第 43 节
作者:九十八度      更新:2021-02-21 16:18      字数:9322
  you to do so in absolute freedom; I give you back the promise you
  made to yourselfnot to mein a moment which can never fade from
  my memory; for it was; like other days that have succeeded it; of
  angelic purity and sweetness。 That memory will suffice me for my
  life。 If you should persist in your pledge to me; a dark and
  terrible idea would henceforth trouble my happiness。 In the midst
  of our privationswhich we have hitherto accepted so gaylyyou
  might reflect; too late; that life would have been to you a better
  thing had you now conformed to the laws of the world。 If you were
  a man to express that thought; it would be to me the sentence of
  an agonizing death; if you did not express it; I should watch
  suspiciously every cloud upon your brow。
  Dear Savinien; I have preferred you to all else on earth。 I was
  right to do so; for my godfather; though jealous of you; used to
  say to me; 〃Love him; my child; you will certainly belong to each
  other one of these days。〃 When I went to Paris I loved you
  hopelessly; and the feeling contented me。 I do not know if I can
  now return to it; but I shall try。 What are we; after all; at this
  moment? Brother and sister。 Let us stay so。 Marry that happy girl
  who can have the joy of giving to your name the lustre it ought to
  have; and which your mother thinks I should diminish。 You will not
  hear of me again。 The world will approve of you; I shall never
  blame youbut I shall love you ever。 Adieu; then!
  〃Wait;〃 cried the young man。 Signing to La Bougival to sit down; he
  scratched off hastily the following reply:
  My dear Ursula;Your letter cuts me to the heart; inasmuch as you
  have needlessly felt such pain; and also because our hearts; for
  the first time; have failed to understand each other。 If you are
  not my wife now; it is solely because I cannot marry without my
  mother's consent。 Dear; eight thousand francs a year and a pretty
  cottage on the Loing; why; that's a fortune; is it not? You know
  we calculated that if we kept La Bougival we could lay by half our
  income every year。 You allowed me that evening; in your uncle's
  garden; to consider you mine; you cannot now of yourself break
  those ties which are common to both of us。Ursula; need I tell
  you that I yesterday informed Monsieur du Rouvre that even if I
  were free I could not receive a fortune from a young person whom I
  did not know? My mother refuses to see you again; I must therefore
  lose the happiness of our evenings; but surely you will not
  deprive me of the brief moments I can spend at your window? This
  evening; then Nothing can separate us。
  〃Take this to her; my old woman; she must not be unhappy one moment
  longer。〃
  That afternoon at four o'clock; returning from the walk which he
  always took expressly to pass before Ursula's house; Savinien found
  his mistress waiting for him; her face a little pallid from these
  sudden changes and excitements。
  〃It seems to me that until now I have never known what the pleasure of
  seeing you is;〃 she said to him。
  〃You once said to me;〃 replied Savinien; smiling;〃for I remember all
  your words;'Love lives by patience; we will wait!' Dear; you have
  separated love from faith。 Ah! this shall be the end of our quarrels;
  we will never have another。 You have claimed to love me better than I
  love you; butdid I ever doubt you?〃 he said; offering her a bouquet
  of wild…flowers arranged to express his thoughts。
  〃You have never had any reason to doubt me;〃 she replied; 〃and;
  besides; you don't know all;〃 she added; in a troubled voice。
  Ursula had refused to receive letters by the post。 But that afternoon;
  without being able even to guess at the nature of the trick; she had
  found; a few moments before Savinien's arrival; a letter tossed on her
  sofa which contained the words: 〃Tremble! a rejected lover can become
  a tiger。〃
  Withstanding Savinien's entreaties; she refused to tell him; out of
  prudence; the secret of her fears。 The delight of seeing him again;
  after she had thought him lost to her; could alone have made her
  recover from the mortal chill of terror。 The expectation of indefinite
  evil is torture to every one; suffering assumes the proportions of the
  unknown; and the unknown is the infinite of the soul。 To Ursula the
  pain was exquisite。 Something without her bounded at the slightest
  noise; yet she was afraid of silence; and suspected even the walls of
  collusion。 Even her sleep was restless。 Goupil; who knew nothing of
  her nature; delicate as that of a flower; had found; with the instinct
  of evil; the poison that could wither and destroy her。
  The next day passed without a shock。 Ursula sat playing on her piano
  till very late; and went to bed easier in mind and very sleepy。 About
  midnight she was awakened by the music of a band composed of a
  clarinet; hautboy; flute; cornet a piston; trombone; bassoon;
  flageolet; and triangle。 All the neighbours were at their windows。 The
  poor girl; already frightened at seeing the people in the street;
  received a dreadful shock as she heard the coarse; rough voice of a
  man proclaiming in loud tones: 〃For the beautiful Ursula Mirouet; from
  her lover。〃
  The next day; Sunday; the whole town had heard of it; and as Ursula
  entered and left the church she saw the groups of people who stood
  gossiping about her; and felt herself the object of their terrible
  curiosity。 The serenade set all tongues wagging; and conjectures were
  rife on all sides。 Ursula reached home more dead than alive;
  determined not to leave the house again;the abbe having advised her
  to say vespers in her own room。 As she entered the house she saw lying
  in the passage; which was floored with brick; a letter which had
  evidently been slipped under the door。 She picked it up and read it;
  under the idea that it would obtain an explanation。 It was as
  follows:
  〃Resign yourself to becoming my wife; rich and idolized。 I am
  resolved。 If you are not mine living you shall be mine dead。 To
  your refusal you may attribute not only your own misfortunes; but
  those which will fall on others。
  〃He who loves you; and whose wife you will be。〃
  Curiously enough; at the very moment that the gentle victim of this
  plot was drooping like a cut flower; Mesdemoiselles Massin; Dionis;
  and Cremiere were envying her lot。
  〃She is a lucky girl;〃 they were saying; 〃people talk of her; and
  court her; and quarrel about her。 The serenade was charming; there was
  a cornet…a…piston。〃
  〃What's a piston?〃
  〃A new musical instrument; as big as this; see!〃 replied Angelique
  Cremiere to Pamela Massin。
  Early that morning Savinien had gone to Fontainebleau to endeavor to
  find out who had engaged the musicians of the regiment then in
  garrison。 But as there were two men to each instrument it was
  impossible to find out which of them had gone to Nemours。 The colonel
  forbade them to play for any private person in future without his
  permission。 Savinien had an interview with the procureur du roi;
  Ursula's legal guardian; and explained to him the injury these scenes
  would do to a young girl naturally so delicate and sensitive; begging
  him to take some action to discover the author of such wrong。
  Three nights later three violins; a flute; a guitar; and a hautboy
  began another serenade。 This time the musicians fled towards
  Montargis; where there happened then to be a company of comic actors。
  A loud and ringing voice called out as they left: 〃To the daughter of
  the regimental bandsman Mirouet。〃 By this means all Nemours came to
  know the profession of Ursula's father; a secret the old doctor had
  sedulously kept。
  Savinien did not go to Montargis。 He received in the course of the day
  an anonymous letter containing a prophecy:
  〃You will never marry Ursula。 If you wish her to live; give her up
  at once to a man who loves her more than you love her。 He has made
  himself a musician and an artist to please her; and he would
  rather see her dead than let her be your wife。〃
  The doctor came to Ursula three times in the course of that day; for
  she was really in danger of death from the horror of this mysterious
  persecution。 Feeling that some infernal hand had plunged her into the
  mire; the poor girl lay like a martyr; she said nothing; but lifted
  her eyes to heaven; and wept no more; she seemed awaiting other blows;
  and prayed fervently。
  〃I am glad I cannot go down into the salon;〃 she said to Monsieur
  Bongrand and the abbe; who left her as little as possible; 〃HE would
  come; and I am now unworthy of the looks with which HE blessed me。 Do
  you think HE will suspect me?〃
  〃If Savinien does not discover the author of these infamies he means
  to get the assistance of the Paris police;〃 said Bongrand。
  〃Whoever it is will know I am dying;〃 said Ursula; 〃and will cease to
  trouble me。〃
  The abbe; Bongrand