eccentric　and　pinched　her　hand　too　much；　in　her　anxiety　over　her　Rodya
  she　looked　on　his　presence　as　providential　and　was　unwilling　to　notice
  all　his　peculiarities。　But　though　Avdotya　Romanovna　shared　her
  anxiety；　and　was　not　of　timorous　disposition；　she　could　not　see　the
  glowing　light　in　his　eyes　without　wonder　and　almost　alarm。　It　was　only
  the　unbounded　confidence　inspired　by　Nastasya's　account　of　her
  brother's　queer　friend；　which　prevented　her　from　trying　to　run　away
  from　him；　and　to　persuade　her　mother　to　do　the　same。　She　realised；
  too；　that　even　running　away　was　perhaps　impossible　now。　Ten　minutes
  later；　however；　she　was　considerably　reassured；　it　was
  characteristic　of　Razumihin　that　he　showed　his　true　nature　at　once；
  whatever　mood　he　might　be　in；　so　that　people　quickly　saw　the　sort　of
  man　they　had　to　deal　with。
  〃You　can't　go　to　the　landlady；　that's　perfect　nonsense！〃　he　cried。
  〃If　you　stay；　though　you　are　his　mother；　you'll　drive　him　to　a　frenzy；
  and　then　goodness　knows　what　will　happen！　Listen；　I'll　tell　you　what
  I'll　do：　Nastasya　will　stay　with　him　now；　and　I'll　conduct　you　both
  home；　you　can't　be　in　the　streets　alone；　Petersburg　is　an　awful
  place　in　that　way。。。　But　no　matter！　Then　I'll　run　straight　back　here
  and　a　quarter　of　an　hour　later；　on　my　word　of　honour；　I'll　bring　you
  news　how　he　is；　whether　he　is　asleep；　and　all　that。　Then；　listen！　Then
  I'll　run　home　in　a　twinkling…　I've　a　lot　of　friends　there；　all
  drunk…　I'll　fetch　Zossimov…　that's　the　doctor　who　is　looking　after
  him；　he　is　there；　too；　but　he　is　not　drunk；　he　is　not　drunk；　he　is
  never　drunk！　I'll　drag　him　to　Rodya；　and　then　to　you；　so　that　you'll
  get　two　reports　in　the　hour…　from　the　doctor；　you　understand；　from　the
  doctor　himself；　that's　a　very　different　thing　from　my　account　of
  him！　If　there's　anything　wrong；　I　swear　I'll　bring　you　here　myself；
  but；　if　it's　all　right；　you　go　to　bed。　And　I'll　spend　the　night
  here；　in　the　passage；　he　won't　hear　me；　and　I'll　tell　Zossimov　to
  sleep　at　the　landlady's；　to　be　at　hand。　Which　is　better　for　him：　you
  or　the　doctor？　So　come　home　then！　But　the　landlady　is　out　of　the
  question；　it's　all　right　for　me；　but　it's　out　of　the　question　for　you：
  she　wouldn't　take　you；　for　she's。。。　for　she's　a　fool。。。　She'd　be
  jealous　on　my　account　of　Avdotya　Romanovna　and　of　you；　too；　if　you
  want　to　know。。。　of　Avdotya　Romanovna　certainly。　She　is　an
  absolutely；　absolutely　unaccountable　character！　But　I　am　a　fool；
  too！。。。　No　matter！　Come　along！　Do　you　trust　me？　Come；　do　you　trust
  me　or　not？〃
  〃Let　us　go；　mother；〃　said　Avdotya　Romanovna；　〃he　will　certainly　do
  what　he　has　promised。　He　has　saved　Rodya　already；　and　if　the　doctor
  really　will　consent　to　spend　the　night　here；　what　could　be　better？〃
  〃You　see；　you。。。　you。。。　understand　me；　because　you　are　an　angel！〃
  Razumihin　cried　in　ecstasy；　〃let　us　go！　Nastasya！　Fly　upstairs　and　sit
  with　him　with　a　light；　I'll　come　in　a　quarter　of　an　hour。〃
  Though　Pulcheria　Alexandrovna　was　not　perfectly　convinced；　she
  made　no　further　resistance。　Razumihin　gave　an　arm　to　each　and　drew
  them　down　the　stairs。　He　still　made　her　uneasy；　as　though　he　was
  competent　and　good…natured；　was　he　capable　of　carrying　out　his
  promise？　He　seemed　in　such　a　condition。。。。
  〃Ah；　I　see　you　think　I　am　in　such　a　condition！〃　Razumihin　broke　in
  upon　her　thoughts；　guessing　them；　as　he　strolled　along　the　pavement
  with　huge　steps；　so　that　the　two　ladies　could　hardly　keep　up　with　him；
  a　fact　he　did　not　observe；　however。　〃Nonsense！　That　is。。。　I　am　drunk
  like　a　fool；　but　that's　not　it；　I　am　not　drunk　from　wine。　It's
  seeing　you　has　turned　my　head。。。　But　don't　mind　me！　Don't　take　any
  notice：　I　am　talking　nonsense；　I　am　not　worthy　of　you。。。　I　am
  utterly　unworthy　of　you！　The　minute　I've　taken　you　home；　I'll　pour　a
  couple　of　pailfuls　of　water　over　my　head　in　the　gutter　here；　and
  then　I　shall　be　all　right。。。　If　only　you　knew　how　I　love　you　both！
  Don't　laugh；　and　don't　be　angry！　You　may　be　angry　with　any　one；　but
  not　with　me！　I　am　his　friend；　and　therefore　I　am　your　friend；　too；　I
  want　to　be。。。　I　had　a　presentiment。。。　Last　year　there　was　a
  moment。。。　though　it　wasn't　a　presentiment　really；　for　you　seem　to　have
  fallen　from　heaven。　And　I　expect　I　shan't　sleep　all　night。。。
  Zossimov　was　afraid　a　little　time　ago　that　he　would　go　mad。。。　that's
  why　he　mustn't　be　irritated。〃
  〃What　do　you　say？〃　cried　the　mother。
  〃Did　the　doctor　really　say　that？〃　asked　Avdotya　Romanovna；　alarmed。
  〃Yes；　but　it's　not　so；　not　a　bit　of　it。　He　gave　him　some　medicine；　a
  powder；　I　saw　it；　and　then　your　coming　here。。。。　Ah！　It　would　have　been
  better　if　you　had　come　to…morrow。　It's　a　good　thing　we　went　away。
  And　in　an　hour　Zossimov　himself　will　report　to　you　about　everything。
  He　is　not　drunk！　And　I　shan't　be　drunk。。。　And　what　made　me　get　so
  tight？　Because　they　got　me　into　an　argument；　damn　them！　I've　sworn
  never　to　argue！　They　talk　such　trash！　I　almost　came　to　blows！　I've
  left　my　uncle　to　preside。　Would　you　believe；　they　insist　on　complete
  absence　of　individualism　and　that's　just　what　they　relish！　Not　to　be
  themselves；　to　be　as　unlike　themselves　as　they　can。　That's　what　they
  regard　as　the　highest　point　of　progress。　If　only　their　nonsense　were
  their　own；　but　as　it　is。。。〃
  〃Listen！〃　Pulcheria　Alexandrovna　interrupted　timidly；　but　it　only
  added　fuel　to　the　flames。
  〃What　do　you　think？〃　shouted　Razumihin；　louder　than　ever；　〃you　think
  I　am　attacking　them　for　talking　nonsense？　Not　a　bit！　I　like　them　to
  talk　nonsense。　That's　man's　one　privilege　over　all　creation。　Through
  error　you　come　to　the　truth！　I　am　a　man　because　I　err！　You　never　reach
  any　truth　without　making　fourteen　mistakes　and　very　likely　a　hundred
  and　fourteen。　And　a　fine　thing；　too；　in　its　way；　but　we　can't　even
  make　mistakes　on　our　own　account！　Talk　nonsense；　but　talk　your　own
  nonsense；　and　I'll　kiss　you　for　it。　To　go　wrong　in　one's　own　way　is
  better　than　to　go　right　in　some　one　else's。　In　the　first　case　you
  are　a　man；　in　the　second　you're　no　better　than　a　bird。　Truth　won't
  escape　you；　but　life　can　be　cramped。　There　have　been　examples。　And
  what　are　we　doing　now？　In　science；　development；　thought；　invention；
  ideals；　aims；　liberalism；　judgment；　experience　and　everything；
  everything；　everything；　we　are　still　in　the　preparatory　class　at
  school。　We　prefer　to　live　on　other　people's　ideas；　it's　what　we　are
  used　to！　Am　I　right；　am　I　right？〃　cried　Razumihin；　pressing　and
  shaking　the　two　ladies'　hands。
  〃Oh；　mercy；　I　do　not　know；〃　cried　poor　Pulcheria　Alexandrovna。
  〃Yes；　yes。。。　though　I　don't　agree　with　you　in　everything；〃　added
  Avdotya　Romanovna　earnestly　and　at　once　uttered　a　cry；　for　he　squeezed
  her　hand　so　painfully。
  〃Yes；　you　say　yes。。。　well　after　that　you。。。　you。。。〃　he　cried　in　a
  transport；　〃you　are　a　fount　of　goodness；　purity；　sense。。。　and
  perfection。　Give　me　your　hand。。。　you　give　me　yours；　too！　I　want　to
  kiss　your　hands　here　at　once；　on　my　knees。。。〃　and　he　fell　on　his　knees
  on　the　pavement；　fortunately　at　that　time　deserted。
  〃Leave　off；　I　entreat　you；　what　are　you　doing？〃　Pulcheria
  Alexandrovna　cried；　greatly　distressed。
  〃Get　up；　get　up！〃　said　Dounia　laughing；　though　she；　too；　was　upset。
  〃Not　for　anything　till　you　let　me　kiss　your　hands！　That's　it！
  Enough！　I　get　up　and　we'll　go　on！　I　am　a　luckless　fool；　I　am
  unworthy　of　you　and　drunk。。。　and　I　am　ashamed。。。。　I　am　not　worthy　to
  love　you；　but　to　do　homage　to　you　is　the　duty　of　every　man　who　is
  not　a　perfect　beast！　And　I've　done　homage。。。。　Here　are　your
  lodgings；　and　for　that　alone　Rodya　was　right　in　driving　your　Pyotr
  Petrovitch　away。。。。　How　dare　he！　how　dare　he　put　you　in　such　lodgings！
  It's　a　scandal！　Do　you　know　the　so