第 25 节
作者:不言败      更新:2021-02-21 15:47      字数:9322
  now have gone to the box or even into the room for anything in the
  world。
  But a sort of blankness; even dreaminess had begun by degrees to
  take possession of him; at moments he forgot himself; or rather;
  forgot what was of importance; and caught at trifles。 Glancing;
  however; into the kitchen and seeing a bucket half full of water on
  a bench; he bethought him of washing his hands and the axe。 His
  hands were sticky with blood。 He dropped the axe with the blade in the
  water; snatched a piece of soap that lay in a broken saucer on the
  window; and began washing his hands in the bucket。 When they were
  clean; he took out the axe; washed the blade and spent a long time;
  about three minutes; washing the wood where there were spots of
  blood rubbing them with soap。 Then he wiped it all with some linen
  that was hanging to dry on a line in the kitchen and then he was a
  long while attentively examining the axe at the window。 There was no
  trace left on it; only the wood was still damp。 He carefully hung
  the axe in the noose under his coat。 Then as far as was possible; in
  the dim light in the kitchen; he looked over his overcoat; his
  trousers and his boots。 At the first glance there seemed to be nothing
  but stains on the boots。 He wetted the rag and rubbed the boots。 But
  he knew he was not looking thoroughly; that there might be something
  quite noticeable that he was overlooking。 He stood in the middle of
  the room; lost in thought。 Dark agonising ideas rose in his mind…
  the idea that he was mad and that at that moment he was incapable of
  reasoning; of protecting himself; that he ought perhaps to be doing
  something utterly different from what he was now doing。 〃Good God!〃 he
  muttered 〃I must fly; fly;〃 and he rushed into the entry。 But here a
  shock of terror awaited him such as he had never known before。
  He stood and gazed and could not believe his eyes: the door; the
  outer door from the stairs; at which he had not long before waited and
  rung; was standing unfastened and at least six inches open。 No lock;
  no bolt; all the time; all that time! The old woman had not shut it
  after him perhaps as a precaution。 But; good God! Why; he had seen
  Lizaveta afterwards! And how could he; how could he have failed to
  reflect that she must have come in somehow! She could not have come
  through the wall!
  He dashed to the door and fastened the latch。
  〃But no; the wrong thing again。 I must get away; get away。。。。〃
  He unfastened the latch; opened the door and began listening on
  the staircase。
  He listened a long time。 Somewhere far away; it might be in the
  gateway; two voices were loudly and shrilly shouting; quarrelling
  and scolding。 〃What are they about?〃 He waited patiently。 At last
  all was still; as though suddenly cut off; they had separated。 He
  was meaning to go out; but suddenly; on the floor below; a door was
  noisily opened and some one began going downstairs humming a tune。
  〃How is it they all make such a noise!〃 flashed through his mind。 Once
  more he closed the door and waited。 At last all was still; not a
  soul stirring。 He was just taking a step towards the stairs when he
  heard fresh footsteps。
  The steps sounded very far off; at the very bottom of the stairs;
  but he remembered quite clearly and distinctly that from the first
  sound he began for some reason to suspect that this was some one
  coming there; to the fourth floor; to the old woman。 Why? Were the
  sounds somehow peculiar; significant? The steps were heavy; even and
  unhurried。 Now he had passed the first floor; now he was mounting
  higher; it was growing more and more distinct! He could hear his heavy
  breathing。 And now the third storey had been reached。 Coming here! And
  it seemed to him all at once that he was turned to stone; that it
  was like a dream in which one is being pursued; nearly caught and will
  be killed; and is rooted to the spot and cannot even move one's arms。
  At last when the unknown was mounting to the fourth floor; he
  suddenly started; and succeeded in slipping neatly and quickly back
  into the flat and closing the door behind him。 Then he took the hook
  and softly; noiselessly; fixed it in the catch。 Instinct helped him。
  When he had done this; he crouched holding his breath; by the door。
  The unknown visitor was by now also at the door。 They were now
  standing opposite one another; as he had just before been standing
  with the old woman; when the door divided them and he was listening。
  The visitor panted several times。 〃He must be a big; fat man;〃
  thought Raskolnikov; squeezing the axe in his hand。 It seemed like a
  dream indeed。 The visitor took hold of the bell and rang loudly。
  As soon as the tin bell tinkled; Raskolnikov seemed to be aware of
  something moving in the room。 For some seconds he listened quite
  seriously。 The unknown rang again; waited and suddenly tugged
  violently and impatiently at the handle of the door。 Raskolnikov gazed
  in horror at the hook shaking in its fastening; and in blank terror
  expected every minute that the fastening would be pulled out。 It
  certainly did seem possible; so violently was he shaking it。 He was
  tempted to hold the fastening; but he might be aware of it。 A
  giddiness came over him again。 〃I shall fall down!〃 flashed through
  his mind; but the unknown began to speak and he recovered himself at
  once。
  〃What's up? Are they asleep or murdered? D…damn them!〃 he bawled
  in a thick voice; 〃Hey; Alyona Ivanovna; old witch! Lizaveta Ivanovna;
  hey; my beauty! open the door! Oh; damn them! Are they asleep or
  what?〃
  And again; enraged; he tugged with all his might a dozen times at
  the bell。 He must certainly be a man of authority and an intimate
  acquaintance。
  At this moment light hurried steps were heard not far off; on the
  stairs。 Some one else was approaching。 Raskolnikov had not heard
  them at first。
  〃You don't say there's no one at home;〃 the new…comer cried in a
  cheerful; ringing voice; addressing the first visitor; who still
  went on pulling the bell。 〃Good evening; Koch。〃
  〃From his voice he must be quite young;〃 thought Raskolnikov。
  〃Who the devil can tell? I've almost broken the lock;〃 answered
  Koch。 〃But how do you come to know me?
  〃Why! The day before yesterday I beat you three times running at
  billiards at Gambrinus'。〃
  〃Oh!〃
  〃So they are not at home? That's queer? It's awfully stupid
  though。 Where could the old woman have gone? I've come on business。〃
  〃Yes; and I have business with her; too。〃
  〃Well; what can we do? Go back; I suppose; Aie…aie! And I was hoping
  to get some money!〃 cried the young man。
  〃We must give it up; of course; but what did she fix this time
  for? The old witch fixed the time for me to come herself。 It's out
  of my way。 And where the devil she can have got to; I can't make
  out。 She sits here from year's end to year's end; the old hag; her
  legs are bad and yet here all of a sudden she is out for a walk!〃
  〃Hadn't we better ask the porter?〃
  〃What?〃
  〃Where she's gone and when she'll be back。〃
  〃Hm。。。。 Damn it all!。。。 We might ask。。。。 But you know she never does
  go anywhere。〃
  And he once more tugged at the door…handle。
  〃Damn it all。 There's nothing to be done; we must go!〃
  〃Stay!〃 cried the young man sudd