第 5 节
作者:热带雨淋      更新:2021-02-24 22:27      字数:3845
  the night aspired to be the helpmeet of the day; if the left arm
  learnt to share the burden of the proud right arm?
  Arjuna
  I never seem to know you aright。  You seem to me like a goddess
  hidden within a golden image。  I cannot touch you; I cannot pay
  you my dues in return for your priceless gifts。  Thus my love is
  incomplete。  Sometimes in the enigmatic depth of your sad look;
  in your playful words mocking at their own meaning; I gain
  glimpses of a being trying to rend asunder the languorous grace
  of her body; to emerge in a chaste fire of pain through a
  vaporous veil of smiles。  Illusion is the first appearance of
  Truth。  She advances towards her lover in disguise。  But a time
  comes when she throws off her ornaments and veils and stands
  clothed in naked dignity。  I grope for that ultimate you; that
  bare simplicity of truth。
  Why these tears; my love?  Why cover your face with your hands?
  Have I pained you; my darling?  Forget what I said。  I will be
  content with the present。  Let each separate moment of beauty
  come to me like a bird of mystery from its unseen nest in the
  dark  bearing  a message of music。  Let me for ever sit  with
  my hope on the brink of its realization; and thus end my days。
  SCENE IX
  CHITRA and ARJUNA
  Chitra 'cloaked'
  My lord; has the cup been drained to the last drop?  Is this;
  indeed; the end? No; when all is done something still remains;
  and that is my last sacrifice at your feet。
  I brought from the garden of heaven flowers of incomparable
  beauty with which to worship you; god of my heart。  If the rites
  are over; if the flowers have faded; let me throw them out of the
  temple 'unveiling in her original male attire'。  Now; look
  at your worshipper with gracious eyes。
  I am not beautifully perfect as the flowers with which I
  worshipped。  I have many flaws and blemishes。  I am a
  traveller in the great world…path; my garments are dirty;
  and my feet are bleeding with thorns。  Where should I achieve
  flower…beauty; the unsullied loveliness of a moment's life?  The
  gift that I proudly bring you is the heart of a woman。  Here have
  all pains and joys gathered; the hopes and fears and shames of a
  daughter of the dust; here love springs up struggling toward
  immortal life。  Herein lies an imperfection which yet is noble
  and grand。  If the flower…service is finished; my master; accept
  this as your servant for the days to come!
  I am Chitra; the king's daughter。  Perhaps you will remember the
  day when a woman came to you in the temple of Shiva; her body
  loaded with ornaments and finery。  That shameless woman came to
  court you as though she were a man。  You rejected her; you did
  well。  My lord; I am that woman。  She was my disguise。  Then by
  the boon of gods I obtained for a year the most radiant form that
  a mortal ever wore; and wearied my hero's heart with the burden
  of that deceit。  Most surely I am not that woman。
  I am Chitra。  No goddess to be worshipped; nor yet the
  object of common pity to be brushed aside like a moth with
  indifference。  If you deign to keep me by your side in the path
  of danger and daring; if you allow me to share the great duties
  of your life; then you will know my true self。  If your babe;
  whom  I  am nourishing in my womb be born a son; I  shall  myself
  teach him to be a second Arjuna; and send him to you when the
  time comes; and then at last you will truly know me。 Today I can
  only offer you Chitra; the daughter of a king。
  Arjuna
  Beloved; my life is full。
  End