第 61 节
作者:不言败      更新:2021-02-21 15:47      字数:9322
  It was nearly an hour later when they heard footsteps in the
  corridor and another knock at the door。 Both women waited this time
  completely relying on Razumihin's promise; he actually had succeeded
  in bringing Zossimov。 Zossimov had agreed at once to desert the
  drinking party to go to Raskolnikov's; but he came reluctantly and
  with the greatest suspicion to see the ladies; mistrusting Razumihin
  in his exhilarated condition。 But his vanity was at once reassured and
  flattered; he saw that they were really expecting him as an oracle。 He
  stayed just ten minutes and succeeded in completely convincing and
  comforting Pulcheria Alexandrovna。 He spoke with marked sympathy;
  but with the reserve and extreme seriousness of a young doctor at an
  important consultation。 He did not utter a word on any other subject
  and did not display the slightest desire to enter into more personal
  relations with the two ladies。 Remarking at his first entrance the
  dazzling beauty of Avdotya Romanovna; he endeavoured not to notice her
  at all during his visit and addressed himself solely to Pulcheria
  Alexandrovna。 All this gave him extraordinary inward satisfaction。
  He declared that he thought the invalid at this moment going on very
  satisfactorily。 According to his observations the patient's illness
  was due partly to his unfortunate material surroundings during the
  last few months; but it had partly also a moral origin; 〃was so to
  speak the product of several material and moral influences; anxieties;
  apprehensions; troubles; certain ideas。。。 and so on。〃 Noticing
  stealthily that Avdotya Romanovna was following his words with close
  attention; Zossimov allowed himself to enlarge on this theme。 On
  Pulcheria Alexandrovna's anxiously and timidly inquiring as to 〃some
  suspicion of insanity;〃 he replied with a composed and candid smile
  that his words had been exaggerated; that certainly the patient had
  some fixed idea; something approaching a monomania… he; Zossimov;
  was now particularly studying this interesting branch of medicine… but
  that it must be recollected that until to…day the patient had been
  in delirium and。。。 and that no doubt the presence of his family
  would have a favourable effect on his recovery and distract his
  mind; 〃if only all fresh shocks can be avoided;〃 he added
  significantly。 Then he got up; took leave with an impressive and
  affable bow; while blessings; warm gratitude; and entreaties were
  showered upon him; and Avdotya Romanovna spontaneously offered her
  hand to him。 He went out exceedingly pleased with his visit and
  still more so with himself。
  〃We'll talk to…morrow; go to bed at once!〃 Razumihin said in
  conclusion; following Zossimov out。 〃I'll be with you to…morrow
  morning as early as possible with my report。〃
  〃That's a fetching little girl; Avdotya Romanovna;〃 remarked
  Zossimov; almost licking his lips as they both came out into the
  street。
  〃Fetching? You said fetching?〃 roared Razumihin and he flew at
  Zossimov and seized him by the throat。 〃If you ever dare。。。 Do you
  understand? Do you understand?〃 he shouted; shaking him by the
  collar and squeezing him against the wall。 〃Do you hear?〃
  〃Let me go; you drunken devil;〃 said Zossimov; struggling and when
  he had let him go; he stared at him and went off into a sudden guffaw。
  Razumihin stood facing him in gloomy and earnest reflection。
  〃Of course; I am an ass;〃 he observed; sombre as a storm cloud; 〃but
  still。。。 you are another。〃
  〃No; brother; not at all such another。 I am not dreaming of any
  folly。〃
  They walked along in silence and only when they were close to
  Raskolnikov's lodgings; Razumihin broke the silence in considerable
  anxiety。
  〃Listen;〃 he said; 〃you're a first…rate fellow; but among your other
  failings; you're a loose fish; that; I know; and a dirty one; too。 You
  are a feeble; nervous wretch; and a mass of whims; you're getting
  fat and lazy and can't deny yourself anything… and I call that dirty
  because it leads on straight into the dirt。 You've let yourself get so
  slack that I don't know how it is you are still a good; even a devoted
  doctor。 You… a doctor… sleep on a feather bed and get up at night to
  your patients! In another three or four years you won't get up for
  your patients。。。 But hang it all; that's not the point!。。。 You are
  going to spend to…night in the landlady's flat here。 (Hard work I've
  had to persuade her!) And I'll be in the kitchen。 So here's a chance
  for you to get to know her better。。。。 It's not as you think! There's
  not a trace of anything of the sort; brother。。。!〃
  〃But I don't think!〃
  〃Here you have modesty; brother; silence; bashfulness; a savage
  virtue。。。 and yet she's sighing and melting like wax; simply
  melting! Save me from her; by all that's unholy! She's most
  prepossessing。。。 I'll repay you; I'll do anything。。。。〃
  Zossimov laughed more violently than ever。
  〃Well; you are smitten! But what am I to do with her?〃
  〃It won't be much trouble; I assure you。 Talk any rot you like to
  her; as long as you sit by her and talk。 You're a doctor; too; try
  curing her of something。 I swear you won't regret it。 She has a piano;
  and you know; I strum a little。 I have a song there; a genuine Russian
  one: 'I shed hot tears。' She likes the genuine article… and well; it
  all began with that song; Now you're a regular performer; a maitre;
  a Rubinstein。。。。 I assure you; you won't regret it!〃
  〃But have you made her some promise? Something signed? A promise
  of marriage; perhaps?〃
  〃Nothing; nothing; absolutely nothing of the kind! Besides she is
  not that sort at all。。。。 Tchebarov tried that。。。。〃
  〃Well; then; drop her!〃
  〃But I can't drop her like that!〃
  〃Why can't you?〃
  〃Well; I can't; that's all about it! There's an element of
  attraction here; brother。〃
  〃Then why have you fascinated her?〃
  〃I haven't fascinated her; perhaps; I was fascinated myself in my
  folly。 But she won't care a straw whether it's you or I; so long as
  somebody sits beside her; sighing。。。。 I can't explain the position;
  brother。。。 look here; you are good at mathematics; and working at it
  now。。。 begin teaching her the integral calculus; upon my soul; I'm not
  joking。 I'm in earnest; it'll be just the same to her。 She will gaze
  at you and sigh for a whole year together。 I talked to her once for
  two days at a time about the Prussian House of Lords (for one must
  talk of something)… she just sighed and perspired! And you mustn't
  talk of love… she's bashful to hysterics… but just let her see you
  can't tear yourself away… that's enough。 It's fearfully comfortable;
  you're quite at home; you can read; sit; lie about; write。 You may
  even venture on a kiss; if you're careful。〃
  〃But what do I want with her?〃
  〃Ach; I can't make you understand! You see; you are made for each
  other! I have often been reminded of you!。。。 You'll come to it in
  the end! So does it matter whether it's sooner or later? There's the
  featherbed element here; brother;… ach! and not only that! There's
  an attraction here… here you have the end of the world; an
  anchorage; a quiet haven; the navel of the earth; the three fishes
  that are the foundation of the world; the essence of pancakes; of
  savoury fish…pies; of the evening samovar; of soft sighs and warm
  shawls; and hot stoves to sleep on… as snug as though you were dead;
  and yet you're alive… the advantag