  It was a Russe。  The concierge smiled
  to himself at Ostrander's flushed cheek。  It served this one…armed;
  conceited American poseur right。  Mademoiselle was wiser in this
  SECOND affair。
  Ostrander did not finish his picture。  The princess sent him a
  cheque; which he coldly returned。  Nevertheless he had acquired
  through his Russian patronage a local fame which stood him well
  with the picture dealers;in spite of the excitement of the war。
  But his heart was no longer in his work; a fever of unrest seized
  him; which at another time might have wasted itself in mere
  dissipation。  Some of his fellow artists had already gone into the
  army。  After the first great reverses he offered his one arm and
  his military experience to that Paris which had given him a home。
  The old fighting instinct returned to him with a certain
  desperation he had never known before。  In the sorties from Paris
  the one…armed American became famous; until a few days before the
  capitulation; when he was struck down by a bullet through the lung;
  and left in a temporary hospital。  Here in the whirl and terror of
  Commune days he was forgotten; and when Paris revived under the
  republic he had disappeared as completely as his compatriot Helen。
  But Miss Helen Maynard had been only obscured and not extinguished。
  At the first outbreak of hostilities a few Americans had still kept
  giddy state among the ruins of the tottering empire。  A day or two
  after she left the Rue de Frivole she was invited by one of her
  wealthy former schoolmates to assist with her voice and talent at
  one of their extravagant entertainments。  〃You will understand;
  dear;〃 said Miss de Laine; with ingenious delicacy; as she eyed her
  old comrade's well…worn dress; 〃that Poppa expects to pay you
  professional prices; and it may be an opening for you among our
  other friends。〃
  〃I should not come otherwise; dear;〃 said Miss Helen with equal
  frankness。  But she played and sang very charmingly to the
  fashionable assembly in the Champs Elysees;so charmingly; indeed;
  that Miss de Laine patronizingly expatiated upon her worth and her
  better days in confidence to some of the guests。
  〃A most deserving creature;〃 said Miss de Laine to the dowager
  duchess of Soho; who was passing through Paris on her way to
  England; 〃you would hardly believe that Poppa knew her father when
  he was one of the richest men in South Carolina。〃
  〃Your father seems to have been very fortunate;〃 said the duchess
  quietly; 〃and so are YOU。  Introduce me。〃
  This not being exactly the reply that Miss de Laine expected; she
  momentarily hesitated: but the duchess profited by it to walk over
  to the piano and introduce herself。  When she rose to go she
  invited Helen to luncheon with her the next day。  〃Come early; my
  dear; and we'll have a long talk。〃  Helen pointed out hesitatingly
  that she was prac