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作者:散发弄舟      更新:2021-02-21 16:20      字数:9320
  soon after all; and had to creep into the wood; and be sick。  But it
  is all the same for the story。〃
  Euphra laughed a feeble but delighted laugh; and applied the story
  for herself。
  So the winter days passed on。
  〃I wish I could live till the spring;〃 said Euphra。 〃I should like
  to see a snowdrop and a primrose again。〃
  〃Perhaps you will; dear; but you are going into a better spring。  I
  could almost envy you; Euphra。〃
  〃But shall we have spring there?〃
  〃I think so。〃
  〃And spring…flowers?〃
  〃I think we shallbetter than here。〃
  〃But they will not mean so much。〃
  〃Then they won't be so good。  But I should think they would mean
  ever so much more; and be ever so much more spring…like。  They will
  be the spring…flowers to all winters in one; I think。〃
  Folded in the love of this woman; anointed for her death by her
  wisdom; baptized for the new life by her sympathy and its tears;
  Euphra died in the arms of Margaret。
  Margaret wept; fell on her knees; and gave God thanks。  Mrs。 Elton
  was so distressed; that; as soon as the funeral was over; she broke
  up her London household; sending some of the servants home to the
  country; and taking some to her favourite watering place; to which
  Harry also accompanied her。
  She hoped that; now the affair of the ring was cleared up; she
  might; as soon as Hugh returned; succeed in persuading him to follow
  them to Devonshire; and resume his tutorship。  This would satisfy
  her anxiety about Hugh and Harry both。
  Hugh's mother died too; and was buried。  When he returned from the
  grave which now held both father and mother; he found a short note
  from Margaret; telling him that Euphra was gone。  Sorrow is easier
  to bear when it comes upon sorrow; but he could not help feeling a
  keen additional pang; when he learned that she was dead whom he had
  loved once; and now loved better。  Margaret's note informed him
  likewise that Euphra had left a written request; that her diamond
  ring should be given to him to wear for her sake。
  He prepared to leave the home whence all the homeness had now
  vanished; except what indeed lingered in the presence of an old
  nurse; who had remained faithful to his mother to the last。  The
  body itself is of little value after the spirit; the love; is out of
  it: so the house and all the old things are little enough; after the
  loved ones are gone who kept it alive and made it home。
  All that Hugh could do for this old nurse was to furnish a cottage
  for her out of his mother's furniture; giving her everything she
  liked best。  Then he gathered the little household treasures; the
  few books; the few portraits and ornaments; his father's sword; and
  his mother's wedding…ring; destroyed with sacred fire all written
  papers; sold the remainder of the furniture; which he would gladly
  have burnt too; and so proceeded to take his last departure from the
  home of his childhood。
  CHAPTER XXIII。
  NATURE AND HER LADY。
  Die Frauen sind ein liebliches Geheimniss; nur verh黮lt; nicht
  verschlossen。NOVALIS。…Moralische Ansichten。
  Women are a lovely mysteryveiled; however; not shut up。
  Her twilights were more clear than our mid…day;
  She dreamt devoutlier than most used to pray。
  DR。 DONNE。
  Perhaps the greatest benefit that resulted to Hugh from being thus
  made a pilgrim and a stranger in the earth; was; that Nature herself
  saw him; and took him in; Hitherto; as I have already said; Hugh's
  acquaintance with Nature had been chiefly a second…hand onehe knew
  friends of hers。  Nature in poetrynot in the form of Thomsonian or
  Cowperian descriptions; good as they are; but closely interwoven
  with and expository of human thought and feelinghad long been dear
  to him。  In this form he had believed that he knew her so well; as
  to be able to reproduce the lineaments of her beloved face。  But now
  she herself appeared to himthe grand; pure; tender mother; ancient
  in years; yet ever young; appeared to him; not in the mirror of a
  man's words; but bending over him from the fathomless bosom of the
  sky; from the outspread arms of the forest…trees; from the silent
  judgment of the everlasting hills。  She spoke to him from the depths
  of air; from the winds that harp upon the boughs; and trumpet upon
  the great caverns; and from the streams that sing as they go to be
  lost in rest。  She would have shone upon him out of the eyes of her
  infants; the flowers; but they had their faces turned to her breast
  now; hiding from the pale blue eyes and the freezing breath of old
  Winter; who was looking for them with his face bent close to their
  refuge。  And he felt that she had a power to heal and to instruct;
  yea; that she was a power of life; and could speak to the heart and
  conscience mighty words about God and Truth and Love。
  For he did not forsake his dead home in haste。  He lingered over it;
  and roamed about its neighbourhood。  Regarding all about him with
  quiet; almost passive spirit; he was astonished to find how his eyes
  opened to see nature in the mass。  Before; he had beheld only
  portions and beauties。  When or how the change passed upon him he
  could not tell。  But he no longer looked for a pretty eyebrow or a
  lovely lip on the face of nature: the soul of nature looked out upon
  him from the harmony of all; guiding him unsought to the discovery
  of a thousand separate delights; while from the expanded vision new
  meanings flashed upon him every day。  He beheld in the great All the
  expression of the thoughts and feelings of the maker of the heavens
  and the earth and the sea and the fountains of water。  The powers of
  the world to come; that is; the world of unseen truth and ideal
  reality; were upon him in the presence of the world that now is。
  For the first time in his life; he felt at home with nature; and
  while he could moan with the wintry wind; he no longer sighed in the
  wintry sunshine; that foretold; like the far…off flutter of a
  herald's banner; the approach of victorious lady…spring。
  With the sorrow and loneliness of loss within him; and Nature around
  him seeming to sigh for a fuller expression of the thought that
  throbbed within her; it is no wonder that the form of Margaret; the
  gathering of the thousand forms of nature into one intensity and
  harmony of loveliness; should rise again upon the world of his
  imagination; to set no more。  Father and mother were gone。  Margaret
  remained behind。  Nature lay around him like a shining disk; that
  needed a visible centre of intensest lighta shield of silver; that
  needed but a diamond boss: Margaret alone could be that centrethat
  diamond light…giver; for she alone; of all the women he knew; seemed
  so to drink of the sun…rays of God; as to radiate them forth; for
  very fulness; upon the clouded world。
  She had dawned on him like a sweet crescent moon; hanging far…off in
  a cold and low horizon: now; lifting his eyes; he saw that same moon
  nearly at the full; and high overhead; yet leaning down towards him
  through the deep blue air; that overflowed with her calm triumph of
  light。  He knew that he loved her now。  He knew that every place he
  went through; caught a glimmer of romance the moment he thought of
  her; that every most trifling event that happened to himself; looked
  like a piece of a story…book the moment he thought of telling it to
  her。  But the growth of these feelings had been gradualso slow and
  gradual; that when he recognized them; it seemed to him as if he had
  felt them from the first。  The fact was; that as soon as he began to
  be capable of loving Margaret; he had begun to love her。  He had
  never been able to understand her till he was driven into the
  desert。  But now that Nature revealed herself to him full of Life;
  yea; of the Life of Life; namely; of God himself; it was natural
  that he should honour and love that 'lady of her own'; that he
  should recognize Margaret as greater than himself; as nearer to the
  heart of Natureyea; of God the father of all。  She had been one
  with Nature from childhood; and when he began to be one with nature
  too; he must become one with her。
  And now; in absence; he began to study the character of her whom; in
  presence; he had thought he knew perfectly。  He soon found that it
  was a Manoa; a golden city in a land of Paradisetoo good to be
  believed in; except by him who was blessed with the beholding of it。
  He knew now that she had always understood what he was only just
  waking to recognize。  And he felt that the scholar had been very
  patient with the stupidity of the master; and had drawn from his
  lessons a nourishment of which he had known nothing himself。
  But dared he think of marrying her; a creature inspired with a
  presence of the Spirit of God which none but the saints enjoy; and
  thence clothed with a garment of beauty; which her spirit wove out
  of its own loveliness?  She was a being to glorify any man merely by
  granting him her habitual presence: what; then; if she gave her
  love!  She would bring with her the presence of God himself; for she
  walked ever in his light; and that light clung to her and radiated
  from her。  True; many young maidens must be walking in the sunshine
  of God; else whence the light and loveliness and bloom; the smile
  and the laugh of their youth?  But