第 47 节
作者:浮游云中      更新:2021-02-24 23:06      字数:9321
  which; in connection with the thoughts of New York and the visible rakish
  image of the lady herself; cause involuntary shudders down the spine of
  the reflecting American provincial。  Some such responsive quiver; akin to
  disgust; Janet herself experienced。
  〃It's the very last scream;〃 Lise was saying。  〃And say; if I owned a
  ball dress like that I'd be somebody's Lulu all right!  Can I have the
  pleasure of the next maxixe; Miss Bumpus?〃  With deft and rapid fingers
  she lead parted her hair far on the right side and pulled it down over
  the left eyebrow; twisted it over her ear and tightly around her head;
  inserting here and there a hairpin; seizing the hand mirror with the
  cracked back; and holding it up behind her。  Finally; when the operation
  was finished to
  her satisfaction she exclaimed; evidently to the paragon in the picture;
  〃I get you!〃  Whereupon; from the wardrobe; she produced a hat。  〃You
  sure had my number when you guessed the feathers on that other would get
  draggled;〃 she observed in high good humour; generously ignoring their
  former unpleasantness on the subject。  When she had pinned it on she bent
  mockingly over her sister; who sat on the bed。  〃How d'you like my new
  toque?  Peekaboo!  That's the way the guys rubberneck to see if you're
  good lookin'。〃
  Lise was exalted; feverish; apparently possessed by some high secret; her
  eyes shone; and when she crossed the room she whistled bars of ragtime
  and executed mincing steps of the maxixe。  Fumbling in the upper drawer
  for a pair of white gloves (also new); she knocked off the corner of the
  bureau her velvet bag; it opened as it struck the floor; and out of it
  rolled a lilac vanity case and a yellow coin。  Casting a suspicious;
  lightning glance at Janet; she snatched up the vanity case and covered
  the coin with her foot。
  〃Lock the doors!〃 she cried; with an hysteric giggle。  Then removing her
  foot she picked up the coin surreptitiously。  To her amazement her sister
  made no comment; did not seem to have taken in the significance of the
  episode。  Lise had expected a tempest of indignant; searching questions;
  a 〃third degree;〃 as she would have put it。  She snapped the bag
  together; drew on her gloves; and; when she was ready to leave; with
  characteristic audacity crossed the room; taking her sister's face
  between her hands and kissing her。
  〃Tell me your troubles; sweetheart!〃 she saidand did not wait to hear
  them。
  Janet was incapable of speechnor could she have brought herself to ask
  Lise whether or not the money had been earned at the Bagatelle; and
  remained miraculously unspent。  It was possible; but highly incredible。
  And then; the vanity case and the new hat were to be accounted for!  The
  sight of the gold piece; indeed; had suddenly revived in Janet the queer
  feeling of faintness; almost of nausea she had experienced after parting
  with Lottie Myers。  And by some untoward association she was reminded of
  a conversation she had had with Ditmar on the Saturday afternoon
  following their first Sunday excursion; when; on opening her pay
  envelope; she had found twenty dollars。
  〃Are you sure I'm worth it?〃 she had demandedand he had been quite
  sure。  He had added that she was worth more; much more; but that he could
  not give her as yet; without the risk of comment; a sum commensurate with
  the value of her services。。。。  But now she asked herself again; was she
  worth it? or was it merelypart of her price?  Going to the wardrobe and
  opening a drawer at the bottom she searched among her clothes until she
  discovered the piece of tissue paper in which she had wrapped the rose
  rescued from the cluster he had given her。  The petals were dry; yet they
  gave forth; still; a faint; reminiscent fragrance as she pressed them to
  her face。  Janet wept。。。。
  The following morning as she was kneeling in a corner of the room by the
  letter files; one of which she had placed on the floor; she recognized
  his step in the outer office; heard him pause to joke with young
  Caldwell; and needed not the visual proofwhen after a moment he halted
  on the thresholdof the fact that his usual; buoyant spirits were
  restored。  He held a cigar in his hand; and in his eyes was the eager
  look with which she had become familiar; which indeed she had learned to
  anticipate as they swept the room in search of her。  And when they fell
  on her he closed the door and came forward impetuously。  But her
  exclamation caused him to halt in bewilderment。
  〃Don't touch me!〃 she said。
  And he stammered out; as he stood over her:
  〃What's the matter?〃
  〃Everything。  You don't love meI was a fool to believe you did。〃
  〃Don't love you!〃 he repeated。  〃My God; what's the trouble now?  What
  have I done?〃
  〃Oh; it's nothing you've done; it's what you haven't done; it's what you
  can't do。  You don't really care for meall you care for is this mill
  when anything happens here you don't know I'm alive。〃
  He stared at her; and then an expression of comprehension; of intense
  desire grew in his eyes; and his laugh; as he flung his cigar out of the
  open window and bent down to seize her; was almost brutal。  She fought
  him; she tried to hurt him; and suddenly; convulsively pressed herself to
  him。
  〃You little tigress!〃 he said; as he held her。  〃You were jealouswere
  youjealous of the mill?〃  And he laughed again。  〃I'd like to see you
  with something really to be jealous about。  So you love me like that; do
  you?〃
  She could feel his heart beating against her。
  〃I won't be neglected;〃 she told him tensely。  〃I want all of youif I
  can't have all of you; I don't want any。  Do you understand?〃
  〃Do I understand?  Well; I guess I do。〃
  〃You didn't yesterday;〃 she reproached him; somewhat dazed by the
  swiftness of her submission; and feeling still the traces of a lingering
  resentment。  She had not intended to surrender。  〃You forgot all about
  me; you didn't know I was here; much less that I was hurt。  Oh; I was
  hurt!  And youI can tell at once when anything's wrong with youI know
  without your saying it。〃
  He was amazed; he might indeed have been troubled and even alarmed by
  this passion he had aroused had his own passion not been at the flood。
  And as he wiped away her tears with his handkerchief he could scarcely
  believe his senses that this was the woman whose resistance had demanded
  all his force to overcome。  Indeed; although he recognized the symptoms
  she betrayed as feminine; as having been registeredthough feebly
  compared to this! by incidents in his past; precisely his difficulty
  seemed to be in identifying this complex and galvanic being as a woman;
  not as something almost fearful in her significance; outside the bounds
  of experience。。。。
  Presently she ceased to tremble; and he drew her to the window。  The day
  was as mild as autumn; the winter sun like honey in its mellowness; a
  soft haze blurred the outline of the upper bridge。
  〃Only two more days until Sunday;〃 he whispered; caressingly;
  exultantly。。。。
  CHAPTER XII
  It had been a strange year in Hampton; unfortunate for coal merchants;
  welcome to the poor。  But Sunday lacked the transforming touch of
  sunshine。  The weather was damp and cold as Janet set out from Fillmore
  Street。  Ditmar; she knew; would be waiting for her; he counted on her;
  and she could not bear to disappoint him; to disappoint herself。  And all
  the doubts and fears that from time to time had assailed her were
  banished by this impulse to go to him; to be with him。  He loved her!
  The words; as she sat in the trolley car; ran in her head like the lilt
  of a song。  What did the weather matter?
  When she alighted at the lonely cross…roads snow had already begun to
  fall。  But she spied the automobile; with its top raised; some distance
  down the lane; and in a moment she was in it; beside him; wrapped in the
  coat she had now come to regard as her own。  He buttoned down the
  curtains and took her in his arms。
  〃What shall we do to…day;〃 she asked; 〃if it snows?〃
  〃Don't let that worry you; sweetheart;〃 he said。  〃I have the chains on;
  I can get through anything in this car。〃
  He was in high; almost turbulent spirits as he turned the car and drove
  it out of the rutty lane into the state road。  The snow grew thicker and
  thicker still; the world was blotted out by swiftly whirling; feathery
  flakes that melted on the windshield; and through the wet glass Janet
  caught distorted glimpses of black pines and cedars beside the highway。
  The ground was spread with fleece。  Occasionally; and with startling
  suddenness; other automobiles shot like dark phantoms out of the
  whiteness; and like phantoms disappeared。  Presently; through the veil;
  she recognized Sillistona very different Silliston from that she had
  visited on the fragrant day in springtime; when the green on the common
  had been embroidered with dandelions; and the great elms whose bare
  branches were now fantastically traced against the flowing veil of white…
  …heavy with leaf。  Vignettes emergedonly to fade!of the old…world
  houses whose quaint beauty had fascinated and moved her。  And she found
  herself wondering what had become of the strange man she had mistaken for
  a carpenter。  All that seemed to have taken