第 5 节
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热带雨淋 更新:2021-02-24 22:27 字数:3845
the night aspired to be the helpmeet of the day; if the left arm
learnt to share the burden of the proud right arm?
Arjuna
I never seem to know you aright。 You seem to me like a goddess
hidden within a golden image。 I cannot touch you; I cannot pay
you my dues in return for your priceless gifts。 Thus my love is
incomplete。 Sometimes in the enigmatic depth of your sad look;
in your playful words mocking at their own meaning; I gain
glimpses of a being trying to rend asunder the languorous grace
of her body; to emerge in a chaste fire of pain through a
vaporous veil of smiles。 Illusion is the first appearance of
Truth。 She advances towards her lover in disguise。 But a time
comes when she throws off her ornaments and veils and stands
clothed in naked dignity。 I grope for that ultimate you; that
bare simplicity of truth。
Why these tears; my love? Why cover your face with your hands?
Have I pained you; my darling? Forget what I said。 I will be
content with the present。 Let each separate moment of beauty
come to me like a bird of mystery from its unseen nest in the
dark bearing a message of music。 Let me for ever sit with
my hope on the brink of its realization; and thus end my days。
SCENE IX
CHITRA and ARJUNA
Chitra 'cloaked'
My lord; has the cup been drained to the last drop? Is this;
indeed; the end? No; when all is done something still remains;
and that is my last sacrifice at your feet。
I brought from the garden of heaven flowers of incomparable
beauty with which to worship you; god of my heart。 If the rites
are over; if the flowers have faded; let me throw them out of the
temple 'unveiling in her original male attire'。 Now; look
at your worshipper with gracious eyes。
I am not beautifully perfect as the flowers with which I
worshipped。 I have many flaws and blemishes。 I am a
traveller in the great world…path; my garments are dirty;
and my feet are bleeding with thorns。 Where should I achieve
flower…beauty; the unsullied loveliness of a moment's life? The
gift that I proudly bring you is the heart of a woman。 Here have
all pains and joys gathered; the hopes and fears and shames of a
daughter of the dust; here love springs up struggling toward
immortal life。 Herein lies an imperfection which yet is noble
and grand。 If the flower…service is finished; my master; accept
this as your servant for the days to come!
I am Chitra; the king's daughter。 Perhaps you will remember the
day when a woman came to you in the temple of Shiva; her body
loaded with ornaments and finery。 That shameless woman came to
court you as though she were a man。 You rejected her; you did
well。 My lord; I am that woman。 She was my disguise。 Then by
the boon of gods I obtained for a year the most radiant form that
a mortal ever wore; and wearied my hero's heart with the burden
of that deceit。 Most surely I am not that woman。
I am Chitra。 No goddess to be worshipped; nor yet the
object of common pity to be brushed aside like a moth with
indifference。 If you deign to keep me by your side in the path
of danger and daring; if you allow me to share the great duties
of your life; then you will know my true self。 If your babe;
whom I am nourishing in my womb be born a son; I shall myself
teach him to be a second Arjuna; and send him to you when the
time comes; and then at last you will truly know me。 Today I can
only offer you Chitra; the daughter of a king。
Arjuna
Beloved; my life is full。
End