第 37 节
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raised him up and gave him tea in spoonfuls; again blowing each
spoonful steadily and earnestly; as though this process was the
principal and most effective means towards his friend's recovery。
Raskolnikov said nothing and made no resistance; though he felt
quite strong enough to sit up on the sofa without support and could
not merely have held a cup or a spoon; but even perhaps could have
walked about。 But from some queer; almost animal; cunning he conceived
the idea of hiding his strength and lying low for a time; pretending
if necessary not to be yet in full possession of his faculties; and
meanwhile listening to find out what was going on。 Yet he could not
overcome his sense of repugnance。 After sipping a dozen spoonfuls of
tea; he suddenly released his head; pushed the spoon away
capriciously; and sank back on the pillow。 There were actually real
pillows under his head now; down pillows in clean cases; he observed
that; too; and took note of it。
〃Pashenka must give us some raspberry jam to…day to make him some
raspberry tea;〃 said Razumihin; going back to his chair and
attacking his soup and beer again。
〃And where is she to get raspberries for you?〃 asked Nastasya;
balancing a saucer on her five outspread fingers and sipping tea
through a lump of sugar。
〃She'll get it at the shop; my dear。 You see; Rodya; all sorts of
things have been happening while you have been laid up。 When you
decamped in that rascally way without leaving your address; I felt
so angry that I resolved to find you out and punish you。 I set to work
that very day。 How I ran about making inquiries for you! This
lodging of yours I had forgotten; though I never remembered it;
indeed; because I did not know it; and as for your old lodgings; I
could only remember it was at the Five Corners; Harlamov's house。 I
kept trying to find that Harlamov's house; and afterwards it turned
out that it was not Harlamov's; but Buch's。 How one muddles up sound
sometimes! So I lost my temper; and I went on the chance to the
address bureau next day; and only fancy; in two minutes they looked
you up! Your name is down there。〃
〃My name!〃
〃I should think so; and yet a General Kobelev they could not find
while I was there。 Well; it's a long story。 But as soon as I did
land on this place; I soon got to know all your affairs… all; all;
brother; I know everything; Nastasya here will tell you。 I made the
acquaintance of Nikodim Fomitch and Ilya Petrovitch; and the
house…porter and Mr。 Zametov; Alexandr Grigorievitch; the head clerk
in the police office; and; last; but not least; of Pashenka;
Nastasya here knows。。。。〃
〃He's got round her;〃 Nastasya murmured; smiling slyly。
〃Why don't you put the sugar in your tea; Nastasya Nikiforovna?〃
〃You are a one!〃 Nastasya cried suddenly; going off into a giggle。
〃I am not Nikiforovna; but Petrovna;〃 she added suddenly; recovering
from her mirth。
〃I'll make a note of it。 Well; brother; to make a long story
short; I was going in for a regular explosion here to uproot all
malignant influences in the locality; but Pashenka won the day。 I
had not expected; brother; to find her so。。。 prepossessing。 Eh; what
do you think?〃
Raskolnikov did not speak; but he still kept his eyes fixed upon
him; full of alarm。
〃And all that could be wished; indeed; in every respect;〃
Razumihin went on; not at all embarrassed by his silence。
〃Ah; the sly dog!〃 Nastasya shrieked again。 This conversation
afforded her unspeakable delight。
〃It's a pity; brother; that you did not set to work in the right way
at first。 You ought to have approached her differently。 She is; so
to speak; a most unaccountable character。 But we will talk about her
character later。。。。 How could you let things come to such a pass
that she gave up sending you your dinner? And that I。O。U。? You must
have been mad to sign an I。O。U。 And that promise of marriage when
her daughter; Natalya Yegorovna; was alive?。。。 I know all about it!
But I see that's a delicate matter and I am an ass; forgive me。 But;
talking of foolishness; do you know Praskovya Pavlovna is not nearly
so foolish as you would think at first sight?〃
〃No;〃 mumbled Raskolnikov; looking away; but feeling that it was
better to keep up the conversation。
〃She isn't; is she?〃 cried Razumihin; delighted to get an answer out
of him。 〃But she is not very clever either; eh? She is essentially;
essentially an unaccountable character! I am sometimes quite at a
loss; I assure you。。。。 She must be forty; she says she is
thirty…six; and of course she has every right to say so。 But I swear I
judge her intellectually; simply from the metaphysical point of
view; there is a sort of symbolism sprung up between us; a sort of
algebra or what not! I don't understand it! Well; that's all nonsense。
Only; seeing that you are not a student now and have lost your lessons
and your clothes; and that through the young lady's death she has no
need to treat you as a relation; she suddenly took fright; and as
you hid in your den and dropped all your old relations with her; she
planned to get rid of you。 And she's been cherishing that design a
long time; but was sorry to lose the I。O。U。 for you assured her
yourself that your mother would pay。〃
〃It was base of me to say that。。。。 My mother herself is almost a
beggar。。。 and I told a lie to keep my lodging。。。 and be fed;〃
Raskolnikov said loudly and distinctly。
〃Yes; you did very sensibly。 But the worst of it is that at that
point Mr。 Tchebarov turns up; a business man。 Pashenka would never
have thought of doing anything on her own account; she is too
retiring; but the business man is by no means retiring; and first
thing he puts the question; 'Is there any hope of realising the
I。O。U。?' Answer: there is; because he has a mother who would save
her Rodya with her hundred and twenty…five roubles pension; if she has
to starve herself; and a sister; too; who would go into bondage for
his sake。 That's what he was building upon。。。。 Why do you start? I
know all the ins and outs of your affairs now; my dear boy… it's not
for nothing that you were so open with Pashenka when you were her
prospective son…in…law; and I say all this as a friend。。。。 But I
tell you what it is; an honest and sensitive man is open; and a
business man 'listens and goes on eating' you up。 Well; then she
gave the I。O。U。 by way of payment to this Tchebarov; and without
hesitation he made a formal demand for payment。 When I heard of all
this I wanted to blow him up; too; to clear my conscience; but by that
time harmony reigned between me and Pashenka; and I insisted on
stopping the whole affair; engaging that you would pay。 I went
security for you; brother。 Do you understand? We called Tchebarov;
flung him ten roubles and got the I。O。U。 back from him; and here I
have the honour of presenting it to you。 She trusts your word now。
Here; take it; you see I have torn it。〃
Razumihin put the note on the table。 Raskolnikov looked at him and
turned to the wall without uttering a word。 Even Razumihin felt a
twinge。
〃I see; brother;〃 he said a moment later; 〃that I have been
playing the fool again。 I thought I should amuse you with my
chatter; and I believe I have only made you cross。〃
〃Was it you I did not recognise when I was delirious?〃 Raskolnikov
asked; after a moment's pause with