the　order　of　things；　but　her　stockings；　her　stockings　I　have　sold
  for　drink！　Her　mohair　shawl　I　sold　for　drink；　a　present　to　her　long
  ago；　her　own　property；　not　mine；　and　we　live　in　a　cold　room　and　she
  caught　cold　this　winter　and　has　begun　coughing　and　spitting　blood　too。
  We　have　three　little　children　and　Katerina　Ivanovna　is　at　work　from
  morning　till　night；　she　is　scrubbing　and　cleaning　and　washing　the
  children；　for　she's　been　used　to　cleanliness　from　a　child。　But　her
  chest　is　weak　and　she　has　a　tendency　to　consumption　and　I　feel　it！
  Do　you　suppose　I　don't　feel　it？　And　the　more　I　drink　the　more　I　feel
  it。　That's　why　I　drink　too。　I　try　to　find　sympathy　and　feeling　in
  drink。。。。　I　drink　so　that　I　may　suffer　twice　as　much！〃　And　as　though
  in　despair　he　laid　his　head　down　on　the　table。
  〃Young　man；〃　he　went　on；　raising　his　head　again；　〃in　your　face　I
  seem　to　read　some　trouble　of　mind。　When　you　came　in　I　read　it；　and
  that　was　why　I　addressed　you　at　once。　For　in　unfolding　to　you　the
  story　of　my　life；　I　do　not　wish　to　make　myself　a　laughing…stock　before
  these　idle　listeners；　who　indeed　know　all　about　it　already；　but　I　am
  looking　for　a　man　of　feeling　and　education。　Know　then　that　my　wife　was
  educated　in　a　high…class　school　for　the　daughters　of　noblemen；　and
  on　leaving　she　danced　the　shawl　dance　before　the　governor　and　other
  personages　for　which　she　was　presented　with　a　gold　medal　and　a
  certificate　of　merit。　The　medal。。。　well；　the　medal　of　course　was　sold…
  long　ago；　hm。。。　but　the　certificate　of　merit　is　in　her　trunk　still　and
  not　long　ago　she　showed　it　to　our　landlady。　And　although　she　is　most
  continually　on　bad　terms　with　the　landlady；　yet　she　wanted　to　tell
  some　one　or　other　of　her　past　honours　and　of　the　happy　days　that　are
  gone。　I　don't　condemn　her　for　it；　I　don't　blame　her；　for　the　one　thing
  left　her　is　recollection　of　the　past；　and　all　the　rest　is　dust　and
  ashes。　Yes；　yes；　she　is　a　lady　of　spirit；　proud　and　determined。　She
  scrubs　the　floors　herself　and　has　nothing　but　black　bread　to　eat；
  but　won't　allow　herself　to　be　treated　with　disrespect。　That's　why
  she　would　not　overlook　Mr。　Lebeziatnikov's　rudeness　to　her；　and　so
  when　he　gave　her　a　beating　for　it；　she　took　to　her　bed　more　from　the
  hurt　to　her　feelings　than　from　the　blows。　She　was　a　widow　when　I
  married　her；　with　three　children；　one　smaller　than　the　other。　She
  married　her　first　husband；　an　infantry　officer；　for　love；　and　ran　away
  with　him　from　her　father's　house。　She　was　exceedingly　fond　of　her
  husband；　but　he　gave　way　to　cards；　got　into　trouble　and　with　that　he
  died。　He　used　to　beat　her　at　the　end：　and　although　she　paid　him
  back；　of　which　I　have　authentic　documentary　evidence；　to　this　day
  she　speaks　of　him　with　tears　and　she　throws　him　up　to　me；　and　I　am
  glad；　I　am　glad　that；　though　only　in　imagination；　she　should　think
  of　herself　as　having　once　been　happy。。。。　And　she　was　left　at　his　death
  with　three　children　in　a　wild　and　remote　district　where　I　happened
  to　be　at　the　time；　and　she　was　left　in　such　hopeless　poverty　that；
  although　I　have　seen　many　ups　and　downs　of　all　sort；　I　don't　feel
  equal　to　describing　it　even。　Her　relations　had　all　thrown　her　off。　And
  she　was　proud；　too；　excessively　proud。。。。　And　then；　honoured　sir；
  and　then；　I；　being　at　the　time　a　widower；　with　a　daughter　of
  fourteen　left　me　by　my　first　wife；　offered　her　my　hand；　for　I　could
  not　bear　the　sight　of　such　suffering。　You　can　judge　the　extremity　of
  her　calamities；　that　she；　a　woman　of　education　and　culture　and
  distinguished　family；　should　have　consented　to　be　my　wife。　But　she
  did！　Weeping　and　sobbing　and　wringing　her　hands；　she　married　me！　For
  she　had　nowhere　to　turn！　Do　you　understand；　sir；　do　you　understand
  what　it　means　when　you　have　absolutely　nowhere　to　turn？　No；　that　you
  don't　understand　yet。。。。　And　for　a　whole　year；　I　performed　my　duties
  conscientiously　and　faithfully；　and　did　not　touch　this〃　（he　tapped　the
  jug　with　his　finger）；　〃for　I　have　feelings。　But　even　so；　I　could　not
  please　her；　and　then　I　lost　my　place　too；　and　that　through　no　fault　of
  mine　but　through　changes　in　the　office；　and　then　I　did　touch　it！。。。　It
  will　be　a　year　and　a　half　ago　soon　since　we　found　ourselves　at　last
  after　many　wanderings　and　numerous　calamities　in　this　magnificent
  capital；　adorned　with　innumerable　monuments。　Here　I　obtained　a
  situation。。。。　I　obtained　it　and　I　lost　it　again。　Do　you　understand？
  This　time　it　was　through　my　own　fault　I　lost　it：　for　my　weakness　had
  come　out。。。。　We　have　now　part　of　a　room　at　Amalia　Fyodorovna
  Lippevechsel's；　and　what　we　live　upon　and　what　we　pay　our　rent　with；　I
  could　not　say。　There　are　a　lot　of　people　living　there　besides
  ourselves。　Dirt　and　disorder；　a　perfect　Bedlam。。。　hm。。。　yes。。。　And
  meanwhile　my　daughter　by　my　first　wife　has　grown　up；　and　what　my
  daughter　has　had　to　put　up　with　from　her　step…mother　whilst　she　was
  growing　up；　I　won't　speak　of。　For；　though　Katerina　Ivanovna　is　full　of
  generous　feelings；　she　is　a　spirited　lady；　irritable　and
  short…tempered。。。。　Yes。　But　it's　no　use　going　over　that！　Sonia；　as　you
  may　well　fancy；　has　had　no　education。　I　did　make　an　effort　four
  years　ago　to　give　her　a　course　of　geography　and　universal　history；　but
  as　I　was　not　very　well　up　in　those　subjects　myself　and　we　had　no
  suitable　books；　and　what　books　we　had。。。　hm；　any　way　we　have　not
  even　those　now；　so　all　our　instruction　came　to　an　end。　We　stopped　at
  Cyrus　of　Persia。　Since　she　has　attained　years　of　maturity；　she　has
  read　other　books　of　romantic　tendency　and　of　late　she　had　read　with
  great　interest　a　book　she　got　through　Mr。　Lebeziatnikov；　Lewes'
  Physiology…　do　you　know　it？…　and　even　recounted　extracts　from　it　to
  us：　and　that's　the　whole　of　her　education。　And　now　may　I　venture　to
  address　you；　honoured　sir；　on　my　own　account　with　a　private
  question。　Do　you　suppose　that　a　respectable　poor　girl　can　earn　much　by
  honest　work？　Not　fifteen　farthings　a　day　can　she　earn；　if　she　is
  respectable　and　has　no　special　talent　and　that　without　putting　her
  work　down　for　an　instant！　And　what's　more；　Ivan　Ivanitch　Klopstock　the
  civil　counsellor…　have　you　heard　of　him？…　has　not　to　this　day　paid　her
  for　the　half…dozen　linen　shirts　she　made　him　and　drove　her　roughly
  away；　stamping　and　reviling　her；　on　the　pretext　that　the　shirt　collars
  were　not　made　like　the　pattern　and　were　put　in　askew。　And　there　are
  the　little　ones　hungry。。。。　And　Katerina　Ivanovna　walking　up　and　down
  and　wringing　her　hands；　her　cheeks　flushed　red；　as　they　always　are
  in　that　disease：　'Here　you　live　with　us；'　says　she；　'you　eat　and　drink
  and　are　kept　warm　and　you　do　nothing　to　help。'　And　much　she　gets　to
  eat　and　drink　when　there　is　not　a　crust　for　the　little　ones　for
  three　days！　I　was　lying　at　the　time。。。　well；　what　of　it！　I　was　lying
  drunk　and　I　heard　my　Sonia　speaking　（she　is　a　gentle　creature　with　a
  soft　little　voice。。。　fair　hair　and　such　a　pale；　thin　little　face）。　She
  said：　'Katerina　Ivanovna；　am　I　really　to　do　a　thing　like　that？'　And
  Darya　Frantsovna；　a　woman　of　evil　character　and　very　well　known　to　the
  police；　had　two　or　three　times　tried　to　get　at　her　through　the
  landlady。　'And　why　not？'　said　Katerina　Ivanovna　with　a　jeer；　'you
  are　something　mighty　precious　to　be　so　careful　of！'　But　don't　blame
  her；　don't　blame　her；　honoured　sir；　don't　blame　her！　She　was　not
  herself　when　she　spoke；　but　driven　to　distraction　by　her　illness　and
  the　crying　of　the　hungry　children；　and　it　was　said　more　to　wound　her
  than　anything　else。。。。　For　that's　Katerina　Ivanovna's　character；　and
  when　children　cry；　even　from　hunger；　she　falls　to　beating　them　at
  once。　At　six　o'clock　I　saw　Sonia　get　up；　put　on　her　kerchief　and　her
  cape；　and　go　out　of　the　room　and　about　nine　o'clock　she　came　back。　She
  walked　straight　up　to　Katerina　Ivanovna　and　she　laid　thirty　roubles　on
  the　table　before　her　in　silence。　She　did　not　utter　a　word；　she　did　not
  even　look　at　her；　she　simply　picked　up　our　big　green　drap　de　dames
  shawl　（we　have　a　shawl；　made　of　drap　de　dames）；　put　it　over　her　head
  and　face　and　lay　down　on　the　bed　with　her　face　to　the　wall；　only　her
  little　shoulders　and　her　body　kept