第 103 节
作者:不言败      更新:2021-02-21 15:48      字数:9322
  his arm away。
  Several persons crowded inquisitively into the doorway。 Some of them
  tried to get in。 All this took place almost instantaneously。
  〃Go away; it's too soon! Wait till you are sent for!。。。 Why have you
  brought him so soon?〃 Porfiry Petrovitch muttered; extremely
  annoyed; and as it were thrown out of his reckoning。
  But Nikolay suddenly knelt down。
  〃What's the matter?〃 cried Porfiry; surprised。
  〃I am guilty! Mine is the sin! I am the murderer;〃 Nikolay
  articulated suddenly; rather breathless; but speaking fairly loudly。
  For ten seconds there was silence as though all had been struck
  dumb; even the warder stepped back; mechanically retreated to the
  door; and stood immovable。
  〃What is it?〃 cried Porfiry Petrovitch; recovering from his
  momentary stupefaction。
  〃I am the murderer;〃 repeated Nikolay; after a brief pause。
  〃What。。。 you。。。 what。。。 whom did you kill?〃 Porfiry Petrovitch was
  obviously bewildered。
  Nikolay again was silent for a moment。
  〃Alyona Ivanovna and her sister Lizaveta Ivanovna; I。。。 killed。。。
  with an axe。 Darkness came over me;〃 he added suddenly; and was
  again silent。
  He still remained on his knees。 Porfiry Petrovitch stood for some
  moments as though meditating; but suddenly roused himself and waved
  back the uninvited spectators。 They instantly vanished and closed
  the door。 Then he looked towards Raskolnikov; who was standing in
  the corner; staring wildly at Nikolay; and moved towards him; but
  stopped short; looked from Nikolay to Raskolnikov and then again at
  Nikolay; and seeming unable to restrain himself darted at the latter。
  〃You're in too great a hurry;〃 he shouted at him; almost angrily。 〃I
  didn't ask you what came over you。。。。 Speak; did you kill them?〃
  〃I am the murderer。。。。 I want to give evidence;〃 Nikolay pronounced。
  〃Ach! What did you kill them with?〃
  〃An axe。 I had it ready。〃
  〃Ach; he is in a hurry! Alone?〃
  Nikolay did not understand the question。
  〃Did you do it alone?〃
  〃Yes; alone。 And Mitka is not guilty and had no share in it。〃
  〃Don't be in a hurry about Mitka! A…ach! How was it you ran
  downstairs like that at the time? The porters met you both!〃
  〃It was to put them off the scent。。。 I ran after Mitka;〃 Nikolay
  replied hurriedly; as though he had prepared the answer。
  〃I knew it!〃 cried Porfiry; with vexation。 〃It's not his own tale he
  is telling;〃 he muttered as though to himself; and suddenly his eyes
  rested on Raskolnikov again。
  He was apparently so taken up with Nikolay that for a moment he
  had forgotten Raskolnikov。 He was a little taken aback。
  〃My dear Rodion Romanovitch; excuse me!〃 he flew up to him; 〃this
  won't do; I'm afraid you must go。。。 it's no good your staying。。。 I
  will。。。  you see; what a surprise!。。。 Good…bye!〃
  And taking him by the arm; he showed him to the door。
  〃I suppose you didn't expect it?〃 said Raskolnikov who; though he
  had not yet fully grasped the situation; had regained his courage。
  〃You did not expect it either; my friend。 See how your hand is
  trembling! He…he!〃
  〃You're trembling; too; Porfiry Petrovitch!〃
  〃Yes; I am; I didn't expect it。〃
  They were already at the door; Porfiry was impatient for Raskolnikov
  to be gone。
  〃And your little surprise; aren't you going to show it to me?〃
  Raskolnikov said; sarcastically。
  〃Why; his teeth are chattering as he asks; he…he! You are an
  ironical person! Come; till we meet!〃
  〃I believe we can say good…bye!〃
  〃That's in God's hands;〃 muttered Porfiry; with an unnatural smile。
  As he walked through the office; Raskolnikov noticed that many
  people were looking at him。 Among them he saw the two porters from the
  house; whom he had invited that night to the police station。 They
  stood there waiting。 But he was no sooner on the stairs than he
  heard the voice of Porfiry Petrovitch behind him。 Turning round; he
  saw the latter running after him; out of breath。
  〃One word; Rodion Romanovitch; as to all the rest; it's in God's
  hands; but as a matter of form there are some questions I shall have
  to ask you。。。 so we shall meet again; shan't we?〃
  And Porfiry stood still; facing him with a smile。
  〃Shan't we?〃 he added again。
  He seemed to want to say something more; but could not speak out。
  〃You must forgive me; Porfiry Petrovitch; for what has just
  passed。。。 I lost my temper;〃 began Raskolnikov; who had so far
  regained his courage that he felt irresistibly inclined to display his
  coolness。
  〃Don't mention it; don't mention it;〃 Porfiry replied; almost
  gleefully。 〃I myself; too。。。 I have a wicked temper; I admit it! But
  we shall meet again。 If it's God's will; we may see a great deal of
  one another。〃
  〃And will get to know each other through and through?〃 added
  Raskolnikov。
  〃Yes; know each other through and through;〃 assented Porfiry
  Petrovitch; and he screwed up his eyes; looking earnestly at
  Raskolnikov。 〃Now you're going to a birthday party?〃
  〃To a funeral。〃
  〃Of course; the funeral! Take care of yourself; and get well。〃
  〃I don't know what to wish you;〃 said Raskolnikov; who had begun
  to descend the stairs; but looked back again。 〃I should like to wish
  you success; but your office is such a comical one。〃
  〃Why comical?〃 Porfiry Petrovitch had turned to go; but he seemed to
  prick up his ears at this。
  〃Why; how you must have been torturing and harassing that poor
  Nikolay psychologically; after your fashion; till he confessed! You
  must have been at him day and night; proving to him that he was the
  murderer; and now that he has confessed; you'll begin vivisecting
  him again。 'You are lying;' you'll say。 'You are not the murderer! You
  can't be! It's not your own tale you are telling!' You must admit it's
  a comical business!〃
  〃He…he…he! You noticed then that I said to Nikolay just now that
  it was not his own tale he was telling?〃
  〃How could I help noticing it!〃
  〃He…he! You are quick…witted。 You notice everything! You've really a
  playful mind! And you always fasten on the comic side。。。 he…he! They
  say that was the marked characteristic of Gogol; among the writers。〃
  〃Yes; of Gogol。〃
  〃Yes; of Gogol。。。。 I shall look forward to meeting you。〃
  〃So shall I。〃
  Raskolnikov walked straight home。 He was so muddled and bewildered
  that on getting home he sat for a quarter of an hour on the sofa;
  trying to collect his thoughts。 He did not attempt to think about
  Nikolay; he was stupefied; he felt that his confession was something
  inexplicable; amazing… something beyond his understanding。 But
  Nikolay's confession was an actual fact。 The consequences of this fact
  were clear to him at once; its fal