fearing　probably　the　ill　effect　of　my　presence　upon　his　scholars；
  he　advised　me　to　go　home；　which　I　was　glad　to　do；　as　I　felt　myself
  every　day　becoming　less　qualified　for　the　duties　of　the　office
  which　I　had　undertaken。
  'So　I　returned　home　to　my　mother　and　my　brother；　who　received　me
  with　the　greatest　kindness　and　affection。　　I　now　determined　to
  devote　myself　to　husbandry；　and　assist　my　brother　in　the　business
  of　the　farm。　　I　was　still；　however；　very　much　distressed。　　One　fine
  morning；　however；　as　I　was　at　work　in　the　field；　and　the　birds　were
  carolling　around　me；　a　ray　of　hope　began　to　break　upon　my　poor　dark
  soul。　　I　looked　at　the　earth　and　looked　at　the　sky；　and　felt　as　I
  had　not　done　for　many　a　year；　presently　a　delicious　feeling　stole
  over　me。　　I　was　beginning　to　enjoy　existence。　　I　shall　never　forget
  that　hour。　　I　flung　myself　on　the　soil；　and　kissed　it；　then；
  springing　up　with　a　sudden　impulse；　I　rushed　into　the　depths　of　a
  neighbouring　wood；　and；　falling　upon　my　knees；　did　what　I　had　not
  done　for　a　long；　long　time　…　prayed　to　God。
  'A　change；　an　entire　change；　seemed　to　have　come　over　me。　　I　was　no
  longer　gloomy　and　despairing；　but　gay　and　happy。　　My　slumbers　were
  light　and　easy；　not　disturbed；　as　before；　by　frightful　dreams。　　I
  arose　with　the　lark；　and　like　him　uttered　a　cheerful　song　of　praise
  to　God；　frequently　and　earnestly；　and　was　particularly　cautious　not
  to　do　anything　which　I　considered　might　cause　His　displeasure。
  'At　church　I　was　constant；　and　when　there　listened　with　deepest
  attention　to　every　word　which　proceeded　from　the　mouth　of　the
  minister。　　In　a　little　time　it　appeared　to　me　that　I　had　become　a
  good；　very　good；　young　man。　　At　times　the　recollection　of　the　sin
  would　return；　and　I　would　feel　a　momentary　chill；　but　the　thought
  quickly　vanished；　and　I　again　felt　happy　and　secure。
  'One　Sunday　morning；　after　I　had　said　my　prayers；　I　felt
  particularly　joyous。　　I　thought　of　the　innocent　and　virtuous　life　I
  was　leading；　and　when　the　recollection　of　the　sin　intruded　for　a
  moment；　said；　〃I　am　sure　God　will　never　utterly　cast　away　so　good　a
  creature　as　myself。〃　　I　went　to　church；　and　was　as　usual　attentive。
  The　subject　of　the　sermon　was　on　the　duty　of　searching　the
  Scriptures：　　all　I　knew　of　them　was　from　the　liturgy。　　I　now；
  however；　determined　to　read　them；　and　perfect　the　good　work　which　I
  had　begun。　　My　father's　Bible　was　upon　the　shelf；　and　on　that
  evening　I　took　it　with　me　to　my　chamber。　　I　placed　it　on　the　table；
  and　sat　down。　　My　heart　was　filled　with　pleasing　anticipation。　　I
  opened　the　book　at　random；　and　began　to　read；　the　first　passage　on
  which　my　eyes　lighted　was　the　following：…
  '〃He　who　committeth　the　sin　against　the　Holy　Ghost　shall　not　be
  forgiven；　either　in　this　world　or　the　next。〃'
  Here　Peter　was　seized　with　convulsive　tremors。　　Winifred　sobbed
  violently。　　I　got　up；　and　went　away。　　Returning　in　about　a　quarter
  of　an　hour；　I　found　him　more　calm；　he　motioned　me　to　sit　down；　and；
  after　a　short　pause；　continued　his　narration。
  CHAPTER　LXXVI
  Hasty　farewell　…　Lofty　rock　…　Wrestlings　of　Jacob　…　No　rest　…　Ways
  of　Providence　…　Two　females　…　Foot　of　the　Cross　…　Enemy　of　souls　…
  Perplexed　…　Lucky　hour　…　Valetudinarian　…　Methodists　…　Fervent　in
  prayer　…　You　Saxons　…　Weak　creatures　…　Very　agreeable　…　Almost
  happy　…　Kindness　and　solicitude。
  'WHERE　was　I；　young　man？　　Oh；　I　remember；　at　the　fatal　passage
  which　removed　all　hope。　　I　will　not　dwell　on　what　I　felt。　　I　closed
  my　eyes；　and　wished　that　I　might　be　dreaming；　but　it　was　no　dream；
  but　a　terrific　reality：　　I　will　not　dwell　on　that　period；　I　should
  only　shock　you。　　I　could　not　bear　my　feelings；　so；　bidding　my
  friends　a　hasty　farewell；　I　abandoned　myself　to　horror　and　despair；
  and　ran　wild　through　Wales；　climbing　mountains　and　wading　streams。
  'Climbing　mountains　and　wading　streams；　I　ran　wild　about；　I　was
  burnt　by　the　sun；　drenched　by　the　rain；　and　had　frequently　at　night
  no　other　covering　than　the　sky；　or　the　humid　roof　of　some　cave；　but
  nothing　seemed　to　affect　my　constitution；　probably　the　fire　which
  burned　within　me　counteracted　what　I　suffered　from　without。　　During
  the　space　of　three　years　I　scarcely　knew　what　befell　me；　my　life
  was　a　dream　…　a　wild；　horrible　dream；　more　than　once　I　believe　I
  was　in　the　hands　of　robbers；　and　once　in　the　hands　of　gypsies。　　I
  liked　the　last　description　of　people　least　of　all；　I　could　not
  abide　their　yellow　faces；　or　their　ceaseless　clabber。　　Escaping
  from　these　beings；　whose　countenances　and　godless　discourse　brought
  to　my　mind　the　demons　of　the　deep　Unknown；　I　still　ran　wild　through
  Wales；　I　know　not　how　long。　　On　one　occasion；　coming　in　some　degree
  to　my　recollection；　I　felt　myself　quite　unable　to　bear　the　horrors
  of　my　situation；　looking　round　I　found　myself　near　the　sea；
  instantly　the　idea　came　into　my　head　that　I　would　cast　myself　into
  it；　and　thus　anticipate　my　final　doom。　　I　hesitated　a　moment；　but　a
  voice　within　me　seemed　to　tell　me　that　I　could　do　no　better；　the
  sea　was　near；　and　I　could　not　swim；　so　I　determined　to　fling　myself
  into　the　sea。　　As　I　was　running　along　at　great　speed；　in　the
  direction　of　a　lofty　rock；　which　beetled　over　the　waters；　I
  suddenly　felt　myself　seized　by　the　coat。　　I　strove　to　tear　myself
  away；　but　in　vain；　looking　round；　I　perceived　a　venerable　hale　old
  man；　who　had　hold　of　me。　　〃Let　me　go！〃　said　I；　fiercely。　　〃I　will
  not　let　thee　go；〃　said　the　old　man；　and　now；　instead　of　with　one；
  he　grappled　me　with　both　hands。　　〃In　whose　name　dost　thou　detain
  me？〃　said　I；　scarcely　knowing　what　I　said。　　〃In　the　name　of　my
  Master；　who　made　thee　and　yonder　sea；　and　has　said　to　the　sea；　So
  far　shalt　thou　come；　and　no　farther；　and　to　thee；　Thou　shalt　do　no
  murder。〃　　〃Has　not　a　man　a　right　to　do　what　he　pleases　with　his
  own？〃　said　I。　　〃He　has；〃　said　the　old　man；　〃but　thy　life　is　not　thy
  own；　thou　art　accountable　for　it　to　thy　God。　　Nay；　I　will　not　let
  thee　go；〃　he　continued；　as　I　again　struggled；　〃if　thou　struggle
  with　me　the　whole　day　I　will　not　let　thee　go；　as　Charles　Wesley
  says；　in　his　'Wrestlings　of　Jacob'；　and　see；　it　is　of　no　use
  struggling；　for　I　am；　in　the　strength　of　my　Master；　stronger　than
  thou〃；　and　indeed；　all　of　a　sudden　I　had　become　very　weak　and
  exhausted；　whereupon　the　old　man；　beholding　my　situation；　took　me
  by　the　arm　and　led　me　gently　to　a　neighbouring　town；　which　stood
  behind　a　hill；　and　which　I　had　not　before　observed；　presently　he
  opened　the　door　of　a　respectable…looking　house；　which　stood　beside
  a　large　building　having　the　appearance　of　a　chapel；　and　conducted
  me　into　a　small　room；　with　a　great　many　books　in　it。　　Having　caused
  me　to　sit　down；　he　stood　looking　at　me　for　some　time；　occasionally
  heaving　a　sigh。　　I　was；　indeed；　haggard　and　forlorn。　　〃Who　art
  thou？〃　he　said　at　last。　　〃A　miserable　man；〃　I　replied。　　〃What　makes
  thee　miserable？〃　said　the　old　man。　　〃A　hideous　crime；〃　I　replied。
  〃I　can　find　no　rest；　like　Cain　I　wander　here　and　there。〃　　The　old
  man　turned　pale。　　〃Hast　thou　taken　another's　life？〃　said　he；　〃if
  so；　I　advise　thee　to　surrender　thyself　to　the　magistrate；　thou
  canst　do　no　better；　thy　doing　so　will　be　the　best　proof　of　thy
  repentance；　and　though　there　be　no　hope　for　thee　in　this　world
  there　may　be　much　in　the　next。〃　　〃No；〃　said　I；　〃I　have　never　taken
  another's　life。〃　　〃What　then；　another's　goods？　　If　so；　restore　them
  sevenfold；　if　possible：　　or；　if　it　be　not　in　thy　power；　and　thy
  conscience　accuse　thee；　surrender　thyself　to　the　magistrate；　and
  make　the　only　satisfaction　thou　art　able。〃　　〃I　have　taken　no　one's
  goods；〃　said　I。　　〃Of　what　art　thou　guilty；　then？〃　said　he。　　〃Art
  thou　a　drunkard？　a　profligate？〃　　〃Alas；　no；〃　said　I；　〃I　am　neither
  of　these；　would　that　I　were　no　worse。〃
  'Thereupon　the　old　man　looked　steadfastly　at　me　for　some　time；
  then；　after　appearing　to　reflect；　he　said；　〃Young　man；　I　have　a
  great　desire　to　know　your　name。〃　　〃What　matters　it　to　you　what　is
  my　name？〃　said　I；　〃you　know　nothing　of　me。〃　　〃Perhaps　you　are
  mistaken；〃　said　the　old　man；　looking　kindly　at　me；　〃but　at　all
  events　tell　me　your　name。〃　　I　hesitated　a　moment；　and　then　told　him
  who　I　was；　whereupon　he　exclaimed　with　much　emotion；　〃I　thought　so；
  how　wonderful　are　the　ways　of　Providence。　　I　have　heard　of　thee；
  young　man；　and　know　thy　mother　well。　　Only　a　month　ago；　when　upon　a
  journey；　I　experienced　much　kindness　from　her。　　She　was　speaking　to
  me　of　her　lost　child；　with　tears；　she　told　me　that　you　were　one　of
  the　best　of　sons；　but　that　some　strange　idea　appeared　to　have
  occupied　your　mind。　　Despair　not；　my　son。　　If　thou　hast　been
  afflicted；　I　doubt　not　but　that　thy　affliction　will　eventually　turn
  out　to　thy　benefit；　I　doubt　not　but　that　thou　wilt　be　preserved；　as
  an　example　of　the　great　mercy　of　God。　　I　will　now　kneel　do