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r nearly a day; when he was found in a down…town district; having gorged himself with candy and cake。 From then on his peculations increased; and his conduct became the scandal of his family; for he stole even from the maids employed in the house; as well as from guests。 In each case the stealing was apparently motivated to give a good time to himself and also to certain chums he made here and there in the city。 He would lie to evade punishment; but finally would yield; confess his guilt; express deepest repentance and accept his punishment with the sincerity of one fully conscious of deserving it。 In school he did poorly。 He was bright enough。 In fact; he was somewhat above the average in memory and comprehension and may be described as keen; but it was difficult for him to keep his attention consistently on any subject; and the discipline of school irked him。 He ran away several times to avoid school; and each time; until he was about fourteen; came back after a few days;bedraggled; hungry and repentant。 The freedom of the streets appealed to him as offering a life varied enough to suit his nature; and with excitement and adventure always in the air。 So he mingled with all kinds of boys and men and at the age of fourteen shocked his parents by being arrested as one of a gang that was engaged in robbing drunken men in the slum quarters of the city。 It took all kinds of influence to get him released on probation; but this was accomplished and then the boy disappeared from home。 He was gone three years and despite all search had completely disappeared。 His people had given up all hope of seeing him again (although certain members of his family were not at all saddened by the prospect) when they received a communication from the police of a distant city with a photograph of the boy; asking if it was true that he was their son。 It seems that J。 had drifted from place to place; now working as newsboy; stable hand; errand boy; messenger; theater…usher; until he had reached this city。 There he was wandering on the streets; hungry and ragged; when a philanthropic old gentleman noticed him。 J。 has the good fortune to be very innocent looking; and no matter what his crimes; his face might belong to a cherub。 A friend once stated that if J。 appeared at Heaven's gate; St。 Peter would surely take him to be an angel come back from a stroll and let him in。 The philanthropist stopped; the boy and inquired into his history。 J。 told him a very affecting story of being an orphan whom a cruel guardian had robbed of his heritage and exaggerated his sufferings until the indignant old fellow threatened to have the police prosecute his betrayer。 With a show of great magnanimity; J。 refused to disclose his real name; and the philanthropist took him home。 He had him clothed and fed; and then; taken by the boy's engaging manners and bright ways; decided to educate and adopt him。 He was dissuaded from the latter by a friend; but he sent J。 to a private school of good grade。 To the surprise of the old man; J。 was continually getting into mischief; and finally he was accused of stealing。 Unable to believe the school authorities; the old gentleman took the boy home and quizzed him。 He gave an unsatisfactory account of himself and that night disappeared with a considerable sum of money。 The police were notified; and a week later he was found in a house of the typeso euphemistically calledof 〃ill fame。〃 There he was spending the money lavishly on the inmates and was indulging his every desire。 One of the women; a police stool…pigeon; identified him as the boy who was wanted by the law; and he was arrested。 Despite the efforts of the parents and the philanthropist; the boy was given a prison sentence and is still serving it。 Characteristic of this group of personalities are these traits: (1) an impatience with the arduous; an incapacity or unwillingness to wait for results in the ordinary way; (2) a decided dread of monotony; a longing for excitement; (3) an inability to form permanent purposes and to inhibit the distracting desires; (4) a desire to win others' good opinion and sympathy;therefore he always lavished his money on those whom that kind of 〃good fellowship〃 wins and told pathetic stories to those whose sentimentality made them easy victims; (5) a weak kind of egoism; seeking easy ways to pleasure and position; restless under discipline; always repentant after wrong…doing; fluent in speech but lacking the courage to face the difficulties of life。 This under…inhibited type may suddenly reform and apparently entirely emerge from difficulties。 I have in mind a conspicuous case; a young woman now happily married and the mother of fine children。 When she was thirteen or fourteen the petty pilferings of her childhood took on a serious character。 She began to steal from the person of strangers and from the homes of friends。 She romanced in the most convincing fashion; told strangers the most remarkable stories; usually of such a nature as to make her interesting and an object of sympathy; but which tended to blacken the reputation of her family。 She lost place after place at work; was sent to a hospital to become a nurse and demoralized her associates by her lies and her thefts。 She was a very sweet girl in every other way; kindly; generous; self…sacrificing; studious even; and her character…contradiction made people reluctant to believe she was not insane。 She was discharged from the hospital; stayed at home for a few months;and then came the miracle。 She obtained a place in a large business house and worked there for seven years or up till the time of her marriage。 She was steadily promoted and was accounted the most reliable and honest employee of the establishment。 She handled money and goods; was absolutely truthful and her earnest efficiency was noteworthy。 Her private life was in complete harmony with this business career。 She helped her parents; who are poor; dressed modestly; studied nights and yet showed the same fondness for dancing and good times that the normal girl does。 She met a promising young business man who fell immediately in love with this demure looking young woman; and they were later married。 Once I asked her how the reform came about。 〃I don't know myself;〃 she answered frankly。 〃I never was happywhen I was the other way。 I always vowed reform; but when there was money around I'd think and think about it until it was mine。 Then I'd spend it in a silly way to get rid of it fast。 I craved good things; and you know how poor we were。 Then I lied just to have people like me and pity me; even though I called myself a fool while doing it。 Often; often I tried to reform and for a week or two would be real good。 Then perhaps I'd see some money; and I'd try to think of something else。 But that money would come to my mind; and I'd get hot and dizzy thinking about it。 Perhaps I'd say; 'I'll just look at it;' and finally I'd go and take itand feel so relieved and spend it。 After I left the hospital it seemed to me that I could never smile again。 I cried all night long; I wanted to die。 I could see one girl who thought I was so good and nice; and her face as she looked at me when I left! Her eyes were wide open; and her mouth was so stern; and she looked as if she wanted to speak but she turned around and walked away。 One day I woke up after a restless night at home; and it seemed to me that I had strength; that something had turned around in my nature; and since that day I have never even wanted to steal。 I haven't had to try to be good; it came as natural as eating and sleeping。〃 The sexually under…inhibited are those whose sex control is deficient。 This may be either from over…passionate nature; bad example; deficient mentality; vanity and desire for good times; as in certain girls; etc。 To discuss these types would be to write another book; and so I forbear。 But this I wish to emphasize: that neither age; sex protestation of indifference and control; occupation or social status; alters the fact that the history of the sex feelings; impulses and struggles is essential to a knowledge of character。 Without detailing sex types; these are some that are important。 1。 The uninhibited impulsive; passionate (the bulk of the prostitutes)。 2。 The controlled; passionate。 Very common。 3。 The frigid。 Not so rare as believed。 4。 The extremely passionate (nymphomania; satyriasis)。 Rare。 Always in trouble。 5。 The sensualist; a deliberate seeker of sex pleasure; often indulging in perversion。 Common type。 6。 The perverted types;autoerotic (masturbator); homosexual; masochists; sadists; fetishist; etc。 More common than the ordinary person dreams。 7。 The periodic; to whom sex life is incidental to certain periods and situations。 Common among women; less common among men。 8。 The sublimators; whose sexual activity has somehow been harnessed to other great activities。 Fairly frequent among these who either through choice or necessity are to remain continent。 9。 The anhedonic or exhausted。 Found in the sensualists and often reacted to by the formation of religious and ethical codes; which eliminate sex;Tolstoy; the hermits; certain Russian sects; etc。 There is under…inhibition of a good kind。 There are generous…hearted people always ready to give of themselves to anything or