第 82 节
作者:不言败      更新:2021-02-21 15:48      字数:9321
  his door was flung open and a man whom he had never seen stood in
  the doorway watching him intently。
  Raskolnikov had hardly opened his eyes and he instantly closed
  them again。 He lay on his back without stirring。
  〃Is it still a dream?〃 he wondered and again raised his eyelids
  hardly perceptibly; the stranger was standing in the same place; still
  watching him。
  He stepped cautiously into the room; carefully closing the door
  after him; went up to the table; paused a moment; still keeping his
  eyes on Raskolnikov and noiselessly seated himself on the chair by the
  sofa; he put his hat on the floor beside him and leaned his hands on
  his cane and his chin on his hands。 It was evident that he was
  prepared to wait indefinitely。 As far as Raskolnikov could make out
  from his stolen glances; he was a man no longer young; stout; with a
  full; fair; almost whitish beard。
  Ten minutes passed。 It was still light; but beginning to get dusk。
  There was complete stillness in the room。 Not a sound came from the
  stairs。 Only a big fly buzzed and fluttered against the window pane。
  It was unbearable at last。 Raskolnikov suddenly got up and sat on
  the sofa。
  〃Come; tell me what you want。〃
  〃I knew you were not asleep; but only pretending;〃 the stranger
  answered oddly; laughing calmly。 〃Arkady Ivanovitch Svidrigailov;
  allow me to introduce myself。。。。〃
  PART FOUR
  Chapter One
  〃CAN this be still a dream?〃 Raskolnikov thought once more。
  He looked carefully and suspiciously at the unexpected visitor。
  〃Svidrigailov! What nonsense! It can't be!〃 he said at last aloud in
  bewilderment。
  His visitor did not seem at all surprised at this exclamation。
  〃I've come to you for two reasons。 In the first place; I wanted to
  make your personal acquaintance; as I have already heard a great
  deal about you that is interesting and flattering; secondly; I cherish
  the hope that you may not refuse to assist me in a matter directly
  concerning the welfare of your sister; Avdotya Romanovna。 For
  without your support she might not let me come near her now; for she
  is prejudiced against me; but with your assistance I reckon on。。。〃
  〃You reckon wrongly;〃 interrupted Raskolnikov。
  〃They only arrived yesterday; may I ask you?〃
  Raskolnikov made no reply。
  〃It was yesterday; I know。 I only arrived myself the day before。
  Well; let me tell you this; Rodion Romanovitch; I don't consider it
  necessary to justify myself; but kindly tell me what was there
  particularly criminal on my part in all this business; speaking
  without prejudice; with common sense?〃
  Raskolnikov continued to look at him in silence。
  〃That in my own house I persecuted a defenceless girl and
  'insulted her with my infamous proposals'… is that it? (I am
  anticipating you。) But you've only to assume that I; too; am a man
  et nihil humanum。。。 in a word; that I am capable of being attracted
  and falling in love (which does not depend on our will); then
  everything can be explained in the most natural manner。 The question
  is; am I a monster; or am I myself a victim? And what if I am a
  victim? In proposing to the object of my passion to elope with me to
  America or Switzerland; I may have cherished the deepest respect for
  her; and may have thought that I was promoting our mutual happiness!
  Reason is the slave of passion; you know; why; probably; I was doing
  more harm to myself than any one!〃
  〃But that's not the point;〃 Raskolnikov interrupted with disgust。
  〃It's simply that whether you are right or wrong; we dislike you。 We
  don't want to have anything to do with you。 We show you the door。 Go
  out!〃
  Svidrigailov broke into a sudden laugh。
  〃But you're。。。 but there's no getting round you;〃 he said;
  laughing in the frankest way。 〃I hoped to get round you; but you
  took up the right line at once!〃
  〃But you are trying to get round me still!〃
  〃What of it? What of it?〃 cried Svidrigailov; laughing openly。
  〃But this is what the French call bonne guerre; and the most
  innocent form of deception!。。。 But still you have interrupted me;
  one way or another; I repeat again: there would never have been any
  unpleasantness except for what happened in the garden。 Marfa
  Petrovna。。。〃
  〃You have got rid of Marfa Petrovna; too; so they say?〃
  Raskolnikov interrupted rudely。
  〃Oh; you've heard that; too; then? You'd be sure to; though。。。。
  But as for your question; I really don't know what to say; though my
  own conscience is quite at rest on that score。 Don't suppose that I am
  in any apprehension about it。 All was regular and in order; the
  medical inquiry diagnosed apoplexy due to bathing immediately after
  a heavy dinner and a bottle of wine; and indeed it could have proved
  nothing else。 But I'll tell you what I have been thinking to myself of
  late; on my way here in the train; especially: didn't I contribute
  to all that。。。 calamity; morally; in a way; by irritation or something
  of the sort。 But I came to the conclusion that that; too; was quite
  out of the question。〃
  Raskolnikov laughed。
  〃I wonder you trouble yourself about it!〃
  〃But what are you laughing at? Only consider; I struck her just
  twice with a switch… there were no marks even。。。 don't regard me as
  a cynic; please; I am perfectly aware how atrocious it was of me and
  all that; but I know for certain; too; that Marfa Petrovna was very
  likely pleased at my; so to say; warmth。 The story of your sister
  had been wrung out to the last drop; for the last three days Marfa
  Petrovna had been forced to sit at home; she had nothing to show
  herself with in the town。 Besides; she had bored them so with that
  letter (you heard about her reading the letter)。 And all of a sudden
  those two switches fell from heaven! Her first act was to order the
  carriage to be got out。。。。 Not to speak of the fact that there are
  cases when women are very; very glad to be insulted in spite of all
  their show of indignation。 There are instances of it with every one;
  human beings in general; indeed; greatly love to be insulted; have you
  noticed that? But it's particularly so with women。 One might even
  say it's their only amusement。〃
  At one time Raskolnikov thought of getting up and walking out and so
  finishing the interview。 But some curiosity and even a sort of
  prudence made him linger for a moment。
  〃You are fond of fighting?〃 he asked carelessly。
  〃No; not very;〃 Svidrigailov answered; calmly。 〃And Marfa Petrovna
  and I scarcely ever fought。 We lived very harmoniously; and she was
  always pleased with me。 I only used the whip twice in all our seven
  years (not counting a third occasion of a very ambiguous character)。
  The first time; two months after our marriage; immediately after we
  arrived in the country; and the last time was that of which we are
  speaking。 Did you suppose I was such a monster; such a reactionary;
  such a slave driver? Ha; ha! By the way; do you remember; Rodion
  Romanovitch; how a few years