第 58 节
作者:不言败      更新:2021-02-21 15:47      字数:9322
  man;〃 as Pulcheria Alexandrovna Raskolnikov called him that evening in
  conversation with Dounia。
  PART THREE
  Chapter One
  RASKOLNIKOV got up; and sat down on the sofa。 He waved his hand
  weakly to Razumihin to cut short the flow of warm and incoherent
  consolations he was addressing to his mother and sister; took them
  both by the hand and for a minute or two gazed from one to the other
  without speaking。 His mother was alarmed by his expression。 It
  revealed an emotion agonisingly poignant; and at the same time
  something immovable; almost insane。 Pulcheria Alexandrovna began to
  cry。
  Avdotya Romanovna was pale; her hand trembled in her brother's。
  〃Go home。。。 with him;〃 he said in a broken voice; pointing to
  Razumihin; 〃good…bye till to…morrow; to…morrow everything。。。 Is it
  long since you arrived?〃
  〃This evening; Rodya;〃 answered Pulcheria Alexandrovna; 〃the train
  was awfully late。 But; Rodya; nothing would induce me to leave you
  now! I will spend the night here; near you。。。〃
  〃Don't torture me!〃 he said with a gesture of irritation。
  〃I will stay with him;〃 cried Razumihin; 〃I won't leave him for a
  moment。 Bother all my visitors! Let them rage to their hearts'
  content! My uncle is presiding there。〃
  〃How; how can I thank you!〃 Pulcheria Alexandrovna was beginning;
  once more pressing Razumihin's hands; but Raskolnikov interrupted
  her again。
  〃I can't have it! I can't have it!〃 he repeated irritably; 〃don't
  worry me! Enough; go away。。。 I can't stand it!〃
  〃Come; mamma; come out of the room at least for a minute;〃 Dounia
  whispered in dismay; 〃we are distressing him; that's evident。〃
  〃Mayn't I look at him after three years?〃 wept Pulcheria
  Alexandrovna。
  〃Stay;〃 he stopped them again; 〃you keep interrupting me; and my
  ideas get muddled。。。。 Have you seen Luzhin?〃
  〃No; Rodya; but he knows already of our arrival。 We have heard;
  Rodya; that Pyotr Petrovitch was so kind as to visit you today;〃
  Pulcheria Alexandrovna added somewhat timidly。
  〃Yes。。。 he was so kind。。。 Dounia; I promised Luzhin I'd throw him
  downstairs and told him to go to hell。。。。〃
  〃Rodya; what are you saying! Surely; you don't mean to tell us。。。〃
  Pulcheria Alexandrovna began in alarm; but she stopped; looking at
  Dounia。
  Avdotya Romanovna was looking attentively at her brother; waiting
  for what would come next。 Both of them had heard of the quarrel from
  Nastasya; so far as she had succeeded in understanding and reporting
  it; and were in painful perplexity and suspense。
  〃Dounia;〃 Raskolnikov continued with an effort; 〃I don't want that
  marriage; so at the first opportunity to…morrow you must refuse
  Luzhin; so that we may never hear his name again。〃
  〃Good Heavens!〃 cried Pulcheria Alexandrovna。
  〃Brother; think what you are saying!〃 Avdotya Romanovna began
  impetuously; but immediately checked herself。 〃You are not fit to talk
  now; perhaps; you are tired;〃 she added gently。
  〃You think I am delirious? No。。。 You are marrying Luzhin for my
  sake。 But I won't accept the sacrifice。 And so write a letter before
  to…morrow; to refuse him。。。 Let me read it in the morning and that
  will be the end of it!〃
  〃That I can't do!〃 the girl cried; offended; 〃what right have
  you。。。〃
  〃Dounia; you are hasty; too; be quiet; to…morrow。。。 Don't you
  see。。。〃 the mother interposed in dismay。 〃Better come away!〃
  〃He is raving;〃 Razumihin cried tipsily; 〃or how would he dare!
  To…morrow all this nonsense will be over。。。 to…day he certainly did
  drive him away。 That was so。 And Luzhin got angry; too。。。 He made
  speeches here; wanted to show off his learning and he went out
  crest…fallen。。。。〃
  〃Then it's true?〃 cried Pulcheria Alexandrovna。
  〃Good…bye till to…morrow; brother;〃 said Dounia compassionately…
  〃let us go; mother。。。 Good…bye; Rodya。〃
  〃Do you hear; sister;〃 he repeated after them; making a last effort;
  〃I am not delirious; this marriage is… an infamy。 Let me act like a
  scoundrel; but you mustn't。。。 one is enough。。。 and though I am a
  scoundrel; I wouldn't own such a sister。 It's me or Luzhin! Go
  now。。。。〃
  〃But you're out of your mind! Despot!〃 roared Razumihin; but
  Raskolnikov did not and perhaps could not answer。 He lay down on the
  sofa; and turned to the wall; utterly exhausted。 Avdotya Romanovna
  looked with interest at Razumihin; her black eyes flashed; Razumihin
  positively started at her glance。
  Pulcheria Alexandrovna stood overwhelmed。
  〃Nothing would induce me to go;〃 she whispered in despair to
  Razumihin。 〃I will stay somewhere here。。。 escort Dounia home。〃
  〃You'll spoil everything;〃 Razumihin answered in the same whisper;
  losing patience… 〃come out on to the stairs; anyway。 Nastasya; show
  a light! I assure you;〃 he went on in a half whisper on the stairs…
  〃that he was almost beating the doctor and me this afternoon! Do you
  understand? The doctor himself! Even he gave way and left him; so as
  not to irritate him。 I remained downstairs on guard; but he dressed at
  once and slipped off。 And he will slip off again if you irritate
  him; at this time of night; and will do himself some mischief。。。。〃
  〃What are you saying?〃
  〃And Avdotya Romanovna can't possibly be left in those lodgings
  without you。 Just think where you are staying! That blackguard Pyotr
  Petrovitch couldn't find you better lodgings。。。 But you know I've
  had a little to drink; and that's what makes me。。。 swear; don't mind
  it。。。。〃
  〃But I'll go to the landlady here;〃 Pulcheria Alexandrovna insisted;
  〃Ill beseech her to find some corner for Dounia and me for the
  night。 I can't leave him like that; I cannot!〃
  This conversation took place on the landing just before the
  landlady's door。 Nastasya lighted them from a step below。 Razumihin
  was in extraordinary excitement。 Half an hour earlier; while he was
  bringing Raskolnikov home; he had indeed talked too freely; but he was
  aware of it himself; and his head was clear in spite of the vast
  quantities he had imbibed。 Now he was in a state bordering on ecstasy;
  and all that he had drunk seemed to fly to his head with redoubled
  effect。 He stood with the two ladies; seizing both by their hands;
  persuading them; and giving them reasons with astonishing plainness of
  speech; and at almost every word he uttered; probably to emphasize his
  arguments; he squeezed their hands painfully as in a vise。 He stared
  at Avdotya Romanovna without the least regard for good manners。 They
  sometimes pulled their hands out of his huge bony paws; but far from
  noticing what was the matter; he drew them all the closer to him。 If
  they'd told him to jump head foremost from the staircase; he would
  have done it without thought or hesitation in their service。 Though
  Pulcheria Alexandrovna felt that the young man was really too
  eccentric and pinched her hand too much; in her anxiety over her Rodya
  she looked on his presence as