第 92 节
作者:不言败      更新:2021-02-21 15:48      字数:9322
  shall come。。。 if I can。 Good…bye。〃
  And without holding out his hand he walked away。
  〃But where are you going? What are you doing? What's the matter with
  you? How can you go on like this?〃 Razumihin muttered; at his wits'
  end。
  Raskolnikov stopped once more。
  〃Once for all; never ask me about anything。 I have nothing to tell
  you。 Don't come to see me。 Maybe I'll come here。。。。 Leave me; but
  don't leave them。 Do you understand me?〃
  It was dark in the corridor; they were standing near the lamp。 For a
  minute they were looking at one another in silence。 Razumihin
  remembered that minute all his life。 Raskolnikov's burning and
  intent eyes grew more penetrating every moment; piercing into his
  soul; into his consciousness。 Suddenly Razumihin started。 Something
  strange; as it were; passed between them。。。。 Some idea; some hint as
  it were; slipped; something awful; hideous; and suddenly understood on
  both sides。。。。 Razumihin turned pale。
  〃Do you understand now?〃 said Raskolnikov; his face twitching
  nervously。 〃Go back; go to them;〃 he said suddenly; and turning
  quickly; he went out of the house。
  I will not attempt to describe how Razumihin went back to the
  ladies; how he soothed them; how he protested that Rodya needed rest
  in his illness; protested that Rodya was sure to come; that he would
  come every day; that he was very; very much upset; that he must not be
  irritated; that he; Razumihin; would watch over him; would get him a
  doctor; the best doctor; a consultation。。。。 In fact from that
  evening Razumihin took his place with them as a son and a brother。
  Chapter Four
  RASKOLNIKOV WENT straight to the house on the canal bank where Sonia
  lived。 It was an old green house of three storeys。 He found the porter
  and obtained from him vague directions as to the whereabouts of
  Kapernaumov; the tailor。 Having found in the corner of the courtyard
  the entrance to the dark and narrow staircase; he mounted to the
  second floor and came out into a gallery that ran round the whole
  second storey over the yard。 While he was wandering in the darkness;
  uncertain where to turn for Kapernaumov's door; a door opened three
  paces from him; he mechanically took hold of it。
  〃Who is there?〃 a woman's voice asked uneasily。
  〃It's I。。。 come to see you;〃 answered Raskolnikov and he walked into
  the tiny entry。
  On a broken chair stood a candle in a battered copper candlestick。
  〃It's you! Good heavens!〃 cried Sonia weakly and she stood rooted to
  the spot。
  〃Which is your room? This way?〃 and Raskolnikov; trying not to
  look at her; hastened in。
  A minute later Sonia; too; came in with the candle; set down the
  candlestick and; completely disconcerted; stood before him
  inexpressibly agitated and apparently frightened by his unexpected
  visit。 The colour rushed suddenly to her pale face and tears came into
  her eyes。。。 She felt sick and ashamed and happy; too。。。。 Raskolnikov
  turned away quickly and sat on a chair by the table。 He scanned the
  room in a rapid glance。
  It was a large but exceeding low…pitched room; the only one let by
  the Kapernaumovs; to whose rooms a closed door led in the wall on
  the left。 In the opposite side on the right hand wall was another
  door; always kept locked。 That led to the next flat; which formed a
  separate lodging。 Sonia's room looked like a barn; it was a very
  irregular quadrangle and this gave it a grotesque appearance。 A wall
  with three windows looking out on to the canal ran aslant so that
  one corner formed a very acute angle; and it was difficult to see in
  it without very strong light。 The other corner was
  disproportionately obtuse。 There was scarcely any furniture in the big
  room: in the corner on the right was a bedstead; beside it; nearest
  the door; a chair。 A plain; deal table covered by a blue cloth stood
  against the same wall; close to the door into the other flat。 Two
  rush…bottom chairs stood by the table。 On the opposite wall near the
  acute angle stood a small plain wooden chest of drawers looking; as it
  were; lost in a desert。 That was all there was in the room。 The
  yellow; scratched and shabby wall…paper was black in the corners。 It
  must have been damp and full of fumes in the winter。 There was every
  sign of poverty; even the bedstead had no curtain。
  Sonia looked in silence at her visitor; who was so attentively and
  unceremoniously scrutinising her room; and even began at last to
  tremble with terror; as though she was standing before her judge and
  the arbiter of her destinies。
  〃I am late。。。。 eleven; isn't it?〃 he asked; still not lifting his
  eyes。
  〃Yes;〃 muttered Sonia; 〃oh; yes; it is;〃 she added; hastily; as
  though in that lay her means of escape。 〃My landlady's clock has
  just struck。。。 I heard it myself。。。。〃
  〃I've come to you for the last time;〃 Raskolnikov went on
  gloomily; although this was the first time。 〃I may perhaps not see you
  again。。。〃
  〃Are you。。。 going away?〃
  〃I don't know。。。 to…morrow。。。。〃
  〃Then you are not coming to Katerina Ivanovna to…morrow?〃 Sonia's
  voice shook。
  〃I don't know。 I shall know to…morrow morning。。。。 Never mind that:
  I've come to say one word。。。。〃
  He raised his brooding eyes to her and suddenly noticed that he
  was sitting down while she was all the while standing before him。
  〃Why are you standing? Sit down;〃 he said in a changed voice; gentle
  and friendly。
  She sat down。 He looked kindly and almost compassionately at her。
  〃How thin you are! What a hand! Quite transparent; like a dead
  hand。〃
  He took her hand。 Sonia smiled faintly。
  〃I have always been like that;〃 she said。
  〃Even when you lived at home?〃
  〃Yes。〃
  〃Of course; you were;〃 he added abruptly and the expression of his
  face and the sound of his voice changed again suddenly。
  He looked round him once more。
  〃You rent this room from the Kapernaumovs?〃
  〃Yes。。。。〃
  〃They live there; through that door?〃
  〃Yes。。。。 They have another room like this。〃
  〃All in one room?〃
  〃Yes。〃
  〃I should be afraid in your room at night;〃 he observed gloomily。
  〃They are very good people; very kind;〃 answered Sonia; who still
  seemed bewildered; 〃and all the furniture; everything。。。 everything is
  theirs。 And they are very kind and the children; too; often come to
  see me。〃
  〃They all stammer; don't they?〃
  〃Yes。。。。 He stammers and he's lame。 And his wife; too。。。。 It's not
  exactly that she stammers; but she can't speak plainly。 She is a
  very kind woman。 And he used to