第 78 节
作者:浮游云中      更新:2021-02-24 23:06      字数:9322
  supper。  But not a dish was set。  The ticking of the ancient clock only
  served to intensify the silence。  Janet entered; almost on tiptoe; made
  her way to the kitchen door; and looked in。  The stove was polished; the
  pans bright upon the wall; and Hannah was seated in a corner; her hands
  folded across a spotless apron。  Her scant hair was now pure white; her
  dress seemed to have fallen away from her wasted neck; which was like a
  trefoil column。
  〃Is that you; Janet?  You hain't seen anything of your father?〃
  The night before Janet had heard this question; and she had been puzzled
  as to its meaningwhether in the course of the day she had seen her
  father; or whether Hannah thought he was coming home。
  〃He's at the mill; mother。  You know he has to stay there。〃
  〃I know;〃 replied Hannah; in a tone faintly reminiscent of the old
  aspersion。  〃But I've got everything ready for him in case he should
  comeany timeif the strikers hain't killed him。〃
  〃But he's safe where he is。〃
  〃I presume they will try to kill him; before they get through;〃 Hannah
  continued evenly。  〃But in case he should come at any time; and I'm not
  here; you tell him all those Bumpus papers are put away in the drawer of
  that old chest; in the corner。  I can't think what he'd do without those
  papers。  That is;〃 she added; 〃if you're here yourself。〃
  〃Why shouldn't you be here?〃 asked Janet; rather sharply。
  〃I dunno; I seem to have got through。〃  She glanced helplessly around the
  kitchen。  〃There don't seem to be much left to keep me alive。。。。  I guess
  you'll be wanting your supper; won't you?  You hain't often home these
  dayswhatever it is you're doing。  I didn't expect you。〃
  Janet did not answer at once。
  〃II have to go out again; mother;〃 she said。
  Hannah accepted the answer as she had accepted every other negative in
  life; great and small。
  〃Well; I guessed you would。〃
  Janet made a step toward her。
  〃Mother!〃 she said; but Hannah gazed at her uncomprehendingly。  Janet
  stooped convulsively; and kissed her。  Straightening up; she stood
  looking down at her mother for a few moments; and went out of the room;
  pausing in the dining…room; to listen; but Hannah apparently had not
  stirred。  She took the box of matches from its accustomed place on the
  shelf beside the clock; entered the dark bedroom in the front of the
  flat; closing the door softly behind her。  The ghostly blue light from a
  distant arc came slanting in at the window; glinting on the brass knobs
  of the chest of drawers…another Bumpus heirloom。  She remembered that
  chest from early childhood; it was one of the few pieces that; following
  them in all their changes of residence; had been faithful to the end: she
  knew everything in it; and the place for everything。  Drawing a match
  from the box; she was about to turn on the gasbut the light from the
  arc would suffice。  As she made her way around the walnut bed she had a
  premonition of poignant anguish as yet unrealized; of anguish being held
  at bay by a stronger; fiercer; more imperative emotion now demanding
  expression; refusing at last to be denied。  She opened the top drawer of
  the chest; the drawer in which Hannah; breaking tradition; had put the
  Bumpus genealogy。  Edward had never kept it there。  Would the other
  things be in place?  Groping with her hands in the left…hand corner; her
  fingers clasped exultantly something heavy; something wrapped carefully
  in layers of flannel。  She had feared her father might have taken it to
  the mill!  She drew it out; unwound the flannel; and held to the light an
  old…fashioned revolver; the grease glistening along its barrel。  She
  remembered; too; that the cartridges had lain beside it; and thrusting
  her hand once more into the drawer found the box; extracting several; and
  replacing the rest; closed the drawer; and crept through the dining…room
  to her bedroom; where she lit the gas in order to examine the weapon
  finally contriving; more by accident than skill; to break it。  The
  cartridges; of course; fitted into the empty cylinder。  But before
  inserting them she closed the pistol once more; cocked it; and held it
  out。  Her arm trembled violently as she pulled the trigger。  Could she do
  it?  As though to refute this doubt of her ability to carry out an act
  determined upon; she broke the weapon once more; loaded and closed it;
  and thrust it in the pocket of her coat。  Then; washing the grease from
  her hands; she put on her gloves; and was about to turn out the light
  when she saw reflected in the glass the red button of the I。W。W。 still
  pinned on her coat。  This she tore off; and flung on the bureau。
  When she had kissed her mother; when she had stood hesitatingly in the
  darkness of the familiar front bedroom in the presence of unsummoned
  memories of a home she had believed herself to resent and despise; she
  had nearly faltered。  But once in the street; this weakness suddenly
  vanished; was replaced by a sense of wrong that now took complete and
  furious possession of her; driving her like a gale at her back。  She
  scarcely felt on her face the fine rain that had begun to fall once more。
  Her feet were accustomed to the way。  When she had turned down West
  Street and almost gained the canal; it was with a shock of surprise that
  she found herself confronted by a man in a long cape who held a rifle and
  barred her path。  She stared at him as at an apparition。
  〃You can't get by here;〃 he said。  〃Don't you know that?〃
  She did not reply。  He continued to look at her; and presently asked; in
  a gentler tone:
  〃Where did you wish to go; lady?〃
  〃Into the mill;〃 she replied; 〃to the offices。〃
  〃But there can't anybody go through here unless they have a pass。  I'm
  sorry; but that's the order。〃
  Her answer came so readily as to surprise her。
  〃I was Mr。 Ditmar's private stenographer。  I have to see him。〃
  The sentry hesitated; and then addressed another soldier; who was near
  the bridge。
  〃Hi; sergeant!〃 he called。  The sergeant came upa conscientious Boston
  clerk who had joined the militia from a sense of duty and a need for
  exercise。  While the sentry explained the matter he gazed at Janet。  Then
  be said politely:
  〃I'm sorry; Miss; but I can't disobey orders。〃
  〃But can't you send word to Mr。 Ditmar; and tell him I want to see him?〃
  she asked。
  〃Why; I guess so;〃 he answered; after a moment。  〃What name shall I say?〃
  〃Miss Bumpus。〃
  〃Bumpus;〃 he repeated。  〃That's the gatekeeper's name。〃
  〃I'm his daughterbut I want to see Mr。 Ditmar。〃
  〃Well;〃 said the sergeant; 〃I'm sure it's all right; but I'll have to
  send in anyway。  Orders are orders。  You understand?〃
  She nodded as he departed。  She saw him cross the bridge like a ghost
  through the white mist rising from the canal。  And through the mist she
  could make out the fortresslike mass of the mill itself; and the blurred;
  distorted lights in the paymaster's offices smeared on the white curtain
  of the vapour。
  〃Nasty weather;〃 the sentry remarked; in friendly fashion。  He appeared
  now; despite his uniform; as a good…natured; ungainly youth。
  Janet nodded。
  〃You'd ought to have brought an umbrella;〃 he said。  〃I guess it'll rain
  harder; before it gets through。  But it's better than ten below zero;
  anyhow。〃
  She nodded again; but he did not seem to resent her silence。  He talked
  about the hardship of patrolling in winter; until the sergeant came back。
  〃It's all right; Miss Bumpus;〃 he said; and touched his hat as he
  escorted her to the bridge。  She crossed the canal and went through the
  vestibule without replying to the greeting of the night…watchman; or
  noticing his curious glance; she climbed the steel…clad stairway; passed
  the paymaster's offices and Mr。 Orcutt's; and gained the outer office
  where she had worked as a stenographer。  It was dark; but sufficient
  light came through Ditmar's open door to guide her beside the rail。  He
  had heard her step; and as she entered his room he had put his hands
  heavily on his desk; in the act of rising from his chair。
  〃Janet!〃 he said; and started toward her; but got no farther than the
  corner of the desk。  The sight of her heaving breast; of the peculiar
  light that flashed from beneath her lashes stopped him suddenly。  Her
  hands were in her pockets。  〃What is it?〃 he demanded stupidly。
  But she continued to stand there; breathing so heavily that she could not
  speak。  It was then that he became aware of an acute danger。  He did not
  flinch。
  〃What is it?〃 he repeated。
  Still she was silent。  One hand was thrust deeper into its pocket; he saw
  a shudder run through her; and suddenly she burst into hysterical
  weeping; sinking into a chair。  He stood for some moments helplessly
  regarding her before he gained the presence of mind to go to the door and
  lock it; returning to bend over her。
  〃Don't touch me!〃 she said; shrinking from him。
  〃For God's sake tell me what's the matter;〃 he begged。
  She looked up at him and tried to speak; struggling against the sobs that
  shook her。
  〃II came here toto kill youonly I can't do it。〃
  〃To kill me!〃 he said; after a pause。  In spite of the fact that he had
  half divined her intention; the words shocked him。  Whatever else may be
  said of