第 21 节
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  seized him like a fury; beating him about the head and face with icy
  wings; till he was almost stunned。  He took the road to the farm;
  which lay through the fir…wood; but he soon became aware that he had
  lost his way and might tramp about in the fir…wood till daylight; if
  he lived as long。  Then; thinking of Margaret; he lost his presence
  of mind; and rushed wildly along。  He thought he must have knocked
  his head against the trunk of a tree; but he could not tell; for he
  remembered nothing more but that he found himself dragging Margaret;
  with his arms round her; through the snow; and nearing the light in
  the cottage…window。  Where or how he had found her; or what the
  light was that he was approaching; he had not the least idea。  He
  had only a vague notion that he was rescuing Margaret from something
  dreadful。  Margaret; for her part; had no recollection of reaching
  the fir…wood; and as; long before morning; all traces were
  obliterated; the facts remained a mystery。  Janet thought that David
  had some wonderful persuasion about it; but he was never heard even
  to speculate on the subject。  Certain it was; that Hugh had saved
  Margaret's life。  He seemed quite well next day; for he was of a
  very powerful and enduring frame for his years。  She recovered more
  slowly; and perhaps never altogether overcame the effects of Death's
  embrace that night。  From the moment when Margaret was brought home;
  the storm gradually died away; and by the morning all was still; but
  many starry and moonlit nights glimmered and passed; before that
  snow was melted away from the earth; and many a night Janet awoke
  from her sleep with a cry; thinking she heard her daughter moaning;
  deep in the smooth ocean of snow; and could not find where she lay。
  The occurrences of this dreadful night could not lessen the interest
  his cottage friends felt in Hugh; and a long winter passed with
  daily and lengthening communion both in study and in general
  conversation。  I fear some of my younger readers will think my story
  slow; and say: 〃What! are they not going to fall in love with each
  other yet?  We have been expecting it ever so long。〃  I have two
  answers to make to this。  The first is: 〃I do not pretend to know so
  much about love as youexcuse methink you do; and must confess; I
  do not know whether they were in love with each other or not。〃  The
  second is: 〃That I dare not pretend to understand thoroughly such a
  sacred mystery as the heart of Margaret; and I should feel it rather
  worse than presumptuous to talk as if I did。  Even Hugh's is known
  to me only by gleams of light thrown; now and then; and here and
  there; upon it。〃  Perhaps the two answers are only the same answer
  in different shapes。
  Mrs。 Glasford; however; would easily answer the question; if an
  answer is all that is wanted; for she; notwithstanding the facts of
  the story; which she could not fail to have heard correctly from the
  best authority; and notwithstanding the nature of the night; which
  might have seemed sufficient to overthrow her conclusions; uniformly
  remarked; as often as their escape was alluded to in her hearing;
  〃Lat them tak' it They had no business to be oot aboot thegither。〃
  CHAPTER XV。
  TRANSITION。
  Tell me; bright boy; tell me; my golden lad;
  Whither away so frolic?  Why so glad?
  What all thy wealth in council? all thy state?
  Are husks so dear? troth; 'tis a mighty rate。
  RICHARD CRASHAW。
  The long Scotch winter passed by without any interruption to the
  growing friendship。  But the spring brought a change; and Hugh was
  separated from his friends sooner than he had anticipated; by more
  than six months。  For his mother wrote to him in great distress; in
  consequence of a claim made upon her for some debt which his father
  had contracted; very probably for Hugh's own sake。  Hugh could not
  bear that any such should remain undischarged; or that his father's
  name should not rest in peace as well as his body and soul。  He
  requested; therefore; from the laird; the amount due to him; and
  despatched almost the whole of it for the liquidation of this debt;
  so that he was now as unprovided as before for the expenses of the
  coming winter at Aberdeen。  But; about the same time; a
  fellow…student wrote to him with news of a situation for the summer;
  worth three times as much as his present one; and to be procured
  through his friend's interest。  Hugh having engaged himself to the
  laird only for the winter; although he had intended to stay till the
  commencement of the following session; felt that; although he would
  much rather remain where he was; he must not hesitate a moment to
  accept his friend's offer; and therefore wrote at once。
  I will not attempt to describe the parting。  It was very quiet; but
  very solemn and sad。  Janet showed far more distress than Margaret;
  for she wept outright。  The tears stood in David's eyes; as he
  grasped the youth's hand in silence。  Margaret was very pale; that
  was all。  As soon as Hugh disappeared with her father; who was going
  to walk with him to the village through which the coach passed; she
  hurried away; and went to the fir…wood for comfort。
  Hugh found his new situation in Perthshire very different from the
  last。  The heads of the family being themselves a lady and a
  gentleman; he found himself a gentleman too。  He had more to do; but
  his work left him plenty of leisure notwithstanding。  A good portion
  of his spare time he devoted to verse…making; to which he felt a
  growing impulse; and whatever may have been the merit of his
  compositions; they did him intellectual good at least; if it were
  only through the process of their construction。  He wrote to David
  after his arrival; telling him all about his new situation; and
  received in return a letter from Margaret; written at her father's
  dictation。  The mechanical part of letter…writing was rather
  laborious to David; but Margaret wrote well; in consequence of the
  number of papers; of one sort and another; which she had written for
  Hugh。 Three or four letters more passed between them at lengthening
  intervals。  Then they ceasedon Hugh's side first; until; when on
  the point of leaving for Aberdeen; feeling somewhat
  conscience…stricken at not having written for so long; he scribbled
  a note to inform them of his approaching departure; promising to let
  them know his address as soon as he found himself settled。  Will it
  be believed that the session went by without the redemption of this
  pledge?  Surely he could not have felt; to any approximate degree;
  the amount of obligation he was under to his humble friends。
  Perhaps; indeed; he may have thought that the obligation was
  principally on their side; as it would have been; if intellectual
  assistance could outweigh heart…kindness; and spiritual impulse and
  enlightenment; for; unconsciously in a great measure to himself; he
  had learned from David to regard in a new and more real aspect; many
  of those truths which he had hitherto received as true; and which
  yet had till then produced in him no other than a feeling of the
  common…place and uninteresting at the best。
  Besides this; and many cognate advantages; a thousand seeds of truth
  must have surely remained in his mind; dropped there from the same
  tongue of wisdom; and only waiting the friendly aid of a hard
  winter; breaking up the cold; selfish clods of clay; to share in the
  loveliness of a new spring; and be perfected in the beauty of a new
  summer。
  However this may have been; it is certain that he forgot his old
  friends far more than he himself could have thought it possible he
  should; for; to make the best of it; youth is easily attracted and
  filled with the present show; and easily forgets that which; from
  distance in time or space; has no show to show。  Spending his
  evenings in the midst of merry faces; and ready tongues fluent with
  the tones of jollity; if not always of wit; which glided sometimes
  into no too earnest discussion of the difficult subjects occupying
  their student hours; surrounded by the vapours of whisky…toddy; and
  the smoke of cutty pipes; till far into the short hours; then
  hurrying home; and lapsing into unrefreshing slumbers over intended
  study; or sitting up all night to prepare the tasks which had been
  neglected for a ball or an evening with Wilson; the great
  interpreter of Scottish songit is hardly to be wondered at that he
  should lose the finer consciousness of higher powers and deeper
  feelings; not from any behaviour in itself wrong; but from the
  hurry; noise; and tumult in the streets of life; that; penetrating
  too deep into the house of life; dazed and stupefied the silent and
  lonely watcher in the chamber of conscience; far apart。  He had no
  time to think or feel。
  The session drew to a close。  He eschewed all idleness; shut himself
  up; after class hours; with his books; ate little; studied hard;
  slept irregularly; working always best between midnight and two in
  the morning; carried the first honours in most of his classes; and
  at length breathed freely; but with a dizzy brain; and a face that
  revealed; in pale cheeks; and red; weary eyes; the results of an
  excess of mental labouran excess which is as injurious as any
  other kind of intemper