第 83 节
作者:不言败      更新:2021-02-21 15:48      字数:9322
  such a slave driver? Ha; ha! By the way; do you remember; Rodion
  Romanovitch; how a few years ago; in those days of beneficent
  publicity; a nobleman; I've forgotten his name; was put to shame
  everywhere; in all the papers; for having thrashed a German woman in
  the railway train。 You remember? It was in those days; that very
  year I believe; the 'disgraceful action of the Age' took place (you
  know; 'The Egyptian Nights;' that public reading; you remember? The
  dark eyes; you know! Ah; the golden days of our youth; where are
  they?)。 Well; as for the gentleman who thrashed the German; I feel
  no sympathy with him; because after all what need is there for
  sympathy? But I must say that there are sometimes such provoking
  'Germans' that I don't believe there is a progressive who could
  quite answer for himself。 No one looked at the subject from that point
  of view then; but that's the truly humane point of view; I assure
  you。〃
  After saying this; Svidrigailov broke into a sudden laugh again。
  Raskolnikov saw clearly that this was a man with a firm purpose in his
  mind and able to keep it to himself。
  〃I expect you've not talked to any one for some days?〃 he asked。
  〃Scarcely any one。 I suppose you are wondering at my being such an
  adaptable man?〃
  〃No; I am only wondering at your being too adaptable a man。〃
  〃Because I am not offended at the rudeness of your questions? Is
  that it? But why take offence? As you asked; so I answered;〃 he
  replied; with a surprising expression of simplicity。 〃You know;
  there's hardly anything I take interest in;〃 he went on; as it were
  dreamily; 〃especially now; I've nothing to do。。。。 You are quite at
  liberty to imagine though that I am making up to you with a motive;
  particularly as I told you I want to see your sister about
  something。 But I'll confess frankly; I am very much bored。 The last
  three days especially; so I am delighted to see you。。。。 Don't be
  angry; Rodion Romanovitch; but you seem to be somehow awfully
  strange yourself。 Say what you like; there's something wrong with you;
  and now; too。。。 not this very minute; I mean; but now; generally。。。。
  Well; well; I won't; I won't; don't scowl! I am not such a bear; you
  know; as you think。〃
  Raskolnikov looked gloomily at him。
  〃You are not a bear; perhaps; at all;〃 he said。 〃I fancy indeed that
  you are a man of very good breeding; or at least know how on
  occasion to behave like one。〃
  〃I am not particularly interested in any one's opinion;〃
  Svidrigailov answered; dryly and even with a shade of haughtiness;
  〃and therefore why not be vulgar at times when vulgarity is such a
  convenient cloak for our climate。。。 and especially if one has a
  natural propensity that way;〃 he added; laughing again。
  〃But I've heard you have many friends here。 You are; as they say;
  'not without connections。' What can you want with me; then; unless
  you've some special object?〃
  〃That's true that I have friends here;〃 Svidrigailov admitted; not
  replying to the chief point。 〃I've met some already。 I've been
  lounging about for the last three days; and I've seen them; or they've
  seen me。 That's a matter of course。 I am well dressed and reckoned not
  a poor man; the emancipation of the serfs hasn't affected me; my
  property consists chiefly of forests and water meadows。 The revenue
  has not fallen off; but。。。 I am not going to see them; I was sick of
  them long ago。 I've been here three days and have called on no one。。。。
  What a town it is! How has it come into existence among us; tell me
  that? A town of officials and students of all sorts。 Yes; there's a
  great deal I didn't notice when I was here eight years ago; kicking up
  my heels。。。。 My only hope now is in anatomy; by Jove; it is!〃
  〃Anatomy?〃
  〃But as for these clubs; Dussauts; parades; or progress; indeed; may
  be… well; all that can go on without me;〃 he went on; again without
  noticing the question。 〃Besides; who wants to be a card…sharper?〃
  〃Why; have you been a card…sharper then?〃
  〃How could I help being? There was a regular set of us; men of the
  best society; eight years ago; we had a fine time。 And all men of
  breeding; you know; poets; men of property。 And indeed as a rule in
  our Russian society; the best manners are found among those who've
  been thrashed; have you noticed that? I've deteriorated in the
  country。 But I did get into prison for debt; through a low Greek who
  came from Nezhin。 Then Marfa Petrovna turned up; she bargained with
  him and bought me off for thirty thousand silver pieces (I owed
  seventy thousand)。 We were united in lawful wedlock and she bore me
  off into the country like a treasure。 You know she was five years
  older than I。 She was very fond of me。 For seven years I never left
  the country。 And; take note; that all my life she held a document over
  me; the I。O。U。 for thirty thousand roubles; so if I were to elect to
  be restive about anything I should be trapped at once! And she would
  have done it! Women find nothing incompatible in that。〃
  〃If it hadn't been for that; would you have given her the slip?〃
  〃I don't know what to say。 It was scarcely the document restrained
  me。 I didn't want to go anywhere else。 Marfa Petrovna herself
  invited me to go abroad; seeing I was bored; but I've been abroad
  before; and always felt sick there。 For no reason; but the sunrise;
  the bay of Naples; the sea… you look at them and it makes you sad。
  What's most revolting is that one is really sad! No; it's better at
  home。 Here at least one blames others for everything and excuses
  oneself。 I should have gone perhaps on an expedition to the North
  Pole; because j'ai le vin mauvais and hate drinking; and there's
  nothing left but wine。 I have tried it。 But; I say; I've been told
  Berg is going up in a great balloon next Sunday from the Yusupov
  Garden and will take up passengers at a fee。 Is it true?〃
  〃Why; would you go up?〃
  〃I。。。 No; oh; no;〃 muttered Svidrigailov really seeming to be deep
  in thought。
  〃What does he mean? Is he in earnest?〃 Raskolnikov wondered。
  〃No; the document didn't restrain me;〃 Svidrigailov went on;
  meditatively。 〃It was my own doing; not leaving the country; and
  nearly a year ago Marfa Petrovna gave me back the document on my
  name day and made me a present of a considerable sum of money; too。
  She had a fortune; you know。 'You see how I trust you; Arkady
  Ivanovitch'… that was actually her expression。 You don't believe she
  used it? But do you know I managed the estate quite decently; they
  know me in the neighbourhood。 I ordered books; too。 Marfa Petrovna
  at first approved; but afterwards she was afraid of my over…studying。〃
  〃You seem to be missing Marfa Petrovna very much?〃
  〃Missing her? Perhaps。 Really; perhaps I am。 And; by the way; do you
  believe in ghosts?〃
  〃What ghosts?〃
  〃Why; ordinary ghosts。〃
  〃Do you believe in them?〃
  〃Perhaps not; pour vous plaire。。。。 I wouldn't say no exactly。〃
  〃Do you see them; then?〃
  Svidrigailov looked at him rather oddly。
  〃Marfa Petrovna is pleased to visit me;〃 he said; twisting his mouth
  into a strange smile。
  〃How do you mean 'she is pleased to visit you'?〃
  〃She has been three times。 I saw her first on the very day of the
  funeral; an hour after she was bur